Hedgehog

I played the guitar all day and went down to find something to eat. Aunt Xu has already left. It’s good. I can let go of the noise at night. The villas here are far away, so I don’t worry about the neighbors hearing it.

Speaking of neighbors, I remembered that Ye Ning’s family has ham, and the stew should be good. I brought two persimmons to find Ye Ning. In Korean cuisine, tomatoes are used instead of sugar. In fact, it is used in cuisines from all over the world The tradition of substituting ingredients for condiments, such as fried tofu with ham, does not require any seasoning at all, and all kinds of flavors come from ham.

In such a cold winter, it is suitable to cut ham into cubes, add scallops, scallops, conch meat, stew milky white soup, then add tofu, a little white pepper to enhance the taste, the tofu absorbs the delicious soup and is boiling hot, very suitable for this kind of food Eat and play in the weather.This method is actually a soup recipe of a Cantonese chef. Originally, there were old ducks, old hens, pork and pork skin. The stewed soup is used to make abalone juice, and the abalone juice can be used to fry tofu. I am such a lazy person. , Simply omit the intermediate steps, and the response is good after two attempts.Although what Ye Ning brought back was Italian ham, it was expensive after all, and the taste was probably not too bad.

While thinking about the recipe for the evening, I walked to the door of Ye Ning's house.The villas here are all similar in appearance, with porches. In fact, this should be Xia Huaian's house. Although Ye Ning's paintings are easy to sell, if you can afford a house here, you must be Van Gogh.

The door is not closed. I took something last time I came here and took a look. In fact, Ye Ning’s house is very beautiful. After all, the artist’s aesthetics is there, the light, color, and composition are all first-class. It’s hard to see Where to go, in fact, I prefer Ye Ning's oil paintings. The wall in my house should be regarded as his masterpiece of oil paintings. He is actually very lazy. After that, no one can make him paint paintings of this size and difficulty.I am very confused about this point. It stands to reason that those who engage in creation should not be restricted by deadlines and pressure, but the best works of Ye Ning and I are all completed directly on the deadline.

The entrance of his house is round, and the floor tile pattern is a bit like the pattern drawn on paper with compasses when I was a child, but it is different. It is said to be a Celtic knot, the color matching is also good, the ceiling light is well used, and there is a round table in the center of the entrance. There is a white deer head on it, and the antlers stretch out like the branches of a tree, the color gradually darkens, and finally turns into pure black.

Last time I came, he got a plum blossom from nowhere and put it in a Japanese-style vase. It was very artistic. This time, there was nothing wrong with it. The living room is neatly arranged with white tulips, green leaves, and cylindrical glass. The vase, which is a little higher than the flowers, is clear and transparent, and the tulips are twisted and squeezed in the glass, like a display.

There was another stranger in the living room.

I probably still felt guilty. I was shocked when I saw her at first sight. I thought that Lin Caiwei was waiting for me here. Then I realized who she is. It seems that the twin sisters really have a tacit understanding, and they even come together to fight in the ring .

Lin Caiqin is actually not as good-looking as Lin Caiwei, her facial features are similar, but her expression is very subdued, she doesn't look like Lin Caiwei at all.She is what a noble lady should look like in my impression, wearing a light-colored classic suit, clothes, accessories, everything is just right, soft and elegant.When he saw me, he smiled gently: "Hi, I'm Xia Huaian's mother, they are all out."

It seems that Ye Ning is still unreliable. He was well informed, so he hid himself without notifying me.

"Hi, I'm Ye Ning's friend, just come and have a look." I stopped, ready to retreat at any time.

"I asked them, and they said they would be back in half an hour." She smiled at me very kindly: "Sit down and wait."

To be honest, sitting is almost equivalent to half lying down for me. I use Lin Caiqin's straight-backed sitting posture about two or three times a year, and I basically use it to meet people like Jian Ke.

"Forget it, I'll go back and wait."

I'm really scared, Lin Caiwei has inexplicable hostility towards me, although this one looks more gentle and refined, but after all, she is a twin sister, I can't believe it.

Lin Caiqin laughed.

"You are Lin Sui, aren't you?" She probably could tell from the moment I walked in, "I heard from my sister that you guys didn't have a good time, did you?"

"Aunt Ji is still here?" I looked back at the retreat route.

"She has already gone home, and she is very angry." Lin Caiqin was fair: "I apologize to you on her behalf. She has a bad temper, but her heart is not bad. You know the situation of Rong Fu, and the family It's not considered close, as a mother, she was anxious and inevitably lost her sense of proportion."

"Aunt Xia is serious, and I am also at fault." I always watch people order dishes.

"If Mr. Lin is not in a hurry to leave, why don't you chat with me?" Lin Caiqin invited me with a gentle smile: "My sister can still listen to what I say, and I'm bored waiting here, so come and be a peacemaker , If you have any misunderstandings, you can tell me, I think Mr. Lin is so gentle and gentle, he really doesn't look like a bad person."

What a compliment.

This is the end of the conversation, if I don't sit down and chat with her, it seems that I still hold a grudge. In fact, I didn't suffer any grievances at all, but Lin Caiwei was about to explode.

"Where is Mr. Lin from? I heard that his ancestral home is Suzhou, right?"

"I was in Suzhou when I was a child, and then I went to other places with my adoptive parents. Aunt Ji must have told you all about it."

"She is like this sometimes, and Rong Fu doesn't like her very much, and doesn't respect privacy very much. The education of our generation is a bit biased. Although we are old, we still have to learn many principles of doing things from young people. learning."

I didn't expect her posture to be so low, but I felt that I was too tit-for-tat.

"Aunt Xia is being polite, I didn't mean that." But I didn't say why I didn't mean it: "I heard from Ye Ning that Aunt Xia can also draw?"

"Yes, my mother and my grandma are both masters of traditional Chinese painting. My sister and I also learned it when we were young, but unfortunately we didn't inherit the talent. Now it's not as good as the previous generation. Rongfu and Huai'an don't like painting very much, so Rongfu Ze is still a little interested. So when I saw Ye Ning, I hit it off..."

That's true, Ye Ning didn't say how the Xia family made things difficult for him, but his own family was very cruel to him, and they kept him in free range until now, letting him fend for himself. I can scratch my hands, but I just need someone to feed him. Fortunately, Xia Huaian is more reliable and takes good care of him. In fact, I have always suggested that he go to Shanghai. Dad just let me go home.", really living in a dream.

"Xia Huaian and Rong Fu are classmates, right? They went abroad together? Aunt Xia really has a good eye. Both of them are very good now."

Lin Caiqin laughed.

"What's more, my sister still complained to me today, saying that Rong Fu should not be sent out at the beginning, and now she is not close to the family." She smiled with crooked eyes, like Ji Rongze: "In fact, Rong Ze grew up at home. , it's not bad now."

There's something I've been curious about, but obviously shouldn't be asking now.

In fact, in my opinion, the relationship between Ji Rongze and Ji Rongfu is very subtle. The two brothers' positions at the beginning can be seen from their names. The current situation is mostly because of Ji Rongze's body, so Ji Rongze lives in isolation and should be with others. This also matters.The proud son of heaven fell from the clouds, and he needed a strong heart to overcome his frustration, but the family members gave up on themselves first, and anyone else would be disappointed in the family relationship.

I can only echo and say: "Well, Ji Rongze is very good at Chinese studies."

Chatting with elders is not good at all. Even the most approachable elders, there are some things that cannot be mentioned after all. She has her status, and I also have the rules of the younger generation.

I don't know if I heard my slander, but Lin Caiqin took over the conversation.

"In fact, Rong Ze is a very good child. It is a good thing for young people to suffer some setbacks, and their mood will mature a lot." She looks gentle, but what she said is amazing: "Rong Fu is talented in business, but he is unwilling to go into politics. , Rong Ze is the best in politics now, and his health doesn't actually affect it, but it's a bonus item..."

I was shocked by the meaning of her words, and I didn't know how to reply for a while. She just said that it was her idea to send Ji Rongfu and Xia Huaian abroad. I completely believed it when I heard it. My only son Well, she was sent abroad at the age of seven, since she can say what she said earlier, it is not surprising that she did such a thing.

If I heard correctly, what she meant was that Ji Rongze's disability is a plus for being in politics?

I don't understand politics, and I know that what she said may be true, but this fact is too cold and cruel.

It's as if there must be one female quota out of ten people, so I ran to tell Lu Yilan that you are a bonus for being in politics, and you may not be beaten, but if you tell Ji Rongze with this meaning, I'm afraid you will be strangled to death by him on the spot.

Ji Rongze was the one who said the phrase "I also follow Ji Kang", so arrogant that he would rather live in seclusion in the prosperous age, what does Lin Caiqin mean to let him use his body to engage in politics?

She is Ji Rongze's aunt and heir of the scholarly family. She said that she admired Ji Rongze very much. She is an excellent child. Is that how she appreciates it?

I can't tell how shocked I was. Before I could speak, I stood up and instinctively wanted to escape from here.In consideration of politeness, I still remember to say goodbye to her: "Xia, Aunt Xia, I still have something to do..."

Lin Caiqin was still sitting, with her hands gracefully placed on her knees, with a feminine posture, quietly looking at me, I should have been looking down on her, but at this moment, I felt like a small stone, clearly seen by her eyes clearly.I kind of wonder if she's a sociopath.

"Mr. Lin," she still smiled at me: "Actually, the first time I saw you, I knew you were not a bad person. My sister was worried that you came for Rongfu's identity, but I was not worried. I think you even She is much more naive than Rong Fu. From your reaction now, it can be seen that you regard Rong Ze as a friend, right?"

She praised me like that, and I still wanted to run away, but from my point of view, she was just a slender middle-aged woman who even spoke softly.

"But with all due respect," she still had a smile in her eyes, her dark gray eyes were like miasma in the forest, "it's hard for you to achieve great things with a personality like yours."

I take back what I just said.

Her demeanor was so peaceful that I almost thought that what she said was not offensive.In fact, if this sentence is uttered elsewhere, the speaker and the obedient person will definitely fight.

"Then I'll borrow your auspicious words."

"I said this not for any purpose." Seeing that I was about to leave, she still smiled at me: "It's just a bit of advice from the elders to the younger generation. I know this is offensive, but I have to say it."

This attitude really reminds me of Jian Ke.

There is less than a week left on the SV channel, but there is no news from Jian Ke. He probably feels that if he comes over and bows to me, he won’t be able to teach me that crucial lesson—that lesson is so important that even I can't release my second album until I'm 27, but I still have to.

There are such "elders" in this world who are all "for your own good".

"Please enlighten me."

"In fact, Mr. Lin is a bit like Rong Ze in his bones. Rong Ze was actually very smart when he was a child. In recent years, for some reason, his literary popularity has become more and more popular. He has set a lot of rules for himself. I can’t do it. As an elder, I’m actually disappointed in my heart.”

Lin Caiqin's mother's surname is Li, and her grandmother's surname is Wu. If Wu Lan Zhiquan, who once painted the painting of the Seven Sages of the Bamboo Forest, knew that her granddaughter used "literary popularity" as a derogatory term, I don't know how I would feel.

"Oh? Why is Aunt Xia disappointed?"

"Naturally, I am disappointed that Rong Ze is in a cocoon, Mr. Lin, you are the same as Rong Ze, you live too narrowly." Her eyesight was too sharp, she raised her head slightly to look at me, folded her hands, and smiled again Get up: "I know, Mr. Lin must laugh at me for being vulgar in my heart, but I really think of Mr. Lin as a junior family member, and I want to give some pointers, so I said this. My sister and I have different views. Maybe one day We'll see you again at the family dinner, Mr. Lin."

She is smarter than Lin Caiwei, so she naturally knows that we will see each other again. I like Ji Rongfu so much, and I have to die to let him go.For such a wise and powerful person like me, if Ji Rongfu lets go, he can only be regarded as blind.

What she said somewhat reduced my hostility, but in fact I don't have any hostility.

She is quite honest, and I don't practice Tai Chi either.

"Aunt Xia thinks too much. Everyone has different opinions. There is no distinction between superior and inferior. You laugh at me as poor, and I laugh at you as vulgar. There is no right or wrong in this kind of thing. But I personally think that it is not a bad thing to have a bottom line in life."

Lin Caiqin laughed, she looked at me with gentle and tolerant eyes, just like looking at an ignorant child.

"Mr. Lin, things in this world are not black and white. Everyone has a bottom line, but it should not be too high. If the bottom line is too high, the more things you will give up." Lin Caiqin's eyes were gentle: "If you choose to give up too much because of the bottom line Don't you give up the world to people who have no bottom line, both Rong Ze and Mr. Lin have such high talents, since you have been given this talent, is it to make way for mediocre people?"

My mind went blank, and I couldn't think of anything to refute.

"I think," I said with difficulty, "Aunt Xia doesn't know what I've been through, so I can't agree with these words."

Lin Caiqin laughed.

Things in this world are so strange, Lin Caiwei is aggressive, her temperament is cold and sharp, like Jixia Huai'an.But Lin Caiqin's smile was exactly the same as Ji Rongfu's, which gave people the illusion for a moment, as if she knew everything and forgave everything.

"Mr. Lin, the biggest thing in this world is life and death. I don't know what you have experienced, but I think Mr. Lin should know what I have experienced. If you talk about your experience in front of our generation, isn't it a bit tricky?" The smile in her eyes disappeared: "Mr. Lin, I can tell you that I have seen too many outstanding people, painters who are better than Ye Ning, composers who are more talented than you, with a lot of cars and bright stars. But they They all died quietly. With their talents that no one can inherit, they were submerged in the dust of history. I don’t know if Mr. Lin read history. Mr. Lin should know that everything is as light as a feather in the face of time. If Mr. Lin always sticks to his bottom line instead of putting tangible and accessible things first, I think that after 20 years, it will be very difficult for me to see Mr. Lin at the family dinner again."

"Are you checking me?" I didn't expect that I would ask two such words a day.

"Apologize to Mr. Lin first. I didn't mean to check on you. It's just that Rong Fu suddenly intervened in the audit of the TV station a while ago, so I just paid attention."

It was as if a tiny ice core had condensed in the spine on my back, and then the chill spread and invaded my limbs and bones. I felt like I was soaked in the cold grass sea in Yunnan for an hour that day, and my whole blood was cold. , almost want to throw up.

"Why are you telling me this?"

There was a trace of sigh in Lin Caiqin's smile.

"Mr. Lin still doesn't understand? I'm telling you this. First, I hope to solve Rong Ze's problem through you. It has been three years since Rong Ze moved out of his home. You are the only one who can visit his house in the past three years." People. Since he thinks you are the same kind, you can persuade him after you have figured it out. Second, I think that if a person as proud and arrogant as Mr. Lin never reconciles with Rongfu's family, he will never be able to live in the same family for the rest of his life. To achieve success in career, no matter how open-minded he is, he is still cynical. When he was young, he was naturally proud, but as he got older, he still didn't have a career, but Rong Fu was like a fish in water, and gradually climbed to the top. Over time, Lin How do you deal with yourself..." She looked into my eyes calmly: "I am Rong Fu's elder, my sister may not understand this truth, but I understand very well that the role of elders is to point out the problems you will face in the future Question, let you make your own choices, I believe you will make the right choice, won't you, Mr. Lin. "

I fled.

I think it's because I have committed too many sins recently, or I was indeed a brutal murderer in my previous life, so God can't bear to see that I live too well, and sent the next Lin Caiqin to clean me up.

She is my natural enemy.

I am not afraid of people being fierce, not afraid of being threatened, not afraid of being found out about my three generations of ancestors, I am not afraid of people who are more popular than me, richer than me, better-looking than me, more talented than me, I am not even afraid that others can easily let me go from here The world disappears, otherwise I dare not break Fu Yong's ribs.

But I'm afraid of being persuaded.

I'm afraid of being persuaded like Lin Caiqin.

She almost shakes my faith in life.

She can't shake the foundation of my beliefs. No one in this world can shake the foundation of my beliefs. I still can't live as she said. I didn't take shortcuts when I was 20 years old when I wanted to be popular the most, and I naturally won't take them now.I am still that hedgehog, I will give back what people give me, it is impossible for me to forgive Yin Xi, just like it is impossible for me to flatter Lin Caiwei, if I can, then I am not Lin Sui.

But what if it's just a little trick, such as forcing Jian Ke to be my producer this time, and then release a high-quality new album while it's popular.I have confidence in the quality of my music, even the fans I gained through the X Alliance, I am also confident that I will not disappoint them with my album...

I have already thought about this possibility, and I have already rejected this possibility.

But what if the price is losing Ji Rongfu?

It's not that I haven't seen how people can be psychologically deformed in a state of long-term frustration, especially if the partner is extremely good.Ni Jing's ex-husband, Du Yuzhou, was an idol student who was almost at the same time as Nie Xingqiu. He was very popular when they fell in love, but Ni Jing was just a little singer who had just debuted. Later, during the world tour concert, Tin Hau and Tin Hau's husband grew older, her acting skills did not grow, and her figure gradually lost shape. The first thing that faded away was the smile, then patience, and finally love.The Huatian gold medal couple at the beginning ended with Ni Jing wearing sunglasses and long sleeves to attend the new album release conference in summer, but was still photographed by the paparazzi with bruises on her wrists.From start to finish, it was only ten years.

Those who have been popular have fallen to this point, let alone me who have never been popular.

I want to say that I will never change, but the 19-year-old me will despise the current me, and what will I despise in ten years later.

I know that Ji Rongfu is tolerant and gentle, and I even know that he loves me deeply.

But this is just to increase the upper limit of his tolerance.

I have such a bad temper and such a strong desire for revenge, Lin Caiwei came to visit, if Ji Rongfu came home at that time, I would make a noise that the neighbors could hear.I am so cowardly, I put up all the thorns in the first place, I just want to hide in a place where no one can find me.

I'm driving now and I don't know where I'm going.

At the beginning, it was naturally interesting, but what happened later?I am so suitable for living alone, how can I get along well with people.

I can't even imagine ten years, let alone a lifetime.

I took my guitar and went to the nursing home to find my master Zhang Xiao.

Back then they all called me Young Master, all of them, Yin Xi, Ye Xiao, Pang Sha, Vi, they all made me feel that no one can replace me, that I am the unique Lin Sui.

But in less than seven years, the only person I could find was a crazy master.

It is so warm in the nursing home, many people are walking around in hospital gowns, and the family members supporting them are exhausted on the face. Mental illness tortures the family members the most, because there is always a moment when you wonder whether this hysterical person is still The family that loves you so much.

In a sense, I'm also half crazy. If my therapist had a membership card, my points would be enough to exchange for a refrigerator.

My master is thinner again, he has strangely long fingers, the lead singer of their band used to joke that he was an anteater, and he still had a big beard at that time, he would rough my hair, even my cauliflower The number was also given to me by him.

But now he is white and fat, wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, because he has taken too much medicine, his eyes are always slack, his hands are shaking, and his eyes always shine when he sees the guitar, but he even remembers his masterpiece Sorry.I used to be afraid that I would become another him, and I would lose sleep just thinking about it.

I played my new song to him, and I told him about my recent events. He fell asleep once in the middle. At that time, I was telling him that the person I liked was called Ji Rongfu. I said, Master, he is the prettiest you have ever seen Girls are even more beautiful. I said that when I stood in front of him, I always felt very small. I seemed to have returned to my childhood in an instant. My emotions became more and more exposed, and I sulked over little things.But occasionally I feel that I have become very big, like a balloon man full of air, more and more inflated, more and more inflated, so thin that it is almost transparent, as long as there is something sharp to poke me, I will "bang" "It exploded with a bang, and it exploded into pieces all over the place, disappointing him to find my prototype.

I said: Master, tell me, when will I be exposed?

Maybe this year, maybe next year, maybe next month, maybe this evening.

But it won't be forever.

We don't have a lifetime, he will find that I'm not the treasure he's been looking for all his life, I'm just a pathetic fake, I'm just a vain, conceited and inferior person, my mind is so small, my music is so bad, It's so bad that Jian Ke doesn't even want to give up his fucking strings for me!

What will I do on that day.

My thorns are gone, I am as fragile as a pink mole, fragile and ugly, where will I hide, where will I live.In any case, there would be no Ji Rongfu for the rest of his life.

I didn't want to cry like a loser, but I couldn't help it at all, my eyes couldn't help pouring out, I curled up in the dark and smelly cabinet in my master's ward, crying until I trembled, I don't know how long it took before I felt a hand patting my head, just like he did countless times when I was in Huatian.

I cried like I was 19 years old.