Hedgehog

Climb up to the sixth floor, open the door with the key, and see Yin Xi sitting in the living room.

In the past two years, he has acted very well, he is a good old man, very restrained, and a careless person like Su Ying will always have a maternal outburst for a person like him who seems to be full of infinite kindness, pouring him water and putting a fruit plate , I have to come back later, maybe I will treat him to dinner.

Seeing me coming back, the two of them were startled, especially Su Ying, who knew that I would not react well, almost slipped to the door against the wall, and then tremblingly said: "You talk." Drilled out beside me.

Yin Xi stood up and rubbed his suit trousers awkwardly. He could still bring out his clothes after cutting off ties with the Nie family, so it seemed that Nie Yuan didn't treat him that badly.

I didn't look at him, I took off my coat, got my scarf, hung up my clothes, changed my slippers, and went to the refrigerator to get out a cold beer to drink.

The room was terribly quiet, only the sound of me walking up and down, and the sound of pulling the tab of the can, Yin Xi glanced at the beer can, seemed to have something to say, said "You..." and stopped .

I pulled out a chair and sat down, right across from him.

"Say it," I urged him very calmly: "It took so much effort to find Su Ying through Lu Yan, and she went directly to my house. Don't you have something to say?"

I am no longer the 20-year-old Lin Sui who would only be beaten on the left cheek and sent to the right cheek. The farce during the day today was not only a surprise reunion after a long absence, but I was also afraid that his plague would be infected by Ji Rongfu. Now that Ji Rongfu is not here, I am invulnerable with a hard heart, so naturally I can take my time with him.

After Yin Xi pretended to be hesitant to speak, he changed into a guilty expression.

"How have you been all these years?"

I laughed.

It's not a sneer, it's really funny, he's still the same way, greeting you, pretending to care about you, making you think he's a gentle and harmless good guy, and then stabs you at a critical moment.

"Don't you have eyes and ears everywhere, and you want me to tell you?" I smiled and turned my head to look at him: "Or if you don't cherish this opportunity to speak at all, then you might as well get out now."

Strictly speaking, we are masters and apprentices. Every time I say "roll", his face shows the expression of being stabbed by a knife. They all say that Zhou Lu likes to pretend. In fact, he is the real Golden Bear Award winner, pretending to be a victim Pretending to believe it, it’s okay, life is like a play.

After he showed a tangled expression, he finally stopped talking nonsense.

"Recently, I started an entertainment company by myself," he said very slowly as if something was stuck in his throat, carefully wording each word: "Now that the Ning family has confirmed the investment, the team has also been confirmed, They are all people you know, Xiaoyan, Ye Sangqing..."

"If I heard you right," I was amazed at the man's logic: "Is your brain broken? You invited me into your company?"

Yin Xi raised his head suddenly, with that candid expression again, if I saw her for the first time, I might really be deceived.

"I can get the best resources in the industry, and the team is also the best. I want to use you as the leader among singers and Ye Lan among actors. Now the best musicians in China are willing to follow me..."

Probably the best joke I've heard this year.

"You are really sick." I looked at him with a smile: "Let's not talk about the past, what am I doing in your company now? Why, you are tired of being a nanny for Nie Yuan's little lover, so come to Ning Zheng. Is your lover a nanny?"

Everyone in this world has a boss, and the best managers have companies, Xiao Lin, Ling Lanqiu, but he is the only manager who will abandon his artists like trash, not only his own artists, but also his team , Xiaoyan, when these people had conflicts with Nie Yuan, he did not hesitate to abandon them. These people were probably brainwashed by him, only his face was tangled, and he could not see his unconditional obedience to Nie Yuan.

Yin Xi began to pretend to be guilty again.

However, I know that he is not guilty. He was born as a dog of the Nie family. Although his acting skills are better, he still regards his master as the sky in his bones.

"What happened back then was my fault. I was under pressure from above for the first time, and I didn't want you to think I was incompetent, so I didn't tell you the reason, only that there would be new arrangements." He actually showed a trace of sadness: "I should tell you about my situation. I had a new plan at the time, but I was afraid that you would think I was talking empty words, so I didn't tell you the plan. Do you remember Pei Dongyu? He is willing to make an album for you, as long as you time to sing..."

He nervously grabbed the trousers on his legs, as if he was deep in memory. It was good to wear thick glasses, and it was impossible to tell whether he was crying or not.His anxious appearance was somewhat similar to Bai Yu's, except that he was thinner and paler, but there was a touch of red on his thin cheeks, his tone was fanatical, and he looked at me eagerly.

"I've heard the demo you sang recently, and I know your voice isn't bad." He looked at me as if he had been redeemed: "We still have a chance, and you didn't drop the vocal music, right? I saw you in x- The alliance taught Lin Xiaobai to sing, this program is very suitable for you, you have the potential to become a king, you are more like Zhou Zixiang now, you have the same charisma as him..."

I was deceived by him before, partly because his acting skills are really perfect, for example, the brilliance in his eyes at the moment can only be performed by Qi Chu in that crazy pianist.

"Oh?" I laughed, "What does this have to do with you?"

"Trust me again." He looked at me eagerly, obviously as thin as a praying mantis, but there seemed to be flames hidden in his thin body, this acting was so realistic that he almost grabbed my hand: "We still have time, Although six years have been wasted, it's not too late. You're only 26 years old, and Yu Lan only started to set foot in the entertainment circle at 24. Ye Xiao is almost recovering, and Bai Yu also received a good song recently. I know, That song suits you well..."

"That song is mine." I told him calmly, and before his eyes showed ecstasy, I told him: "But I will sell it to Ye Zhen, stop daydreaming, and don't pretend to have amnesia, I I have never forgiven anyone in this life, and you don't deserve to be forgiven either. Use your tricks to lobby others, I'm not interested."

I love seeing the look on his face falling from heaven to hell.

Then he began to struggle in vain again.

"Lin Sui, listen to me, I didn't ask you to forgive, you can never let me go, but I beg you to let yourself go." He even took out the earphones from his bag: "Listen to your own voice Well, you deserve an album that is ten times better than this. You see, there are so many mediocre people in this circle. They are all popular. Why not you! You are the best student of Pangsha. Chen Jing regretted saying no to me last time An opponent like you..."

I snapped his hand open.

"Don't dream, I haven't given up on myself, I will sing the song as it is, and I will go my own way."

"Why don't you let me help you go?" He begged me: "You forget who I am, treat me as a stranger, I will arrange another agent for you, we can never see each other for a lifetime, you want to be an artist, always You will need a team, why not choose the best one, I can give you the best way to go."

"Because I don't trust you." I told him bluntly: "Have you heard the story about hunting pigeons? When a hunter wants to catch wild pigeons, he puts a domestic pigeon in a cage and lets it sing to attract wild birds. Come here, the harvest will be rich at night, just give this domestic bird some leftovers to eat."

I said, "You are the pigeon."

"You pretended to love the entertainment industry and the art of dream-making. You opened your mouth to Nie Xingqiu and closed your mouth to Zhou Zixiang. You kept barking all day long, attracting so many wild pigeons. Me, Ye Xiao, Pang Sha, Xu Yi, Ye Lan... , you perfunctory us with your so-called dreams, and then betrayed us without hesitation at the critical moment, making us all fall prey to Zhou Lv." I looked into his eyes coldly: "But you are just a dog of the Nie family. .”

Yin Xi's face instantly became paler than death.

"No more," his voice was pitifully low: "I swear..."

"Put away your promise." I said mercilessly: "Only that kind of idiot will believe your words, who are you pretending to be pitiful for? You asked me to forgive you six years ago, and now you want me to forgive you. Did you break up Huatian again? If I had forgiven you six years ago, would I have been kicked out like the same today? "

He was speechless.

"The whole world says you are pitiful, that you are in a dilemma, it is Zhuge Liang. Who is the really pitiful person? It is this kind of person who trusts you wholeheartedly! They say you are pitiful, you are right, so what is wrong with them?! You If you don’t have the ability to protect them, don’t tempt them with your dreams. It’s not Nie Yuan who really ruined them. Without you, we would never have met Nie Yuan for the rest of our lives! We only believed in you before we entered China. God. Now you want me to believe you again? No matter how good the resources are, as long as you are still the loyal dog in your bones, Ning Zheng is just the second Nie Yuan!"

I have thought about these words countless times in my heart.However, seeing him as if struck by lightning, I was not as relaxed as I imagined.

So what if you scold me happily, seven years have passed, I did not die in these seven years, but how many Lin Sui died in these seven years, I am afraid that Yin Xi himself cannot count. After min89, Yin Xi recruited a lot of girls as trainees, the biggest one, and was planning to build a new girl group. There was a trainee named Su Qi, who had an average voice and a very high singing quotient.There are more than 20 girls living in their dormitory on the first floor. During the civil turmoil in Huatian this year, during the months when Yin Xi was kicked out, Nie Yuan sent a new general manager to call all the girls out to accompany the drinks. Those who didn't left were all gone, and those who didn't left were all put to sleep. Su Qi was so frightened that she called me in the middle of the night and asked me what to do.

What can I teach her to do?

Stick to music dreams?be yourself?No plastic surgery, no unspoken rules, and then, like Su Ying, at the age of 26, still drifting in a strange city, accomplishing nothing?Not everyone has the opportunity of Ni Jing, who sang in the bar, Pei Dongyu listened to it all night, and signed Huatian directly the next day.

This circle is a disgusting big dye vat, but the most disgusting thing is not the kind of people who clearly mark the price and talk to you about unspoken rules, but Yin Xi, who disappears at a critical moment under the banner of dreams, and when he comes back, the whole world He also said that he was a "good old man" who couldn't help himself.

As I said, I'm so unlucky that only this circle has what I want, but the rules of this circle are incompatible with me. It's been seven years, and I've tried one by one. Yin Xi was scared away by Fu Yong's few threats Retired senior, Jian Ke, no one wants to treat my voice well. It has been seven years, and my luck is getting worse and worse, but my bones are always worn down, and I still have that damned arrogance.

The words Ji Rongfu touched me, he said that I am a singer, not a chef, but I wish I could be a chef now, if I were, I would put Ji Rongfu to bed without hesitation, don’t worry about getting up tomorrow morning, he said To support me.

It's not that I don't believe in Ji Rongfu, I love him deeply, and I firmly believe in him.

Yet everyone I love and believe deeply in ends up letting me down.

My father is a gambler, my mother is beautiful, and my father is also beautiful. When I was young, I fell in love with each other. After getting married, life began to show my fangs. I didn’t go home all the year round, and quarreled when I came home. In this way, I gave birth to two, my sister and I, The house is desolate, and I live in my grandmother's house all the year round. When I was seven years old, the three of us went to my grandmother's house again. That night, an old woman chatted with my mother and my grandmother all night. I woke up the next day. My mother is gone, and so is my sister.

My mother married a 40-year-old disabled person in another town dozens of miles away. I am a boy and I am too old, so others refused to marry me.

I was really ignorant at that time. I went to school, was called a wild child, got angry, wrapped a pair of new shoes made by my grandmother, walked dozens of miles, and went to that town to find my mother. She had given birth to a new child and gained weight. , Look at me with guilt and fear in my eyes.

So I walked back by myself.

Later, my sister said that she was doing homework on the second floor and saw me standing downstairs under the sun, a thin and thin shadow, and suddenly couldn't help crying, thinking while crying, she would make a lot of money , Take my brother back.

Because of her words, I bought her a computer with the first money I signed with Huatian.

I have never seen them again. I don’t like to owe others, and I don’t like others to owe me. Some people like to see guilt and regret in others’ eyes. I don’t like it. I’m a hedgehog. Regret can’t comfort me, only pain can.

and after?Lu Yan, Yin Xi, Fu Yong...

I believe that Lu Yan and I are of the same kind. I thought we were two lighthouses in the sea of ​​people. For the first time, I knew that I couldn’t control my emotions when I liked someone. I shrank timidly, but within a year, he Just being with Ji Luo's family, it turns out that the lighthouse not only likes lighthouses, but also likes pigs.

The ending with Yin Xi was ugly, and the ending with Fu Yong was even uglier.

According to this rule, it would be even uglier with Ji Rongfu.

Ji Rongfu is a bit like a mirage in the desert. I am by his side, like falling into a dream, I don't know when it will be.But now I went back to my home, climbed up the six flights of stairs, had a big fight with Yin Xi, drove him out of the house, and then saw Su Ying hiding in the stairwell and peeking at me cautiously, and felt like I was beaten back to my original form.

I don't know where I got the confidence that Ji Rongfu would be different.