Cinderella's Gypsophila

After that, a full two weeks.

For the final exam and the winter vacation, Qi Yan never went back to school.

It snowed for several days during the holiday.Zhuo Ziwei was restless at home all day long, but luckily he finally received a call from Qi Yan.

Regardless of his parents' nagging and ridicule, he approved his coat, took his things, and ran out the door.

In the snow, Qi Yan stood alone.The braces on his legs were finally removed, and the down jacket was a bit too thin, and he stood thin and thin in the cold wind in the snow, which made people feel distressed.

Zhuo Ziwei: "Really, you don't wear too much."

Qi Yan: "I'm not cold."

Qi Yan asked Zhuo Ziwei to come out to ask him to borrow money.The top students have the foresight and have prepared a large sum in advance.It was from his eldest cousin who was already working, and it was almost Chinese New Year, so he could use the New Year's money to make up for it.

Qi Yan: "Thank you, I will return it to you as soon as possible."

Zhuo Ziwei: "Use it slowly, I'm not in a hurry. By the way, here are the key points and notes for the end of the term, and my laptop, so you can use it first. Qi Yan, you... How are you? How are you doing now?"

Qi Yan's black pupils were calm: "Well, it's okay, don't worry."

Zhuo Zi was silent for a moment, he didn't know how Qi Yan could be so calm.

That day, when he walked to the school gate with Yu Qing, he met Yu Qing's parents who came to pick him up by car.Yu Qing's parents had bright eyes and insisted on pulling him to eat together.

At the dinner table, the couple knew everything, and Zhuo Ziwei knew everything.

"Alas! Alas! Alas! We also watched him grow up, this child and his mother have suffered too much! You said that his mother is a good person. For more than ten years, she has been virtuous and family-friendly, gentle and quiet. Yes, how did it end up like this, shouldn’t good people be rewarded?”

"Being driven crazy is bad enough, I didn't expect people to want her life! Yes, she didn't fall to death, but isn't falling into a vegetative state worse than death?"

"It's a crime... The doctor said that there is still hope of waking up, but in reality, how many vegetative people will finally wake up?"

"What's even more irritating is that the villainous mistress was detained for a few days, and then she was released! It is said that someone in the Invalids Hospital proved that she was not the one who pushed, but that Qi Yan's mother ran too fast and fell down. .”

"I really don't know where the witness came from? Did you collect the money?!"

"Take a step back, even if she really didn't push it, if she didn't run around and mess around to scare him, how could he fall down the stairs when he was doing well? The responsibility is the same whether he stretches out his hand or pushes! It's all her fault!"

"Oh, you haven't seen Xiao Yan like that day, it's really unbearable."

"He refused to eat or drink, and refused to change his wet clothes, so he stayed outside the operating room all night without sleep. His father was also cruel, and he didn't care about their mother and child. He ran to the police station after paying the money. Go with the bad girl!"

"He just sat there alone, didn't speak, and didn't know how to cry. Both your uncle and I also have sons, and we are too uncomfortable to watch! It's too late for us to raise a baby, how can we be willing to let him Suffer this kind of grievance!"

"Forget it, forget it, it's too miserable, let's not talk about it. Eat vegetables, eat vegetables, hey."

"..."

……

Qi Yan would never go to a friend to borrow money if he had other options.

I remember that when I was a child, my family was cheated of money for a while, and they were struggling for several months.And his mother happened to have a best friend who was married to the United States and came back for the New Year. Several relatives around her suggested that Qi Yan's mother, your best friend is rich, so why not ask her for a turnaround.

"Didn't your friends for so many years help each other at critical moments?"

But mother hesitated.

"Although it's been a bit tight recently, it's more or less passable. Things like borrowing money really hurt feelings. It's because I treat her as a good friend, let alone say so easily."

"If I can't hold on any longer, I'll go find her. But it should be okay for now, right Xiaoyan? The big deal is to grit your teeth and eat a few bites of meat, and next year mom will buy you small cakes and new clothes?"

Qi Yan didn't understand when he was young.

At that time, his eyes were full of tears, because he wanted to eat meat and small cakes.But now I understand my mother's heart more and more.

It's just that he is really at the end of his rope now.

His father just paid his mother a deposit for the operation fee and ignored it, and the follow-up expenses were not enough at all.There are no relatives at his mother's side, and the only reliable one at his father's side is his grandma, but grandma is alone in the country, supporting his younger sister Xiaoyue with the meager rental income, and grandma has no money.

Qi Yan is really grateful to Zhuo Ziwei.

To be able to conjure up 2000 yuan for him, solved his urgent need, and let him at least make up for the recent hospitalization expenses.On the same night, Xiao Mingchao, the rich young man who slept with him, went to the Internet cafe to find him, and gave him 3000 yuan without any explanation.

"Someone asked me to give it to you, keep it and don't lose it."

He ran away after stuffing the money, without giving Qi Yan any time to react.Qi Yan later thought to himself, who else could it be?Zhuo Ziwei must have told him.

Should not have said.But what to do... Now is not the time to save face.

Zhuo Ziwei's 2000 yuan solved his big problem of hospitalization expenses, and Xiao Mingchao's [-] yuan gave him a sense of security.

Anyway, I have a little money on hand.

Mom can take care of any problems in the hospital.And now he will never go back to the home of Qi Shengbin and Meng Xinlan, and the winter vacation dormitory is also closed. With the 3000 yuan, he can finally find a place to stay.

In the days before, Qi Yan lived in an Internet cafe.

The first reason is that there is no money, and the second is convenience - he needs money, and the most familiar way to get money is to accept programming work in online forums.

The founder of the forum, Xun, was kind to him. He had given him some odd jobs before, allowing him to collect tuition fees and small change.Now he's starting to ask Xun for higher-level, more lucrative jobs.

The high-level work is complicated and hard. Fortunately, Qi Yan is indeed talented, has a way to solve bugs, and is also very hardworking-every time he gets a job, he writes on the Internet cafe computer desperately, and eats a few mouthfuls of bread and instant noodles when he is hungry. If you are really sleepy, just sleep for a while, get up and continue knocking.

Only when the project is completed can he get money. He has no time to waste, he must maintain quality and quantity, and must be serious.

In order to get more money as soon as possible.

Apart from money, he no longer knows what else he can barely use to protect his mother and himself.

On the night of the accident, he stayed outside the operating room, didn't sleep all night, and almost collapsed.

But it was just that night.

The next morning, he stood by his mother's hospital bed, looking at those frighteningly cold tubes and delicate beating instruments.

The doctor passed by and looked at him very pitifully, so he comforted him and said, son, you should at least change your clothes, take a hot bath, and eat some food, otherwise your body will not be able to bear it, and the hospital will take care of your mother for you. ah?

Qi Yan thought about it.

You're right, it's really useless.

Even though he kept his eyes closed all the time, he could still see his mother's long tea-brown curly hair mixed with scarlet blood under the stairs.That horrible scene, that depressive despair that can't be screamed out, is vivid in my mind.

If you want to crash, it's enough to crash a hundred times at any time.

But the reality and cruelty of life is like this - collapse is useless.

A person who is fragile and slender, who is defeated by life and retreats again and again, can only be bullied like his mother.If he does not want to repeat the same mistakes, he must be invincible.Even if it's hell with knives and shackles and shackles, you have to carry them alive and kick, and piss off those who don't want him to be good.

There is always a kind of person in the world who will never turn back and never admit defeat.

Everything that can't be killed will make him stronger.

He has no time to go crazy.

He still has a lot of things to deal with.

……

That weekend, Qi Yan went to the nearby clinic alone to remove the retainer.

While Meng Xinlan and Qi Shengbin were still explaining things at the police station, he went back home again. The door lock was changed, so he asked a locksmith to pick the lock.

Qi Yan's mother has a simple and elegant taste, but Meng Xinlan likes bright red, green and gaudy things. In order to show the fact that "this house has changed the mistress", she made a lot of ridiculous decorations.The whole house, from the living room to the master bedroom, was decorated nondescriptly by her.

Qi Yan has always felt that it is an eyesore, but now he is finally unscrupulous.

They smashed all the gaudy vases, and tore up the fake rich and fake silk curtains and lampshades.The TV refrigerator was smashed and the bed was flooded with soy sauce and vinegar.Meng Xinlan had a closet of colorful baby skirts, all cut into strips of mop cloth.

It was only after returning to the room that he slowly packed up all the few things he had left.

Take away what you can take away, pack what you can't take away, and calmly knock on the door of Yu Qing's house downstairs to ask for help to store it temporarily.

He called Xia Lili again.

The gold necklace that Meng Xinlan was looking for, he never had time to give to his mother, is still hidden in Xia Lili's house.

The necklace was made of pure gold and was relatively heavy. It should fetch at least 5 to [-] yuan. Meng Xinlan was arguing like crazy before, saying that she would take it back and sell it to pay her son's hospital bill.

But Qi Yan is very clear.

The gold necklace seemed to be the trigger for the whole thing, but it wasn't at all.

He snatched that necklace early on. Although Meng Xinlan was not convinced, she had no choice but to let it go.After junior high school, he left home to live in school. In order to win over his father, the woman even tried to curry favor with him for a while, and never mentioned the necklace again.

In the same way, Qi Shengbin didn't have much money, but he wasn't so stretched that he couldn't even pay for his hospitalization.

The necklace is just an excuse.

Meng Xinlan suddenly bit at him like a mad dog, hating and slandering him, it had nothing to do with the necklace, it was all because he "seduced" her precious son.

Fine, seduce.

great.

In Meng Xinlan's eyes, he is really capable, trying to survive in the cracks every day, and still has time to "seduce" others!

Thinking about it, Qi Yan stopped typing on the keyboard and rubbed the sore brows.

The rain was cold that day, and he was helped out by the police in a daze, with a bloody smell on his body.

It hurts when the raindrops hit.

Like a side of hail, scratching the nerves.

He was drenched all over, there was no sound of rain in the world, only his own suppressed breathing, until he raised his eyes at a certain moment, and Cheng Cheng stood in front of him.

The rain seemed to stop for a moment, silent lightning, like daytime.

Cheng Cheng's gray pupils were full of panic and bewilderment.His face was pale, and the cold air of his breath fell on the thick scarf—that was the gray pure cashmere scarf he bought for him before, and it should have been a very warm scarf.

Don't get wet. At that time, the clerk said that good things should be cherished.

but.

But there are many beautiful things in this world, no matter how cherished and cared for, the result is doomed to be in vain.

"Xiaoyan..."

Cheng Cheng's pale lips moved, as if he had said something.

The rain was so loud that Qi Yan couldn't hear it.At that moment, the world seemed to be split. On one side was Meng Xinlan's ferocious face, clamoring frantically that you seduced my son, why don't you die.On one side is the way Cheng Cheng looked at him in countless memories, gentle, restrained, quiet, and shimmering.

...he was just an ordinary person.

His father doesn't care about him, and his mother is not around, but he still longs to be loved and protected. What's wrong with that?

At this time, a "brother" reached out to him to protect him and love him. He felt warm. What's wrong with that?

Even if I gradually realized later, there seemed to be some obscure feelings mixed in that doting.

But he pretended that he was dull and didn't see through, because he wanted that warmth after all.

He was so naive.

If he had known that this would be the end result, if he had known that the sweet and sour apple would be a deadly poison, he would not have wanted it in the first place, nothing at all.

But he didn't understand.He took some warmth, but who did he "seduce"?

Has he done anything other than a younger brother shouldn't?Is there anything wrong with him?It's obviously someone else's own initiative...

His fingertips suddenly felt hot.

Qi Yan seemed to have been burned, and his immediate subconscious reaction was to roughly push Cheng Cheng away.

Panting, like a ferocious little beast clutching its wound, its expression was distorted, and its black pupils were filled with ice-like determination.

"You...don't touch me," he said hoarsely, "stay away from me!"

"..."

"I said, let you stay away from me. Are you deaf and can't hear? Still standing still? Let you go, go away, take your mother with you, and roll as far away as possible!"

The rain was pouring, and the water vapor filled the air.

Cheng Sheng's expression was blank.

He stood there blankly without moving, as if he was confused or shocked, his gray eyes were confused and fragile.

If it was before, Qi Yan would be soft-hearted.

But, but now.He took a deep breath, only to feel his throat was rough and still lack of oxygen.

If by now, his cuffs were stained with his mother's blood, he would still have a little compassion for the mother and child.

"Go! Go! I beg you, I really... really can't afford to offend you mother and son, please go, okay?"

"Your mother said I seduced you. What did I seduce you for?"

"Okay, since she thinks so, I'll try to stay as far away from you as possible in the future, okay? There's no reason to go crazy, right? Are you satisfied?"

"Let's go! Your mother is mentally ill, and you are also mentally ill, Cheng Cheng? Why are you still standing here? Why are you looking for me? It's because you are so crazy every day that your mother came here to kill people." Come on! I beg you, if you are sick and need to be treated, can you let normal people go? Can you stop pretending to be pitiful for me here?"

"Who has pity on me? What did I do wrong to be entangled by people like you?"

"Since your mother loves you so much, she will give you a complete family at the expense of destroying other people's happiness. You are so filial to her, and you will live together for the rest of your life! Why do you bring innocent people along?"

"Cheng Cheng, once... I had a complete family."

"Once upon a time, I was also happy."

There used to be someone who loved me unconditionally.There is a mother, there is a sister.I didn't need you to love me.

not enough.

What you and your mother owe me, no matter how much love you give me, it is far from enough to make up for it.

……

Qi Yan clearly remembered that he was watching Cheng Cheng unable to argue, seeing him struggling to breathe, seeing his gray eyes full of pain, and clutching his chest tightly.

Until watching him fall.

He remembered that he cherished his brother in the past, as if he wanted to pamper him and love him in the past.

However, it turned out that when the hatred and anger far outweighed the love, that little love couldn't support it at all.

……

……

After Cheng Cheng passed out, of course he was hospitalized again.

But anyway, Meng Xinlan was released, she was taking care of her, her mother was kind and her son was filial, so he didn't need to worry about her.

Qi Yan worked day and night in the Internet cafe for several days, and the big project given by "Xun" was finally delivered on time.

too tired.

My body smelled of smoke from Internet cafes, and my clothes hadn't been changed for a long time, so they all smelled bad.

Qi Yan then dragged his exhausted body to buy a change of clothes, and then went to a small hotel to get a room, took a shower, and fell asleep in the dark.

When I woke up, I was still groggy, and I watched TV a few times without interest, and felt very hungry.

Downstairs of the hotel is the snack street in the city center with noisy people.

The New Year is approaching, and the rabbit lanterns and reflective star confetti hanging all over the snack street are so familiar when you look up.

Walking to the side of the small temple in the city center, Qi Yan casually ordered a bowl of chaos at the stall.

A man sat at the corner of the table and waited.

The bragging and laughing of several men came from the next table.A young mother over there is coaxing her daughter, and a young couple on the opposite side is shyly feeding each other.

The wontons are on the table, very hot, fresh and sweet.

After eating instant noodles and bean paste bread for so many days, he almost forgot the taste of other foods.

Too bad the soup was a bit salty.

He couldn't finish the drink, and stared blankly at the bottom of the bowl.Calm clear soup with a few shreds of green onion.

Suddenly, for no reason.Emotions began to cover the sky silently, his body seemed to be broken into pieces, and he could see the veins on the back of his hands.

He thought, he must be hideous at the moment.

He was afraid that he would cry and be ashamed, so he went to tear the rough paper on the table.But until the end, there was not a single tear.

The heavy sour feeling that you can't cry out is a bit scary, but it doesn't matter if you get used to it.

He felt that he could feel the negative emotions of the whole world, but at the same time, he couldn't feel anything.

The next day, the "Xun" money arrived.

It was much more than expected, Zhuo Ziwei and Xiao Mingchao had enough money to pay back.

Qi Yan tapped "Xun": I can do it again.

Xun: How many days do you need to rest?

Qi Yan replied "no".He has no time to rest now.

The author has something to say: Meng Xinlan really didn't push it, she was just looking for faults, and she caused others to stumble.After all, it was still her fault, but Qingqing's mother firmly believed that she did it.

Buried a small foreshadowing.

Just, it’s a bit (?) cruel, and the blackening progress bar is also slightly turned on, but don’t rush hhh.You can he, and it's sweet he=w=+