May Asheng live up to the occasion

What kind of existence is a person living in this world?It is difficult to have an answer to this question, and it is even more difficult to have a standard answer.After hard exploration, you can also have some subtle personal perceptions. These perceptions are too heavily influenced by personal experience, so they are not the same.

Luo Shu has always felt that he is an object under Yan Ji's hands, an ant in the world, and a dust in the universe.

So she has always been used to tame Yan Ji, obey the heaven and the earth, and abide by the universe.

Such Luo Shu now has a feeling that cannot be tolerated by the world and Yan Ji.This incident was too catastrophic. If it was in the past, Luo Shu would have avoided it far away, and would not have advanced half a step.

But this time is different, this is love, it is Yang Weizhi's love, it is the beauty that Luo Shu has never encountered in his life.She wanted it, she wanted it with all her heart, she was willing to trade life and death for everything.

With such a strong will, how could she let go willingly.People who are dying will search for life-saving straws, and now she is more dangerous than death, more tormented than death, and naturally she is desperately searching for everything that can continue.Even kneeling before everything that listens, pray for favor.

Yan Ji is too powerful, only heaven, earth and universe can compare to her.Driven by this kind of thoughts, Luo Shu suddenly discovered that everything that happened recently seemed to be heralded by God.

[God agrees! 】

Luo Shu who came to this conclusion was so excited that she wanted to cry, she could finally be with Yang Weizhi, blessed by God, they will live a happy life.

Full of happiness and fantasies, she desperately wanted to be honest with Yang Weizhi quickly, and then immediately start their sweet life.

Because it was a gift from God, Luo Shu wanted to announce the beginning of their relationship by offering sacrifices to heaven.

But the reality doesn't allow it, Luo Shu can't really announce it to the world, and it's impossible to hold such a large ceremony.Everything must be discounted, but at least on a peaceful day, prepare in the dormitory, and tell the sky, yourself, and the people around you about your feelings.

Although she couldn't confess to the whole school like Lu Chaoyun did, she would do all the necessary preparations.Let her and Yang Weizhi's happiness be blessed by the heavens, and also by her close friends.

As soon as he thought of it, Luo Shu immediately went online and bought this almanac.That's right, this time Luo Shu's symbol "stick" is the almanac, and all plans will start when it arrives.

Luo Shu just waited, waiting for happiness to come.

How can the idea of ​​putting one's own life direction on other things have a happy ending.Luo Shu, who has been praying for something else and never seeks self-recognition, will indeed wait for an answer in the end, but it is not the same as what she wants.

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"Luo Shu, your mother is hospitalized." Auntie's phone call broke Luo Shu's contented waiting.

"What's going on? Why did you suddenly get hospitalized?" Luo Shu asked anxiously.

"I broke my pelvis and is now under observation in the hospital."

"Okay, I see. I'll ask for leave right away. Auntie, please take care of my mother before I go back." Luo Shu and Yan Bo went to the counselor to explain the situation, and then got a week's vacation .

She thought in her heart, go home to take care of her mother first, and then talk about the rest when she comes back.But I didn't expect that when I came back, things were different.

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This is the second time that Luo Shu has been admitted to the hospital during his university days.The last time she was a patient, before entering the hospital, she was in a depressed mood, but then all the difficulties changed, and instead she became a bit more interesting.

She has always attributed this difference from the bad hospital experience of her childhood to the improvement of hospital infrastructure.After all, China is rich, and now the hospitals are all high-rise buildings, with excellent lighting, and clean and tidy everywhere. It seems inevitable that people will be in a good mood.

But today Luo Shu walked alone in this empty hospital corridor, but he didn't feel as relaxed as he imagined. Instead, he seemed to have exposed his heart in this huge empty space, with nowhere to turn.

Moreover, the space is filled with the smell of mixed medicine, as if it is afraid that just taking the medicine for the patient will not be effective enough, and insists on leaving molecules in the air, so that the medicine can seep into the patient's breath.

The sunlight by the window rushes into the building, also to illuminate the little things trembling up and down in the air, Luo Shu seemed to hear the shrill laughter of these little things.

She didn't want to think about it, but these weird thoughts came out of her mind uncontrollably.She was a little scared, and felt that the hospital was really not a good place.

It turns out that how a person's situation is really related to the person's subjective assumptions.

Luo Shu wrapped the doorknob of the hospital with a tissue and pushed hard to open the door of Yan Ji's ward.

It was noon now, and Yan Ji was sleeping peacefully on the bed.Luo Shu stepped lightly and walked towards her.

[Who is this?Really my mother? 】Looking at the man lying on the bed, Luo Shu was shocked.

What Luo Shu saw was an old man who had passed away.

Without the careful cover-up of the usual fixed hairstyle, the white hair at the root is now stretched freely, and the face has collapsed due to exhaustion.

The whole person reveals a bit of weakness, which Luo Shu has never seen on Yan Ji's face, it only often appears on Luo Shu's own face in the mirror.For the first time, Luo Shu felt that she was similar to Yan Ji, felt the tight blood connection.

Yan Ji, who was asleep, sank into the quilt as if his bones had been pulled out, completely gone from his usual coldness.Is this woman who has lost her support, still the powerful Yan Ji in the past?

Yan Ji is a mother, a teacher, and a rule to Luo Shu.Like an eternal statue, standing forever in Luo Shu's life, swearing her sovereignty.

But the person lying here is clearly an ordinary person.She is not a mother, not a teacher, not a rule, not a statue, not unchanged, she is just Yan Ji.

Luo Shu sat on the escort stool, quietly watching Yan Ji sleep.She felt this Yan Ji who had removed all the shells, and she felt a sense of absurdity.She felt like she was cheated, by life or by Yan Ji.

An hour later, Yan Ji slowly got out of the sleepy state and woke up.

After she opened her eyes, she didn't want to search for anything, but continued to look at a tree outside the window opposite Luo Shu, what was she thinking?It was as if he hadn't thought of anyone around him at all.

"Mom, you're awake." Luo Shu interrupted Yan Ji's self-care.

When Yan Ji heard the voice, he turned his head quickly unexpectedly.

Seeing that it was Luo Shu, his eyes lit up.The changes in the eyeballs are like jewels buried in the soil. The wind blows away the surface soil and reveals the luster of the gemstones.

Yan Ji wanted to get up, she wanted to talk to Luo Shu at least at eye level.

She is so strong that she ignores her own body, and now she feels pain when she moves.

Seeing Yan Ji frowning, Luo Shu hurriedly stepped forward to stop her movement.Luo Shu held her shoulders and said, "Mom, don't move, you're still hurt."

Now is indeed not the time for her to be brave, so she softened her tense back a little bit: "Why are you back? I told them not to tell you, what a delay in studying by running back all the way."

Chinese parents speak in this way. They first complain about the sincerity of their children, and then emphasize the importance of learning. They don’t know what kind of character they want to raise in their children.

"I don't have many classes in my senior year, so I won't delay my studies. I took a week off with my teacher, and I can spend time with you." Now that everyone had stood up, Luo Shu didn't sit down immediately. She helped Yan Ji adjust his sleeping position.

After Yan Ji lay down, there was a period of aphasia in this space.

Both of them are a little uncomfortable with their current state, creating an embarrassment that neither of them understand.

After all, Yan Ji's strength and control over everything, and Luo Shu's timidity and passive obedience are the norm.

In fact, if the situation is just reversed, the current scene will not appear. After all, people can escape from an uncomfortable environment, and this is what Luo Shu is best at.

In fact, Yan Ji's strong face is actually a kind of evasion, so everyone in this world is very familiar with this method of evasion.

But the problem now is that neither of them can escape from this state, and Yan Ji's injury shackled them both in the space of the hospital.

Luo Shu came in a hurry and didn't bring anything to visit.

She hadn't thought about what gift her mother would ask for. She didn't know the importance of gifts to people. Talking about gifts is the best starting point for a topic among strangers, and it can quickly eliminate the strangeness.

Strangeness should never appear between Luo Shu and Yan Ji, a mother and daughter who have known each other for more than 20 years.So when it appeared, neither Luo Shu nor Yan Ji thought it was it.

They just wonder why it's so hard to get into a normal conversation.In fact, there is nothing strange about it. At this moment, Luo Shu and Yan Ji are entering into Yan Ji's perspective of life for the first time, so a sense of strangeness will naturally arise.

"I'm all for you." Whenever this sentence sounds, parents and children will experience complex emotional changes. The point of "everything".

But this matter is very real when it comes to Luo Shu. The two of them spent more than 20 years together in Luo Shu's life.Yan Ji strongly participated in Luo Shu's life from birth to growing up, controlling every aspect of Luo Shu's life.

And Luo Shu has almost never participated in Yan Ji's life. Luo Shu actually doesn't know what kind of person Yan Ji is, and she doesn't know what kind of happiness and difficulties Yan Ji's life has. Everything is so strange.

But now Yan Ji's old age and illness are not voluntary, but Luo Shu has indeed begun to become a strong side.

Looking at the fully packaged fruit basket on the counter, Luo Shu finally found a suitable topic.

"Mom, have you eaten breakfast and lunch?" She remembered that she was hospitalized, did Yan Ji have the same thoughts as she did at the beginning, so she didn't eat much.

"I don't have any appetite, I don't want to eat." Lying alone in this hospital, how could he have an appetite.What's more, she had to go to the bathroom after eating. She didn't want to show weakness to such an extent and become a burden to others.