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On the day of leaving school, everything was peaceful, and there was no hugging and crying between roommates deliberately rendered in TV dramas. Of course, the men in the fairy group killed a few symbolic fake cries to express their respect for Xu Manxi. Reluctant.Liu Yu enthusiastically helped Xu Manxi with his luggage, and being able to walk side by side with the fairy in his heart on campus like this was something he never even dared to think about before. Xi was humiliated to the brim, and in the blink of an eye, it was already many years ago.

Xu's family was waiting for her at the school gate, Xu's father's flamboyant stretched luxury car, Xu's mother's luxurious jewelry, and Xu Mengshu who stood upright.Xu Manxi turned her head and waved at the people who came out with her. These four years, good or bad, are finally over.

When getting in the car, Xu Mengshu was sitting in the back seat, asking about his health as usual. She lost her patience and interest to laugh with him. She lowered her head and looked at the photo just taken on the phone. Feeling like a wave.

That teaching building was where she first met her.

Things in the world are always wonderful, because it will give everything an end at the right time, and at this end, all past mistakes will be forgiven and let go.Such as graduation.

Everyone must have experienced the shock of graduation, and the reason why graduates will become particularly sad on the day of graduation is because those bad things will be infinitely reduced on this day, and even selectively forgotten. Looking at the school gradually disappearing from sight, the softness in my heart can only recall the laughter and happiness in the past.

For Xu Manxi, Tsinghua University is a new world, and a new environment is always a new baptism.

Li Yingxu was naturally delighted, because of Xu Manxi's arrival, he also became more motivated to study, and worked hard to be able to successfully enter the school's graduate school.Occasionally, you can still hear trivia about Li Bingxi from him, for example, she was recently selected as an associate professor.In fact, she could choose to let Li Yingxu stop mentioning Li Bingxi, but she found that she still couldn't make up her mind to allow her to disappear completely in her own world. Even though she was as light as a feather in Li Bingxi's heart, she still wanted to keep Li Bingxi in her heart. past traces.

Xu Manxi didn't see Li Yingxu for a long time after the National Day holiday. I haven't contacted her for half a month.Although Xu Manxi found it strange, he didn't think about it or do anything. Li Yingxu had grown up, and he was no longer the reckless little boy he used to be. He had grown into a man. What emotion Xu Manxi didn't know, but Xu Manxi knew that she shouldn't give him extra expectations.

It was eight o'clock in the evening when I came out of the library, earlier than when Xu Manxi returned to the dormitory. That day, she had a bad cold and had a high fever, but she couldn't bear to waste her life lying on the bed, so she still held on. Scalp came to check the information for a while, but the feeling of dizziness became more and more serious, so she had to go back to the dormitory early.

"Brother." Xu Manxi pressed the connect button, waiting for Xu Mengshu to speak.

"Manxi, you go to the school gate and wait for me right now, right now."

"Brother, what's the matter?" Xu Mengshu's voice sounded anxious, and his words were trembling in his usual calm voice, "What happened?"

"Mom was in a car accident and is now in the hospital for emergency treatment."

Xu Manxi had never been like this before. He felt that the distance from Beijing to his home was so long. Xu Mengshu was speeding all the way, racing all the way, and finally with a sudden brake, the words "Central Hospital" came into their eyes.At that moment, she was suddenly afraid, and an unprecedented fear spread to her heart, which made her lack the courage to take a step inside.Until Xu Mengshu held her hand and pulled her all the way to the sixth floor.

I saw the bewildered father, the extinguished red letters of "in operation", and the doctor who took off his mask and came out of the operating room.

There is really a special magnetic field between relatives, or it can also be said to be telepathy.So when the doctor shook his head and said, "I'm sorry we tried our best", Xu Manxi actually felt that it didn't seem so unexpected, it wasn't that unexpected, but half the sky of her world collapsed. Say no and be gone.

When Xu Mengshu, who has always been filial, stepped forward and grabbed his father by the collar to question him and yell at him, Xu Manxi separated the two entangled people and looked at Xu Mengshu: "Are you going to embarrass yourself so that everyone in the world will know?"

Xu Mengshu wiped his eye sockets with his fingertips, pointed at Xu's father: "You are not worthy of being a father, let alone a husband!"

The air suddenly became very quiet. Xu Manxi watched her elderly father squatting on the ground with his head in his arms and crying. She only felt that the headache became more and more obvious, and finally lost her will in a daze.

In the next few days, she couldn't remember how to get by, she lay on the bed like a dead body, and she didn't even remember to call her tutor to ask for leave, so that in the end, the tutor contacted Xu Mengshu to find out the whole story.On the day of Xu's mother's funeral, it started to rain lightly, and it blew on Xu Manxi's face like sharp knives.

Lin Xiang also came. The Lin family and the Xu family are family friends, but Lin Xiang had to admit that while regretting the death of her aunt, she was even more worried about Xu Manxi.It's so easy to get out of the emotional pain, go to a new environment, start a new life, but encounter such a thing again, Xu Manxi is not a female King Kong.

"Death is really so close to us." That was the first sentence Xu Manxi said to her that day.I saw Xu Manxi chuckled, full of bitterness, "Do you think I'm unfilial, my mother died, but I didn't shed a single tear."

Lin Xiang didn't know what to say. Consolation would only increase her sentimentality after all. All she could do was listen and accompany her.

"My mother is a very stupid woman. She thinks my father is the best man in the world. She will never betray her and will always spoil her. Since I was a child, I don't remember how many times I helped my father clean up. It’s a mess, the women he engages in outside, some are mature, some are sexy, some are young and beautiful, and many of them are like concubines in the harem.”

"I know, he can't change Huaxin's faults. But apart from Huaxin, he has always been very good to my mother, almost obedient to everything."

"As for my mother, she is like a princess living in a fairy tale. She is innocent and has no heart at all. She is fragile, innocent, and loves my father. In her heart, my father is her god. This is The reason why I choose to remain silent. I would rather she live a silly and happy life, and I don’t want her to live too clearly, because my mother, once she understands this matter, she will be completely finished. "

But paper can't hold fire, there has never been an impenetrable wall in this world, Xu Manxi went to Beijing, and Xu's father had an old problem again, but this time he was not so lucky, there was no Xu Manxi to help him deal with it With these things, Xu's mother finally discovered the fact that her favorite husband was cheating.He left the house in a fit of anger, and what happened later.

Lin Xiang looked at Xu Manxi's pale face and pale lips, and felt very sorry for Xu Manxi at this moment. Xu's mother is pitiful, very pitiful, but Xu Manxi, she has endured too much. It's not her. Age should bear something.

"My mother's death means that the person who loves me the most in this world is gone. I am very sad and very sad." Xu Manxi raised her head, her eyes were fixed on the ceiling, "But maybe it's because I was too sad Well, because I'm too sad, I can't cry."

After Lin Xiang left, the sound of arguing finally came from the living room again. Xu Manxi didn't want to pay attention to it, but even if he ignored it now, he couldn't escape it in the future.

"Xu Mengshu, can you stop making trouble?" Xu Manxi pulled the two people who were about to fight again, and said to his father, "Dad, I'm hungry, I want to eat potato chips, cumin flavored, go out and help me Can I buy a copy?"

"Xu Xiaoxian." After Xu's father went out, Xu Mengshu looked at Xu Manxi incredulously, "Is this still you? Are you bewitched? Do you know how our mother died? The person who keeps calling you 'Daddy' will kill you!"

"And then?" Xu Manxi met his gaze, and said coldly, "I ask you, what then?"

"What and then, tell me what the fuck else I need and then!"

"Xu Zhiguo is a bastard, a romantic bastard. There is nothing wrong with that. But it is such a bastard who is connected by our blood, our father. I know what you want to ask me, you want to ask me you Don't you feel bad for your mother at all? Do you want to ask me if I care so much about this cheap family relationship? Let me tell you, I feel bad and I care." Xu Manxi softened her tone, feeling sore in her heart, "Brother, you are the pillar of our Xu family. I can't see the relationship between you and your father become so stiff, because then your life will never be easy. I care about family affection, yes. But compared to my father, I I care about you more."

Xu Mengshu turned around, weeping silently, Xu Manxi hugged him from behind, hoping to give him his own strength: "Brother, I can accept the reality calmly, you are so much older than me, you should do it for me Isn’t she a role model? Cheer up, don’t let mom worry about us in heaven.”

She hated Xu Zhiguo, hated him from a very young age.She also loves Xu Zhiguo because he loves her and pets her because he is her father.It seems that in the eyes of many people, she dares to love, dare to hate, stubborn and paranoid, but this is not the reason for her to help Xu Mengshu "isolate" her father.Although she has to admit that her love for Xu Zhiguo cannot be greater than her hatred, because this love has deteriorated with the death of her mother, but when the love deteriorates, even if she can't continue to care for it, at least don't smash it. .

There's only so much she can do.

After returning to the room, looking at the missed call on the phone screen and the word Li Yingxu next to it, Xu Manxi pressed the call back.

It is said that the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge, and that there will be another village in the dark, but God will not be so kind. When you think you are struggling, just take two steps forward, and it will let you know. What is worse.

"Didn't you just leave in the first seven days?" Seeing Xu Manxi tied up her hair and carrying a backpack, Xu Mengshu asked in the living room.

"I have something to do, I'll be back tomorrow."

As soon as Xu Manxi walked to the door, she met her father who came back with several bags of potato lattices. She took them and handed them to Xu Mengshu who was sitting on the sofa. I had no choice but to pick it up, only to hear Xu Manxi say: "Remember to finish eating for me."

Looking at the familiar building in front of him, and the tall figure standing in the sunset not far away, Xu Manxi suddenly felt that the time had gone back to a few months ago, before he graduated.

"Sister Manxi."

"Yingxu."

His eyes were red and swollen, as if he had cried, Xu Manxi patted him on the shoulder.

"Sister Manxi, I'm sorry, I shouldn't bother you, but I really feel desperate now. My elder brother is in jail, my father has a heart attack in a hurry, and our family owes a lot of debts. Now even my sister It's all gone. I, I really don't know what to do."

"Yingxu, don't worry, how about this, you go back to the hospital to take care of your uncle, and leave your sister to me, I will definitely find her."

Li Yingxu rubbed his eyes: "Really? Sister Manxi, do you know where my sister is?"

Xu Manxi nodded: "Well, you go back to the hospital first."

In fact, how could Xu Manxi know where Li Bingxi was? The reason why he said that was just to reassure Li Yingxu temporarily so that he could go back to take care of his father.She hasn't been in touch with Li Bingxi for so long, she doesn't know what friends she has, and she doesn't know where she likes to go. The only thing she can do is to go around the A major to find her trace.From Xu Manxi's point of view, now that something like this happened to the Li family, Li Bingxi will disappear. She just wants to give herself some quiet time, and she won't go too far.

Xu Manxi didn't know what kind of mood she was looking for Li Bingxi. She went to many places and walked aimlessly for a long time. When she got there, she had hallucinations twice, one was when she heard her mother calling her nickname, Another time was seeing Li Bingxi standing in front of her eyes.

"Teacher Li."

The night of University C is no different from that of University A, but the playground of University C is much larger than that of University A. From a distance, people are only a tiny black spot that can be wrapped and lost in the boundless night.

"Manxi." Li Bingxi put the can in his hand beside him, "Why are you here?"

But she didn't answer her, just said: "Miss Li, look." She pointed to a crescent moon in the sky.

"What's wrong."

"Ms. Li, what did you see?" Xu Manxi asked.

"The moon." Li Bingxi smiled wryly, "There is only one moon in such a big sky, and it is lonely, very lonely."

Xu Manxi shook her head: "It won't be alone." Xu Manxi turned her head and looked at Li Bingxi, "Because there are stars accompanying it."

Li Bingxi looked at the moon in the sky, and it was dark beside him.

Xu Manxi continued: "When we were young, the kindergarten teacher told us that it was impossible for the moon and stars to appear in the sky at the same time. I believed it. But when I grew up, I realized that this statement was wrong. In fact, the moon and stars can appear together. Appeared at the same time. It’s just because the brightness of the moon is too large, covering the light of the stars, and sometimes the clouds are too thick, so most of the time we can’t see it.”

"Is that so?" Li Bingxi swallowed his tears, trying to make himself look calmer.

"It's like sometimes, we always feel that we are facing a lot of difficulties alone, and all the burdens are on us, and no one can help us share them. But it is like the moon in the sky, it only looks at I can see my own light, but I can't see that there are many little stars around it to accompany it."

"Manxi..."

"Ms. Li, let me sing a song for you."

——Treading through the thorns to find peace in the bitterness, and walking through the wilderness, my feet are muddy.The sky is full of stars, I am not afraid of the strong wind, I am full of hope, and the darkness is the dawn.

She sang "Star" by Teresa Teng. This song was sung to her by her mother when she was very young. At that time, her mother always taught her that no matter what setbacks she encountered in the future, she must have the courage to overcome them.It's a pity that she did it, but the person who sang it to her didn't.

"Manxi, thank you, no matter what reason you came here, I will thank you for saying these words."

"Ms. Li, if you really want to thank me, stop drinking." She said playfully, "I'm allergic to alcohol."

Li Bingxi put the tab of the soda can into Xu Manxi's palm: "Here." Xu Manxi looked at her, and she explained, "You keep the tab, I won't drink anymore."

The moon was always bright that night, and the bright moonlight shone on them, making them look like a splashed ink painting, blooming with endless beauty.

Lin Xiang was worried about her, so he skipped class and came to City A. After Li Bingxi went to the hospital the next day, he found her. Xu Manxi never kept a secret from Lin Xiang.Lin Xiang asked her: "Why don't you take this opportunity to tell her your heart?"

Xu Manxi said: "Her life has fallen into a mess. The Li family's foreign debts, Brother Li's imprisonment, and Uncle Li's physical condition are all big rocks on her body, and my heart can only be ignited." Add fuel to her and add to her chaos. What she needs is someone with broad shoulders and strong arms who can relieve her worries at critical moments, not me."

"Are you sorry?" Lin Xiang asked her.

"It's regrettable, but regret is also complete."