I'm in Delingha tonight

Nanshan Observation Deck, November, not yet the coldest time.The tourist buses are neatly lined up in the parking lot, the tour guides are holding small flags of various colors, and the tourists are mainly the sunset red tour group.

It's not a year or a festival, it's just an ordinary rest day. After all, there are only a small number of locals here.

"We are drawing sketches here now, and everyone will hand in at least two in a while." Tao Zi gathered more than [-] students together and said, "Let you come out and relax, but you can't relax completely. Practice first and then play. Before Xiaotu mentioned Nanshan Bookstore, we will go there after lunch, and we will be free around there in the afternoon."

The students cheered up and praised "Teacher Tao is beautiful and kind" and "the best teacher Tao Zi in the world".

"But you pay for the drinks yourself." Xia Yaning added darkly.

The students immediately turned off their fans and stepped back: "Ah——"

Lian Shiyu smiled: "Okay, let's get started. We share weal and woe with you, and we won't go anywhere else. It's just around here. If you have any questions, come to the teacher anytime."

Students find seats in groups of two or three according to the habit of class. Most of them wear small horses, and some are unwilling to sit in the public. They just take a photo and find a quiet corner.The atmosphere in the studio is usually harmonious, and small groups are not obvious, and only then gradually appeared.

Chi Nian and Xi Shan found a seat on the side. He didn't play with his phone, and looked around where the students were.Lin Chan was alone, and after spreading out the drawing paper, she was not in a hurry to draw, and began to sharpen the pencil on her own.

There are not many boys this year, and there are a few who didn't come. The trend of grouping is clear at a glance.

He knew that Lin Chan had a good relationship with girls in the studio, but because of gender, girls can always play better with other girls, and at this time, they would paint and chat together, and would not regard him as the first girl in the same group. a choice.There was no one around, and the other boys didn't take the initiative to form a team with him. Lin Chan was alone, feeling even more lonely.

These days, Chi Nian has intentionally distanced himself from Lin Chan. Many times when the other party comes to him to change the painting, he either pushes it to Lian Shiyu, or focuses on the picture and has little other communication.

This decision was very effective at the beginning, Lin Chan was sensitive, and understood that Chi Nian probably didn't want to get too close to him, so he never bought him milk tea alone, nor did he try to please him beyond the bounds.But recently, Chi Nian occasionally feels that Lin Chan is a little uncertain, and his condition is also very bad. I don't know if it has something to do with him.

The color homework handed in two days ago, the boy who always likes to use warm colors has changed to cool ones. The painting is not good, gloomy and heavy, as if eager to express some depression.

At the age of 17, I don't understand anything, and I understand everything.

From a distance, Chi Nian watched Lin Chan sharpen a pencil to get shorter and shorter. After a while, he stopped as if he had just woken up from a dream, took the sketch paper and clipped it on the bottom plate to start composing the picture.

But I haven't started writing for a long time, obviously in a bad mood.

It is a warm winter, although it is still cloudy and the sun cannot be seen, the temperature has risen slightly compared to the previous few days, and the coolness in the wind at the Nanshan Observation Deck has gradually diminished.

Xi Shan was wearing the hoodie they bought together that day, a denim jacket lined with lamb fleece, Chi Nian's hands tended to get cold after winter, and his hands were always tucked under Xi Shan's hoodie.

He lowered his head, trying to shift his attention from Lin Chan to Xi Shan's game situation, but after watching for a while, he found that the shift failed.Chi Nian drew out his hand and breathed in his palm, and stood up: "I'll go and see that student."

"Go." Xi Shan said.

The viewing platform, the silhouette of the high-rise buildings in Yuzhong exposed in the distance, and the positioning of the characters have already been roughly drafted.

"Aren't you going to take a picture?" Chi Nian asked abruptly after approaching.

Lin Chan shook her head with a pen tip: "I have an idea in my head... Teacher, didn't you say to grasp the expression, I feel that it will be distorted after taking pictures for a long time."

Chi Nian laughed: "Teacher Tao said that you will give photos during the art test, how will you take the test then?"

"We'll talk about it later." Lin Chan smiled.

He thought that Chi Nian was about to leave, but Chi Nian didn't move, he just stood there with his face full of hesitation.Lin Chan stopped writing and raised his head to meet Chi Nian's gaze. For a moment, he thought Chi Nian was going to say something to him.

Ever since she met Chi Nian in autumn, Lin Chan had a strange feeling for this new male teacher.Chi Nian speaks softly, loves to laugh, and has strong professional ability. Even when he criticizes someone with a cold face, he will not think highly of himself like others and hold his posture.

Every time he finished talking about his question, Chi Nian sighed, as if he was afraid that he would scare the students too harshly, smiled again, and asked in a soft voice: "Do you understand now?"

Lin Chan thought that this was the moment when he fell in love with Shang Chi Nian.

Sensing the opponent's dodge, Lin Chan probably understood what Chi Nian meant.But at this moment, he found that Chi Nian hadn't left, and looked at him subconsciously, hoping that after a long period of cooling, there would be some other emotions in the other party's eyes, even if it was short, he wanted the tenderness that Chi Nian gave.

Before, Lin Chan thought that Chi Nian was like that to everyone, and never thought of letting go completely.

But he saw Chi Nian's attitude towards that person, the unconscious intimacy, trust and complete dependence.He seemed to have changed, with honey dripping from his eyes.

All of a sudden, Lin Chan was sentenced to be out.

On the balcony of the studio, that person was leaning on Chi Nian's shoulder, and he didn't lift his hand for a long time - Lin Chan saw Chi Nian holding the other's fingers.

At that time, it was raining heavily outside the window. In September, he stood behind the door with cold hands and feet and didn't want to leave for a long time.

Now, Chi Nian brought that person again, and they lived together.

It seems that the truth can be understood without asking.

It seems too regrettable that the hopeless secret love of youth ended like this, but Lin Chan couldn't see other feelings other than caring from Chi Nian's expression at this time, so she couldn't help pursing her lips: "What's wrong?"

"You recently..." Chi Nian thought about his words, "Is there nothing wrong at home?"

Lin Chan said amusedly, "No."

"Is there anything wrong with school?"

"No."

"If you have any unhappy things, you can tell... to the teacher in the studio." Chi Nian didn't say "follow me" after all, for fear of causing the other party's misunderstanding, he added, "It's okay if you don't have anything to talk to other students. To put it bluntly , you will stay until March next year, the time we spend together is very short, focus on yourself."

"Understood." Lin Chan said, and it was interesting to see him clumsily concealing the way he wanted to push her away. The young man was bold, and the emotions that were about to disappear suddenly came to the tip of his tongue.

"Then I'll go over there..."

"Teacher Chi." Lin Chan grabbed Chi Nian's sleeve, and quickly let go, "School and family are fine, but... do emotional troubles count?"

Chi Nian froze, he looked at Xi Shan's position in a panic, but the other party was still concentrating on playing the game.

"What... emotionally?"

"The person I like doesn't seem to like me." Lin Chan didn't listen to him at all, "Teacher Chi, what should I do?"

A 17-year-old favorite, persistent and innocent.

In the cool wind of Nanshan, Chi Nian's back was hot and he instinctively wanted to escape - but he couldn't.

He knows how it feels to like someone at this age.Give everything up, dare to do anything for a while, and be timid as a mouse for fear of making the other party unhappy, a little action can affect the uneasy heart, every word is carefully thought out, worried that the other party will understand the hint, and even more afraid that the other party will not hear anything Understand.

Not only 17 years old, but at any time, young and brave souls will be at a loss when facing "love".

Therefore, we must be cautious when facing it. Chi Nian can't afford the consequences of the next few decades. He is kind by nature, and even if he refuses, he has to think about whether it will leave a psychological shadow on Lin Chan.

Just as she was thinking of words, Lin Chan looked away, as if she understood something, and said softly, "But that person may already have someone he likes."

"Hey?"

"So he doesn't like me, and he should."

"..."

"Because I can't get it now, I am very persistent. Maybe we will lose the novelty when we are together. The heartbeat is very, very short-lived, fleeting, and I will think about it over and over again, and then process it myself in the process. Other looks." Lin Chan buried her head and continued to draw lines, "Sketch like a picture."

Chi Nian didn't expect this metaphor: "Hey, draw, sketch?"

"If you pursue realism too much, it's not considered a 'sketch'. Teacher Tao said that you don't care about the shape, and you also said, 'You must grasp the expression', but in this case, even if there are photos, the final drawing is actually different from what you see. "

Chi Nian frowned: "Unreasonable."

Lin Chan outlined the shape of a tree with a few strokes: "Anyway, that's what I thought. To be honest, Teacher Chi, growing up so big, this is the first time I have a crush on someone else. I don't have that much tolerance, and I still want to send blessings Something... but at least I can be less stingy."

Lin Chan is immature and impulsive, like the abbreviation of every puberty.Chi Nian could understand that he couldn't act emotionally, and still kept a sober mind, so he let Lin Chan not completely pierce the window paper.

"Is it first love?" Chi Nian asked.

"Huh?" Lin Chan blushed, "No, it's just 'secret love'."

"Then, if I were you, I wouldn't necessarily worry about the 'first time' failure." Chi Nian thought about the wording, took out some experience from the depths of his heart, and shared it with him, "The 'first time' doesn't meet the right one. People are too normal. In the future, there will be someone who likes you very much, so just keep a little bit of the mood you like now."

The reason why first love makes people never forget, there is a high probability that there is a baby bird complex.But every liking and action are equal, and you can pay the same enthusiasm every time.

It's like he fell in love with Xishan, even more than when he was 17 years old.

"Whatever, it depends on the person." Lin Chan said.

Seeing him pretending to be old-fashioned, Chi Nian couldn't help joking with Lin Chan: "You are so serious at such a young age, which girl would dare to strike up a conversation with you in the future?"

"You're not a few years older than me, so don't be a life mentor." Lin Chan waved her hand, frowned impatiently, and never looked up at Chi Nian from the beginning to the end, "I'm too lazy to tell you."

Chi Nian let out an "oh", feeling as if he had been rejected, but the stone hanging in his heart finally fell to the ground.

When I went, I was full of anxiety, but when I came back, I felt relaxed.Chi Nian hummed a song, sat back in his previous position, and by the way put his hand under Xi Shan's sweater hat, holding the warmth of his palm.

"It's been a long time." Xi Shan said, he had just finished a round on the screen.

"No idea." Chi Nian just solved the hidden time bomb, feeling extremely good, and stretched his neck to look at Xi Shan's mobile phone, "Why is it over, how many heads?"

Xi Shan turned off the phone screen and turned his head.

His face was expressionless, the previous softness was gone from the deep eye sockets, as if a pool of deep water was calm and people were sinking into it, only feeling cold—Xi Shan hadn't shown such an expression for a long time.

Chi Nian's playful smile immediately froze on his face: "...So, it's not convenient to ask, is it?"

"That student." Xi Shan stared at him seriously, "He kept talking when you were chatting just now."

"Ah...he hasn't been in a good mood recently, I'll ask what's going on." Chi Nian inexplicably began to feel guilty, and ignored what was wrong with Xi Shan.

"He likes you, doesn't he?"