self-awareness

After lunch, Mother Li really took out a photo and showed it to Ye Tang.

Li's mother said: "Although this girl looks a little more simple, she has a well-behaved scholarly family. Although she is not as beautiful as the stars in your entertainment circle, such a daughter is virtuous when married, and she knows how to love others."

Over the years, Ye Tang has met many people who introduced him to someone, and he has long been able to handle such occasions with ease. He looked at the photo, she was a fair-skinned, pretty girl, without heavy makeup, and looked very comfortable.

Ye Tang didn't think any star in the entertainment circle was particularly beautiful, maybe because she was used to seeing Li Mingchuan's perfect appearance, the actresses paled in comparison.

Li Mingchuan was also sitting in the hall, drinking water non-stop, his eyes didn't know where to look.

Mother Li: "This girl is very smart. She just finished her master's degree at Fudan University. Your children's IQ will not be far behind."

Ye Tang smiled and said, "Auntie, I haven't thought about it yet."

He has no plans to come out with the Li family, so he can only avoid it in such a subtle way.

Li's mother was a little disappointed, "Didn't you like it?"

Ye Tang hurriedly waved her hands, "She's fine, it's my problem."

I am a comrade who likes men. If I really marry someone back home, it will completely destroy the girl.

Mother Li sighed, "You child, don't be so harsh on yourself all the time, and make auntie worry to death."

Ye Tang felt a little guilty, but there was no better way.

Li Mingchuan interjected at this time: "Okay, Mom, why are you so anxious to follow along?"

Mother Li turned to Li Mingchuan again: "Mingchuan, I have an appointment with your Auntie Teng. We will have lunch together next Tuesday. She will bring her daughter over there, so you can spare some time."

Li Mingchuan: "I won't go."

"Chuan Chuan, don't make mom worry all the time, okay?"

Li Mingchuan saw that his mother had even called out her nickname, and knew that the momentum was not good, so he quickly got up and said, "I'm going back to my room!"

Ye Tang originally planned to leave after lunch, but who knew that there was a snowstorm outside, and the visibility was extremely low, and he was about to lose sight of his fingers. It was very dangerous to drive out at this time.

Under the strong request of Li Yang and his wife, Ye Tang had to live in the Li family mansion.I don't know if Li Mingchuan canceled his work because of the snowstorm and stayed at home that night.

After dinner, Li Mingchuan went back to his room. Ye Tang helped the servant clear the table, chatted with Li Yang and his wife for a while, and then went back to the room to rest.

When he was young, he lived in the room next to the stairs on the first floor, but now it has become a storage room. The guest room where he sleeps now is only separated from Li Mingchuan's room by a wall.

In the middle of the night, Ye Tang couldn't sleep well, so he got up and went downstairs softly, wanting to go to the kitchen to drink some water.Unexpectedly, when he turned the corner of the stairs, he realized that Li Mingchuan was sitting in front of the bar in the kitchen with an empty glass in front of him.

Ye Tang backed away, thinking that he would come back later, but when he was about to turn around and go upstairs, Li Mingchuan stopped him: "Can't sleep?"

Ye Tang looked at the pitch-black surroundings, and felt quite surprised. When he returned to Li's house, he and Li Mingchuan had always maintained a tacit understanding and did not break the relationship between them. It was like this before, and it is still like this now, at least On the surface, he still had to live with it. He understood Li Mingchuan's scruples and was willing to cooperate.

He turned back again and replied, "I'm a little thirsty."

"The water is there, take it yourself." Li Mingchuan said.

Ye Tang walked softly to the water dispenser, quickly found the cup to fill up the water, then turned and went back to the room.

Before leaving the kitchen, Ye Tang hesitated, and finally looked at Li Mingchuan and said, "I didn't know you would be home today, sorry to bother you."

He appeared in Li's house so rashly, he always felt that he owed Li Mingchuan an explanation.Li Mingchuan made his wishes very clear before, the other party didn't want to have any more contact with him in private, and he really didn't think about annoying others anymore. This time coming to the Li family was purely coincidental, and it really wasn't planned to come The one who ambushed Li Mingchuan.

Li Mingchuan took a sip of water and said nothing, as if he didn't care about his appearance at all, let alone the reason for his appearance.

After thinking about it, Ye Tang could understand that he was really not so important that Li Mingchuan would care about his existence.Compared with the resentment when they said they didn’t want to see themselves again, this state of strangers and indifference is probably their real ending. There is no strong emotion anymore. , has been completely unable to cause any waves, and I am afraid that even the disgust is gone.

Maybe this is the right way of getting along between him and Li Mingchuan. We are all adults, and we all walk in the same line of business. We can't just say no to each other like a child, and we will never see each other again. They are afraid They will still be encountered in countless workplaces. If Li Mingchuan can reset all the past to zero like now, I believe that one day he will no longer have the burden and pressure in his heart, and work with Li Mingchuan as a colleague. get along.When you are away from home, you still have to save face.

"Are you going on a blind date?" Li Mingchuan said suddenly.

Ye Tang stopped in his tracks, but he didn't expect that Li Mingchuan would take the initiative to chat with him on a whim.Perhaps the topic at home during the day made that person not calm down for a while. The atmosphere at home can always bring up some hidden worries that people usually deliberately ignore. What about a day?I don't know if anyone will believe it.

Ye Tang didn't think much, and answered honestly: "I don't know."

"In the future, do you want to marry a woman?" Li Mingchuan asked again.

Ye Tang hesitated for a moment, "I used to think that I definitely wouldn't, but now, I really don't know."

He remembered the past, when Ye Shuhai was still alive, and after graduating from university, he and Ye Shuhai came out, saying that he would never marry a woman in his life.Ye Shuhai was still very old-fashioned and conservative in thinking, and the two had a falling out right away, and for a long time after that, the relationship between the two was very rigid.

The reason why there was news of "severing the relationship between father and son" later was actually not groundless.

At that time, he had already made his debut, because the movie he starred in had a good response and he had gained some fame.One day, while he was on vacation, he asked Ye Shuhai to go to a restaurant. The two of them were walking on the road, and for some reason, he brought up the issue of his sexual orientation. To sever the father-son relationship with him.At that time, he was young and vigorous, and he felt that his father was stubborn, and he was frustrated and angry because he could not get the understanding from his relatives. He parted ways with his father in the street, and the relationship between father and son has been at a freezing point since then.

And this scene was also secretly photographed by the paparazzi who followed him, and they even guessed and pieced together one or two, and there was the negative/side/news/news of the fatal blow to his career.

Ye Tang would think later that if he were the current self, he would definitely not confront Ye Shuhai again. Even if he refused to compromise, there are other ways and other communication methods to solve the problem.But unfortunately, time cannot go backwards, until Ye Shuhai's life came to an abrupt end, he had no chance to ease the relationship with Ye Shuhai again, leaving a permanent regret.

It is this kind of regret that makes him dare not speak out on this matter now. He is always afraid of repeating the same mistakes and hurting those who really care about him.

Ye Tang simply told Li Mingchuan the ins and outs of this incident, and Li Mingchuan fell silent after hearing this.

Ye Tang didn't expect that he would talk so much in one breath, and realized that he had taken up a lot of Li Mingchuan's "personal time", and said, "I'm sorry I couldn't stop talking, I'll go back to my room first."

Li Mingchuan looked at Ye Tang's bare feet, and kicked his slippers over, "Put on my shoes."

Ye Tang didn't say much, and went upstairs to her room wearing those oversized slippers.

On the morning of the second day of the lunar new year, Li's mother cooked and prepared a rich Chinese breakfast in person. Li Mingchuan and Ye Tang walked out of the room almost at the same time and met at the stairs.

Li Mingchuan stretched his waist, but before he fully opened his eyes, he staggered downstairs.Ye Tang followed behind and went downstairs to say good morning to Li Yang and his wife.

"Chuan Chuan, where are your slippers? Why are you walking around barefoot?" Li's mother asked.

Li Mingchuan rubbed his eyes, with a sleepy look on his face, obviously not fully awake yet.

Ye Tang suddenly realized that he was actually wearing the slippers Li Mingchuan gave him at night, so he hurriedly took off the shoes for Li Mingchuan, ran back to the room, put on his slippers, and went back to the first floor.

Li's mother didn't care too much, and gathered the whole family at the table for breakfast.

Li Mingchuan actually didn't think of it so early, but at 6 o'clock in the morning, someone outside started to fire cannons. At first, there were only a few sporadic sounds, and then it happened one after another. He rolled on the bed twice under the pillow. get up.

When the family sat around the huge dining table and had breakfast, the sound of firecrackers outside continued.Li's mother didn't mind the noise at all, she looked beaming, watching the men at home eating the dishes she cooked, thinking how wonderful it would be if every morning could be like this in the future.

"Chuan Chuan, if you have nothing to do today, can you go shopping with your mother later?" Li's mother asked, "Xiaotang is also coming to accompany Auntie."

Ye Tang showed embarrassment, but Li Mingchuan simply refused: "Mom, it's very troublesome for me to go out."

Li's mother was obviously very disappointed, and she didn't want to show it. Li Yang looked at it and put the cup on his hand, "Little brat, show off with your mother, isn't it itchy?"

Li Mingchuan obviously felt that this made Ye Tang who was present feel a little embarrassed, and was not very happy, so he also put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand.

Li Yang continued: "How many times do you come back throughout the year? Is it so difficult to go shopping with your mother once!?"

Li's mother hurriedly persuaded: "Forget it, the child is busy, let's talk about it later, let's talk about it later."

Li Mingchuan was furious from Li Yangxun, and the father and son seemed unable to speak normally, but seeing Li's mother's extremely considerate and understanding look, he suddenly felt a little sore, and said, "Mom , I'll go with you, what time do you leave?"

Mama Li was flattered and asked, "Go out at 8:[-]? Is it too early?"

Li Mingchuan saw his mother asking carefully, and began to reflect in his heart that he had really spent too little time with his family these years, and said, "Listen to you, Mom, I will listen to you today. I won't do anything today. I will serve you on the saddle."

Li's mother "giggled" happily.

Only then did Li Yang calm down, and said: "Xiaotang, let's go play too, and accompany your auntie, she always talks about you, but she often worries about you."

"This..." Li Yang's words made Ye Tang really embarrassed. If he didn't go, he would lose face to his elders. If he went, he might be in trouble for Li Mingchuan.

Ye Tang glanced at Li Mingchuan, expecting him to rescue him. If Li Mingchuan said at this time that he did not want the two-person time of mother and son to be disturbed, then he would just push the matter away, but Li Mingchuan used an exquisite spoon Drinking the preserved egg and lean meat porridge in his own bowl, he looked quite tasty, and he didn't seem to want to intervene at all.

Seeing Mama Li's expectant eyes, Ye Tang had no choice but to bite the bullet and agree.

In fact, Li Mingchuan's worries about going shopping with Li's mother are superfluous. The three of them were picked up by a special car and directly led into the VIP customer hall by the manager of the luxury department store. This time period was also specially reserved, so they All the way without being disturbed by others.

Mama Li was picking out jewelry at the jewelry counter in District [-]. The account manager received the whole process in person, and the service was meticulous.Li Mingchuan was by the side, giving some advice from time to time, and Li's mother was very helpful.

Ye Tang followed the two of them at first, but later he had time to look at the nearby counter.

He took a fancy to a pair of simple men's rings, without diamond rings, but the geometric lines with concave and convex surfaces just caught his eyes.

"Sir, do you want to try it?" asked the clerk on the other side of the counter.

Ye Tang's brain became hot, and he reported a pair of sizes, and said, "No need to try it, wrap it up."

The clerk said: "Sir, you have a good eye. This pair of rings is a limited edition. This designer has already retired from the jewelry design industry because of a successful relationship with his lover. He said that future designs will only be given to him. The lover wears it alone, and this ring happens to be his last design, which is also considered out of print."

Ye Tang nodded, but in his heart he sighed at his impulsive behavior. He couldn't give away this kind of thing even if he bought it. Hearing the clerk's introduction, he felt that this pair of rings fell into the hands of someone like himself. Some of it was wasted.

When the clerk sees people buying a pair of men’s rings, he will always gossip, and whispers, “This designer’s lover is also a man. They are a gay couple and they got married in the Netherlands not long ago.”

Ye Tang responded with a polite smile and didn't say anything more.

Li's mother and Li Mingchuan also came over, seeing the bag in Ye Tang's hand, Li's mother asked: "Xiaotang also bought something?"

Ye Tang smiled embarrassedly, Li Mingchuan looked unpredictable.

Mama Li browsed in the watch section again, while Li Mingchuan browsed in the men's accessories section nearby.

The clerk asked: "Sir, do you need me to show you which one to look at?"

Li Mingchuan pointed to two men's cufflinks, "Show me these two."

The clerk complimented: "These two designs are very unique. On the left is obsidian inlaid with platinum. Obsidian has the reputation of 'the eye of the sky'. This rainbow obsidian is the top of this kind of gemstone. With seven/color/gold/translucent light, the appearance is very good; the one on the right is made of cornflower blue sapphire from Sri Lanka, which has high purity and rich color, which is very rare. The designer is ingenious and has added hollowing The ingenuity of the base makes the base and the inlaid gemstones so natural, the taste of Mr. is really extraordinary."

Li Mingchuan seemed to be unsure which pair he liked more out of the two. The clerk suppressed the excitement of serving a big star, and asked as professionally as possible: "Sir, do you use it for yourself, or give it away?"

Li Mingchuan: "Give it away."

Clerk: "Do you have any special preferences for the person you are giving this gift to? For example, do you like simple and elegant styles, or do you have any preference for colors?"

Li's mother came over at this time, and said to Li Mingchuan's staff: "Both are good, let's wrap both of them up."

Li Mingchuan shook his head, determined to pick a pair.

Mother Li asked Ye Tang who was on the side: "Xiaotang, which one do you think is better?"

Ye Tang: "Auntie, I don't understand this."

Mama Li: "Just tell me which one you like."

Ye Tang looked at the two pairs of cuff buttons and said, "Black."

The clerk jokingly said: "The black design is simple, and it is very suitable for capable and mature men."

Li Mingchuan said, "Wrap up the blue pair for me."

The clerk looked a little embarrassed, put the black cufflinks into the counter, and carefully packed the pair of sapphire cufflinks with a big smile on his face.

Li's mother winked at Ye Tang, expressing her helplessness towards her son's taste, Ye Tang smiled, he really still couldn't figure out Li Mingchuan's preferences, Li Mingchuan's thoughts, he might not be able to figure out what Li Mingchuan was thinking in his entire life Thoroughly.