Cinderella's Gypsophila

When Qi Xiaoyue returned home, she secretly hid the "trophies" without telling her parents.

I closed the door to do my homework, and couldn't help but turn out the small bottle of nail polish again.Although she didn't dare to paint it, even if she brushed it on her little finger, it would definitely bring her endless troubles.

She opened the bottle cap, and the glistening liquid inside was viscous.

Nail polish with a chemical-like "scent of paint" is not good for your health. She knows this, but she still smells it again and again.Finally, I quietly brushed on the pencil case a few times, brushing out shiny letters.

Satisfied.

At night, Qi Xiaoyue lay on the bed, silently remembering those strange words Zhuo Ziwei said before they left.

"Look into my eyes." Zhuo Ziwei said.

"And imagine that you're not looking at me now—your body is still you, and your soul is still soul. But now your body is looking at me, and your soul is somewhere else."

"It's by the sea, it's in the forest, maybe it's singing and dancing, in a place where there's no sorrow. So whatever other people are saying to your body, you don't hear it, you don't feel it, you don't get angry."

"This behavior is scientifically called 'dissociation.'"

"It is considered a type of mental illness, which means that people will enter a state of dissociation due to stress or trauma, confusion of self-identity, change of self-identity, loss of sense of reality, loss of self-sense. The definition is very complicated, but the specific description is also very simple—— "

"When you are 'dissociated', you can not put any emotions into everything, just like your soul is out of your body, watching the performance of "other people"."

These words were so weird that Qi Xiaoyue didn't understand.

"You mean, let me become a psychopath?"

Zhuo Ziwei: "I'm effectively preventing you from being forced into a neuropathy! Our dissociation is active and controllable, while the "dissociation" of mental illness is passive and uncontrollable. This is the difference."

Qi Xiaoyue: "..."

Qi Xiaoyue: "I don't understand."

Zhuo Ziwei was helpless: "Well, maybe it's okay if you don't understand. After all, once you learn it, although the sad feeling will disappear, and the happiness and happiness will also go away. In the end, you will become numb and have no feeling. You'd better not learn it well. "

Qi Xiaoyue is now lying on the bed in a daze, still not understanding.

No.1 is too inscrutable.

She hid those little trophies of hers behind the bookshelf. Although she was worried that her parents would dig them out, they were not worth the satisfaction of "owning".

She just fell asleep with her arms around her.

……

The weekend passed.Qi Yan didn't come to class on Monday.

On Tuesday and Wednesday, his seat was still empty.

Zhuo Ziwei: "Teacher, can you give me his home address? I'll send him homework and notes."

Teacher: "You don't need to worry about this matter. His family is in love with Shuwu Xi, and the rest of the matter can be handled by adults."

For other matters, no matter how much Zhuo Ziwei asked, he couldn't ask anything.

Xiao Mingchao and Han Fei didn't take it seriously because there was one person missing in the dormitory.Han Fei's family is in the countryside, and he would occasionally ask for leave to go home to help during the busy farming season, while Xiao Mingchao also did the harmful thing of skipping school for a week and going to Internet cafes.

"The teacher said it's okay, then it must be okay! Don't worry, don't worry!"

Xiao Mingchao took out his computer and started playing a cartoon.The male protagonist of the cartoon is also a teenager, but he already holds a magic sword in his hand, capable of saving the world and slaying evil dragons.

An enviable world.There, the young man can be passionate, pure and honest, and can become the person he really wants to be.

In fact, the real teenage years are not necessarily difficult. There are also many people who can pass through normally like Xiao Mingchao and Han Fei. They are busy with their studies, or ignorant, and they pass by in a flash.

But for others, it happens to be the most unbearable age in their lives.

Qi Yan's seat was always empty, and Zhuo Ziwei was always worried.

But soon, he also had his own troubles.

When he went out to buy food during the big class break on Thursday, he was blocked by some boys he didn't know.

Ever since No. [-] Middle School merged with No. [-] Middle School, the atmosphere on campus has changed.Sixth Middle School is an ordinary junior high school that charges sponsorship fees wildly. Among the students, there are quite a few gangsters from wealthy families who love to make trouble.

Although Zhuo Ziwei, as a top student, had no relationship with this kind of people, he was handsome, had good grades, and was the best in the forest.

Many little girls who had never spoken before fell in love with him at first sight without authorization, and mentioned him at every turn.

The teenagers have all grown up to be jealous, and some unconvinced punks are naturally dissatisfied with him.

Zhuo Ziwei was a top student no matter what, so being beaten up was a big deal, but the school found out that the boy named Liu Yu who took the lead in provoking trouble had a lot of connections in his family.Liu Yu's father entrepreneur is very arrogant.Mother's official position is higher than that of the principal of No. [-] Middle School, and she is full of official authority.

So the principal couldn't do anything about it in the end, he could only admit that he was cowardly, let the teacher criticize and mediate, and let it go.

Zhuo Ziwei's parents: "I told you to study hard and avoid dealing with dubious people! Why don't you listen?"

"If you ignore them, are they still sticking to you? You can't slap them, why are you only looking for you and not others? You must have done something wrong, reflect on it!"

They talked a lot, Zhuo Ziwei didn't answer at all, just looked out of the window dazedly.

Maybe a long time ago, every time he listened to the ridiculous accusations of these so-called intellectual parents who suddenly downed their wits, he still had the urge to want to die.

But later, he has learned to withdraw his soul and stay out of it.

Active dissociation is really easy to use, and you can't feel anything.

The weather is getting colder and colder.

It was only a few days before the winter vacation. As a lonely and incomprehensible blue whale in the deep sea, Zhuozi Micro-Working helped Qi Yan copy a whole set of notes, hoping that he would come back.

That day when he walked out of class after school, he found the little fool Yu Qing waiting at the door.

The boy's face lit up when he saw him.

Zhuo Ziwei was in a daze for a moment, he seemed to always choose to forget that he still had such a "pen pal".

After all, he has been absent-mindedly answering letters to this person, writing casually, all as doing good deeds.If it weren't for the little fool's persistence, rain or shine, he would definitely stuff a crooked letter every few days, and he would always look at him expectantly, this activity would not have lasted that long.

It was snowing lightly and it was very cold. Yu Qing waited for him for a long time, her hands were red from the cold.

The squad leader covered his face with a thick plaid scarf. He was as shy as ever, and he didn't speak. He was about to run after handing over the letter.

Zhuo Ziwei stopped him: "Wait a minute, do you live downstairs from Qi Yan's house? Do you know what happened to him?"

Yu Qing nodded, and ran back to Zhuo Ziwei's side.

He actually didn't understand what happened, but he clearly remembered that a week ago when the chickens were flying upstairs, Xiao Sheng's brother fell to the ground with a "bang", and then Aunt Meng cried and yelled and went downstairs to beg him. My parents drove me to the hospital for help.

The doctor said that Brother Xiaosheng was not in good health and would be hospitalized for a while.

Cheng Cheng entered the hospital, and the upstairs was finally quiet for a day.

But on the second night, there was a heavy rain, and Yu Qing stared at the world in the rain by the window in a daze. Looking at it, he saw a police car with lights flashing to send Qi Yan's family back.

Aunt Meng got out of the car, but refused to go upstairs, crying and arguing about the money in the rain, saying that the necklace was on Qi Yan's mother in the mental hospital, she was going to find the woman to get the necklace and sell it Pay the son's hospital bill.

Crying, she broke away from the man and took a taxi, and the father and son stopped the car and chased after him.

Yu Qing's mother was lying on the window: "Oh, what's the matter! Why did it go to the police station? Besides, this is going to make a big fuss in a mental hospital? The lunatics are not let go, is it too much bullying?"

As she spoke, she glanced at her husband: "As old neighbors, should we help..."

Yu Qing's father: "Hey, our family has a car. But it's not appropriate for us to join in the fun of other people's affairs?"

While talking, suddenly the doorbell rang harshly.

When he opened the door, he saw Cheng Cheng, who was drenched all over and had pale lips like a ghost.

Yu Qing's mother was shocked: "Ah? Xiaosheng, why did you run out of the hospital? Didn't the doctor say that you must recuperate in the hospital? Oh my god, it's so cold in winter!"

"Uncle, Auntie," Cheng Cheng's face turned pale, his voice seemed hoarse, and his tone changed drastically, "you, you know... where did my mother and Xiaoyan go?"

……

……

Thunder and lightning flashed, and it rained cats and dogs.

The surrounding trees were illuminated like ghosts.

Cochlear implants are said to be waterproof, but in fact they are only moisture-proof.After getting wet, there was a lot of noise, and the sound drilled into my head.

Cheng Cheng nestled in the back seat of the car, dizzy from being bumped, and his stomach ached.He was already weak, and the harsh winter rain made his teeth chatter uncontrollably.

"Thank you, thank you, auntie..."

Yu Qing's mother sighed, rubbed Cheng Cheng's wet forehead with a towel, and called her husband to turn on the heating in the car.

The direction of the car is the Invalids Hospital in the suburbs far away.

Yu Qing's mother: "Oh, but in fact, I shouldn't have listened to you. You should be sent back to the hospital. If something happens to you later, your mother will definitely blame us?"

Cheng Cheng was very anxious: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry Auntie, I will try my best to solve the problem, thank you, thank you for being willing to send me..."

Yu Qing's mother didn't say anything, sighed, and handed over the thermos again.

The hot tea in the cup made people's eyes burn. Cheng Cheng drank it in one gulp, and his stomach twitched from the heat. He gritted his teeth again to hold it back.

Xiaoyan...

The rain was so heavy that there was confusion outside the window.

Cheng Cheng lowered his gray eyes, his whole body was exhausted and haggard. He actually knew that he shouldn't leave the hospital with his broken body, but he couldn't help but come.

After the postscript, there is a dilemma.

Don't come, I'm afraid his mother will do something to Xiao Yan.But here it comes, his mother will probably only get crazier.

In the end how to do?

Who can tell him what to do.

My stomach hurts more and more.Cheng Cheng suppressed his groans, and stooped even more.

He couldn't figure it out, how the hell could he see such a hidden and humble little thought, his hidden feelings so deeply?

From yesterday to today, no matter how many times I was in the hospital in unbearable pain and drowsy, and finally woke up, I could hear Meng Xinlan whispering in my ear, Xiao Sheng, you must promise your mother, nothing else matters.

It is not important to study or work, the body is the most important.Take care of your health early, Mom doesn't want you to be a high-ranking official to earn a lot of money, as long as you have a good life in the future, get married and have children and live a normal life.

I remember that since you were young, you have always been closest to your mother. You don't like your father, neighbor uncle, or male teacher.You have been excellent since you were a child, and many girls have always liked you. Before you were sick and hospitalized, female classmates often came to see you.

Xiao Sheng, is it true that mom is controlling you too tightly?Is it because your mother used to say that dating is not allowed before work, so you dare not have more contact with girls?

Actually, it’s okay, you play with them more, girls at this age are pretty good, but boys are very bad.

Xiaosheng, mom won't say much, I just hope you are well.You are my mother's only hope. If you are taken away, your mother will have to jump into the river, hang herself, and drink pesticides!Your mother worked so hard to pull you so big, you don't want to kill your mother, do you?

Xiao Sheng, heal your body first, the hospital can also treat other problems, let's treat slowly...

Sentence after sentence, like an overwhelming cloud, wrapped in darkness.Take your breath away.There is nowhere to hide.There is no escape.

He was powerless to refute, and it was futile to refute what he knew.

He hardly dared to think about the scene where his mother tried to scald Qi Yan with boiled soup like crazy, and the steel water hanger hit him.

……rule.He ruled.

It's all his fault, he's not normal.Can he cure it? !Xiao Yan is not wrong, it is all his fault, as long as he is normal...

As long as he was normal, his mother wouldn't hold such deep malice towards Xiao Yan.

He is really scared, and he will take care of it.

I will obediently put away all my thoughts and never think about it again.Strangling, strangling the heart, even if it can no longer beat alive, if this can protect Xiao Yan, if this can let his mother let him go.

It's all his fault.It's long overdue.

Cheng Cheng closed his eyes in pain, thinking of that dazzlingly bright afternoon a few years ago, his heart was throbbing with pain, wave after wave.

Qi Yan said that reality is not a fairy tale world, and there is no Emerald Forest.

That is your mother, if things go on like this, one day, we will go farther and farther, and I will never be able to forgive you because of her.

At that time, Qi Yan was very young, only eleven or twelve years old, yet he had such foresight.

He said that it is better for us not to get involved, it is good for everyone.

Qi Yan was right.

...it was him who was stupid.It was because he was unwilling to let go, because he was lucky.

It was he who took advantage of Xiaoyan's warmth and kindness, and selfishly tried to steal a sliver of sweet hope that should not belong to him.

But, thinking about it now, what was he expecting from the beginning to the end?

Looking forward to getting a response one day?Looking forward to receiving blessings from your family?How can it be!

Knowing that every comfort, every closeness and hug is just drinking poison to quench thirst.

Why do you still have expectations and blind your eyes.

He is a boy.

His health is very poor, he may die of illness at any time, and his personality is dull and boring.

Really stupid, very stupid.

Cheng Cheng clenched his teeth tightly, and a bloody smell rose from his mouth.Unable to breathe, he leaned his head against the cold car window, trying not to make a sound.

Yu Qing: "Brother Xiaosheng..."

The little fool rubbed his fingertips, he was very dull, but he felt as if he was crying.

……

In an extremely remote suburb, at the entrance of the Invalids Hospital, ambulances and police cars flashed their lights, making it noisy.

"What are you doing!"

Yu Qing's mother got out of the car: "A relative, it's a relative! Hey, I just wanted to ask what happened to the family that came here just now?"

"You mean the woman who broke in? That woman has been taken away by the police. Hey, I heard that she is the concubine raised by a man, right? Now the concubine is so arrogant? She broke into the mental hospital in the middle of the night , to push his ex-wife down the stairs?"

There was a burst of thunder, and Cheng Cheng froze completely.

The murmur in the cochlea boils instantly, and the whole world is generally unreal as a blank sheet of paper.

Amid the pattering rain, Yu Qing's mother's voice became very far away: "What! How did this happen? What happened to the original partner! No life is in danger!"

"It's hard to say. The head hit the ground and bled a lot. It was just taken away by ambulance. It's hard to say whether I can save my life."

"But why did she push her?"

"Well, who knows? It's unlucky, the family was forced to die by a third party? You didn't see the scene, it was miserable, and her son was even worse! I couldn't cry when I was crying at the side, and his body was covered all over Damn blood..."

Thunder and lightning made the night like day.

There was another maddening beep, and Cheng Cheng couldn't hear it anymore.The cochlea is completely broken, and the world of sound is completely blank.

He could only see many silhouettes among the passing crowd. He saw the police pushing his mother into the police car, and Qi Shengbin who was dejected. He wanted to go there, but he couldn't move.

Heart twitching, fear, dazed.Everything is like a nightmare, without any sense of reality.

He finally saw Qi Yan.

Qi Yan was dragged out by the police, looking like he was on the verge of falling.The heavy rain washed away the boy, who was drenched all over. When he was about to reach the police car, he suddenly knelt down on the ground.It was pouring rain, and he was still wearing braces on his legs, but he was struggling to stand up.

The pure white down jacket was mottled with dark red blood.

Cheng Cheng looked at him, feeling as if his heart was empty.The ground was empty, and the whole world was empty, except for the sticky and annoying rain, which kept falling. He wiped his face several times, but couldn't clean it off.

There have been countless times, no matter how wronged and sad things happened, he could hug his little angel tightly.But this time, he didn't even have the qualification to approach him.

His body is naturally burdened with sins, which cannot be washed away.

And this rain has no end at all, just like the darkness has no end.

The author has something to say: the truth is dark before dawn. =w=. . .Orange Rain took a knife, it took a knife, it took a knife!