Cannon fodder's self-cultivation

Are there really gods in this world?If gods really exist, are they cruel or merciful?If the gods are cruel, then why did he let me meet Xiao Di again?If the gods are merciful, then why did he make me lose Xiao Di, twice.

When encountering a car accident, his heart is calm. Whether the car accident is a natural disaster or a disaster, an ordinary traffic accident, or a premeditated murder by a business partner, he doesn't care about these. He is in this world without him. Living in the world is so tiring, now, are you finally going to say goodbye to this world...

It's just that I didn't expect to be able to open my eyes. Just as I opened my eyes, I saw a beautiful mermaid looking at me anxiously, "Ayi, are you okay!"

I am not dead?He stared blankly at the magical creature in front of him. The upper body was a human, and the lower body was a fish. It turned out to be a real mermaid.

Then he was surprised to find that he had also turned into a mermaid with a beautiful fish tail.what happened?I... crossed?And put it on a mermaid?

Seeing that he didn't respond, the mermaid in front of him began to explain everything about this body. He said that his name was Xiao Di and he was the elder brother of this body.

Xiao Di...

Hearing this name, he was shocked, staring hard at the face of the mermaid in front of him, trying to find the commonality between him and that person, but he failed as expected, there was no similarity between them, just Even the species are completely different.

are you himIf you are him, then why don't you recognize me, if you are not, then why do you call me by this name?

The name of this body is Xiao Yi, it is so similar to his name, even the appearance is very similar, maybe this is the reason why he will travel into this body.

This Xiao Di is the elder brother of this body, different from that person's stubborn nature, he is a very gentle and trustworthy good elder brother, he always thinks of this younger brother, and takes care of his false younger brother meticulously.

But the gentler this Xiao Di is, the more disappointed he is, the more considerate he is, the more he proves that the mermaid in front of him has nothing to do with the person in his heart, he is just a mermaid with the same name as the love in his heart.

Just when he was so disappointed that he almost gave up, Lian Ling, the older sister in this body, expressed her love for the mermaid named Xiao Di.

At that time, he was hiding behind a rock, watching the beautiful mermaid hug him, watching her kiss the slightly pulsating gills on the side of his neck.

The cyan mermaid was stunned for a moment and troubled for a moment, and the familiar expression made his heart beat faster, he...how could he be so similar to that person?

Even if the appearance changes, even if the personality is deliberately hidden, a person's unconscious demeanor and small movements cannot be changed. Some details may not even be discovered by him himself, but he, who has been watching him silently for so many years, can still recognize it.

He is Xiao Di.

That's right, I should have thought of it earlier, since he can travel through this body, then Xiao Di must also be able to.

It's just that he came so many years earlier than him, and this time, he is his elder brother.

Staring closely at the blue mermaid, he was so happy, the ecstasy of finding it almost made his heart jump out of his chest.

Gods, they really exist, they really are benevolent!

At that time, he could only watch him fall into the cliff with his car, and watch the car explode and leave his bones gone, but now, the heavens have mercy on him and let him appear in front of him alive again, even if he doesn't recognize him , even if he forgets him, so what!He swears, this time, he will hold his hand tightly, he will protect him, and never let him get hurt again!He swore he would never let him leave him again!

He deliberately pretended that he was still his innocent brother, deliberately pretended that he would be afraid, and ran to his room to sleep with him in the middle of the night. When laying on the bed, she unconsciously wrapped her strong arms around him, protecting him in her arms.

Looking at this man's sleeping face, he always had a strange feeling, Xiao Di, whether it was the ignorant and stubbornness he showed when he was with him at that time, or the thoughtfulness, gentleness and generosity shown now, no matter which one , It always makes him feel that these are not the real him.He seemed to be trying his best to play something. At that time, he was playing the rich second-generation younger brother who always provoked him and hated him. Now he is playing a good brother who cares about him meticulously.

If neither of these two is the real you, then what is the real you like?What kind of way will the real you treat me?

No matter who you are, no matter what kind of person you really are, I love you the same, I love you to death, I love you so much that I want to integrate you into my flesh and blood and never separate.

Sometimes he always thinks, maybe the gods are really cruel, the gods in the sky always look down on the world with compassion, but they always do some cruel things to play with the mortal beings on the earth.

Let him get it, then let him lose it.

The cyan mermaid started to flee after seeing his legs, the way he looked at him made him feel strange, it was looking at a monster, looking at a different kind of eyes, he was afraid, he was afraid of him.

How could it be like this, he shouldn't be afraid of him, shouldn't run away, he should be able to recognize him, he should recognize him as Xiao Yi!

Stopping the figure who was trying to escape, he couldn't restrain the emotion in his heart, he shouted at him: "You really don't know me! I'm Xiao Yi!"

I'm Xiao Yi!It's that Xiao Yi!Xiao Yi who bullied you, imprisoned you, and forced you to death in the end!Don't you even remember?Have you forgotten!I used to love you so desperately, but now you don't know me anymore.

But his last voice was drowned out by a thunder. He didn't know if he heard him clearly, remembered him, and recognized him. Before he had time to confirm these, he was thrown up by the huge waves at a loss. God, before he could react when he fell into the water, he was caught by the overwhelming fishing nets that surrounded him from all sides.

It was the fishing boat just now, damn human!

Struggling violently in the fishing net, tearing the net with sharp nails and trying to escape, but it was useless, the fishing net became tighter and tighter, and the humans on the boat stabbed him with a harpoon to try to make him settle down, but he was caught off guard. When he was stabbed, he couldn't help screaming, and he regretted it just after screaming, because he saw the cyan mermaid swimming over looking for the sound.

That idiot!Don't run away, what are you doing here!

He told him to run away, but he didn't listen to him at all, and stubbornly swam to him against the dense bullets, as if he didn't feel the slightest pain, as if the bullets pierced into his body didn't exist, he In that state, he was still comforting him gently, and he said to him, A Yi, don't be afraid, I'll save you.

Go away!Who wants you to save!You can't save me at all!I'm not a Yi at all, I'm not your brother at all!

Don't save me, it's useless to save me, your brother is dead long ago, I'm not your brother, so run away and leave me alone...

But he didn't expect him to be so stubborn, so stubborn that he couldn't drive him away, so stubborn that he couldn't push him away, until his body was pierced by a huge crossbow/arrow, he was still smiling at him, " Ayi, come out!"

No!Can't!Xiao Di, how can you!

He was slapped hard by the mermaid into the deep sea, away from the scarlet waters, but the stupid mermaid himself was dragged out of the sea with iron chains.

He, once again watched him leave him, powerless.

Xiao Di, how could you...

He already knew that Xiao Di was a cruel person, but he never thought that he could do that, being cruel to himself and even more cruel to others.

Coming out of the sea again, bare/naked feet stepped on the fine sand, the sea breeze pushed the waves to caress the beach, flocks of seabirds flew freely in the air, everything was so harmonious and beautiful.

But it was this harmonious and beautiful world that made him lose him time and time again, and hurt his true love deeply time and time again.

Clenching his fists tightly, he vowed that this time, he would not let him push him away again, and he would not let him leave him again. He must rescue him and protect him in the hands of this cruel and ruthless world.

At that disgusting exhibition, the moment he saw him, he felt that his world had collapsed. The person he had been chasing for so long, his true love, the treasure he wished to hold in his hands, wished to offer with flesh and blood, Treated as a plaything, as an exhibit, as an exquisite money-making tool, tortured to the brink of death, tortured as if even his soul died.

The cyan mermaid was covered with wounds, and the chaotic and empty black eyes stabbed his heart one after another. He was so distressed that he almost suffocated, and he wanted to kill himself and all the people here!

The person locked there, tortured to the point of losing his soul, should have been him!

Xiao Di, he was supposed to be an elf who used the sea breeze as his blade, the waves as his clothes, and took the sea as his mother, roaming freely and happily in the sea, but now he was locked in that narrow fish tank instead of him, and was Wanton play for fun.

Sneaking into the heavily guarded backstage of the exhibition in the middle of the night, even if there are many obstacles, even if there are murderous threats everywhere, even if he will die under those human guns this time, even if this is the case, then he will rescue him and take him go home.

Finally arrived at the storage room where Xiao Di was locked. He was already covered in blood and his eyes were bloodshot. He looked like a blood-sucking **** of hell, but when he stood in front of the half-opened door, overflowing from the door The bloody smell frightened him.

This taste...impossible!

Pushing open the door in disbelief, his hands were trembling uncontrollably, and when he saw the bloody water in the vat, he felt that his thinking had stopped.

I'm late?

no no!impossible!His Xiao Di, his true love, it is impossible for him to die, how could he die!

Just now, he was still swearing in his heart that after he rescued him this time, he would protect him with all his heart so that he would not suffer any harm for the rest of his life, but now, the person he swore to protect was curled up in his arms, stabbed by a sharp knife Through his thin chest.

Xiao Di!Don't you die!It's me!I'm Xiao Yi, I'm here to save you!Open your eyes and look at me, I'm here to save you...

He saw the mermaid in his arms opening his eyes with difficulty, and smiled at him with the corners of his mouth pulled when he saw him—he was reassuring him, and he was reassuring him not to be sad.

No!No!Don't laugh, don't laugh at me like that, I'll find someone to save you, I'll find someone to save you right away, you...don't laugh anymore...

He saw his mouth open and close, he was talking to him, but he couldn't hear anything!What's going on, what are you talking about?I can't hear you!What do you want to say to me, please speak louder, I can't hear you, I really can't hear you!

He watched him close his eyes gradually in his arms, but he didn't even hear his last words, Xiao Di, get up, can you say it again, please, I beg you, say it again so that I can hear clearly Okay, I beg you, don't die, don't die, don't die...

Tears fell on the ground and turned into round pearls, shining sadly under the silver moonlight.

The cold moonlight shines on the serene face of the man in his arms. He is curled up in his arms, so quiet and soft, as if he is just asleep. Just call him lightly, and he will open his eyes and smile at him , called him "Ayi."

It's just that he can never open his eyes again, and there is no way to smile softly at him again.

This cruel world can't hurt him anymore.

He swore again and again, told himself to hold his hand tightly, protect him, love him, and let him not suffer any harm.

But he watched him bruised and bruised time and time again, watched him leave him time and time again, and watched him die time and time again.

Powerless.

He bowed his head and kissed his cold lips. He suffered all kinds of suffering and humiliation during his lifetime, and now he is finally free.

Xiao Di, you are the spirit of the sea, the spirit of freedom and unfettered nature, I will bring you back, bring you back to the sea, and bring you back to your hometown in this world.

Xiao Di, don't be afraid, I will take you home.

Xiao Di, I... love you...