Every confession will be killed

I am a sinner. As a sinner, even if I really have the heart to redeem what I did wrong, I can't control myself now.

That dream was so real that every night when I close my eyes, I can feel the sense of despair lingering around me, making it hard to breathe.

The relationship between me and Mu Ran dropped to a freezing point under my unilateral repulsion, I didn't even want him to touch me, and every time Mu Ran just stood there far away, neither approaching nor speaking.

But the young master's complexion has obviously never been better. The young master, who was not very good at expressing his feelings, turned even darker after this time.

To be honest, it wasn't me who did it, but as soon as I got close to Mu Ran, the strong resentment immediately enveloped me, and I couldn't help but tremble all over. This kind of fear made me feel suffocated.

So although I'm really sorry for Mu Ran, I really don't know how to overcome my inexplicable psychological barrier to be with him for the time being.

In the past two days, I was rolling the sheets intimately, and now I am just like a stranger. I know that I am too self-willed, but even at this time Mu Ran is very protective of me.

I am grateful to him.

It is a great fortune in my life to have such a friend and lover.

In the past few days, I have been very clingy to my elder brother. Except for sleeping and going to the bathroom, I have hardly let my elder brother out of my sight. The strong feeling in my dream is still there, so I seem to be able to detect him immediately every time I see him. A heart that has stopped beating.

This terrified me, saying that I was staring at my elder brother every day like a neuropathy, as if I wanted to eat him into my stomach.

I felt that I might be mentally ill, and I suddenly understood why my elder brother was locked up in a mental hospital. At this moment, I really deeply felt the strong sense of fear that my elder brother felt after he dreamed of me dying.

It is also because of this that I love my elder brother more and more. Originally, my elder brother is delicate, and my parents passed away suddenly some time ago. Once such a thing is hidden, it will not make things worse.

At that time, I was stunned to see the doctors and nurses pushing the hospital bed out and telling me that the operation was a success, and I was still in a daze.

"I'm sorry big brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." At that time, I didn't know why I was so stupid. At that time, I lay on the door of my big brother's hospital bed and cried. The doctor was stunned for a long time after seeing it, with a confused expression I went to see Mu Ran, and then looked at me, and ran over to comfort me, saying that the operation was a success, as long as I recuperate with peace of mind, there will be no problem.

But no one knows what I'm crying about.

I don't know it myself.

Just because of such an inexplicable dream?

"Brother, do you want it to be convenient?" During the days when my brother was hospitalized, I did everything myself. Because of his wound, although the doctor said there was nothing wrong with it, I was worried that I was the one who carried the urinal.

It's just that my elder brother is always disobedient, and the thing between the legs is not very obedient every time. I was quite embarrassed at first, but I got used to it later on.

"No need." The eldest brother shook his head and smiled wryly at me.

I understand how much discomfort is hidden in this smile. To be honest, although I say take care of it, I am not very skilled in business. From the beginning, I pinched the little thing, and I was embarrassed to touch it directly. I rubbed it back and forth. If the gun goes off, it's not a proper young brother!

But it's much better later on, but I found that sometimes it's not my problem. Every time I look at my elder brother at this time, he seems to look at me quietly with a look that I can't explain.

It felt so uncomfortable.

"Do you want to eat then?" I asked.

"Don't eat."

"Then eat some fruit?" I asked bluntly.

"Okay." The eldest brother smiled slightly, "Eat bananas."

"No bananas!" I frowned.

After my elder brother’s illness got better, I really felt like a different person. Before, I was moody because of mental illness, but now it’s a sticky comparison. My side has also become clingy. I am so sticky every day.

But big brother's stickiness is different from mine. He always finds all kinds of excuses to use a very metaphorical thing to tease me overtly and secretly. I can't bear it!

I vaguely remembered the moment when my elder brother opened his eyes just after the operation, and I happened to be beside him.

The first thing he saw was me. From the confused eyes to the gradual focus, he first showed me a smile brighter than the sun: "Yuanyuan, let's live together forever."

"Okay." I never thought about living without my big brother, neither before nor now.

I don't know if it was the bitter fruit that was planted at that time, but the more unbridled behavior of my eldest brother sometimes makes me want to throw my hands away and leave.

"Go back and rest." The eldest brother said lightly.

I was stunned for a moment. I remember that when I told my elder brother that I was living with Mu Ran, my elder brother was silent for a long time. Although I knew that if I made my elder brother unhappy, his body would not recover well, but I still said it. .

But the eldest brother didn't say anything in the end, and didn't give me a chance to explain, so the matter was just exposed.

But I feel that today I do have to go back.

Today is Mu Ran's birthday.

I really haven't participated in the birthday of the young master a few times. According to the personality of the young master, I probably don't pay too much attention to the birthday, but how can I say that I am the lover of the young master now, and I can't even do this Not at all.

"I..." I lowered my head and said, "Then I'll go back for a while."

"Come here early tomorrow." The elder brother's expression was as gentle as ever, and this also calmed the worries in my heart. The elder brother is getting better and has been getting better, and he is also actively cooperating with the treatment. The recovery from the disease is just around the corner.

As I was walking away, I always felt that the current life was not real, as if everything I experienced was just a dream.

"Hello?" I dialed the number of the young master, and it was connected quickly as usual. The windy voice from the young master's side sounded very noisy, "Where are you?"

"I'm by the water."

"By the water?" I froze for a moment. We are inland, but we have also introduced a big river. "Why did you go there?"

"..." The young master didn't answer me either, I heard the sound of water on the opposite side.

I hired a taxi, got in the car and said, "Where are you exactly, I'll find you."

"..." The young master was silent for a while, "In the old bridge."

"Driver, Laoqiao." I said to the phone, "You just stay there, I'll go over now."

The old bridge was built before. Later, because the new bridge was built, the old bridge faced demolition, but it has not been implemented, so it was just abandoned. However, because of its special atmosphere, young couples often go there for a date.

When I was in the car here, I saw a familiar figure standing on the old bridge from a distance. At this time, there was no one on the old bridge. It was already late at night and there was no light on the old bridge. The moonlight at night is especially bright.

It was because of this moonlight that I was sure that the person on the bridge was Mu Ran.

"Why did you come here at night?" When I got behind Mu Ran, I saw Mu Ran's back, feeling very lonely in the dark.

Mu Ran didn't speak, just looked at the water surface quietly.

"That..." I scratched my head, it's fine if he doesn't turn around to look at me, so that I won't be able to say anything, "I want to talk to you about something."

The wind blew quietly, and I felt a little cold, so I curled up my fingers subconsciously.

"Well, Eldest Young Master, we've known each other for so long, and we haven't had a proper conversation." Thinking about it carefully, most of the time, we almost never had a real heart-to-heart talk.

After all, two big men are not girls, so there is no need to talk about it in such detail, just do what you want, but I found that sometimes if you don't say it, the other party can't understand it.

"I really like you, Mu Ran. From a very young age, I don't know if you still remember. You wanted to be friends with me the first time you saw me. I think this is fate, but I I've always wanted to be good friends with you, but I didn't expect such a change in the end."

I scratched my hair annoyed, it was the first time I hated my eloquence so much, why couldn't I speak in more detail?Even if it's a little sensational!

"But really, young master, you are very good, very good, even if you are a lover, in bed...you are also very good, I don't reject you, I even like you, but these two days, I'm a little It's strange...don't mind, maybe it's just like a woman's menstruation, and it's fine to make a fuss for two days."

I don't know how to explain this reason to Mu Ran, so I can only talk nonsense.

"Mu Ran..." I stepped forward and reached out to pat his shoulder, wanting to say something, but suddenly a cold hand grabbed my wrist.

"...Eldest young master?"

When I was stunned for a moment, I was suddenly kicked under my feet. Unprepared, I fell directly to the outside of the bridge. The scene in front of me was so fast that I almost didn’t realize it. My arm suddenly hurt, and I suddenly realized that I was already in the air. There is a piece of dark water under my feet, and the only thing that keeps me from falling...

It was Mu Ran who grabbed my hand...

He... actually pushed me down.

I looked up dumbly, almost unable to believe the situation in front of me.

Why? ! ! !