In love with Hollywood GL

"Loneliness, fear, helplessness, despair. Living in this world, every minute and every second is like a torment to me. I don't understand why whenever I am about to be saved, I always Someone will stop me, why do they have to let me continue to suffer. They always persuade me from their own point of view, but I don’t like to listen to their unnecessary persuasion, because they are not me and don’t know the world in my eyes What's it like."

"Lin Xiang said, even if it's for my brother, I have to work hard to live. So I keep putting pressure on myself every day, without giving myself any breakthroughs, and falling into an endless loop."

"I often think of the scene of that day, and I often think of what Brother Li said to me. They told me that it would be good to fall asleep, and all the troubles would be forgotten. But this is wrong, because as soon as I close my eyes , in front of me is Brother Li lying in a pool of blood, with blood flying everywhere. I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe I'm sick, but I don't know what disease I'm suffering from, I can't control my own thinking at all. "

"Brother Li told me that he was in pain. I want to know what kind of pain it is, how painful it is, is it more painful than hitting your head against a wall, is it more painful than cutting your own skin with a knife? It's very strange. It seems that only when my body is in pain, my heart doesn't hurt so much."

"Then what will it feel like to die? Will it hurt more? Is it that as long as I die, I won't be able to sleep every day and suffer this kind of torture every day. I really want to try it, but they all Don't let me try, I don't know what I should do..."

After closing Xu Manxi's diary, Li Bingxi's tears rolled down, dripping warmly on the back of his hand.As a teacher, she did something that violated the professional ethics of teachers, and she violated the students' right to freedom.But there is no way, even if God condemns her, she will still do it.Because if she hadn't done this, she would never know how painful Xu Manxi was.

Li Yingxu finally took a one-month vacation to see Manxi, who he once liked so much and even regarded as an idol.He finally knew everything about the Xu family and the Li family, big and small.For some reason, he felt that he should hate the Xu family and Xu Manxi, but he couldn't.He couldn't hate her.

"Sister." The little boy who always had a baby voice has finally grown up, he can give her the most generous arms when she is depressed, "Hit sister Xi with your heart. She will be fine .”

Li Bingxi looked at him with indescribable sadness in his heart: "Don't you blame sister?"

Li Yingxu smiled: "If Sister Manxi is at fault, then her biggest mistake is that she took the surname Xu. But this is not up to her to decide. The Xu family's debts will be repaid by the Xu family, and Xu Mengshu has also received retribution. As for the elder brother... This has nothing to do with Sister Manxi. If I were you, I would not leave her at this time. "

Xu Manxi was in a particularly good mood that day. Li Yingxu proposed to drive her out for a drive. Not only did she not refuse, but she also nodded slightly in agreement.Lin Xiang was also very happy to hear that, so he went with her.

"Xi Xi, do you still remember this song? When you celebrated your tenth birthday, I played this "Serenade" for you." Lin Xiang stroked her hair and smiled.

Xu Manxi nodded.

Suddenly, Xu Manxi knocked hard on the car window, Lin Xiang and Li Yingxu were overjoyed, Li Yingxu lowered her car window, and let her see Li Bingxi who was running quickly with the car outside the window.

Xu Manxi stretched out her head, and Lin Xiang hugged her body to ensure her safety.

"Slow down." She said, Li Yingxu saw her speak, and wanted her to say a few more words, but did not slow down the speed of the car, only heard her raise the volume, "Yingxu, stop."

Lin Xiang followed Xu Manxi's wishes, got out of the car and asked Li Bingxi to sit in the car, but she came back after a while and asked Yingxu to continue driving.

"Why?" Xu Manxi frowned, she didn't understand what she was trying to do, "What are you guys trying to do?"

Lin Xiang didn't speak, and Li Yingxu just drove the car silently.

Back at University A again, times have changed, things have changed, Lin Xiang took Xu Manxi's hand, and said to her, "Let's go."

The restaurant seems to be refurbished than before. There is a new milk tea shop on the third floor. The panda milk cap is very delicious.There is also one more teaching building than 15 years ago.Only the library has not changed at all, and it still looks solemn and solemn.The younger brothers and younger sisters after class greeted them very friendly, full of youthful breath and youthful vigor.

"What's the matter?" Outside the iron fence gate of the playground, Lin Xiang asked as he watched her freeze footsteps.

Xu Manxi shook her head, wanting to go back.

Lin Xiang held her hand, and his eyes fell on the person behind him. She held her hand tightly, and then handed it to her.

Li Yingxu also slowly walked to Lin Xiang's side, he smiled lightly, looked at the backs of the two people who merged into the playground, and said, "Thank you for not being able to live in your eyes, so I can hug your back... "

"Actually, Manxi didn't meet you earlier because she was unlucky."

Li Yingxu shook his head and smiled bitterly.Lin Xiang rubbed her eyes: "I will never forget the expression on the ktv when she sang 'Your gaze evaporates into clouds, and it will rain before I can get close' when she graduated. That is probably a Kind of, almost hopeless depression."

"That day, when you and jay were singing on stage, I was listening in the audience." Holding her hand, I passed all my warmth to her through the palm of my hand, "You said, seagulls no longer love the sea , can fly farther. At that time, I hoped that the seagulls could forget the scenery of the seaside, go forward bravely, cross the mountains, and fly across the sea. But I never thought that there would be a day when it was not the seagulls that were nostalgic for the sea, but the sea that did not give up on the seagulls leave."

Li Bingxi stopped, turned around, and reached out to caress her face: "Do you know why I didn't get in the car?"

Xu Manxi's eye sockets gradually became moist, but she didn't answer.

"Because you have been chasing me for 15 years, this time, I want to chase you instead." Li Bingxi put his forehead against hers, "I don't know how many nights you have been heartbroken by frustration, disappointed by disappointment. And lonely, I don't know how much you have missed me. But if possible, I would like to add a sentence in the birthday book. I said that there must be someone who can walk with you in the future .And I hope, that person will be me."

"Manxi, I'm not brave enough after all. Maybe I can't afford to pay for your years of waiting and care, but at least in the next few decades, I really hope that I can eat all the delicacies in the world with you, see All the beauty of the world. Life, old age, sickness and death, never give up. "

"Manxi, are you willing?"

Xu Manxi stretched out her hand and touched the ring on her finger with the other hand. She stared into Li Bingxi's eyes, tears streaming down: "Bingxi, being able to fall in love with you is the most precious memory in my life."

"I do not want to."

The ring was taken off, and with an arc cutting through the sky, it disappeared into the boundless night.

There is no echo.