In love with Hollywood GL

—— On weekend nights, I will wait for you at my house.

The cold wind was bleak, and her words were like a magic voice, lingering in Xu Manxi's ears.

In fact, Xu Manxi was not in a good mood all night. She is the queen of the Golden Film Festival, and she is a good actor whose acting skills kill half of the entertainment industry. But in front of Li Bingxi, she has never learned to hide her heart perfectly. .No matter what he was thinking, he seemed to be able to see through it.

Sometimes she feels that time passes very slowly, as if she was still on the campus of University A yesterday, performing a childish drama of intentionally failing the class she taught, but time passed so quickly that she was about to step into the standing room. Year.

The only thing that has not changed is that Li Bingxi is still as elegant as ever. This kind of extravagance is not something that can be piled up by famous brand jewelry or cosmetics, but is inherent. It is hard not to be attracted by such a woman with every gesture.No matter whether the outside world will expose some news that smears her every now and then, as long as you really get in touch with her, you will know that such a woman is like a snow lotus on an iceberg, making people want to hold her in their hands and care for her forever Stay, don't get hurt.

After cooperating with Korean film Kim Jung-hoon and laying a certain national foundation in the Republic of Korea, Li Binxi returned to Hollywood and finally won her first female lead in a blockbuster film.

Perhaps most people will attribute her success to her good luck, but luck has always been complementary to strength. She is indeed a genius, a woman who was not born for acting, but wrote a legend with her superb acting skills. artist.

In fact, after that night at the bar, Li Bingxi had very little contact with Xu Manxi, and most of the time, even if they met in public, it was just a polite greeting.Not just embarrassment, but more of a estrangement.

Before he had time to really get close, it only increased his grudges.

This is Xu Manxi's first visit to Li Bingxi's new home. It is not a luxury villa, but an ordinary apartment with a simple but stylish layout.Richard Clayderman's "Adiline by the Water" is playing on the CD player in the living room, filled with a faint fragrance of lavender, which adds a bit of softness to the mainly black and white decoration.

Li Bingxi didn't wear makeup, her hair was pulled back casually, her dark circles were heavy, and there were a few wrinkles at the corners of her eyes. It was at this time that Xu Manxi clearly realized that no matter how much she was sought after, her How beautiful she is, she is no longer young after all.

"I'm thirsty. I made you two cups of tea."

A teacup carved with blue and white was placed on the tea table, and Li Bingxi sat opposite her, beckoning her to drink tea.

The weather outside is indeed very cold. Although I came by car, the cold wind whizzed past my face after getting out of the car, and I felt that a layer of skin could fall off.

Xu Manxi said thank you, and picked up the teacup to drink some tea to warm up.

"It smells good."

"Try another cup." Li Bingxi tilted her head, and the light shone on her eyelashes, which was gentle and moving.

Although Xu Manxi was puzzled, she never refused, nor did she ask too much, and she did what she said.

"How?" Li Bingxi asked.

"Both are delicious. But I like the first cup more, it feels like the Longjing I often drink, and the second cup is a little bit greasy, it seems to be Tieguanyin."

Li Bingxi lowered his head and smiled, shaking his head while laughing, then raised his head after a while, and looked at her lightly: "Actually, these two cups of tea are the same." Her hands were crossed together, making it impossible to guess her thoughts, "The variety, cooking time, and amount of tea are all the same."

Xu Manxi also smiled, and put down the teacup: "Evelyn, if you have something to say, just speak up, you don't need to go around in circles."

"There is an effect in psychology called proactive inhibition. In fact, it is the same in life as in relationships. When we first see something and like something first, we always think it is the best. After that No matter how many more beautiful scenery we have seen, there is no way to attract our attention. It is only because the initial impression affects our judgment." Li Bingxi sighed, "But in fact, the so-called one and only is not so good. "

"Is it good or not, only you know." Xu Manxi stared into her eyes, "Like a fish drinking water, you know whether it's warm or not."

"Manxi, it's time for you to start a family."

Xu Manxi raised the corner of her mouth, as if mocking herself: "It seems that this is not within the scope of your concern, Evelyn."

"I don't want you to waste your great youth for a void relationship, an unworthy person."

"Then can you give me back those past years?" Xu Manxi's voice trembled, "Whether it's worth it or not, only those who have experienced it have the right to speak."

Li Bingxi lowered his head and remained silent.No one knew what she was thinking, even she herself didn't know what she wanted to do.

"Evelyn, I love you."

"..." Li Bingxi clenched his fists and closed his eyes.

"But I never asked you to give me anything in return. I don't need you to love me, and I don't need you to give up or choose anything for me. I know that secret love is not a matter of one person, so I have always tried my best not to To bother you, I didn't think about showing anything, but maybe I was too clumsy so you saw the clues. I'm really sorry if I caused you trouble, I don't know what I have to do to make it Don't be so confused, it doesn't matter if you don't want to see me, I can quit this circle, anyway, I don't like acting. It doesn't matter."

"But you can't ask me to control my own feelings, that would be too selfish."

"If I could control my heart, I would have closed my heart when I first met you. But I'm not a saint, I can't do it."

"That's good." Li Bingxi raised his head, got up and walked to her side, "Since you can't do it, then let me do it for you. Give me your hand."

She couldn't help but hold Xu Manxi's hand, took off the ring on her finger, got up and walked towards the French windows, Xu Manxi seemed to know what she was going to do, and hurriedly stopped her: "You give the ring back to me!" I."

"this is mine."

"If you give it to me, it's mine!"

"What can it bring you?" Li Bingxi clutched the ring in his hand, turned to look at her, at the girl who was agitated but tried her best to restrain herself, "Manxi, look forward, stop thinking about a bad woman .”

"You give it back to me."

Her voice weakened, without the excitement and tension just now, it was more of a begging, a kind of pleading that was almost desperate.She remembered that night in the school playground, she was leaning on her shoulder, and she once thought that maybe that was the last intersection of the two of them in this life.So she has always buried this love deeply in her heart, sharing it for her by taking care of Yingqi, and realizing all the misses for her by taking care of her relatives.

When you really fall in love with someone of the same gender as you, if you really love her that much.You are not willing to bring her into this world at all.You will hope that she will not know your love, you will hope that she has a happy family, a husband who loves her and a healthy and lovely child.You'll want her, never to think of you again.

Xu Manxi spent his whole life trying to love her, just not to be seen by her.

So when Li Bingxi waved her fist, the last hope in her heart was shattered with this leap.For so many years, I have encountered many difficulties, countless sleepless nights, and countless times when I wanted to give up. As long as I think of her, I can go on strong.Li Bingxi is not only the person she likes, but also a ray of light in her dark life.

Flying down from the eleventh floor, she took off her high heels and stepped barefoot into the lawn, stumbling in search of her faith in the dim light of the street lamps.

It can't just be thrown away.

The weather was very cold, and the cold wind poured into the body along the cuffs, spread to the heart, and froze the blood into ice.

From the window, Li Bingxi looked at Xu Manxi, who had turned into a small dot because of the height, and Xu Manxi, who was frantically looking for the ring in the grass.Li Bingxi opened his palms, and the ring tied with a red string lay quietly under the warm yellow light.

People always feel that the plots in TV series are too unrealistic, but many times, what happens in real life is more unbelievable than in the virtual world.This is a rare rainy day in this deep winter. Accompanied by the biting cold wind, more and more rain fell on Xu Manxi's face and wet her coat.

Maybe it was because I was really tired and too cold.She sat weakly on the lawn, buried her head in her arms, and mourned with God.

The sound of the rain grew louder, but less and less rain fell on her.She looked up and saw the man holding the umbrella for herself.

In the rain, he was tall and straight, and was hit by the rain. His whole body was naked, and he propped the whole umbrella on top of his head.

"Fairy."

Jin Qian squatted down and reached out to touch her head.In such a late night, he seemed to be her only support.

This is the first time she has taken the initiative to get close to him. Xu Manxi is not a person who depends on others. In addition, she has a cold personality and always looks fierce.So when she took the initiative to lean her head on his shoulder, Jin Qian realized that her vulnerability stimulated him more than her poisonous tongue.Such Xu Manxi made his heart ache deeply.

"I know, it's not easy to move forward." Jin Qian said, "But sometimes, the truth hurts more." Thinking of the scene he once encountered, he glanced at the girl leaning on his shoulder.

"I give up." How grateful to the rain that she could release herself in the heavy rain and blame all her embarrassment on this innocent rain, "If my love burdens her, I give up."