self-awareness

On Phuket Island, thousands of miles away from Beijing, the sun is just right and the sea breeze is gentle.

Ye Tang was leaning on a deck chair by the sea and drinking coconut, while gesticulating with a young Thai boy next to him and talking.

The Thai boy is learning Chinese and is determined to be a tour guide. After a few days, he has become familiar with Ye Tang.He began to find that this Chinese tourist was very strange. Unlike other tourists who ran around the scenic spots, he lay down on the beach every day and stayed for a whole day. Later, he approached him and found that the other party was very friendly, so he came to chat with him for a while every day. Practice Chinese.

"And then?" Thai Nanhai asked with a crappy pronunciation.

Ye Tang squinted his eyes comfortably and looked into the distance. He was telling a Thai boy a funny story about his childhood.

Over the past few days, the Thai boy has come to listen to him telling stories every day. He has been deeply moved by his open-minded and sincere appearance. With a professional attitude that cannot be sorry for the audience, he has sealed his own point with vivid colors and embellishments. The stories are told one by one.

"You still want to hear?" Ye Tang asked.

"I still want to!"

Thai children are especially interested in the dog-blood plot where he was adopted by a rich man when he was a child. Ye Tang was encouraged, smiled and showed his white teeth, and said with a shake of his head: "In this case, I will tell you another part of dog poop. s story!"

Ye Tang put down the coconut, and while the sea breeze was blowing, he talked about the story, and as he told it, his thoughts drifted far away.

Speaking of when he first arrived at Li's house, there really was such a "dog poop" incident.

At that time, he was 12 years old, not long after being sent to Li's house by Ye Shuhai.

Before Ye Shuhai left, he had solemnly told him to know how to measure everything in the Li family and abide by his duties. The Li family treated him kindly and let him live in the mansion, but it didn't mean that he really became a noble son. , you have to wink in everything you do, you can't break the rules, and you can't cause any more trouble for the Li family.When Ye Shuhai arrived, he also said that this arrangement was temporary, and when Ye Shuhai settled down outside, he would be picked up soon.

Ye Tang actually didn't understand the rules Ye Shuhai said at the time, and Li Yang and his wife were amiable and didn't treat him harshly. Li Yang and his wife would not let him play or buy things for him without exception. Satisfied him, he even had his own camera at such a young age, and he even thought at that time that it would be fine if Ye Shuhai took him home later.

But something happened not long after that completely changed his perception of his situation.Li Yang also has a younger sister named Li Fan. Li Fan married an American man. The man had an affair after marriage and filed for divorce. He and Xiaosan went far away.

Li Fan had an expensive diamond necklace, which disappeared inexplicably one morning. Li Fan searched the Li family's mansion furiously, and even searched several servants, but they couldn't find it. The target was locked on Ye Tang.She insisted that Ye Tang, an outsider, stole her necklace.

Ye Tang still remembered the woman's almost crazy expression until now, as if she had committed some unforgivable heinous crime, and she wished she could bite herself.But what really chilled Ye Tang was not Li Fan's accusation, but the reaction of the owner of the Li residence.

Li Yang and his wife were indeed protecting him. They said things like "It's okay for children to play with them, don't speak so harshly", although it sounded like they were supporting Ye Tang, the words revealed However, it seemed that Ye Tang also accepted the statement that Ye Tang took away Li Fan's necklace in a disguised form.At that time, only Li Mingchuan, who was also a child, firmly believed in his innocence, but the child's defense and defense could not overcome the suspicion of adults.

Ye Tang understood that what Li Yang and his wife said was not malicious to him, but his situation had to make him more sensitive than ordinary people, and the impact of these words on him was not small.

Of course, Ye Tang never touched Li Fan's necklace. The necklace was finally found in the excrement of Li Fan's Boston dog. Pulled out again intact.

Hearing this, the Thai boy burst out laughing, "You said, the lost necklace was really found in dog poop!?"

Ye Tang smiled slyly, "Yes."

"Hahaha, it's disgusting!" The Thai boy pinched his nose and made an exaggerated expression.

Ye Tang also laughed. Since the "dog poop" incident, he understood Ye Shuhai's careful warning to him for the first time, and it was also the first time he had some understanding of the meaning of "living under the fence".

At that time, he tried to run out to find Ye Shuhai, and let Ye Shuhai take him home, back to his "own home", but thinking about it now, where was his place in Ye Shuhai's home at that time?

Of course, Ye Shuhai did not come to pick Ye Tang up "home" afterwards, and that original promise was never fulfilled.

Fortunately, when Ye Tang knew his mistakes, he corrected them. It seemed that his childishness disappeared overnight. At the age when children of the same age were acting coquettish and slippery in front of their parents, he had quickly corrected his identity and restrained his previous loose habits. He began to consciously help the Li family with housework, doing what he could.

He no longer showed any liking, and no longer accepted extra gifts from Li Yang and his wife at will. Day after day, year after year, he performed "observe his duty" to the extreme.

Later, Ye Tang accidentally overheard Li Fan's comments about him, the woman said that he always looked old-fashioned at such a young age, he didn't have any innocence and romance that a child should have, and he was not likable.

Ye Tang has also reviewed this point, but later he found that he didn't seem to care so much about whether he could be a child for a few more days. Over time, he developed a calm personality. However, at the age when a young man should be reckless in his youth, he has never done anything out of the ordinary, except for Li Mingchuan.

Li Mingchuan was undoubtedly very dazzling when he was a teenager. That kind of Li Mingchuan seemed to be the self he longed to be. He was doing things that he didn't dare to try. His life was full of adventures, thrilling and exciting, which made him really envious. I am very impressed, and I am unconsciously attracted to the person who leads this kind of life, as if getting closer can bring him infinite satisfaction.

In fact, Li Yang and his wife treated him very well. They sent him to a private school where young masters like Li Mingchuan gathered, gave him a good education, and gave him a place to live that could shelter him from wind and rain. Ye Tang treated them Always be grateful.

But life is often linked to each other. Thinking about it now, if it weren't for the camera that Li Yang and his wife bought him back then, he wouldn't be infatuated with Li Mingchuan in the camera, and he wouldn't have taken so many pictures of Li Mingchuan. The photo of Ming Chuan was dug out by Tan Chen and his friends in public, so there would be no rumors about him, and Li Mingchuan's estrangement from him later, and perhaps, there would be no later obsession with Li Mingchuan. read.

After everything happened, Ye Tang would think, if he and Li Mingchuan could get along as friends in peace, would he have discovered that that person's personality was not suitable for him earlier, and gave up earlier? Thoughts on him?

But who made the distance create a sense of beauty, the more you can't get it, the more attractive it looks, Li Mingchuan became the first person he was tempted by, this initial heartbeat continued to sublimate over time, and in the end, Li Mingchuan Mingchuan was almost a myth in his heart.

No one knew how at a loss he was when he first learned that he was going to be Li Mingchuan's assistant three years ago.