[Qin] Qin Shi

… Zhao Zheng didn't expect the unhappiness that day, just like he didn't expect that he would screw things up, just like he didn't expect the situation to develop to such a bad level.To be precise, he didn't expect that all his greed hidden under all the "wants" that he didn't want to think deeply or even deliberately covered up would be seen through by the other party.

He knew that Bai Shu's temperament was not as cheerful as he had shown, and he also knew that compared to Handan, what the other party yearned for was Qin's land.That's why he has full confidence in his invitation, just because he has read Bai Shu's words four times and three times about Qin Guo's yearning and praise.

When he knew that he was going to leave Handan, this land that brought him bad memories, it was natural for him to think that Bai Shu should go with him. , will not refuse his invitation.

Why did he think this way? Zhao Zheng didn't want to think about it, nor did he want to know.

——until Bai Shu exposed the truth hidden behind all his 'wonder's' in front of him without any concealment.

It's not the reluctance to part with friends, but the reluctance to let go of something you love, let alone share it with others.

That is not a support for his little friend, but his fear of the unknown, and his desire to find someone in the unknown who can advise him and even help him move forward.

That's not helping, not a hand of friendship that wants to help the other party realize their wishes, but a despicable threat.

So long before he sent the invitation, his brain had already given him the answer.It is precisely because of this that he refuses to think, to think, to judge.

He never thought about it from Bai Shu's point of view, and even took it for granted that Bai Shu would agree.What he thought of as friendliness and help was not a reward from above and a silent threat.

And the reason is just as Bai Shu said, it's just because from the very beginning, he didn't regard him as a friend, and he took it for granted that a person without household registration has no right to choose when faced with the opportunity to rectify his name and identity.

Such an act of imposing others' wishes makes him different from other princes and grandchildren of Zhao State.

Zhao Zheng watched Lu Buwei walking back and forth in the yard, watching him restlessly look towards the door from time to time.He knew that the other party was waiting for someone, waiting for someone who could bring him good news or bad luck. Lu Buwei hoped it would be the former, and Zhao Zheng...

...he didn't know what he was waiting for now.

Is he waiting for Bai Shu to return?Is he waiting for that little friend who he can't find but will find him, come to him and tell him 'I want to go with you'?

Was he waiting for the man who never looked back to suddenly look back, for the man who seemed to have never made a mistake in front of him to admit that he might not have made a mistake at all?

Sitting on the stone in the yard, Zhao Zheng put his hands around his knees, and began to think about how things developed to such a bad and irreparable situation.

Is this "father Zhong" who quietly returned to Handan a week ago came to his house in the middle of the night and told him that he was sent by his father to pick them up back to Qin?Was it because he wanted to take his little friend along a few days ago, but was laughed at by the other party and refused to disappear?Or maybe he woke up in the middle of the night and found someone in his mother's room, and this person was his respected 'second father'?

Looking at Lu Buwei's anxious figure, Zhao Zheng suddenly understood what Bai Shu said about growing up.

When you realize that you have done something wrong, when what you can't get becomes what you don't want, that's when you grow up.

Zhao Zheng looked at Lu Buwei who was pacing back and forth in the yard, and called him Father Zhong just as his mother asked him to: "Father Zhong," Lu Buwei shook him to his annoyance, "What's wrong with you?" There was a decent smile on his face , when the child is in a panic, he can't help but approach the person he trusts the most. When the expression is made, Zhao Zhengcai realizes that Bai Shu likes to make such a smile.

There is always such a smile on his face, gentle and considerate, as if nothing can trouble him, as if nothing can trouble him, as if everything in this world is under control.

Looking at the other party with sincere eyes, frowning slightly as if worried for the other party, pursing the corners of the mouth to express his confusion and hesitation, and hesitant to speak.That was the action Bai Shu used every time he wanted to trick him, or to get information from him, but now he used it unconsciously.

When things came to this, Zhao Zhengcai had to admit that Bai Shu's influence on him had already penetrated into his bones.And his judgment is always right, he wants the other party to go to Qin with him, just for the experience and tribulations waiting for him in that unknown land.

What he wanted was to copy the answers instead of making the questions himself - maybe this is why Bai Shu was angry?

Zhao Zheng's thoughts couldn't help drifting away, and then he was pulled back by him in an instant: "Father Zhong looks like," he can't be distracted, what he needs to do before he grows into an independent person like Bai Shu is to ask for help And leaning on, rather than revealing yourself, "seems to be bothered about what?"

Lu Buwei looked down at his boy who was sitting on the rock, and walked forward with small steps: "Father is fine." He put his hand on Zhao Zheng's head, "Father is just waiting for news." He didn't seem to want to hide Zhao Zheng's intentions, and this was also expected by Zhao Zheng.

In other words, Zhao Zheng knew that Lu Buwei was acting for him, and he didn't know how much of it was true or false, but he already knew what Lu Buwei wanted him to know.

"Is it because of me?" Enduring Lu Buwei's irritable mood as he pressed his head, Zhao Zheng looked down at Lu Buwei's gorgeous steps standing in front of him, "Is it because we are leaving Handan?"

Lu Buwei hoped that he would remember what he did for himself today, so the future Lu Buwei must have something for him to do.Bai Shu told him that this was called favor, but on the other hand, Zhao Zheng knew that what Bai Shu did was another kind of thing that also required him to owe favor, even though Bai Shu didn't expect him to pay it back at all.

"Father is waiting for news," Lu Buwei replied, "Father found someone to bribe the guards in Handan. If everything goes well, we can leave Handan tonight and go back to Xianyang."

Xianyang...

"Father Zhong bought off the guards in Handan?" Zhao Zheng remembered Bai Shu's completely different judgment and evaluation of the soldiers in Handan and the soldiers of Qin State, "Then why does Father Zhong seem worried?" Pause, as if wanting to prove his cleverness Like a child, "Are all the guards easy to bribe?"

"Handan is, but Xianyang is not." Speaking of this, Lu Buwei became interested, "Why, my son is interested in this?"

"Because as long as I give money, the soldiers in Handan will let me go out of the city to play." It's not a secret, Zhao Zheng will not be so stupid as to hide such insignificant things from Lu Buwei, "So I was thinking, wait until Xianyang Can I find more opportunities and run out of the city to play." Like a naughty child, looking forward to the adventure in the new environment.

I couldn't see Zhao Zheng's expression, I didn't know that Bai Shu and Zhao Zheng broke up, and I didn't even know that Zhao Zheng had a very smart friend, Lu Buwei, but he just took Zhao Zheng's words as childish words: "That may be a little bit weird. It's difficult, but when we arrive in Xianyang, my son will be the son."

"Wherever my son wants to go at that time, just wave your hand and someone will pave the way for you." As if thinking that such a situation would make Zhao Zheng happy, Lu Buwei's explanation deviated from what Zhao Zheng wanted, "Everyone will please everyone." My son, so my son must learn how to become a qualified son."

Lu Buwei did not answer Zhao Zheng's question directly, but Zhao Zheng was not distracted by the bright future Lu Buwei assumed: "Then sneak out of the city to play?" Zhao Zheng just wanted to know if Bai Shu was right, "Outside the city Will there be the same forest as outside Handan City? Is there any wild animal that I can hunt?"

Lu Buwei paused, evading the question again: "When the son returns to Xianyang, you must never say that in front of the king." He seemed to want to use other words, but he swallowed them back abruptly, "When you leave Handan, you It is no longer Zhao Zheng. It is the eldest son of Prince Qin."

He avoided answering twice, Zhao Zheng already knew that Bai Shu's statement was correct, Xianyang and Handan were completely different environments.But together with the disappointment, Lu Buwei's avoidance of answering, and even the doubts caused by answering wrong questions: "Why?"

"Because you are the eldest son of Daqin, the future crown prince, and will become the king of Daqin." Lu Buwei looked at the young child in front of him seriously.

However, Zhao Zheng recalled in a daze the past, that Bai Shu who stood in front of him with his head held high, proudly saying that the future Great Qin would definitely rule the world.

Such a confident tone, such a proud attitude, and such a natural appearance are the future that really makes his blood boil.

At that time he was thinking - I want to be such a person.

I want to be someone who loves, respects, admires, and worships me when others mention me, full of admiration and admiration.

I want to become an existence that when people in the world see me, they will respect me, look up to me, and even fear me.

I want to become the supreme king in this world, and become the existence that Bai Shu said has been passed down through the ages, and everyone in the future will be amazed by what I have done.

At this moment, the question that had been troubling him for a long time was finally answered.Why on earth did he keep pestering Bai Shu, why did he follow this pariah without household registration, and why his words and deeds were always on his mind.

Because he wants to be like Bai Shu, who knows everything and can control everything in his hands.

Lu Buwei's hand was removed from his head, and Zhao Zheng heard someone hurrying into the yard: "It's done, it's done!" gone."

Lowering his eyelids, Zhao Zheng secretly evoked a smile on his face.

He is going to Qin!