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All along, he thought that his mission was to retrieve the memory of the original owner, and he also thought that his lover had no memory of previous lives.

But it wasn't until now that he suddenly realized that he was the one who lost the most important memory.

Since the first task given to him by the system, he has been playing different roles in various worlds and accepting different destinies. He knows where he came from and his name, but he never seems to think about it. What it used to be like.

He thought he had never lost himself.

But it turned out that he didn't know when he started, he had already lost his true self.

In the middle of the night, Ji Yunchu woke up from his dream. He glanced sideways, and found that the man beside him was still fast asleep.

He had one arm around his waist, facing him sideways.

Even when he was asleep, this man was protecting him.

In the darkness, the outline of the man's face was very clear.

Ji Yunchu looked at his handsome eyebrows, and gently stroked his thin lips that he had kissed countless times with his fingers.

For some reason, looking at Gu Ming's peaceful sleeping face, Ji Yunchu suddenly felt an indescribable sadness in his heart.

He got up quietly without waking Gu Ming up, and left the room alone.

The cold moonlight came in from the window, and there was no sound in the entire corridor. Ji Yunchu stood at the junction of the shadow and the moonlight, quietly looking out the window.

There is a large garden behind the house, but there are not many flowers in the garden, mostly green plants.

Some fragmented images flashed through Ji Yunchu's mind.

The same angle, the same garden, but there is a white pavilion in the middle of the garden.

Ji Yunchu wanted to follow those pictures, but suddenly he felt something bad.

It is the vibration of space.

This space has begun to become unstable, and the energy loss is far faster than Ji Yunchu imagined. Now he has no extra strength to support this space, or even fight against the system. He no longer has any chips in his hand.

Ji Yunchu sighed softly.

Finally got to this point...

The next day, Gu Ming went to the company, and Ji Yunchu followed suit.

When he got up in the morning, he sent a message to Hou Ruifeng - I want to meet my old friends, please help me arrange it.

After arriving at the hotel, only Hou Ruifeng was waiting there.

Hou Ruifeng looked embarrassed, "I've notified them all, probably I'm busy today...you wait, I'll try to call one by one."

Ji Yunchu watched him walk out of the box expressionlessly, and after nearly half an hour, Ji Yunchu got up and left.

Hou Ruifeng was still on the phone anxiously, but when he looked up and saw Ji Yunchu coming out, he hurried over.

"You don't need to contact me anymore." Ji Yunchu couldn't see any anger or disappointment on his face, he just said lightly: "I already understand what's going on."

Hou Ruifeng stared at him in a daze as he walked into the elevator, and he didn't recover for a long time.

Did he understand?What do you understand?

When Ji Yunchu returned to the house where the original owner used to live, he dug out all the things that could represent his past, but apart from a computer and a shelf of books, he didn't find anything of value.

"who are you?"

Ji Yunchu sat on the ground with a tired expression amidst the chaos of the room.

No one will answer him.

Because the original owner does not exist at all.

Ji Yunchu walked out of the building and looked at the busy traffic on the street.

An ordinary house that couldn't be more ordinary, a friend who couldn't even explain what happened to him in the past, a simple and vague background, a piece of very little memory about the child.

This is what the original owner has, and nothing else.

No matter how he checked, his past was still a blur, and his so-called memory was even more intangible.

Therefore, the task given to him by the system is not to ask him to find the memory of the original owner. The original owner is just an illusory identity, and this identity is far less real and full than the ones he experienced in previous lives. Instead, it is full of loopholes and obvious illusion.

Perhaps these loopholes are hints to him.

Countless hints.

What the system wanted him to retrieve was his own memory, the real Ji Yunchu's memory.

Gu Ming knew all of this.

Moreover, Ji Yunchu should have felt long ago that Gu Ming has been reminding him of the past, whether he has been subconsciously ignoring it, or he has been avoiding it all the time.

After understanding all this, Ji Yunchu suddenly felt a little unacceptable.

Gu Ming said that he was seriously injured. He said that his memory was always there, but he was forgotten by him.

But what happened to make him forget so many important things?

Just thinking about it for a moment, Ji Yunchu's head suddenly hurt like it was about to split open, and the strong suffocation made him unable to breathe.

It was so painful, if it was so painful to remember the past, why did he want to remember it?

Isn't that bad?

He has so many fond memories with his lover, they even have a lovely son.

Even if you can never remember the past, even if you never know who you are, or even never return to the real world...

[But have you ever thought that someone has been waiting for you to go back? ] Ji Yunchu was taken aback by the sudden words.

There seemed to be something heavy on his chest, which was very uncomfortable, and his expression gradually became sad.

Until Gu Ming's car slowly stopped in front of him.

When Gu Ming got off the car and walked in front of him, his expression was still full of sadness and bewilderment, and he didn't even realize that Gu Ming walked in front of him.

"go home."

These words finally brought Ji Yunchu back to his senses, he raised his eyes to see Gu Ming, he was stunned for a moment and said: "...I don't want to go back."

Gu Ming frowned, "Why?"

Ji Yunchu was silent for a while, then shook his head.

Even he couldn't tell why.

Obviously there is the place where he can feel most at ease, Gu Xiaochuan is also waiting for him there, but at this moment, he actually has an inexplicable rejection of going home.

Gu Ming looked at him firmly, "What do you remember?"

His gaze was not aggressive, even very gentle, but Ji Yunchu suddenly didn't dare to look directly into his eyes, and dodged in embarrassment, "...I don't know."

Gu Ming seemed to be motionless and looked at him for a long time, until Ji Yunchu felt uneasy, he heard him sigh in a low voice.

"You still don't want to go back, do you?"

Ji Yunchu's face changed slightly, and he looked at him in disbelief.

"After so long, you still refuse to forgive me, and you still refuse to forgive yourself."

"……I do not know what you're talking about."

Gu Ming stretched out his hand towards him.

There was even a soft sadness in his eyes.

"Come back with me, okay?"

Ji Yunchu subconsciously took a step back, "No..."

Gu Ming just stood there motionless, not even moving the hand that was stretched out to him.

"I love you, Xiao Chu." Gu Ming said hoarsely, "We all love you."

Ji Yunchu lowered his head and closed his eyes, tears fell to the ground with a thud.

"But I... I forgot all of you..." Ji Yunchu's body was trembling, and he was choked up, almost out of breath, "I just know that I made a serious mistake, which hurt you all, even myself. also……"

"That's not your fault." Gu Ming said in a low voice, "I am the one who is really wrong."

Ji Yunchu was speechless and could only shake his head.

"If you want to forget, then never think about it." Gu Ming walked up to him and gently hugged him in his arms, "As long as you are willing to go back, I promise you everything, okay?"

His voice was already very hoarse, even with a trembling pleading.

Ji Yunchu had never seen such a vulnerable side of this man.

"...But what if... I've already remembered?"

Ji Yunchu closed his eyes, and the chaotic images in his mind gradually synthesized into chaotic memories.

It turned out that the game he had always thought of was not just a game.

Before that, he had been in love with this man for eight full years, and they had experienced many things together, just like what happened to them in the previous worlds, both cruel and full of happiness.

Until one day, their hard-won peaceful life was broken.