self-awareness

Two years later.

In a high-end private nursing home in southern Switzerland, a black-haired and black-eyed Chinese man is in the rehabilitation room, practicing his steps while holding on to the poles with his hands, and his temples are already wet with sweat.

"Master." A tall man who looked like an assistant said at the door, "Your conference call has been advanced to 15 minutes later."

The black-haired man took the last few steps. With the help of the rehabilitation therapist, he returned to the wheelchair. He breathed a sigh of relief, loosened the muscles in his arms, and said, "Let's go, go back and get ready."

The assistant-like person took the wheelchair and pushed the person into a suite.The man simply wiped the sweat off his body, then took over the documents in the assistant's hand and looked through them with a focused expression.

On his desk, in several exquisite photo frames, there are photos of the same man - that is also a Chinese man, with a tall and straight figure and a gentle smile.

Half an hour later, the transnational conference call ended. The man stretched his sore shoulders, picked up the photo frame closest to him on the table, and looked at it for a while with a smile in his eyes.

"Master?" The assistant called several times before the man heard it.

"There are still two hours before the dinner, you can take a break." The assistant said.

"Go run the water, I want to take a shower."

In the bathroom, surrounded by steam, Li Mingchuan lay comfortably on his back in the bathtub, imagining the image of a man in his mind, his handsome face was stained with a thin layer of blush.

In the huge bathtub, his two legs were half-floating in the water. Compared with his strong upper body torso, he was slightly thinner, which was a symptom of muscle atrophy.

Li Mingchuan closed his eyes, recalling in his mind the time when he and Ye Tang fought several rounds in the bathroom.Ye Tang was bullied so hard by him that the corners of his eyes were wet, and he wanted to tease him. The man lightly pecked his chest and waist, and finally buried his head between his legs, raised his eyes That glance at him was seductive and thrilling...

Li Mingchuan let out a long sigh, fantasizing about Ye Tang, and let it out by himself.

After cleaning up, the assistant helped Li Mingchuan get dressed, and pushed him to the window. The spring outside the window was beautiful, and it was the time of year for everything to grow.

Li Mingchuan asked, "Are there any new newspaper clippings of him?"

The assistant understood, and quickly uploaded a folder, "This is from the last two months."

Li Mingchuan looked through it carefully.

He and Ye Tang hadn't seen each other for two years. A year ago, Ye Tang had completed his advanced studies at an internationally renowned art academy and had made a full comeback. Now it seems that Ye Tang's popularity has only increased compared to before, and his net worth has skyrocketed.

Two years ago, Li Mingchuan fought against Li Yang and his wife, which ended with the termination of the marriage contract between Tang and Li. Li Yang no longer restricted Li Mingchuan's freedom of movement, and no longer forced him to accept homosexual correction treatment. The struggle finally came to an end.

At the same time, Cheng Xing officially announced the news of Li Mingchuan's retirement, declaring that Li Mingchuan had begun to take over the property under the Li family.Only few people know that Li Mingchuan has long established his own family and never returned to Li's house.Since then, Li Mingchuan seldom appeared under the spotlight, and his whereabouts became a mystery for a while.

Li Mingchuan did not try to contact Ye Tang, nor did he send anyone to follow up and secretly take pictures of Ye Tang. All the information about Ye Tang in his hands had been publicly reported by the media. This was because he did not want to disturb Ye Tang, but wanted to The only way to learn about Ye Tang's news.

His assistant is in charge of helping him collect everything about Ye Tang from all the media in the recent period, and then organize, print, and bind it into a book for him to read.

And he was facing that booklet, like facing some precious literature collection, reading it over and over again, and couldn't put it down.People who didn't know him saw him, and thought he was Ye Tang's diehard fan, chasing after stars forever and ever.

Li Mingchuan's eyes stayed on the latest report, saying that Ye Tang was invited by the manufacturer because of an endorsement to appear at the Berlin Film Festival in Germany, and that day was just yesterday.Li Mingchuan's fingers rubbed the face of the man in the photo for a while, it turned out that this time, they were so close.

Early the next morning, Li Mingchuan was pushed by his assistant to bask in the sun on the lawn of the hospital.

In the past two years, because of the need for rehabilitation, Li Mingchuan has stayed in this sanatorium for a period of time every few months. He is one of the shareholders of this sanatorium, so it is quite convenient to live in.

After attending the shareholders' dinner last night, and the trip here is over, he will fly to Austria at noon today to attend another meeting.The assistant left for a while to deal with business, and Li Mingchuan was happy to be alone, leaning on the wheelchair and looking at the blue sky and counting the clouds.

Over the years, his state of mind has calmed down a lot. Regarding his physical condition, he went from being angry and not accepting it at the beginning to gradually adapting and accepting it. I am afraid that only he knows the bitterness and blood and tears during the process.A person with extremely poor temper and patience can sit in a wheelchair like this for an hour or two calmly, even if it is just counting clouds.

After experiencing this disaster, Li Mingchuan felt that he gradually learned to let go, learned to be calm, and benefited a lot physically and mentally. From this perspective, it can be said that it was not a blessing in disguise.

Li Mingchuan was very familiar with the grassland in the nursing home. This familiarity allowed him to relax physically and mentally. The morning sun was warm and comfortable, and it was very comfortable to bask in.He raised his head and closed his eyes for a while, feeling that every cell in his body had come to life. He lowered his head, and the vision in front of him was still covered with colorful white spots because of the sunlight just now.

From a distance, Li Mingchuan seemed to see someone coming out from the corner of a building in the nursing home. The figure was so familiar that at such a long distance, there was only a vague shadow, and his whole body suddenly tensed up. When he got up, the comfortable look just now was completely gone.

It was Ye Tang.

Li Mingchuan was stunned for a moment, the bright spot in front of his eyes receded, and Ye Tang's figure became more and more clear. He was walking side by side with the people beside him, and the two of them were talking and walking towards the lawn.

Li Mingchuan never expected that he would meet Ye Tang here.

Ye Tang didn't look in his direction at the moment, Li Mingchuan's heart beat wildly, and his subordinates had already started turning the wheelchair, moving towards the nearest big tree that could only be hugged by two people.

The wheelchair was walking on the grass, a little sluggish, but he still hid himself behind the tree trunk in time, just blocking Ye Tang's sight.

Perhaps it was because the action just now was too hasty, Li Mingchuan's chest heaved violently. After hiding, he felt that his reaction just now was very ridiculous.There was a little boy squatting on the ground behind the tree, playing with ants under the shade of the tree. Seeing Li Mingchuan's panicked movements, he gave him puzzled eyes.

Li Mingchuan smiled wryly, and made a "shh" motion with his fingers around his mouth, then he perked up his ears to pay attention to the movement nearby, with a series of question marks in his mind: Why did Ye Tang appear here?Does he know he's here too?Or just a coincidence?

Li Mingchuan quickly adjusted his thoughts. Before he hid behind the tree, he saw clearly the person walking with Ye Tang. It was none other than Feng Younian.Seeing the way the two walked and talked and laughed, they didn't seem to be looking for someone, but rather they were walking, so it should be a coincidence, maybe they have some acquaintances and friends here who came to visit.

Li Mingchuan's whereabouts have always been kept secret from the outside world, especially to Ye Tang, he has repeatedly ensured that no news about himself will reach Ye Tang, so in fact, not many people in China know about his disabled legs.It's nothing else, it's actually a little bit of his selfishness - he hopes Ye Tang remembers him, at least not a cripple.In front of his lover, he still wants to save face.

But thinking about it carefully, two years have passed, and Ye Tang and Feng Younian should have reached a certain level of progress. Ye Tang will not want to see him again for no reason, let alone come to him for no reason. And the anxiety that aroused was also calmed down.

He glanced left and right, but still didn't see his assistant, so he could only resist the desire to see that person face to face, and hid behind a tree and waited quietly with the little boy playing with ants, only waiting for Ye Tang After leaving with Feng Younian, he went out again.

After a while, Li Mingchuan couldn't hear any more movement, and felt that Ye Tang and Feng Younian should have gone far away, so he asked the little Swiss boy to poke his head out to help him see if there were no black-haired men in the yard. .The little boy nodded vigorously. Li Mingchuan groped in his pocket, took out two pieces of chocolate and handed them to the little boy as a thank you.The little boy was very satisfied with the deal, and happily showed his small white teeth.

Only then did Li Mingchuan shake the wheelchair with confidence, wanting to go back the same way, but this time the wheel on one side of the wheelchair hit a rock and suddenly became unstable.

Then, with the little boy's exclamation, he fell down on the hand with the wheelchair!

"Master!" The assistant appeared just in time, saw Li Mingchuan fall from a distance, and ran towards him quickly.

There were also staff members and patients who were walking nearby, wanting to help. Li Mingchuan didn't expect his fall to become the focus of everyone.

He was lowering his head and propping up his upper body from the ground when he heard a familiar voice from the crowd: "Ming Chuan?"

Li Mingchuan's heart sank, and he looked towards the voice. It was really Ye Tang and Feng Younian standing there, and the expressions of both of them were incredulous.

"Li Mingchuan!? Is it really you?" Feng Younian said in disbelief.