Ambiguous addiction

Ye Xi didn't have time to think about it. Anyway, he didn't care what Professor Ye thought about homosexuality. He stretched his arm slightly towards Lu Churan's direction, and he was caught in the next second. Lu Churan's gaze didn't even Sweeping in his direction, I knew by feeling that he would reach out his hand to hold him.

As a result, Ye Xi suddenly seemed to have gained a boost of courage, clasped Lu Churan's hand and strode away, leaving the two stunned people behind and ignoring them.

On the way home, Ye Xi kept a gloomy face and said nothing. Although he kept repeating "I don't care" and "I don't care" to himself in his heart, the sudden encounter still brought back many complicated and rough memories that he didn't want to look back on. It seriously affected his mood.

After he got home, he changed his clothes and hid in the room alone. After Lu Churan finished dinner, he went to the room to call him, thinking that he had fallen asleep on the pillow, and when he touched his head, he was very nervous Consciously got up from the bed, went out to eat as if nothing had happened.

However, his mood was so bad that he didn't even have an appetite for steamed egg custard. He put down his chopsticks after eating half a bowl with difficulty, said "I'm full" weakly, and went back to the room to lie on his stomach.

Lu Churan packed up the dishes and went to bed after taking a shower. She patted his tight buttocks lightly and touched his face. It was still warm and dry without any trace of tears, "Smelly baby, don't take a bath Just lie on my bed and wash the sheets and quilt covers for me tomorrow."

Ye Xi turned his face away in a muffled voice, "I didn't sweat or get dirty today."

Lu Churan pulled him a little closer, let his head lie on her lap, and comforted him, "When we meet, we will meet. Where in life do we not meet again? Since it has already happened, there is nothing to worry about."

"I'm not entangled." Ye Xi said, his tone seemed a little distressed, "I'm thinking now, do I look like that scum? Why did that little kid recognize me at a glance? Does it look that bad?"

Lu Churan covered his eyes with his hands, "It looks a bit like the eyebrows if you don't look at them."

Ye Xi pushed his hand away, frowned and retorted in disbelief, "I don't think so at all, you all have problems with your eyes. And that kid doesn't look like him either, I don't know how to grow it , His mother must be ugly, the ugly gene is too strong to affect the appearance of the next generation."

Lu Churan tried hard to recall Ye Cheng's appearance, and concluded with a serious expression, "He's not ugly, he's okay."

"You still miss him? You are not allowed to miss him!" Ye Xi was just a little sulking at first, but now he is completely angry. He walked away from Lu Churan's lap, grabbed the quilt and pushed his head in, and followed a dog that was lying on the ground in the desert. An ostrich buried in the sand is no different.

Lu Churan was afraid that he would be bored, so she pulled down the quilt on his head a little, but he didn't expect him to hold it tightly inside, and would not let go.

Lu Churan sighed softly, her eyes were still warm and soft, pinched his ankle, stroked along the calf all the way up, then poked the sensitive and ticklish part of his waist, and avoided it while he was slightly arched. When the palm touched his stomach, he rubbed his stomach very gently.

Ye Xi was discouraged by his rubbing and laughed, turned over and pushed the quilt away, her cheeks were already blushing from the stuffiness, Lu Churan hurried down to give him artificial respiration, and kissed him even more hypoxic up.

Later, after saying good night, Ye Xi's mood slowly sank again, remembering that he had been blessed by that irresponsible man for so many years of being helpless and homeless, but if he talked about it, he would hate it. Hate, that is a person who has nothing to do with his own life, and he has no extra feelings to hate him.

Ye Xi's biological father committed suicide by cheating on his wife during marriage, which was considered a big family scandal at the time. In addition, he was the eldest son of the family, and because of his academic influence, he had a little reputation in society, so Ye Xi's Grandpa was so angry that he almost wanted to publish in the newspaper to sever the father-son relationship with him, but he refrained from doing it because he didn't want to publicize the family scandal.

So until the death of Ye Xi's grandfather, Ye Xi's biological father did not dare to have any contact with the family. He sent money and letters home during the holidays and grandpa always returned them intact. It was not until after his grandfather passed away that he started He has occasional contact with his younger brother, Ye Xi's uncle.

However, Ye Xi didn't have much contact with his uncle. When he just graduated from university a few years ago, his career was not going well, and he had a lot of self-esteem and didn't want to be looked down upon, so he didn't go to see them once.After entering the current company, everything has improved. During the Chinese New Year, it was rare to find time to visit my uncle. He was disgusted by his aunt's mean face. He obviously didn't take care of him before, but In front of other relatives, he scolded him for being a wolf-hearted and unfilial son, and shamelessly asked him to support his two worthless and useless cousins, he wished he could stay as far away from this family as he could.

All kinds of miscellaneous thoughts were piled up in Ye Xi's mind, and it was already three o'clock in the morning when the drowsiness hit, and the quality of sleep was also very poor. When he woke up in the morning, he had a stiff neck. The mood to hug Lu Churan is gone.

After Lu Churan finished his class in the afternoon, Ye Cheng was chatting with him all the time, quietly looking at the situation outside, inquiring about things about him and Ye Xi in a roundabout way, and talking about his mysterious life. My brother is very admiring and curious.

After chatting for more than ten minutes, Ye Xi was still nowhere to be seen. Ye Cheng grabbed his schoolbag and left the classroom with some disappointment. Xi.

Today, he is in a suit and leather shoes again, and the suit complements his noble temperament with broad shoulders and long legs. He also looks serious and calm because of his stiff neck, his temper is very grumpy and he doesn't want to laugh.

Ye Cheng's eyes lit up immediately, and he chased after him. The young man who was still in the stage of changing his voice was full of vigor, "Brother, we met again. Let me treat you to dinner. My dad sent me pocket money yesterday."

Ye Xi's eyes froze, and he thought to himself, what the hell are you so vain in front of me? What's so great about your dad giving you pocket money? You are the only one who is proud that you have a dad and I don't have you, isn't it? My boyfriend also gave it to me today Give out pocket money, he is also my father.

At the same time, there was no expression on his face, he pulled Lu Churan and quickened his pace, "No need."

"I'm not sent by my father, I just want to know you, so you should treat it as a friend." Ye Cheng followed closely like a paparazzi, and didn't dislike the embarrassment of his identity, " Anyway, you don't know my mother and I don't know your mother, so we don't need to talk about family affairs."

Ye Xi choked on his nervousness for two seconds, turned around and gave him a dark look, "I don't want to be friends with high school students."

Ye Cheng was still confident, "It's okay, I don't go to high school now, I'm going to apply for foreign universities after I finish the TOEFL and SAT exams."

"Are you finished?" Ye Xi paused and turned around ferociously, "Your father dotes on you and gives you pocket money and spends money on you to study abroad. What's so great about you? You're showing off in front of me. Your father's kindness and filial piety are nothing more than wanting me to envy you how happy you are, I can tell you that I don't care about your father at all."

"I don't mean anything like that at all..." Ye Cheng lowered his head after being scolded, and then raised his eyes to look at Ye Xi with aggrieved eyes. His eyes were as innocent as those of a puppy being criticized by his master, and he whispered Justify yourself, "I just think that my brother looks very good, and Teacher Lu is also very good. You are still together, it feels like a Gundam fit. I don't mind that you are gay. Sometimes I also think that some boys are stronger than girls. Cute, some girls are more handsome than boys, I really want to be friends with such a powerful person like you. When I was young, I was very envious of other people having older brothers. I have always grown up alone, and I have never seen any relatives from my father’s side. , and the relatives on my mother’s side are not often seen in other cities. I think there are still people in this world who can have such a close connection with me, and I am very happy.”

"I'm not in the mood to play the role of a big brother in front of you right now. Who doesn't grow up alone, what's so special about being lonely is worthy of others' pity. I haven't even said anything to my parents for so many years." Ye Xi didn't want to Cooperating with his brothers and sisters, "You'd better not mess with me. You asked me to come out in front of that man yesterday without saying hello. I still want to strangle you to death."

Lu Churan pulled Ye Xi, who was so annoyed with spikes all over his body, behind him, and his eyes fell on Ye Cheng. When his eyes were focused on people, there was an indescribable sense of oppression, "Hurry up and come back!" Come home, some things are not as simple as you think unilaterally, and you can't rush them, and people can't be connected or resolve conflicts with a sentence or two."

Ye Cheng was startled, nodded, looked at Ye Xi again disappointedly, turned and ran away.

Lu Churan walked to the parking lot with his arms around Ye Xi's shoulders, and started the car after he fastened his seat belt, "Actually, your brother is quite innocent, so you don't have to be too harsh on him, he is so much younger than you, I don't know about your previous entanglements."

Ye Xi raised the corners of both mouths and turned around, with a forced smile on his face, "My little brother, I'm just a little brother, the one you licked, nothing else."

Lu Churan couldn't say no to him, so he reached out and stroked his knee, and he put his hand up and intertwined with his staggered fingers.

"I'm not angry, really, I just feel very inexplicable. If you want to throw me away, I will throw it away. If you want to admit it, I will admit it. There is no such cheap good thing in this world. The little boy suddenly fell from the sky. A handsome brother like me I don’t believe it if I’m not curious about anything. I don’t know how far his father and he can talk. Those who came into contact with me might even encourage him to do so, so seeing that I am doing well, I am eager to play the family card, and I am not so lacking in love that I want to cry bitterly and be grateful for Dade's sake."

"Are you thinking about these things without sleeping at night?" Lu Churan asked.

"Just think about it for a while, and prepare yourself mentally." Ye Xi looked at the receding scenery outside the window, there were wild grass half a person's height bent by the wind on the side of the road, and the slender leaves reflected the clear sunlight , "After all these years, I thought I would never see him again, and I still can't react for a while."

"Don't think so much, anyway, I have no feelings, and I don't need to have any burden."

"I know, in fact, I have figured out the relationship between him and my mother since high school, and I don't know what my mother is like. Maybe they used to really not get along at all. Maybe my mother can care about me. Just kill herself, which means that she is not a responsible mother, or she can't control her own depression at all. Since that person has not loved her for a long time, it will not change the result whether he leaves her or not. More or less, I always have to accept some partings that are beyond my tolerance. It’s just that as the most direct victim of this incident, I can’t get rid of the sequelae that this incident has brought to me.” Ye Xi pulled Lu Churan’s He kissed the back of his hand, "But I've been healed by you now, and I'm not afraid to face the past."

After hearing his words, Lu Churan couldn't help but smile faintly. He had long understood that Ye Xi was a piece of jade in the rough, but it had been covered up by some negative and frivolous bad habits. After being polished, it would become clean and thorough. Glowing, he stroked the top of his head and complimented, "You're brave."

Ye Xi was praised, and his emotions finally began to boil slowly again, shaking his fox tail, "I have a stiff neck, my neck is so sore, you go back and pinch it for me."