Religious Faith

Two months later, Li Jinze still hasn't woken up, and the hospital has confirmed that he is in a vegetable state.I transferred him to a hospital that specializes in the treatment and care of people in a vegetative state.The equipment there is very good, and the nurses are also assigned by the hospital. It can be said that as long as the patients and money are sent, you don't have to worry about the rest.

His eyes are open, downcast and dull, and his hands sometimes move a few times, as if to tell me that he is still alive.

I still remember that when he just opened his eyes, my heart almost stopped beating in surprise, and I called the doctor with great joy, but the doctor said that this is a normal phenomenon of vegetative people.I felt as if a basin of cold water had been poured on my head, and I felt extremely lost.

The hospital promotes "warmth therapy", which is to ask family members to communicate with patients frequently to wake them up.Every time I go to see him I dress smart and look good because he will see.

I believe he's listening to what I'm saying, he's looking at me too, his heart isn't sleeping, he just can't express himself.

I was wiping his body when his leg moved slightly.I asked him, "Did you tell me that you were with me?"

His legs were still moving, I smiled and said softly: "Okay, I get it, I will persevere... You should persevere too, get better soon..."

The sentence came to mind again: How good it is that he is so carefree now.

I shook my head and continued to wipe him.

……

One day, Dianli said to me after distributing the guests: "I don't need to use the private room tomorrow, just go directly to Pu Xuzhai at seven o'clock in the evening. Don't be late." The voice was very low and very low.

"Yeah." I nodded and went out.

There are customers who can play CDs, that is, men dressed as women, and they will bring this kind of men to the street.

The waitress helped me put on my wig and put on my makeup, and then chose a black skirt, black high heels, flesh-colored stockings and a silk scarf for me.Finally helped me fix the breast pads before leaving.

I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror. Sure enough, I couldn't tell that I was a man after this outfit.My frame is not as thick as theirs, and my muscles are not as developed as theirs, so it is quite harmonious to wear this body.It's just the high heels... I used to practice walking in high heels, and the reward for all the hard work is that they look good, but I really don't like to wear them because my feet are tired.

After wearing high heels, my height is close to 1.9 meters, and that man is only a little over 1.7 meters, so this partner is really conspicuous when shopping.

He gave me some things, and then we went to the hotel again, and he went up and down.

After finishing work, I got dressed and left. Unexpectedly, brother Xian was walking towards the hotel, and there was a woman beside him, she was the lady from Shuiyunjian.

Brother Xian is in this line of work. He must have noticed something wrong when he saw such a tall "woman". He took a few more glances and said, "Ah Wen."

I was embarrassed, ignored him, and continued to walk forward, the high heels kicked on the ground and made a "thud thud" sound.

He added: "You look pretty like this, come with me tonight."

"..." I turned around and looked at him at the same level, even a little higher than him: "You can't handle me."

"...how do you know if you don't try?"

I chuckled and said, "Go, she can't wait."

He looked back and said, "Okay, then I'll come to you next time."

This is what he "likes".

Heizi got home one step ahead of me, and he was used to seeing me like this.I tossed my high heels aside, took off my wig, and lay on the couch.I said, "High heels were obviously invented by men, but why are men so tired wearing them?"

Heizi helped me tidy up my shoes and said, "Because I'm wearing men's shoes." Seeing that I was drowsy, he quickly patted me and said, "Wash your face before going to bed."

"……dont wash."

"If you don't wash, you will get acne tomorrow!"

It suddenly occurred to me that I still have something to do tomorrow, and Dianli asked me to meet someone so low-key. That person should be very important, so I can't let the acne ruin his impression of me.So I suppressed my exhaustion and took a bath again, trying to improve my skin condition, but then I fell asleep in the bathtub. If it wasn't for Heizi's sudden panic, I'm afraid I would have to spend the night in it.When he dragged me out, he muttered: "Looking at the whole body without flesh, why is it so heavy..."

"Absorbed water..."

"... Suck your head! Go to sleep, you..."

……

Li Jinze's hospital is in the suburbs, the environment is quiet and suitable for recuperation, but it is too far away from home and Hongdu Xinfu.Heizi saw me running around so far during this time, and knew that I had some savings, so he advised me to buy a car.

"You don't need to buy an expensive one, just a cheaper scooter."

"I don't have a driver's license."

"You can take the exam."

I shook my head with a wry smile and said, "I'm too tired now, let's talk about it later."

Today I wore a sky blue denim shirt and slim fit jeans with a pair of white sneakers and a jade safety buckle to make me look younger.As for the hair... I dyed it back to black as soon as he could open his eyes.

I smiled and walked around in front of him and asked him, "How am I looking today?"

He blinked slightly, his eyes still dull.I smiled at him again, and said: "Yes, you think it looks good too!" As I spoke, I hung a string of amethyst wind chimes on the window coffin of his ward, and flicked it gently, the sound was crisp and melodious.I said: "The sound is very nice, isn't it? When I passed by a store with so many products, I fell in love with it at a glance. I still remember that when we were in City B, I found out that a girl gave it to me on Teacher's Day last Teacher's Day. At that time, your wind chime was pretending to be jealous, but you accidentally broke it, and you were so angry at that time... Hehe, now I will give you another one, don’t you be angry?” After waiting for a few seconds, I said: “That’s right. , why are you angry with me? You like me the most, I know it all. "

"You said that you would love me forever." Thinking about it, he didn't seem to have said that... I turned my head, leaned my back against the glass window naturally, frowned slightly, and asked, "Did you say that?" ?”

"Okay, okay, you're confessing to me every day."

that voice suddenly sounded

——You are really shameless, even if he really forgives you, will you forgive yourself?

I lowered my eyes and asked 'it': "What the hell are you trying to do."

—I want you to die.Because you ruined his best year, years, maybe even his whole life.

"It looks like you love him very much." I said, "Unfortunately, you can't support him."

——You're wrong, I don't love him, but if it wasn't for you, he wouldn't be like this.

There was a place in my heart that was stabbed, and after a moment of contemplation, I said in a deep voice, "So I also paid the price."

—Your fault cannot be undone.

I took a deep breath and asked, "What do you want me to do?"

--die.

"...Do you think I am happy to live like this?" I looked at the air in front of me, and asked word by word: "Do you think I am fucked every day except sleeping, or being fucked to sleep, do you think I am very happy?" Do you think it's unfair? Do you think I'm happy to see him like this every day? I don't know what you are, but you remember, I'm atoning for my crimes, and you... you feel like nothing but Besides me, who else will let him live!" In the end, my voice was stern, but it kept saying in a loop: "You damn, you damn, you damn..."

"Shut up!" The air in front of my eyes seemed to condense into a black vortex, and there was a face in the vortex grinning ferociously, and its world was full of thunder and thunder, and the waves were thunderbolt!It couldn't listen to any explanation, it roared: "Damn you, why don't you die?!"

I said, "No...I can't give up...you go!"

I suddenly came back to my senses, the familiar scene of the ward was still in front of me, with white walls and white beds.He was sitting in a wheelchair, as quiet as a doll.

Is that a hallucination... I shook my head vigorously and said, "Sorry, Jinze... Did I scare you?"

"I'm leaving... Get well soon..."

"I love you……"

Walking out of the ward, I touched my forehead, and the skin under my bangs was sweating.

It came more and more frequently, and I...were getting farther and farther away from Ah Wen.

When I came to Hongdu Xinfu by car, the moment I stepped into the gate, the waiter bowed to me at a 45-degree angle. I could feel the slight changes in my facial muscles at that moment. It was Ah Wen’s smile.

The moment his head was raised again, it was Ah Wen's black eyes, his eyes were deep, and when he looked at them, he was lazy.

Here, it belongs to Ah Wen.And Jiang Cheng is destined to be two different people from Ah Wen.

They share the same body, they negotiated, one to sell, one to come... Keep the best smile on him.

……

Pu Xuzhai is in a very secret place in Hongdu Xinfu.The internal structure of Hongdu is like a net, extending in all directions, and the water and mountains are heavy.I walked through several long corridors with ease, turned a few corners, and walked around a few doors before arriving at Pu Xuzhai.

The area of ​​Pu Xu Zhai is small, but it is very quiet. The location is like a peach blossom garden. The interior stone and wood decoration is simple and elegant, but it has a special meaning.

I looked at my watch, 18:57.

I waited for another hour before the room door was opened.

When I heard Dian Li say this news, I thought about many high-ranking and powerful people who I had contact with several times. They should be regarded as my regular customers, but he was the only one I didn't think of.

He was wearing a black formal suit with no brand name. Inside was a white shirt. The hem of the shirt was neatly tucked into the trousers. The buckle belt was not tight or loose, which perfectly defined the line of his waist. It was revealed, and the abdominal muscles could still be vaguely seen.

I was lying on the window sill looking out, and I turned my head when I heard someone's voice, and immediately reacted when I saw him, then stood up, and bowed to him: "Hello, sir."

Hearing this, he glanced at me lightly, and said, "Sit down."

"Yes." I nodded, then straightened up and put my hands on my thighs.

He frowned, and said, "What kind of posture are you in?" He spoke with a straight accent, fluent in Beijing, and was particularly domineering.

"Oh..." I took my hands from my legs to the sides in a daze, and then I felt something was wrong, so I put them on my legs again.

He frowned even deeper, and said: "I didn't ask you to sit out and spend some time, so there's no need to do that." Then he took off his coat, and I hurried to take it and hang it on the hanger, and he casually untied the dark blue tie After opening, let me sit down, rest my head on my lap, close my eyes and said: "Press it."

I understood and gave him a head massage like last time.

He said softly: "I have asked several people to press, but none of them are as comfortable as you."

The corners of my lips rose slightly, and seeing that I was silent, he opened his eyes and glanced at me. I froze for a moment, then blinked at him, and he smiled too, very lightly, and then closed his eyes again.

He said faintly: "It's still young."

"Not too small."

"I think you're only in your early twenties. Have you passed your twenties?"

I shrugged and said, "Sir, you have good eyesight, but don't tell others, or they will bully me and stop me from doing business."

He snorted a laugh and said, "I think you're playing well, who can steal your business?"

"That's not true." I imitated his Beijing dialect: "Where am I playing tricks?"

He was like, "You just play it." He probably didn't like my politeness, even though it was PR etiquette.But what if I'm not polite?I acted like I knew him very well when I first came up, I was afraid he would be more annoying.

I snorted softly and continued to massage him.

He said, "What's your name?"

"Awen." I blinked, logically speaking, he should know my name if he can find me, could it be that he didn't ask before?Oh, no matter, since he already asked me, I don't ask him, it seems that I don't pay attention to him.So I asked, "What's your name, sir?"

"My surname is Zeng."