Please follow the doctor's advice

Xu Yiren is the kind of person who believes in one thing, no matter how many times you ask him, he will always give the same answer.I tried so many tricks that I felt tired, and I did a bunch of small reactions but didn't see any results. The answer I got was always: I haven't thought about it, I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to, I never thought about it, and I don't have time.

Do I need to ask anything else?Do you want to ask again, you have considered girls before, why don't you think about me again?

This is like a person saying that he is not hungry and does not want to eat. Do you still have to bring noodles to him and ask him how the noodles are?Do you want to eat?

But with Xu Yiren's personality, if it was really served in front of him, maybe he would reluctantly eat a few mouthfuls out of face and didn't want to embarrass both parties too much. After all, I forced him to eat once before.So, by analogy, if I stand on the bedroom window with one leg stretched out and threaten him that I will jump if I don’t stay with me, he may also temporarily let go.

But such a promise is too ridiculous.

If you could only choose one thing to reserve the right to be afraid of, what would you choose?

There are too many things to be afraid of. I am afraid of the things that everyone is afraid of: I am afraid of death, I am afraid of losing my health, I am afraid of poverty, I am afraid of suffering, I am afraid of being tired, I am afraid of losing my head, I am afraid that I will lose my loved ones, I am afraid of my loved ones Losing me... can't be counted.Of course, it also included the fear of leaving Xu Yiren, it felt so good to be by his side.

Because of this, what I am most afraid of is that he looks at me with sympathy, pity, and charity, which will make me feel that even if I stand by his side, I will always be close to him forever.

I didn't mean to win against Xu Yiren.What I want to win is everyone on this road. Only in this way, wherever he goes, can I go there leisurely.

Old Xu even mobilized the small counselors in our class, and ran over to do ideological work for me: "Beyond, you should know that pharmacy in our school is the hardest major, and the admission threshold for freshmen is 20 points higher than other majors on average. Above, the ranking in the country is much higher than that of clinical majors. Both the future employment prospects and the gold content of the diploma are very impressive. Of course, we all respect your personal wishes, but you can imagine, in a national pharmaceutical industry. In the college, what kind of resources and development can you get? What kind of companies and teams will you come into contact with? Not to mention that Professor Xu, one of the academic leaders, is willing to take you personally. The starting point upon graduation is already the culmination of ten or eight years of research by many people.”

No one does not want their future to be bright, especially the condition that "can shorten the struggle time by ten or eight years compared with others", which seems to be a "plug-in".

I saw the promotional photos of the new campus specially built for the School of Pharmacy. It covers an area that is invincible among colleges and universities. All reveal that there is strong financial and policy support behind it.The river that runs through the middle of the campus is drawn from nearby rivers—there is no middle pool to act as an artificial lake, no dormitory buildings that cannot be reached by school buses, and no steps with hundreds of steps at every turn.

The highest institution of learning I can imagine is nothing more than this.But although "medicine" and "medicine" are not separated, there is a huge gap in real life. Maybe they are only separated by an intersection and a classroom when they are studying, and they are two completely different industries after graduation.

I don't know if there is any point of intersection at the other end of this shortcut that can naturally deal with Xu Yiren.

Professor Xu also came to give me reassurance: "I have known about your family's situation, don't worry about the scholarship, although after transferring to the department, there is no place for you in this year's scholarship in both departments, but I can help you apply for tuition fee waiver , you only need to pay the fees for books and teaching materials, if you still have difficulties, I will pay the money for you, you can rest assured, just come here in a down-to-earth manner, and you can declare according to your grades next year."

When it comes to scholarships... In fact, I didn't suffer any financial loss during the scholarship evaluation last year, and Lin Lang even gave me a lot of money, but that feeling of "other people can change the rules with a word" I still have some knots.Unexpectedly, one day someone will escort me, and it would be a lie to say that I am not moved at all.

I rolled up the bedding.

The new campus where the School of Pharmacy is located is twenty stops away from the old campus.I went back and forth between the two campuses a few times to go through the formalities, and my luggage was almost moved by the way, only a few scattered things... In fact, I could have moved away long ago if I wanted to.

It's time to go back to school, and I spent a long time watching the ducks beside Zhongshui Lake, wondering if Xu Yiren has returned, and I don't know what I'm struggling with.I always feel that if I go back early and pack up the remaining things too quickly, there will be no reason to stay and wait to say goodbye to him openly. If I go back late, maybe he has already gone to the library study room, or to start a class Yes, just missed it.

It seems that the procedures I ran for a week before are not the final procedures, and Xu Yiren is the last chapter I want to print.

As soon as he entered the door, Xu Yiren stood in the middle of the bedroom like a young poplar, facing my bed, his luggage was still on the table.

I lifted my breath and greeted with a smile: "You're back Brother Xu, it's been a long time..."

Xu Yiren: "What about your bed?"

There is no buffer at all, and even the small talk is saved.

His tone was obviously normal, but my heart was trembling—I didn’t steal or rob, but at this moment I felt like a big rat who wasted food, facing a high-raised shovel, a thief who got everything, Facing cold handcuffs.I had no choice but to walk past him, pretending to look for something in a plastic bag: "Ah, I... I'm going to change the department! The Department of Pharmacology, at the School of Pharmacy, moved the things away, remembering the books in the cabinet Haven't taken it yet, come back and pack it up!"

I pawed and pulled in a place where there was no plastic bag in sight, making a questioning sound on purpose, as if there should have been an idle plastic bag in that place.

Xu Yiren stood there without moving, watched my performance for a long time before asking, "Why didn't I hear what you said?"

"Ah? Oh!" I forcefully grinned and turned back with a bright smile, and turned my face back before the fake smile collapsed, "I heard that you went to the affiliated hospital for an internship. The hospital should be very busy. I left a message for you, maybe you are not online? Hey, how do you feel as a trainee?"

Xu Yiren was silent for a moment: "I'm not so busy that I can't even say a few words."

I regretted it all at once, and suddenly felt my heart hurt so much that I couldn't even squeeze out a fake smile.I knew that Xu Yiren seldom used those communication tools, but I deliberately found the most remote way to leave a message for him, as if this could delay the arrival of this day.While I was going through the formalities, many students in both departments knew that I was going to transfer to another department, but I didn't tell the person closest to me first.

what do i say?I can't say it.

Xu Yiren walked up to me and asked in a low voice, "Do you need help?"

There are only a few books left in the cabinet, and I already know it in my heart. I can carry away two vest bags from the supermarket. If he packs it up again, won’t it be faster?I hurriedly said: "No, no, there are not many things."

I turned my head to look at him for a moment of politeness. I haven't seen him for two months. He seems to have lost a bit of his childishness. He looks more mature and calm than before. He is still so clean and tidy. Every stop is a pleasing scenery.

Xu Yiren withdrew the hand that wanted to help me organize the textbooks, and took a few steps back to lean on the opposite row of desks.

I used my body to block his sight, and the movements in my hands were extremely busy but repetitive. I put the books one by one in the order of the semester, arranged them upside down again, put them in the vest bag for a few seconds, and took them out again. The spines of the books are arranged alternately, and he said to himself, "This way the book will not be nested" as if he cherished it.

God knows, this is the first time these books have been touched by me so frequently since they were issued.

Xu Yiren didn't ask a word, and didn't say a word, but I knew he was standing behind me, watching my movements.

Even if he says a word, it’s fine if he says something casually, or pick up what I say. I just want to talk to him face to face and lay the foundation for future intimate contact. Anyway, no one stipulates that a professional talent is required. To be friends, let alone a related major?I didn't come to let him watch me organize my things!

However, Xu Yiren really didn't mean to ask questions, he was not at all curious about the situation after I turned around - we were like two strangers under the same roof, and he only showed me the face because I was leaving soon Interrupt your plan and schedule and give me a "attention gift".

The books are very thick, with at least 400 pages each. If I continue to clean them up like this, the torn plastic bag and book cover in my hand will definitely rot. I have nothing to say: "Now the clinical risk is very high..."

If I can eat it back if I say it, I will definitely eat it back.As soon as I finished speaking, I felt like a traitor, betrayed the clinical department, betrayed Xu Yiren, and even blamed society.

I hurriedly changed my words: "But no matter how risky it is, someone still has to do the work that should be done, right..."

Eat this sentence too.I don't know what I'm talking about anymore, it sounds like "I'm hiding behind, if you have something to do, you go first".

I desperately searched for my IQ in the vast Milky Way: "No matter where we are or what our profession is, our purpose is always the same. We all serve for the sake of curing diseases and saving lives. If we don't maximize our knowledge and expertise, we will be sick. What about the people?"

I feel that I have finally spoken a human sentence, and it is time to point out the theme next.In fact, Xu Yiren and I have friends through various contact methods, but he is not in the habit of using those APPs at ordinary times, and he only makes phone calls when he has something to do—now how formal it is to make phone calls in interpersonal communication, as if there is something important, I am afraid Calling him specifically to ask him out made him feel that it took up too much time and was stressful. It's best to keep things quiet, chatting and chatting will come naturally.

I said: "Brother Xu, I just changed my major, and the two campuses are not far away, can we still see each other often? Look..."

Xu Yiren didn't even give me the last face, and said fiercely: "Pinch the cigarette!"

No one gave him second-hand smoke anymore, no one stopped him from listening to English and dragged him to have a "lying talk" before going to bed, and no one snored to disturb him to sleep.Like a rescue dog, I tied two bags of books together and hung them around my neck. I walked nearly [-] miles back to the new campus, from the early morning lights to the bright moon and stars.

I feel that what is hanging around my neck is not a pile of books, but a leaky pocket, and my entire youth has been drained on this road.

Lao Xu invited me to dinner at home, and called me and several other students under him.One of the seniors looked familiar to me, and when he saw me looking at him, he raised a cup and clinked glasses with me, replacing wine with tea, and said, "Welcome to our department!"

I also raised my glass blankly: "Thank you, brother."

The brother put down the cup and said: "Speaking of which, you have to thank me, haha, the other day I saw that you were so good at playing games, so I took a photo and posted it in the group to ask if anyone knew you, and the professor happened to see it. He ran to the electronic reading room overnight to save students who had stumbled and picked you up!"

No wonder a professor would appear in the electronic reading room on the first day of the new year. I thought it was strange at first, but I didn’t ask too much because of my seniority. Now I feel relieved. I am ashamed.

Ordinarily, I solved the confusion, the blood of the human body should flow more easily, but I don’t know why I can’t lift up my spirits, it always seems that part of the soul is not possessed, and I said dumbly: “That’s it, thank you brother. "

The senior brother quietly said to me: "We will be a family from now on! Do you know why our school's pharmacy major is so strong? There is no reason why any major is strong. In addition to its own strength and excellent students in the past, the professor's painstaking efforts It is also indispensable. Originally, he did not need to go to various departments to teach the basic courses in person, but he insisted on taking the time to find good seedlings and find opportunities to pry them over. He should have liked you for a long time, work hard , Junior Brother! There is a future!"

What is "finding opportunities"?Suddenly, a flash of inspiration came to my mind, and I asked, "Brother, did the professor ask you a question, probably 'If you could only choose one thing to reserve the right to be afraid of, what would you choose?'"

The senior brother nodded: "I asked, I chose conservatively. At that time, I had just joined Lao Xu's sect, and the pressure was extremely high. I said I couldn't let my family down. What about you? Did you choose?"

Nonsense, I didn't choose me to drink tea stems here?Xu Yiren's tea last night was even more fragrant than this one!I was not in the mood to explain to him, so I asked, "Do you know what Professor Xu chose?"

The senior brother laughed: "The professor said he didn't choose anything. He said that what you are afraid of losing is what you care about. If you care about it, how can you give up? Hahaha, many of us have been deceived by him!"

When he opened his mouth and laughed, I felt that the soul floating around my body returned to its place in an instant, and the flames of the fighting race were burning in my heart again—Xu Shinan, I really believed in your evil!

One day, I was so sleepy that I answered a phone call. As soon as I connected, my broken voice yelled in my ear: "Li Chaoyue, Li Chaoyue, Li Chaoyue! Where are you?!"

I thought to myself, who are you, you are so angry, and you call me and make troubles, am I responsible for it?Glancing at the phone, it turned out to be the new counselor.I said, "In the bedroom, what's the matter?"

Counselor: "Class is still in session! Are you still in the dormitory? Why are you still asking me what's wrong? Why are you wrong?"

I was sleepy and my mind was muddled: "...what's my thing?"

Counselor: "Don't play dumb with me! Let me ask you, do you know how many classes you have missed since the beginning of the term? I remember that your attendance record in the clinical department used to be full attendance. Why are you here? I haven’t seen you in the classroom? What are you doing all day long? Ah? If you miss more than 305 classes without reason in a semester, you will be reported for criticism, do you know? Once you report your scholarship for the next year, you will forget about it! Now , Room [-], Yunhua Building, Professor Xu’s class, you have to fly over to me immediately! Even skip his class, are you so sorry that he brought you here specially! "

It’s okay if I don’t talk about it, I want to hit someone when I talk about it, and I don’t want to see that old guy for a short time. If I go to Yunhua Building now, if I disagree, there may be a "truancy student beating the teacher incident".I asked: "Didn't it mean that if you won the third prize or above in the national competition, you don't have to take classes?"

The counselor was stunned for a moment, and then regained his firepower: "Yes, there is such a saying, but it counts as one course! It doesn't mean that if you take one course, you don't need to take other courses! Don't tell me that you can do it every day. Everyone wins prizes!"

I took the phone away, and finally said: "I haven't taken the test yet, how do you know I can't take it? I have already signed up, let's talk after the test."

I climbed out of bed to find some water to drink.

Because the dormitory of this grade was full, the department arranged me together with freshmen of the same major.The admission scores of the Pharmacology Department of our school are indeed higher than those of the Clinical Department. These freshmen must have good grades in high school, and they are a little arrogant. At the beginning, I heard that I was a senior who transferred to the department, and they were all as cute as younger brothers. Yes, after a few days, I found that I had nothing else to do except sleep during the day, turn off the lights and jump off the building at night to go to an Internet cafe all night. After that, I gradually began to dislike me. Dare to speak nonsense.

That's right, jumping off the building, our dormitory is on the first floor, and I haven't climbed many, many stairs for a long time.

As soon as I carried the kettle, it was indeed empty—I used to always carry it full. Even if there was no water in the kettle, there was still water in the cup. If I wanted to take a bath, I could always mix it with some heat. If I drank too much, the second I can eat even if I can’t get out of bed every day, and I can often get a piece of fruit to eat.

I took a little out of the thermos pots of those little bastards and poured them into a cup, then put the pots back in the original position, feeling so pitiful, so wronged, so weak.Now these brats don't help my senior brother fetch water, but they bully me and dare to arrange my duty list without brothers?Don't you know that the thing I'm most afraid of is deducting points?You are all deducted and I have some points left!

They all go to self-study and library every day, pretending to be like little Xu Yiren, but none of them can compare with Xu Yiren.Not to mention the vast difference in looks, at least Xu Yiren's glasses won't be so oily, and his summer clothes won't be left overnight. Xu Yiren has already made such a question, so he won't turn it off every day. The lamp is drooling and talking about girls with great interest!If Xu Yiren saw me like this, he would have given me a lecture a long time ago...

I really miss Xu Yiren, I really want to be scolded by him, I really want to climb hundreds of stairs with him like an ascetic to go to class every day, I really want to line up with him to buy big pancakes, I really want to hide behind him and watch him Butcher the rabbit!

I glanced at the mirror on the balcony... Forget it, I didn't fast, bathe, burn incense and pray, how could I miss him when he was so greasy?