i gave myself away

The familiar embrace, the more familiar breath, is like a ray of wind in early spring, melting the ice and snow, causing a hundred flowers to bloom, making this cold and terrifying world wash away its paleness and become colorful... Shi Mo looked at him in surprise. Dust covered his handsome face, but it couldn't block his dazzling light like the sun.

"Thank you...Jin Cheng," Shi Mo could hardly control his voice, his voice was so trembling that he could hardly speak, "Why are you back... Isn't it the plane tomorrow?"

Xie Jincheng kissed Shi Mo's hair in distress, loosened his clenched fist very gently, and slowly smoothed the trembling in his fist: "I am here, I am your family, your wealth."

Shi Mo almost shed tears!

It's like this again, Xie Jincheng is like this again, when he was most helpless and painful, he gave him the most firm embrace and comfort.At that moment, he felt that pain and poverty were not important, what was important was that Xie Jincheng was still there - every moment he needed.

He punched Xie Jincheng in the chest bitterly: "What are you doing when you come back so early, are you kidding me?"

Xie Jincheng took his hand and kissed the back of it affectionately: "Seeing you open your eyes and talk nonsense, you obviously have the most valuable wealth in the world, and you still say you are poor."

"What is the most valuable wealth?"

"I."

Shi Mo was stunned for a moment, and smiled when he realized it: "You want to be ashamed, are you so narcissistic? You think you are very valuable, but you are also poor now."

Xie Jincheng said nonchalantly: "A poor man matches a poor man, the negative is equal to the positive, and together we are rich."

"You are shameless, I want more." Shi Mo's mood suddenly improved a lot. He looked at Jiang Cheng, who was watching him show his love with a dull face, curled his lips, wanted to say something, and swallowed it back, "Jiang Cheng Cheng is sorry, we will talk again when we have time, please leave my contact information."

"Shimo, you..." Jiang Cheng was dumbfounded, and just about to ask why the two of them were so ambiguous, he suddenly received a terrifying gaze, as if being stared at by a wolf, shuddered, and his tongue seemed to be knotted I dare not move anymore.

"Please be careful, your unintentional remarks may cause great harm to others. Before you don't know the situation and the other party is obviously unwilling to tell you, please ignore it." Xie Jincheng's words were full of deterrence, and Jiang Cheng hesitated I can't speak for a long time.At this moment, he probably also saw some clues. He sighed, left Shi Mo's contact information, and walked to Xie Wen's ward: "I'll take a look at Uncle Xie and leave. Shi Mo, I'm sorry, I really didn't want to hurt you."

"Please pay attention in the future. Maybe you think you are right and what you do is a matter of course, but to others, it is a deadly poison. Please think from the perspective of others. The same scene and thing What would you think if you put it on your body." Before Shi Mo could speak, Xie Jincheng said, "One more thing, Uncle Xie in the ward, you have heard what happened just now. During this time, come to deliver meals and understand Shimo is the one who pays for the illness and expenses. Please pay attention to what you say in the future. The old-fashioned and despicable suppression methods before are directed at me. If you still treat me as a relative, please also treat him as loved ones."

Xie Wen in the ward stood in front of the window sill, looking down at an old man who was being supported by his son for a walk, and did not speak for a long time.

Xie Jincheng took Shi Mo away. Jiang Cheng visited Xie Wen in the ward, with a sad expression on his tense face. His father always said that he didn't know how to read people's faces and was very nervous. He didn't take it seriously. In the meantime, as long as he is a good friend, he should be considerate and forgive his rough nerves, but he didn't expect to hurt his best friend because of this.He felt that the word "guilt" was not enough to express his disdain for himself.

"Do you feel guilty?" Xie Wen stood in front of the window with his hands behind his back, his eyes were far away, and he didn't know what he was looking at.

Jiang Cheng lowered his head and gave a muffled "hmm".

"Why are you guilty? You are not wrong."

"Yeah, I'm not wrong, I just care about him. But," Jiang Cheng closed his eyes bitterly, and repeated Xie Jincheng's words in a murmur, "Maybe I think I'm right, what I do is taken for granted , but for others, it is a deadly poison. That person said to think from the perspective of the other party. I think, if someone mentions that I have changed from a rich person to a poor person and that my dearest mother passed away, I will It would be crazy too."

Xie Wen didn't speak any more. He looked at the old man outside the window. The old man's staggering steps left footprints on the aisle. However, the old man was not alone, because there were footprints of his son beside the old man's footprints.

Xie Wen can't remember when, there was no one around him who could support him, and his wife and son were getting farther and farther away from him. Even the youngest son who was spoiled by the palm of his hand often had conflicts with him.

He suddenly remembered that when the eldest son was a child, he once held the hand of the eldest son, and it was soft and easy to pinch. What about when he grows up?Did calluses grow on that soft palm, and is it still as smooth and tender as before?He didn't know it at all, because the hands were thrown away by him many years ago.

He remembered that the morning before yesterday, he had eaten his favorite soy milk and steamed buns, and was very happy. He asked the nurse where he bought them.The nurse's answer is still unforgettable to him.

"Attorney Shi asked me to tell you that the soy milk is made by myself, and the steamed buns are bought outside. Please don't get me wrong. The reason why he bought what you like is because someone told him what you like. That A man once said a word, please listen carefully and keep it in your mind. The man said, "My greatest wish is that I hope to get sick again, and let my parents feed me medicine and coax me to eat porridge." I would rather sacrifice my health in exchange for this short-term happiness'. Attorney Shi also asked me to tell you: Now that person doesn’t need you anymore, I will feed him medicine and coax him to eat porridge instead of you, you are not worthy to let him Sacrifice your health."

At that moment, Xie Wending looked at the unpalatable medicine on the table, and the soy milk that was delivered to his mouth became bitter.

He thought it was natural for his father to criticize his son, and it was natural for his father to dislike his son, but he never thought about how such an unintentional act would hurt his son.He knew that his eldest son was better than himself and worked harder than himself, but he never dared to admit it or give in. He was afraid that if he lowered his head, the crown on his head would fall off.He is just using a wall called dignity to disguise his weakness, and he is just a rat who is afraid of failure.

Should he feel guilty about it?No, his self-esteem did not allow him to feel guilty, he just regretted it.

Regret that I used violence and cruelty to hurt my elder son, regret that I threw those limp hands farther and farther away, and regret the bitter fruit... so that the elder son called himself the strange "Uncle Xie", so that they were clearly separated There was only one door away, but no one walked in or out.

This lonely ward is really cold and frightening.How much he wanted to go out for a walk and bask in the sun, but who would help him?

Suddenly, the figure of a young man appeared in his mind.This person always secretly stands outside the ward, watching his condition through the curtains, always maliciously asks the nurses to order unpalatable meals in the canteen, but tells the nurses what to order and what not to order, and always stays outside the ward for a long time Wait, and when the nurse comes out, ask about the condition as soon as possible.

Obviously not relatives, but more dedicated than relatives, it really... makes people don't know what to say.

Xie Jincheng was originally scheduled to come back tomorrow, but probably because he was so anxious to go home, the matter was done very quickly and smoothly, which freed up most of the day for him, so he immediately changed his ticket and rushed back by train.Thanks to him returning in time, Shi Mo recovered from his bad mood very quickly under his gentle comfort, and kicked him, who was sweaty, to take a bath as soon as he got home.

Seeing Xie Jincheng enter the bathroom, Shi Mo glanced furtively, then sneaked back to the room, quickly turned on the computer, inserted the USB flash drive, and opened the "Favorite People" folder.

One after another, beautiful photos appeared in front of my eyes. The mother's tenderness and consideration, and her love for the world, were frozen in the photos one by one, staring at the child in front of the computer with a young and unchanging smile.

"Mom, I haven't seen you for a long time. How are you doing in heaven?" Shi Mo smiled and stretched out his hand to touch his mother's fingertips in the photo. The warm touch came from some hot electronic screens, like intimate contact His body temperature warmed his heart—this was his favorite way of communication, and only in this way could he feel that his mother was still by his side.

"Dad is very competitive and energetic now. You don't have to worry about him anymore. Me, you don't have to worry about it. I found a lover who treats me very well. He also helps me very much, but he is a man. I'm sorry for you. But you said that you want me to live happily and I am very happy with him, so you will definitely bless us, right?" A happy smile hung on his face, and Mo calmly took a deep breath, turned off the zoomed-in photos, copied a few beautiful photos from the hidden folder of the computer, put them in the "Favorite People" folder, and placed them side by side with the mother's photos.

"Mom, I'm sorry, there will be two people I love the most in the future, one is you and the other is him. You want to meet him too, don't you? Look, I put his photo next to you, you Take a good look at him, isn’t he handsome? But he’s not as handsome as I am. He’s also very rich, and he’s guaranteed to make your son live a good life. I still owe him a lot of money, but don’t worry, Mom. I will pay off the debt as soon as possible," Shi Mo smiled bitterly at the smile on the computer, "I don't want to be a poor person with debts anymore, I want to pay back the money as soon as possible, and get out of the debt relationship with him as soon as possible... "Then, restore the relationship of equal lovers.He secretly hid the last sentence in his heart.

In the folder, there are clear color photos, some of which have particularly eye-catching names——

"Favorite person: Xie Jincheng"

And outside the half-open door, a person stood there quietly, just in time to hear the last sentence of repaying the debt as soon as possible, breaking away from the relationship... A thought that was suppressed in the bottom of his heart sprouted in the bottom of Xie Jincheng's heart, and then spread out and grew. Become an unshakable towering tree.