Tears

"Are they divorced?"

There was a long silence in the room, so long that Lu Aizhen couldn't help asking.

"No." Lu Aizhen felt Gu Jiang shaking his head.

"I didn't have time," Ajaan said, "My mother killed herself."

Lu Aizhen seemed to be nailed into the heart by a huge nail, his limbs were cold, his whole body was stiff, and he suddenly lost the strength to breathe.The continuous heat from Gu Jiang's body seemed to be the only consolation, the only evidence that they did not fall into the endless hell.

"Dad didn't come back after he left..."

"Mom first stayed at home for several days, not going anywhere, not eating or drinking."

"Later, she went out and came home very late every day. I don't know what she was doing. Every day when she came back, her eyes were red and swollen."

"I dare not ask her, dare not talk to her. I go to school by myself, do my homework by myself, and find food by myself. I think, if I behave better, my mother may be less sad."

Gu Jiang never went out to play with his classmates anymore, he always went home as soon as school was over, even if he knew he would go home, there would be no one at home.He was very scared, and he always worried unconsciously whether his father would not come back again.Mom didn't go home, was it because she was angry with him and didn't want to see him.But he thought again, no, he is mother's baby, and mother will not want him.As long as he is a little better, and a little better, maybe my mother can forgive him.

Until one day, when he opened the door, he found his mother was at home.That moment was the happiest moment in Gu Jiang's life.He rubbed his eyes in disbelief, afraid that it was his hallucination.

It's not a hallucination, mom is back.

The bedroom was open, and my mother was lying on it, wearing a beautiful floral dress.The sheets under her body seem to have been changed too, um, mom likes to be clean the most, it must be dirty if it hasn't been changed for so many days.

Only then did Gu Jiang realize that the windows in the house were bright and clean, as if returning to the past.The slump after Dad left, the mess was swept away.He suddenly felt a little guilty, he should help his mother clean.

Gu Jiang cautiously walked to the bedside, her mother slept soundly, very peacefully.Her face was much thinner and her cheeks were sunken, but that didn't hinder her gentleness at all.This is his familiar mother, a gentle and beautiful mother.

Great, his mom is back.

Gu Jiang carefully kissed her mother on the face, and went back to her room alone to do her homework.When going out, Gu Jiang accidentally kicked something, the sound of diligulu sounded, Gu Jiang quickly squatted down and held the small glass bottle he kicked in his hand.Mom is tired, be quiet and let mom have a good sleep.

As the night slowly fell, Gu Jiang's stomach growled with hunger.He finished his homework a long time ago, but his mother was still sleeping, so Gu Jiang decided to preview tomorrow's homework.

"Clang clang clang..."

"Goo-"

The clock struck nine times, and Gu Jiang's stomach growled louder than the bell.

"Mom?" Gu Jiang called softly, he didn't turn on the light, the room was pitch black, only his mother was pale.

"Mommy mommy."

Mom refused to wake up, no matter what Gu Jiang called or pushed.Why is mom so cold?Why is it so hard?Why don't you open your eyes and look at me?

"Grandma Wang, Grandma Wang." Gu Jiang lay on the door and beat hard. Grandma Wang lived opposite his house, and when he had nothing to eat, Grandma Wang would always ask him to eat.

"Grandma Wang." Gu Jiang was surprised when she saw Grandma Wang opened the door and saw him, "My mother... fell asleep and couldn't wake her up."

The memory afterward is a mess, the blue and red lights, the deafening siren, the panicked footsteps, the noisy whispers, the eyes that can't see through, the pointing behind... All these are beyond Gu Jiang's comprehension .

Grandma Wang asked him to stay at her house and forbade him to go out.He crouched in the crack of the door and saw a crowd of people in front of his house, people in uniforms and white coats coming in and out.

He saw them carrying his mother out, but she was covered by a white cloth and could not see her face.Her right hand fell outside and flashed in front of Gu Jiang, Gu Jiang saw a ring around the base of her ring finger.There, he used to wear a silver ring, the same as the one on his father's hand.

Today, there is nothing.

He saw his father rushing back from the outside. After a long time, the man finally came back.

He stayed at Grandma Wang's house for several days, and then he was taken home by that man.

They still live there, but the man no longer spends the night here.He always comes over after get off work, prepares meals for Gu Jiang, leaves the breakfast money for the next day, and leaves after Gu Jiang goes to bed.

Gu Jiang fell asleep listening to the sound of the door closing every night, that man didn't even want to wait until he fell asleep before leaving.But Gu Jiang actually hoped that he could leave earlier, so that at least he would say 'I'm leaving' to him.

But no.Nothing at all.

"We are like strangers under the same roof," Ajaan said very indifferently, as if he was talking about something unrelated to himself, "We will be like this until I am admitted to university."

"On the day the admission notice arrived, I showed it to him, but he didn't say anything. The next day, there was an extra letter and a passbook on the desk."

"He said that he left, left Shanghai, and would never come back. In the passbook are my four-year college tuition and living expenses, and this house, which he has already transferred to me."

"I didn't look for him. I had a premonition that he would leave me. I was always worried about when this day would come. I felt at ease when he really left."

"So, why can't you sleep in bed now?" Lu Aizhen asked softly, Gu Jiang didn't expect this question, so she was silent for a while before shaking her head.

"It's just that I can't sleep on that bed." He snorted softly, unable to explain what emotion he was in, "How else would I have survived four years of college?"

"Actually, I didn't realize this problem myself. After the man left, I changed my room into a studio. When I slept on that bed for the first night, I realized that I couldn't sleep on it."

Gu Jiang suddenly trembled.

"As soon as I close my eyes, I feel that there is another person lying next to me, wearing a beautiful floral dress, with his hands folded on his stomach. He is not breathing."

"Why don't you change the bed?" Lu Aizhen asked.

Gu Jiang remained silent for a long time, the light from the night lamp became weaker and weaker, and the halo that stained Gu Jiang's face slowly faded away.That's because the dawn sun came in, and Gu Jiang stared at the lightsaber on the carpet in a daze.

"If there is no bed, where will mother sleep? If she can't get used to the new bed, will she not come back?"

Sunshine is the best weapon to drive away the haze. Lu Aizhen has been sticking to Gu Jiang's forehead. Now, he may obviously feel that Gu Jiang's heat is starting to recede.

He embraced Gu Jiang, patting his back lightly, like coaxing a child.

"Ah Jiang, it's not your fault, everything is not your fault." He murmured, "Go to sleep for a while, you'll be fine when you wake up."

Gu Jiang was swept away by sleep in the brilliant morning light.He finally got rid of the nightmare that had haunted him for a long time, and fell into a deep sleep in Lu Aizhen's voice.

"Ah Jiang, don't be afraid." Listening to Gu Jiang's breathing, Lu Aizhen felt grateful for the rest of her life, "No one will want you anymore, never leave, never lose again."

"Believe me."

Lu Aizhen pressed a kiss on Gu Jiang's forehead lightly. He said it was very light and didn't care if Gu Jiang could hear it.In other words, he didn't intend to let Gu Jiang hear it at all, it was more like a promise he made to himself.

When Gu Jiang woke up, she still maintained the posture she had when she fell asleep.He is more or less a young man. Although he often commits suicide, he recovers quite quickly with the help of external forces.

"How long have I been asleep?" He was a little embarrassed and wanted to get up from Lu Aizhen.

"Don't move." Lu Aizhen held him down, "I'm numb by you, let me take it easy."

Lu Aizhen was really numb from the pressure, he struggled to look at the head of the bed.

"It's almost 12 o'clock."

"Oh," Gu Jiang didn't dare to move around, he could only breathe lightly, "Are you hungry? Have lunch?"

"Lunch?" Lu Aizhen sneered, but gasped again because of the strong needle-pricking sensation, "Dinner is over, let's have a supper."

"I've been asleep for so long?" Gu Jiang was a little skeptical. He remembered that he fell asleep in the morning, and slept for a whole day?He turned his eyes and looked out the window, the beam of light that accompanied him to sleep had long since disappeared, proving that Lu Aizhen was not lying.

"Yeah, if you weren't still breathing, I would have called the police." Lu Aizhen found that it was not possible, and he patted Gu Jiang lightly, "Try to get up slowly, I feel numb when I move now."

Sure enough, Gu Jiang got up cautiously. He looked at Lu Aizhen with some guilt, "It's hard?" He stretched out his hand to press on Lu Aizhen's leg, "Let me give you a massage."

"Don't!" Lu Aizhen screamed, Gu Jiang's hand hadn't exerted any force, and the tingling sensation of the touched part was immediately magnified countless times.Gu Jiang was so frightened that his hands hung in the air, the two looked at each other for a moment, Gu Jiang couldn't help but laugh.

"What are you laughing at?" Lu Aizhen said angrily.

"Laugh at me so well," Gu Jiang bit her lower lip, "If you can make Lu Shao lose his composure like this, Zhao Kaikai will probably kneel down and worship me if he knows."

"It's no good to ask him to kneel down." Lu Aizhen gestured towards the head of the bed, "Drink the water hanging on it."

Gu Jiang was indeed thirsty, he passed Lu Aizhen, picked up the water glass, and drank most of it.

"After drinking," he was about to put it down, when Lu Aizhen said suddenly, "I haven't drank water all day, be careful of dehydration."

Gu Jiang obediently drank it all, only to realize that Lu Aizhen probably hadn't eaten or drank all day.He climbed out of bed, ran to the living room, and looked for water in the refrigerator.The cold air in the refrigerator woke him up suddenly, and he remembered everything from the previous night.

God, what has he done.

Gu Jiang squatted down slowly with his back against the refrigerator, the water was put on the carpet, and he covered his face with his hands, annoyed.

Why did you say everything?How could a big man become so fragile after just falling into the water.He didn't tell anyone about these things, even Ah Xian didn't know why he told Lu Aizhen.

"What, regret it?"

Lu Aizhen leaned against the door frame, listening to the sound, it seemed that she had recovered.Only he himself knew how painful it was when he was struggling to get up just now.

"Can you forget everything you heard?" Gu Jiang raised his head, lowered his hands slightly, only showing a pair of eyes, and asked tentatively, "Just treat it as a dream, and forget everything when you wake up."

Lu Aizhen looked at him, walked over stiffly, and squatted in front of him.He pulled Gu Jiang's hand.

"No." He was merciless and decisive, "Now I'm hungry, get up and eat with me."

The next day, Zhao Kaikai finally couldn't take it anymore, he got the room card and swiped in directly, but was kicked out by Lu Aizhen.

"Wait, wait, close the door." He pressed against the door desperately, "I'll just ask, and leave after I finish."

Lu Aizhen relaxed a little, and raised an eyebrow at him.

Zhao Kaikai, "A-Jiang is alright?"

Lu Aizhen nodded.

Zhao Kaikai: "Then..."

Lu Aizhen, "Didn't you just ask?"

Zhao Kaikai "..."

Lu Aizhen: "Okay, we are fine, you can play by yourself, don't worry about us, let's go by ourselves. Don't come to me, if you come again, kick it out."

Zhao Kaikai was almost slapped on the face by the door, he touched the tip of his nose and left embarrassingly.Although he was not responsible for the accident this time, he always felt lingering fear.Fortunately, Young Master Zhao has a big heart. Since Young Master Lu said he's fine, why should he worry about it.He returns to the pool in a colorful bikini swimsuit.

"puff"

Zhao Shao plunged into the water, the sky was big and the earth was big, and he had the most fun.

"It's fine with them, I don't mind."

Gu Jiang came out of the bedroom when he heard the door closing, and Lu Aizhen shook his head at him.

"It's because I don't want to play with them." Lu Aizhen pulled Gu Jiang to the window, and the fire clouds outside rendered the main part of the sky.The azure-colored clouds and blue waves are as beautiful as a painting.

Their work and rest have been a little messed up these days. They get enough sleep during the day, but they can't sleep at night.It was the same today, if Zhao Kaikai hadn't suddenly barged in, they probably would have slept through the night again.

"Want to go for a walk on the beach?" Lu Aizhen stood behind Gu Jiang, with one arm around him, and her chin resting on his right shoulder.

"Huh?" Gu Jiang didn't answer, Lu Aizhen touched his hand and kissed him on the base of the ear, "I want to go, please accompany me."

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