life after death

Life and death are all incompatible.When there is death, there is no life, it is all death, like an unstoppable flood.And then a new wave rises, all life, the fountain of silvery bliss.

—— "Birds" Lawrence

Wang Wenjie stretched his neck and looked out the window, like a chicken with a bare neck under the knife, just waiting for the classmate in front to push the window and click the knife to move his head.

He saw Su Junping approaching from afar, the soles of his feet felt windy, and his heart was raised in his throat. Seeing that he had settled down, he hesitated for a long time before asking: "Guardian Zuo... where is the squad leader?"

"behind."

After speaking, he lay down and slept with his arms as a pillow, so that people could not see his expression.

These three words did not make Wang Wenjie feel relieved, on the contrary, his nerves became more tense, and he was thinking about whether to check the situation, when Chen Yilin walked into the classroom.The moment he walked in, he got a lot of sharp eyes, and he explored him maliciously for a while, trying to find a trace of embarrassment, but Chen Yilin looked as usual, with a three-point smile on his mouth, and sat back quietly. Su Junping's side.

Wang Wenjie trembled for a while and asked hesitantly: "Squad leader, are you okay? Don't hold on!"

Chen Yilin chuckled: "It's okay, nothing happened."

After finishing speaking, they lowered their heads to do the comprehensive analysis. Everyone was expecting a good show in vain, and they were very disappointed. Most of them went to bed early, and Chen Yilin stayed up all afternoon doing the papers.The content of the twelve pages was compressed on four sides of the paper, and the answers were filled in on the top, which was too blurry to read. Chen Yilin looked at the black characters on a white background, and felt that the characters floated leisurely, like lively tails. The fish are dazzling, with big heads.He pressed his aching temple, and couldn't help but stare blankly.

This daze lasted until the lunch break bell rang, and Chen Yilin was shocked, and hurriedly answered the answer.Among the twenty multiple-choice questions, he got thirteen wrong.

He threw away his pen and covered his face, feeling that he was really a bitch.All of this was directed by him, and everything was as he wished. Before he failed, he wanted to escape with all his heart. After he succeeded, he should have given up his thoughts with peace of mind, but he couldn't help but want to get closer, and he wanted to stick tightly to him. body, never separate.He felt that he was a slut who turned over and over again, cheap and hypocritical, and he deserved to end up like this.

Su Junping lay on the table and did not fall asleep.His mind was as messy as a ball of wool, and finally thousands of words settled down and merged into one sentence: I quit!

Anger and powerlessness irritated his limbs, Su Junping felt that he had to do something, find a vent.He raised his head and glanced at the dull classroom. The next section on the schedule was the math class he hated the most. He thought: Why should I study?Meaningless!

Su Junping stood up abruptly, packed his schoolbag sloppily, and walked out boldly.

He walked to the school gate, which was closed, and he had to pass a pass to the guard to go out.It is also impossible to climb over the wall, because there is an electric grid around the railing, Su Junping is surprisingly angry and sober, he has a playful smile and gets close to the doorman, although Su Junping has a sweet mouth, the doorman refuses to let it go, he pays attention to the sky while chatting. Hearing the movement in the parking lot, after a while a teacher drove up and approached the school gate.The guard was opening the door, and saw that the school gate was about half a meter wide. Su Junping picked up his schoolbag, slid out, and threw the guard's distraught voice behind his ears.

His cheeks slid over the rushing air, the wind.The sky was gray, and there were two little gray sparrows playing and chirping on the telegraph pole.He thought sadly: "I'm not as good as a bird." He quickly put aside this sentimental thought and decided to go to an Internet cafe to have fun.

The so-called house leak happens to be raining overnight, which is probably the case. It seems that the Internet cafe has just been checked not long ago, and an ID card must be required. Su Junping is underage. He gritted his teeth, suppressed his anger, turned and left.

He ran a long way to find a tolerant Internet cafe. He went to play games for a while, smelling the strong smell of tobacco in the air, and suddenly felt a deep boredom.Still the same as usual.Su Junping quit the game, clicked on a random music platform, and took a nap accompanied by the music.

He woke up and looked at his phone, but there was no missed call. Su Junping felt strange, and he was also hungry, so he might as well go home and order himself a bowl of noodles.

There is a note on the refrigerator:

The supper is in the refrigerator, and you can eat it yourself.The grapes are also in the refrigerator, remember to soak them in starch and wash them before eating.

goodbye baby.I love you.

It's a fucking word.

A trembling smiley face was drawn next to it.

Su Junping's eyes went dark, and he lost his strength for two seconds, and he could barely stand by holding on to the refrigerator. He blinked his eyes and regained the light, slammed the door and ran out crawling and crawling.

He lives in a high-rise building and has to wait for the elevator. Watching the elevator come up bit by bit, he kept kicking the bricks on the wall. The bricks were polished so brightly that he almost fell on his stomach. Su Junping's feet were already numb. When he saw the elevator door open, he almost jumped in.

Every second after that was infinitely long, and the narrow metal space made it difficult for him to breathe. For a moment, Su Junping felt that this was not true, and there was a sense of absurdity in his mind. In the next second, he slapped himself, crisp and loud, and the elevator The display screen is still the same as before, which makes people cry.

While Su Junping was walking around restlessly, he took out his mobile phone to call his mother, and of course turned it off.

He almost threw the phone out, but luckily, Reason hung him with a strand of hair, and Su Junping called the police station to ask them to find someone.Then he called everyone who knew Yang Hong: his grandmother, his uncle, his cousins, and his most hated father, all of them were ignorant and calm, and Su Wen even called him during school. After scolding, Su Junping cut it off on the spot.

When the elevator opened, he ran into the lobby, hugged his head and said to himself, "Calm down."

But how to calm down, Su Junping only felt a pain in his scalp, he pulled out a lock of his hair, it was so fucking painful!

Su Junping pulled his hair to force himself to calm down: No one knew about Yang Hong running away from home, and the note was obviously addressed to him.It was more than ten o'clock when he came home late for self-study. During these few hours, if she wanted to go far away, she had to take the most convenient tool: an airplane!

Su Junping also took a look at the garage in a hurry. She didn't drive the car away, which meant that something made her lose her senses.

But what is it?Su Junping didn't dare to think about it, and he automatically avoided a great possibility: Yang Hong didn't run away from home, but didn't want to live anymore.

That thought was so heavy that he almost burst into tears just thinking about it.

He raised his hand and called a taxi, saying that he was going to the airport, the sooner the better.

Su Junping was sitting in the passenger seat, and the seat belt was not fastened. He frowned, first closed his eyes for a while, then opened them annoyedly, turned his head to look at the scenery along the road, and checked his mobile phone from time to time. Scam calls can make his hands tremble with excitement.

The scenery recedes quickly. When passing through the city center, there are many people of all shapes and sizes. Those people's heads are black color blocks, and their clothes are bright color blocks. After approaching the suburbs, there is no one inhabited. There is only one tree on the highway. Another tree, that is a green color block, above the green is a gray sky, also a color block, the huge one is thickly painted with oil paint, if it is too thick, it seems that powder will fall off the edge at any time.

The driver also saw his anxiety, and comforted him, saying, "Don't worry, look, the airport will be here soon."

Su Junping responded vigorously, barely feeling a tinge of warmth.

Little by little, slowly approaching.

He looked at the sign pointing to the airport on the road, and suddenly his phone rang. He shook his hand, saw the caller ID, and quickly put it to his ear: "Hello?!"

Yang Hong seemed a little displeased: "Your mother doesn't even recognize you? You still 'hello', who do you want to 'hello', it's impolite! You Xie teacher called and said you skipped class, what happened to you, you got into trouble again Where are you now, go home right away!"

Su Junping was stunned and did not respond for a while.

His mother snorted unhappily on the other end: "Did you hear that? If you don't come back before 05:30, don't come back."

Su Junping arched his body abruptly, as if trying to save the ecstasy in his heart from gushing out, he nodded vigorously, then remembered that his mother couldn't see, and immediately promised: "I'll go back right away! Right away!"

He hung up the phone and said to the driver: "Turn around! The sooner the better!"

The driver glanced at him, said nothing, and found a place to turn around.

Su Junping glanced at his embarrassed appearance in the rearview mirror, quickly borrowed some napkins from the driver to wipe off his sweat, grabbed two handfuls of hair that looked like that, and then threw a red ticket to the driver without giving change Go straight to the elevator.

As soon as Yang Hong opened the door, Su Junping jumped into his arms like an abandoned puppy. He was already taller than her, and he could smell the fragrance of her hair when he lowered his head.Yang Hong took two steps back and groaned twice: "Why is it so heavy, don't pounce on it, it's too heavy to die."

She took a lot of effort to push Su Junping away and said: "Don't think you can hide by acting like a baby. I think you just owe a beating. It doesn't make sense to talk to you. What time is it? If you say skipping class, skip class!"

Su Junping said with an aggrieved mouth, "I'm in a bad mood."

"You can skip class if you are in a bad mood? How can there be so many things in this world that make you happy? For example, if I see you in a bad mood, can I throw you out?"

Su Junping shrank his neck: "Throw it away."

Yang Hong sneered: "If you lose it, you still have to pick it up. It's a waste of energy. Go wash your hands and help me. I'll eat dinner at home today."

Su Junping was secretly delighted to know that his mother's anger had subsided by half, so she imprinted two saliva marks on her cheeks very shamelessly. Next time, see how I deal with you!"

Su Junping thought to himself how many times you have said this, but it is not convincing at all.He whistled and went to the bathroom to wash his hands, before he glanced at the refrigerator inadvertently, the note was gone.

At [-]:[-], Su Wen also came.

The first thing he did was to scold Su Junping, and almost picked up the broom to whip him, but Su Junping behaved abnormally today, which made his father lose his temper, so he didn't get a commission, but just smashed the bowl. clatter.

Yang Hong seemed to be in a particularly good mood today, and didn't care about Su Wen's scolding, and just kept telling them to eat more. Su Junping said that he was full and put down his chopsticks.

"Really full?"

"I'm full, my mother cooked pork rib soup, it's delicious!"

Yang Hong smiled quickly, then pulled back her hair and said, "Originally, Xiao Jun didn't skip class, so I planned to ask him to go home for dinner."

Su Junping straightened his body all of a sudden.

"I want to announce two things when everyone gets together. First, I have breast cancer. Second," she turned to Su Wen, who was already stunned, "I decided to divorce."