life after death

Now he couldn't sleep at all.

Su Jun stared blankly at the ceiling. The lamp on the roof had a milky white cover, but his curtains were drawn too tightly. Not to mention the cover, there seemed to be no ceiling, only endless darkness.Wherever he reached out and touched, the air he exhaled and inhaled was all heavy darkness.

Su Junping felt that if he continued like this, he would start to doubt his life, so he lifted the quilt and opened the curtains, revealing the signal light on the steeple opposite, he took a deep breath and felt himself come alive.

He ran wild thoughts in his mind for a long time, and kept avoiding thinking about Chen Yilin, but in the end, the unavoidable thing still turned to him.

He thought about what kind of feelings he had for Chen Yilin.That time at the sports meeting, although it was said that it was others who made a fuss, he accidentally kissed someone. This time, too, he had such a dream—it would be absurd to say that he was dissatisfied with desire.

Who wants to stare at his buddies and kiss them when they want to be dissatisfied?

But he was awkward to admit that he really liked Chen Yilin. He had several girlfriends before, and the dish was also black silk. Why did he unknowingly bend like a mosquito coil?

Another point is that despite the fact that corrupt culture is so popular nowadays, most of them are ridiculed. If there is a gay, I don’t know how to be arranged by those people, Su Junping will feel uncomfortable thinking about it.

And, most importantly, what would Chen Yilin think of him?

Chen Yilin, he can draw his face in his mind when he closes his eyes, he is very gentle, he is very gentle to everyone, his gentleness contains elements that make people feel at ease, because he is an even and stable person , Can such a person accept such an escaped fact?

Even if it was him, if he knew that his friend had a crush on him, he would get goosebumps all over his body, and then he would be embarrassed and alienated, let alone Chen Yilin, would he feel disgusted seeing him avoiding like a mouse from now on?

Su Junping didn't know.

The young man's heart is like an overturned cooking table, mixed with sweet, bitter, spicy and salty, dripping all over the floor. There are two entangled voices in his head, wishing he could split him in two. In the end, those voices are entangled again. Who is who? I can't tell the difference.

From an analytical point of view, if reason is the priority, you should throw this matter away as soon as possible; if emotion is the priority, if you are conservative, you should choose a secret love; if you are willing to take risks, you should choose to confess.

How clear things are.

Of course, this is a perfect example of standing and talking without back pain.

If feelings can be rationally analyzed, then they are not called feelings, let alone at his age, puberty, like flowers, clouds, starry sky, sea, breeze, and all the unpredictable things. , How can he figure it out by himself.

Su Jun lay upright all night, but the next morning he was abnormally hyperactive, but his eyes were not very good-looking, so he took out two ice cubes from the freezer to reduce the swelling, and went out with his schoolbag on his back.

Chen Yilin found out that something was wrong with Su Junping in the morning.

He usually looked like a pug when he saw Chen Yilin, no matter whether he liked it or not, he would hook his shoulders and hang his back for a long time, but today he sat on his seat without saying a word and ate his breakfast.During the whole morning self-study, I only had two words with Chen Yilin.One sentence is: "Thank you for yesterday's incident." Another sentence is: "'Peahen' came and shouted."

The "peahen" rarely got up late, and Chen Yilin didn't notify him, nor did he say anything.

Chen Yilin thought that Su Junping was a little uncomfortable because of the transfer of money yesterday. After all, he was extremely strong, so he didn't take it to heart, and planned to coax him later.

As a result, after a while, as soon as he was in class, he got dizzy and forgot about it.

The first two classes were consecutive classes with Boss Xie. I sent them mock papers. The two classes plus the breaks were fully loaded, and it took only one and a half hours. Usually, the exam is too late for two hours, let alone half an hour. Human life!

However, Boss Xie didn't care about people's feelings at all, and asked Chen Yilin to collect them before noon, and even said that those who did not do well would go to his office to be criticized.Those below were all secretive and refused to hand in the papers, but Chen Yilin was sweating profusely when he urged them to hand in the papers.

After class in the third quarter, the student union came to call the class monitor and party secretary, saying that they were preparing for the [-]-day swearing-in meeting, and Chen Yilin was invited out again.

After class in the fourth quarter, the classmates who came back from the office sent a message: Boss Xie got impatient and told him to hand it in quickly.