Spirit Planter of Star Attack

"...This is my first time on the battlefield. At that time, I was not yet an adult, so I should not have been sent out, but the queen's power prevailed, and my mother's family had to give in. At this time For me, the army is safer than the imperial capital."

Xiao Bai told Bei Yan about his past in a low voice.And Bei Yan's eyes were fixed on the rows of crystal cabinets in this room, unable to move away for a long time.

——I didn’t expect that there would be such a room in Xiao Bai’s private space.A room containing the names of those who died in every battle in which he fought, and the relics of some of the victims.

The cabinets were neatly arranged row by row, and the transparent cabinet body shone brightly under the reflection of the crystal laser lights, making it look extremely clean.Inside the cabinets in the first row were stacks of pure black booklets, and the cabinets behind were filled with buttons, pens, optical brain chips, photos... and countless other small and neatly arranged things.

In the pure white and slightly cold light of the chandelier at the top, these crystal cabinets are like exquisite tombstones standing silently one after another, silent and transparent, speechless and quiet, pale and cold.Standing between them, an atmosphere of unreasonable sadness and solemnity slowly enveloped.

"This one belongs to a sergeant who sacrificed himself to cover me at that time." Xiao Bai led Bei Yan to stand in front of those tall and crystal-clear cabinets, stretched out his fingers through the transparent walls of the cabinets and clicked a button inside, "I was inexperienced at the time, and I didn't measure the duration of the mech's energy well. In the end, when the energy was exhausted, I was besieged by two wild beasts. First, I wrote that I was dragged out of the mecha... He drove the mecha in front of me and stood in front of me. Stop those two desolate beasts..."

"...When the battlefield was cleaned later, only half of his body was left..."

"This piece is worn by a support staff. At that time, we were reorganizing and preparing for our return trip after a game with the starry sky beasts, but we were attacked by another wave of wild beasts that we hadn't found before... He actually had a chance to escape. But due to the input of the alarm to the command center, there was no time..."

"This pen..."

"This pendant..."

"This chip..."

"Enough! Enough, Xiao Bai." Bei Yan listened to his voice that had never changed, so calm that there was almost no ups and downs, and finally couldn't help it. He grabbed the back of Xiao Bai's clothes, forcefully Pulling him abruptly around, forcing him to face himself.

Following his strength, Xiao Bai had no choice but to turn around, but turned his head away, not looking at Bei Yan.

Bei Yan took a rare and forceful step forward, stretched out his hands to hold Xiao Bai's face, and then turned the other's head to him with a little force.

Then he looked at a pair of eyes that were already red.

"...Xiao Bai..." Bei Yan felt distressed the moment he saw the pain that could not be concealed in those eyes. This man who always gave people a sense of strategizing seemed extremely fragile and real at this moment. Only then did it come to mind that he was only very young, even if his meritorious deeds were hung all over the wall, he was still just a young man.

Bei Yan hugged Xiao Bai tightly with both hands, almost embracing his lover with a strangling strength: "You can cry."

Don't speak in such a tone as if you are too sad to express your emotions.

No need to hide the bloodshot eyes in your eyes.

You can cry without looking away from the silent relics of those martyrs.

However, Xiao Bai was silent for a moment, then shook his head, his eyes were red but dry: "Thank you, Xiao Yan, but - when facing them, the best state is definitely not tears."

The man stretched out his hand and hugged Bei Yan back tenderly: "It's hard, but I'm used to it. I would cry at the beginning, but then I won't."

I will keep their names in my heart and fight with the will of those people.

Tears are so unnecessary in front of these relics that silently watch you.

"I've thought about it. One day I will die, maybe I will die of old age in peace, or be buried in the battlefield like them." Xiao Bai actually smiled slowly, "Did you see that photo?"

"You mean that?" Bei Yan withdrew from his embrace, looked up at a small photo above, and on it was a childish face with two dimples when he smiled—that was Xiao Bai, Xiao Bai ten years ago. "It feels lovely."

"Well, I took it before I went to the battlefield for the first time." Xiao Bai unlocked the lock with his optical brain, and then let the small mechanical arm in the crystal cabinet hand the photo to Bei Yan, "It's about the same as you are now." Big. All I thought was that one day my name could be engraved on a scarlet cross and be admired."

Bei Yan turned his head almost in shock: "You..."

The scarlet cross stands on the square in front of the Imperial Parliament. It has been more than a thousand years, but there are less than a thousand names on it.Behind each name is a heavy history and military achievements, and at the same time, the owner of each name is buried in the boundless sea of ​​stars.

—Wanting to be engraved on the Scarlet Cross is tantamount to wanting to be shrouded in horseskin.

Glorious, but it also means sacrifice.

Bei Yan couldn't imagine how a boy under 19 could have such a dream - not only to become a great warrior, but also to die on the battlefield!Shouldn't we hope for peace after a glorious triumph?What's more, he is still the crown prince.

Seeing Bei Yan's shock, Xiao Bai smiled: "At that time, no matter whether it was the empress or the mistress of the emperor, they kept stumbling me and even assassinating me, and the power of the family that originally supported my mother was gradually increasing. Shrinking... I almost pessimistically decided that I would not be able to die in peace, and that it would be better to die in battle than to die silently due to power strife, which is somehow meaningful."

I recommend Xuanyuan with my blood.

At that time, he didn't have the steadiness and overall perspective that he had later, and he didn't think about what would happen to the power of his mother clan and the populace as allies if he really died in the starry sky. All he had was a passion.

Turning your back to the country is to keep danger out of your chest.

Bei Yan was speechless, all he saw in the eyes of his new lover was firmness, as if this man didn't shed tears even though his eyes were red.It's not painless, it's just that the death of a comrade-in-arms is kept in my heart and becomes the motivation to protect the country.

That's why there was an imperial marshal who was young but had outstanding military exploits.

That's why there is what is known as the "God of War".

People fanatically pursued him, praised him, and trusted him. Bei Yan saw the recorded scene when Xiao Bai led the team back to the Emperor Star. Tens of thousands of people cheered and shouted Xiao Bai's name like a flood. Wave after wave, they even praised him with the most enthusiastic language without hesitation, shouting-our pride!Our patron saint!

The flowers are tightly clustered, and the crowds are shouting.

What people don't see is that this man who has been wearing a suit with a gentle and firm smile has built such a room in his own home.

The so-called peace in this world is precisely what he and his comrades who have forgotten life and death did not create together.Most people only see the projections of wild beasts in the starry sky in their optical brains. No matter how good and real the technology is, they still cannot understand what it feels like to sail in the universe for several months, facing the boundless loneliness and the danger that may strike at any time.

Those who can leave the relics are lucky, and more people are swallowed by the ruthless starry sky, becoming silent dust in the vast beauty.

"Xiao Bai, I will accompany you."

Bei Yan stretched out his hand to grab Xiao Bai's hand, carefully separated the opponent's fingers one by one, and then inserted his own fingers one by one between the fingers.This gesture, which would normally be considered too nasty or too girly, is the one that best expresses his mood at this moment.

Little by little, interlock your hands with his fingers, and then close them.

"Don't have such pessimistic thoughts, I'm by your side." Bei Yan clenched the hand that was bigger than his own, raised his head and smiled at the man who silently watched his actions, "That time is over. Now you have me by your side, so go out with confidence, but remember to come back well."

Remember to come back well.

Xiao Bai silently clenched his back molars, didn't speak, but tightly grasped Bei Yan's hand holding him, then turned around suddenly, and kissed lightly but solemnly on the top of the boy's head.

Bei Yan must not know how many years he waited for this sentence.At a time when he was disgustedly excluded from the center of power by his father, chased and killed by his father's wife and mistress, and stumbled by his mother's former political enemies when he was still a child, he chose to board the spaceship without hesitation.

On the day of his departure, only the housekeeper saw him off, and Mi Nana and others were unable to watch him embark on the journey because of the emperor's interference.

The father in his heart died the moment he left Earthstar.

Before that, he had been naively holding on to a little bit of hope—for example, it was all self-assessed by the queen, and his father couldn't control it, but he still loved him.But it wasn't until he went alone on a journey that might lead to death, and didn't get a single word from the man, even a word of concern such as "Be careful, wait for you to come back", that the last hope in his heart completely collapsed.

He left alone, and then washed away his immaturity and innocence in that battle, witnessed the disappearance of his comrades' lives and the brutality of wild beasts, and finally returned in blood.

Time and time again, at first it was because he was weak, but later he got used to it. He always prepared things by himself, and set out on the journey alone with a calm expression, without saying goodbye.At most, it is a salute from comrades-in-arms.

But now, someone told him, I am by your side, so after going out, you have to come back properly.

When a certain blank area in his heart that he thought he didn't care about was filled in at this moment, he realized belatedly that he also wanted it.Wanted someone who could wait for his return, wanted someone who would hold his hand after seeing his fragility and less-than-perfect side.

——Every man has a child in his heart, who always pretends not to exist in front of others. Only when he is really willing to come out from behind the mature appearance of this man, poking his head into acting like a baby or even crying, does it mean that he has returned to the Think absolutely safe and warm place.

Xiao Bo always thought that he did not have such a place.

But now, he felt he had found it.