In love with Hollywood GL

Time is a wonderful thing, sometimes the more you want it to go faster, the more it stays in place and refuses to move forward, and sometimes you hope that time can stop, in the busy In the gap between giving you a breath in a hurry, it will gallop forward instead, without giving you any time to think.

Xu Manxi doesn't know how to describe her four years of life. To outsiders, she seems to have everything she needs. She is beautiful, smart, and has a good family. She is also the star of the boys in the courtyard. She is so perfect. She is perfect, what else is there to be unhappy about?

But Xu Manxi's happiness only exists in the imagination of outsiders.

She can't remember how long it has been since she logged in to the killing game, let alone how long she hasn't "killed" with Li Bingxi. At that time, Li Yingqi told her that Bingxi had a boyfriend and might not have time to play in the future. Luckily, she felt that Li Bingxi would not give up the game, but she really couldn't understand her sister better than her brother. If she couldn't say it, she really never played again.

But after such a long time, many things still haven’t changed. For example, she will still protect [文艺点] regardless of right or wrong. Find out who and who to kill, even though she knows very well that the current [Literary Point] is no longer the previous [Literary Point].

But fortunately, Wenyidian still regards "sweetheart" as a close friend, and after playing a few games, he began to share with her some trivia about love affairs.

She said that her boyfriend was a dull and boring person, not romantic at all, very dull, and he didn't even say that he liked her, but she just fell for it and chose to be with him regardless of the consequences.

She said she was often frustrated by her boyfriend's indifference, though she rarely showed it.

she says,

"During the time I was with him, the most impressive and unforgettable thing for me was the dish of fish-flavored eggplant. It was the first time he cooked for me. It didn't taste very delicious, but I was very happy , I was very touched. Unexpectedly, that was actually the last dinner between us."

"It is said that if you love someone, you must cook a meal for her. I thought he was finally brave enough to express his love to me, but in fact, he was just telling me in this way that he had never loved before. I."

Maybe everyone has had this feeling before, there must be such a string of mobile phone numbers in your mobile phone book. Need the peace of mind after seeing her name.Maybe you are a strong and face-saving person, but whenever you face her, you will always unconsciously become very low, and even have to do thousands of psychological struggles when dialing her mobile phone number.

What if she doesn't answer my call?

If she is busy and I disturb her, will she hate me for it?

Or, if she answered my call, would I be speechless?

……

"Ms. Li." Her voice came from the other end of the phone and penetrated into her heart.

"Xu Manxi?"

Time can change too much, and its cruelty even made Xu Manxi think that the days when she touched her head and said she was a good girl were just figments of her imagination, and they never walked side by side. , she has never received the bowl she sent, and they have always been just the simplest teacher-student relationship, so simple that now she calls her name with a surname.

"Mr. Li, I'm sorry to bother you. I just wanted to say that we are graduating soon, and I..." Xu Manxi held the phone tightly, and suddenly couldn't say a word.

"Is there something wrong? Just say it."

Xu Manxi closed her eyes, and finally mustered up her courage again: "Ms. Li, are you free today? I have a graduation gift I want to give you."

"Today? It's recess now, and class will start later. In the afternoon, there will be a meeting, so I may not be able to spare the time." Of course Xu Manxi knew it was recess, and she didn't know if Li Bingxi had class today , if there is a class, now is the break, and she should be able to take it.

"Ms. Li, I just want to give you something. It won't take too much time. I only need 5 minutes." Because she was too afraid that she would refuse, Xu Manxi immediately added, "If you really want to give me something today It doesn't matter if you don't have time, I can wait a few days."

"Well, how about it, let me see if I can stagger the time today, if I can spare time, I will call you again, is that okay?"

The shrewdness of the teachers is that they will never directly reject the kindness of the students, but when they are really in a difficult situation, they will give the students a way that seems to have a choice but is actually blocked.

"Okay, Mr. Li, then I will wait for you at the gate of the playground at 05:30 this afternoon. If you can't come, please send me a text message, okay?"

"Ok."

Lin Xiang said to her: "Xixi, why don't you understand, she won't go." Lin Xiang's emotions towards Li Bingxi have always been complicated. Li Bingxi is smart and beautiful, and is very popular with the students. , Lin Xiang has no reason to hate her.But Lin Xiang has always been a protector. She can't see Xu Manxi becoming depressed because of someone. In her heart, Xu Manxi should always hold her head up and be proud. That's what Xu Manxi should be like.

Instead of becoming depressed and unconfident like now, like a complete stranger.

Xu Manxi is not stupid, everyone can understand the tactful rejection, how could she not hear it as the person involved?But she is willing to deceive herself and imagine an "accident" that will hardly happen.

"The teachers are off work at 05:30, she shouldn't be busy, and I said I only need 5 minutes, so she probably won't begrudge such a short time." Xu Manxi curled her lips slightly, "And she's a teacher. Teachers won't break their promises or lie to me."

Lin Xiang sighed: "Then are you going to tell her that you are sweetheart?"

Xu Manxi didn't speak at first, and then nodded: "Yeah." There was hesitation and confusion, but in the end he was moved by Li Yingqi's words. He was right, "A person's life is only a hundred years, I don't want to leave regrets for myself." .”

In fact, Xu Manxi's so-called "gift" is just a piece of fish-flavored eggplant that she fried herself, and a stack of thick cowhide books.Since she was a freshman, she never cooked again, until she heard the saying from Li Bingxi that if you love someone, you must cook a meal for her by yourself, until she knew that Li Bingxi was always thinking about the taste of fish-flavored eggplant .So even though her cooking skills were so bad, she still chose to pick up the iron spoon again and cook another dish for her.

A University in June was shrouded in a wave of summer heat. Xu Manxi stood at the gate of the playground with a lunch box in her arms.Because she didn't have a good rest recently, she specially put on light makeup to make herself look more energetic. She wore a water blue dress and her hair was tied into a ponytail. Standing there like a big tree, without looking sideways.

She found that when a person is particularly eager for the presence of another person, it is easy to hallucinate.You will feel that this person has the same hairstyle as hers, and that person has the same body shape as her, as if everyone in the world has become her.

Xu Manxi took out his phone from his pocket. 17:35.She didn't show up, but she didn't send a message either.

She put the phone back in her pocket and chose to continue waiting.She felt that she was a little cautious, because many teachers had to take the bus from the north gate, and as long as they went to the north gate, they would definitely pass the north playground, so even if she forgot to make an agreement with her, she could still go there. Saw her on the road.

It was already dark when Lin Xiang came over. She looked at Xu Manxi standing upright at the gate of the playground, and felt that her feet were heavy and she couldn't move. She didn't know what to say to her.

Instead, Xu Manxi spoke first: "Why are you here?" She chuckled, "But I didn't recognize you as her, she is much taller than you."

Lin Xiangqiang said with a smile: "Well...Yuanhui and the others are playing mahjong in the restaurant, why don't you go over and play a couple of rounds? I just came over there, it's quite interesting."

"You go back first."

"Xixi, she..."

"She won't lie to me." Xu Manxi interrupted her, "Go back first."

The more Lin Xiang thought about it, the more angry he became, and he couldn't help but said: "I clearly agreed to send you a message if something happened, but I didn't come and didn't send it. Why is she like this? Is she still a teacher?"

"Who allowed you to say that about her?" Xu Manxi frowned.

"Did I say something wrong?" Lin Xiang did not back down.

"How do you know she didn't message me?"

"She sent it? Then why are you still waiting here?"

"Because I'm cheap." Xu Manxi clenched his fists, nails imprinted into his palms, and there was a dull pain, "Can I be cheap?"

Lin Xiang closed her eyes and sighed. She didn't even know what mood she was in at the moment. She was angry, hurt, and reluctant, but in the end she just nodded and said, "Okay, since you want to wait, then you can do it yourself." Wait here slowly. It's best to wait until the end of time."

The weather was not very good that day, especially at night, not only did the temperature not drop, but it became more sultry, and then there was a light rain, but fortunately, there was no thunder.Time passed quickly, but also very slowly.It was so fast that for other people, the night passed when they closed their eyes, and it was so slow that for Xu Manxi, she sat in the stands and witnessed the change of the weather that night.Waited from dawn to dark, and sat from dark to dawn.

"You've been waiting here?" When he walked up to the stands and looked at Xu Manxi who was sitting quietly, Lin Xiang felt as if something was blocking his throat, and he held it in for a long time before trying to speak out. A complete sentence.

"Ah."

Her hmm made Lin Xiang cry almost uncontrollably. For 21 years, she has never seen Xu Manxi look so humble.That proud girl who was held in the palm of everyone's hands like stars holding the moon and cared for by everyone, has gradually worn away all her sharp edges and corners in the past four years, becoming a temperless, selfless, A man down to the dust.

"Xixi, I'm sorry." She stepped forward and hugged her tightly, repeating this sorry, because the two of them had a bad fight yesterday, Lin Xiang turned off the phone and went back to the dormitory angrily, she thought she would wait a little longer She will go back to the dormitory, but she never expected that she still hasn't left until now.

"It's okay." Xu Manxi patted her on the head.

Lin Xiang fell into deep regret and self-blame, leaving her here alone, not to mention that it rained last night, but what to do if she meets a bad person, she will regret it for the rest of her life.

"The food is cold."

Lin Xiang pulled out a smile and touched her hair: "Xixi, this is her regret. She missed the most ardent sincerity."

"Whether it's her regret, I don't know, but I know, I'm sorry." Xu Manxi hugged her back and closed her eyes, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

This may be the reason why Xu Manxi and Lin Xiang can become good friends, because Lin Xiang can always accompany her quietly when she needs company, and listen quietly when she needs to talk.Lin Xiang, she won't be outraged and say I'll call Li Bingxi for you to ask why she didn't come. Never feel alone again.

"Last night, there were 21 people running at night. Among them were eight boys, thirteen girls, and a couple sitting behind me watching a movie. It was very noisy. After they left, another one came. The guy with the afro, talking on the phone loudly behind me, is even louder than that couple."

"Lin Xiang, I saw a lot of people. When everyone was walking towards me, I looked at their blurred figures in the dark, and felt that they were the people I was waiting for."

"Lin Xiang, can you buy me a few bottles of beer?"

Lin Xiang walked side by side with her, carrying the canned beer he just bought, from the playground to Luoxue Lake.Several colleges were still taking graduation photos. The girls in academic gowns had cute smiles on their faces and academic caps on their heads.The past four years have passed like this.Good, bad, all are frozen in the camera at this moment, embedded in the trajectory of life.

"Actually, I don't drink very well. After the college entrance examination, I blushed after drinking a glass of beer at home, so my father doesn't allow me to drink outside." In the small pavilion in Luoxue Lake, Xu Manxi was holding a beer bottle with Qingdao engraved on the outside. The words of Laoshan, the taste is a bit astringent, penetrated into the heart, cool, "Yesterday I really wanted to go to the supermarket to buy a few bottles, but if she comes, I can't let her see me drunk."

In Lin Xiang's memory, that was the first time she saw Xu Manxi cry. For 21 years, in Lin Xiang's heart, she was like a female Vajra, who lost her skin and flesh without shedding tears, shed blood and sweat without shedding tears, and sometimes gave people a very indifferent and hard-hearted feeling, as if no matter what happened. There was no way to impress her, and she couldn't touch her heart. She had a lot of laughter and tears, and she had almost no emotions.

I'm used to seeing her domineering, arrogant and fierce. When she really becomes very fragile and vulnerable, the huge shock can't be described in words.

At least, for Lin Xiang, her tears at this moment hurt her more than any of her harsh words in the past.

"Actually, I know she won't come, I knew it from what she said, but I just stubbornly don't want to smash the last hope, at least not by myself." She put the bag in the On the stone table, there were seven cowhide books inside. "After seeing her, I started to develop the habit of writing a diary. It is a diary, but it can also be said to be a catharsis, or another way of expressing emotions. Although I can't Seeing her every day, although we can only maintain a teacher-student relationship with her, at least I can say everything I want to say in the diary. When I saw her on the first day, I gave my diary a title. , called the first letter to Bingxi, and it has been almost four years since the 430th letter."

"Maybe you think it's touching, or you think I'm stupid, but in fact it's just a dream. When I wake up from the dream, I should have realized earlier that not everyone in this world revolves around me."

"She didn't come over, and she didn't send me a text message, not because she hated me, but because she didn't even hate me, but just because she forgot about it. To me, she is one of the teachers. The only one, but to her, I am one of the students. The one who is a little bit special in her heart is 'sweetheart', not Xu Manxi."

"My wishful thinking, in the end, only moved me."