Religious Faith

Ah Wen didn't know how and when to tell Mr. Zeng at the moment, so he could only wait.But Mr. Zeng started to get busy again, and he came less and less often, and he was also a little anxious.

One night in mid-November, Mr. Zeng ate here for the first time, and Ah Wen was thinking that if he didn't procrastinate, let's talk tonight.

While eating, Mr. Zeng looked out the window and said suddenly: "You said that winter is coming, will the swallows stay in Beijing or fly south?"

Ah Wen was stunned for a moment, then said: "Fly south."

"Yes, fly south because it's warmer in the south." Mr. Zeng nodded thoughtfully, and then said nothing.

Ah Wen was a little puzzled by this sentence, but he considered that Mr. Zeng was not someone who convulsed and talked nonsense for no reason, he thought about it for a long time, and suddenly understood what he meant!

He thought it would be difficult...

No matter what kind of person Mr. Zeng is, he already knew about Ah Wen's little thoughts, but he just didn't say it.It's just that he didn't say that he didn't deliberately play with Ah Wen, but he really didn't take this matter to heart. Now seeing Ah Wen hesitating, he sighed in his heart and said the words himself.He knew Ah Wen would understand, after all, this kid is very smart.

Mr. Zeng stays here tonight, Ah Wen sleeps on the floor, and Mr. Zeng sleeps on the bed.On the second day, Mr. Zeng still woke up very early, but Ah Wen was late for the first time.Mr. Zeng did not wake Ah Wen up, but sat on the sofa drinking tea and reading the newspaper after eating breakfast.

Today, Beijing is covered with mottled white, this is the first snow in Beijing this year.

Ah Wen came out of the room, but he came out with a suitcase.

Mr. Zeng drank tea and read the newspaper as if he hadn't seen him.

Ah Wen walked up to Mr. Zeng, bowed, and said, "Thank you for saving my life. I am very grateful, but I can't repay you. You sniffed at everything I have, and maybe I will bring it to you Trouble. But to show my sincerity, I still leave them here, and this is the only clean thing I can give you.” After speaking, he bowed again, this bow took a long time, and then he turned around out the door.

Mr. Zeng raised his head and glanced at the closed door.

Ah Wen left him money, which was close to ten million at first glance.These were all earned by Ah Wen in the early days. After Li Jinze woke up, the driver handed over all the money to Li Jinze.The money given to Mr. Zeng accounted for the vast majority of Ah Wen’s savings. In fact, the money in Ah Wen’s account was far more than this, but because a lot of people were dragged out after Hongdu seized it, a lot of his money could not be withdrawn. .This money was moved by Ah Wen to a clean account, so that Li Jinze would not have no money for medical treatment even if he had an accident one day.

Ah Wen took the suitcase and got into the taxi to look for Li Jinze. On the way, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but rise.He pressed his heart that was pounding with excitement, imagining what it would be like to see Li Jinze?

Should he just smile and keep silent, seeing Li Jinze's happy face, or should he give him a big hug when Li Jinze opens the door?Or call him and tell him to come down and carry his luggage carelessly?

The driver saw the young man behind him smiling so happily in the mirror, so he asked, "What happy event is there for you to be so happy today?"

When Ah Wen heard this, he said energetically, "Hey, Master, you are from the Northeast!"

"You too? It doesn't sound like your accent!"

"I am, where are you from?"

"I'm from S city."

"My family is too!" Ah Wen is in a particularly good mood today, and it is even better to see fellow villagers.

The driver asked, "Are you moving?"

"Yes, move."

"How long have you been here?"

"It's been a few years."

"Is everyone in the family here?"

"Not here." Ah Wen was a little embarrassed when he mentioned his family.

"Then you have to grab the tickets quickly, and you won't be able to go home any later."

Ah Wen smiled embarrassedly, then nodded.

But home is still far away for him, this is his home.

The driver added: "My little granddaughter was only born this winter, and I don't plan to work here anymore. I'll go home after the Chinese New Year and take care of the child with my wife. Emma, ​​chatting with that little granddaughter is so happy, The little granddaughter is so cute."

Ah Wen opened his eyes wide and asked curiously: "She is so small, can she talk?"

"No, but the babbling sounds nice!"

Awen laughed.

The driver said again: "Life is really good now. You can use WeChat to chat on video. My granddaughter and I use this to chat. My granddaughter is so good, she laughs when she sees me."

The driver talked about his little granddaughter all the way, and occasionally told him about the current situation in his hometown.Ah Wen kept listening to this happy story that was far away from him.When he got out of the car, the driver helped him with his luggage, and then said, "It's best to go home as long as you can go home during the Chinese New Year."

Ah Wen was a little moved when he heard that, he nodded and said, "Well, I'll buy the ticket today."

The car drove away, and Ah Wen walked to Li Jinze's house with his luggage alone, but he didn't use any of the routines he had thought of before.He was standing in front of Li Jinze's house, and just as he was thinking about what to do, the door suddenly opened.

Li Jinze carried him in first, then brought in his luggage, and then closed the door.

It was Ah Wen's turn to be stunned, this was different from what he had expected.

Li Jinze kept hugging him tightly and refused to let go, Ah Wen hugged him and asked, "How do you know I'm here?"

"I can hear your footsteps."

"Jinze, I'm staying here." Ah Wen said, "I'm not leaving."

Li Jinze murmured: "Okay, that's great..."

Now it seems that it is Ah Wen who is so happy that he has no brains, and Li Jinze is delighted that his IQ is still there.

The two of them slept on the same bed at night, and Ah Wen finally calmed down at night. He asked Li Jinze, "Shall we leave Beijing?"

"Where do you want to go?"

"I don't know, just leave Beijing." Ah Wen said again: "By the way, I came to find you by car today. The driver is also from the Northeast. He said that Chinese New Year is coming soon, so I'd better go home and have a look."

"Then do you want to go back?"

"...I don't know." Ah Wen sighed: "I don't know where I want to go other than following you."

"It's still a bit late today, let's get up and study again tomorrow, okay?"

"it is good."

Before going to sleep, Li Jinze said to Ah Wen, "Come on, I'll sleep with you in my arms."

Ah Wen hesitated for a moment, and then slowly got in. After a while, he said, "Jinze, let me tell you something..."

"You said."

"I can't do it anymore."

Suddenly, the room was eerily quiet, only the sound of two people breathing.

Li Jinze patted Ah Wen's head and said, "Why did you think of saying this?"

"……sorry."

"I'm starting to be stupid again." Li Jinze's tone was a little helpless.

"I'm sorry, I really want to say goodbye to the past... Doing that kind of thing always makes me think of a lot of bad things." Listening to Ah Wen's words, the more he collapsed, Li Jinze was afraid that Ah Wen's spirit would collapse again when he got better. Softly said: "As long as you are good, there is nothing I can't bear."

Li Jinze smiled and said, "Close your eyes, and I will coax you to sleep."

Ah Wen obediently closed her eyes, and Li Jinze began to speak French with a low tone, soft and magnetic.In less than 2 minutes, Ah Wen fell asleep.

When Jiang Cheng couldn't fall asleep, Li Jinze coaxed him to sleep like this.Every time Li Jinze spoke in a long and low tone, Jiang Cheng fell asleep in a mess.

On the morning of the second day, Li Jinze gave A Wen a map of China and said, "Tell me which one looks pleasing to the eye, and we will go there."

In the end, the two decided to go to Dalian.

"There is a sea in Dalian, right?" Ah Wen asked Li Jinze.

Li Jinze was stunned for a moment when he heard the words, then nodded amusedly: "Yes."

"I remember watching a CCTV advertisement when I was a child, it was a tourism advertisement for Dalian, and it looked very good."

"I have a good memory."

"It's not good, I don't remember anything from the past now. It's like I still don't think I'm Chengcheng." Ah Wen said with emotion: "Skating really hurts the body and the brain."

"You are not to blame for that incident." After Li Jinze booked the plane ticket to Dalian the next day, he asked Ah Wen to pack his things together.They thought they would not bring a lot of luggage, but after packing, they would have one suitcase and one luggage bag per person, and they were all large ones.

"I feel like I haven't loaded anything yet, it's full."

Li Jinze smiled, and then said to Ah Wen: "You can play by yourself for the past two days, and I will catch up with the work on hand. We will be very busy a few days before we arrive in Dalian, and I am afraid that we will not be able to complete the task."

"it is good."

Li Jinze had been rushing to work for two days, and started to sleep when he got on the plane, sleeping from takeoff to landing.Ah Wen looked distressed, but there was no other way.

When I arrived in Dalian, I first found a hotel to live in, and then started looking for a house and buying furniture...

When they lie in bed in their new home, it's certain to start over.

Li Jinze was still working as an interpreter, and Ah Wen didn't want to be idle, so he found an ice bar to be a waiter.Ah Wen was on the day shift, and if Li Jinze didn't have an appointment to entertain or was too in a hurry, they would go for a walk nearby. Such a day was very comfortable.

Ah Wen started to learn to be a good husband. His job is much easier than Li Jinze's. Li Jinze usually does the cooking, and then he does the washing.When Li Jinze was busy with work, he would still do hygiene.But every time he was about to clean up, Li Jinze would stand beside him and say, "Let's come together." Ah Wen also learned how to iron clothes, but he never ironed Li Jinze's shirt since he burned it.

Li Jinze would also take him with him when his company traveled. Every time Li Jinze wanted to say that this was his lover, he would always be the first to say, "I am his younger brother!"

Li Jinze was embarrassed, and said privately: "The whole company knows that I have a husband..."

"How do they know?"

"Every time you order takeout for me, you ask them to squeeze a heart with ketchup. There are so many people around, who doesn't know?"

"This also means that you are not single, how can you prove that you have a husband?"

"Of course they will ask, so I'll tell you."

"..." Ah Wen was a little embarrassed, but he was still very moved that Li Jinze dared to tell others about his existence.

"Don't worry, you are so good-looking, you still have face when you take it out." Li Jinze smiled badly.

Ah Wen pretended to hit him, but just as he stretched out his hand, a little girl from Li Jinze's company appeared.Seeing this scene, she held back her laughter, and quickly waved her hands and said, "I didn't see anything! Go ahead!" After speaking, she ran away in a hurry.

Li Jinze smiled and looked at him meaningfully: "Look, they are all very friendly."

"Ahhh, fuck you!!!" Ah Wen was about to go crazy.

The two of them still celebrate the New Year. Li Jinze can make beautiful dumplings. The two of them watched the Spring Festival Gala, drank some wine, and said a happy new year to each other.

Ah Wen drank a little too much, he said to Li Jinze drunkenly, "I remember red lanterns are hung at home during Chinese New Year."

"Yeah, it's pretty." Li Jinze replied.

Because the two had already decided to settle in Dalian, Li Jinze also bought a car here the next summer and paid a down payment for a house.

……

Having said that, I used to think that life would be so happy and dull.We pay off the mortgage, keep a car, travel on holidays, surprise each other from time to time, and even plan to have a child.

Another year has passed, and when I moved into a new house, I had to clean it. That was the day I found Li Jinze's diary, and then I knew what had happened.Know who I really am.

……

Li Jinze packed up Li Jinze's diary when he moved, and Ah Wen didn't know it existed.Li Jinze kept it very well when he first arrived in Dalian, but today Li Jinze was working overtime at the company, and Ah Wen wanted to tidy up the house by himself, and he found this when he opened Li Jinze's suitcase.

The diary is a bit old, Ah Wen touched the words, as if this was what Li Jinze wrote yesterday...

They met a long time ago, and then they eloped, and then Li Jinze worked desperately to get him something better, even...

who am I?

I am not Ah Wen, let alone Cheng Cheng, I am Jiang Cheng!

I looked at the scratches on the paper and couldn't help crying.

I know it all.

I was the one who felt sorry for him from the very beginning, otherwise why would we bother so much!

I thought of him sleeping with someone else and then sitting on the bed himself as if dead.

……

I don't understand why he is always the one who suffers, yet he is still so gentle...

The hypocritical person has always been myself.

I found again that I didn't have the courage to face him.

How should I face him?What he once lost was all thanks to me, and now I am such a person again, he is a cloud in the sky, I am just the mud on the ground, we are the gap.

He told me before that he would work overtime until the wee hours of the morning. During this time, I thought a lot and for a long time.

Sorry, I am still too cowardly, I dare not face you, dare not face the past.

sorry……

I packed my things and didn't leave him a message. He is so smart, he will understand.

Sorry, I bullied you one last time, forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye.

I didn't know then, why we all have to bind love to guilt.

We were not like this at the beginning, we were together because of liking, and because of love, our relationship became more and more profound.In fact, it is such a simple truth, but I do not understand.

The author has something to say: Blame me for procrastination. I didn’t write my homework a week ago. I need to write my homework for a while, otherwise today will be the end of the day.

This Dalian is actually because I didn’t find my map, and then I glanced at the Koukou chat list who was chatting with me, thinking of her geographical location, I decided to go to Dalian 233333

Then the ending of the main text is actually two days away

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