Ambiguous addiction

"Your Majesty, please lift up your dragon hand," Ye Xi said to Lu Churan, who was leaning on the bed reading a book, after taking a shower, pulling the fluffy hair on the top of his head, and then lifted the quilt and lay down. Come down and rub against his arms hard, "I want to hug."

Lu Churan put the book aside, hugged the man exuding a faint fragrance of shower gel, and kissed him resoundingly on the forehead, Ye Xi lay on him and stared into his eyes, his eyes were very clear Liang, like a fearless child who knows that he is loved and cared for.

"Do you have something to say?"

"Well, that's the one. Before Tao Jiayue told me that a program director wanted him to find someone to do a TV show with me. I agreed at the time, because I didn't know his relationship with you. Now I know, I'm even more embarrassed to shrink back. Otherwise, It made me seem to be afraid of him. But... If you don't want me to get too close to him, I can find an excuse to push him away, and I can also tell him, 'Our teacher Lu doesn't like me in public', Hahahaha," Ye Xi said halfway, laughing so much that his saliva was about to flow out, Lu Churan wiped it off with his fingertips, "If he shows his affection forcibly like this, he may retreat in spite of the difficulty."

"I don't really care what he thinks. The question is whether you want to do it or not. If you want to do it, just do it and think about the consequences before you do it." Lu Churan pressed his head on his chest, and used She rubbed her chin against the top of his head and pinched his ears, "If you become popular, I will depend on you for the rest of my life. I quit my job to be your manager and follow you 24 hours a day. Whoever wants to If you are hyping up scandals, I will send a lawyer's letter."

"What's in the lawyer's letter?"

"Whoever you are, you have to respect yourself. Ye Xi is a man with a family. Please don't destroy other people's family happiness just to hype your popularity."

"Then I have to give you a century-old wedding to prove that I have a family." Ye Xi laughed so hard that tears almost came out, "Why do you think that you are farther than me, I didn't expect you to be such a teacher Lu, be more reserved Ok."

"If you are interested, try to do it." Lu Churan restrained his imagination, lay down and faced Ye Xi face to face, "No matter how far you go, I will always be behind you, baby."

Regardless of the meaning of the previous words, they can be ignored. Ye Xi doesn't want to do anything now, all he can think of is, "The last two words, say it again, it sounds good."

"Baby." Lu Churan turned off the bedside lamp, and wrapped the person in his arms with a quilt to prevent his back from catching cold, "Good night."

When Ye Xi was still drinking honey water the next day, Lu Churan took out a box of Belgian chocolates from his backpack and handed it to him. The box was heart-shaped, and Ye Xi swallowed the honey water in his mouth. Buy chocolate? I don't like chocolate."

"I know." Lu Churan said quite calmly, "A student gave it to me yesterday, saying that he went on a trip some time ago and bought it for me."

Ye Xi caught the key words in Lu Churan's words, stared at the box of chocolates quickly and sensitively, squinted his eyes, "Is there only chocolate? Where's the love letter?"

After saying this, Ye Xi quietly bit his lips to force himself not to speak again, at least not to say a word that was obviously guarded and hostile.

He knew that Lu Churan did nothing wrong, but he hated this feeling of losing control suddenly. Lu Churan was too dazzling, and all creatures that tended to light could not resist his light. He knew that he should not take this kind of The fear of the unknown imaginary enemy turned on him.

He understands how sickly and twisted his inner desire for monopoly is, but he has to control himself to trap this unruly beast in a cage, and not let it scare Lu Churan.

"The love letter was returned, and I said that if I gave me a gift for other purposes, I would not accept it, and then the student put away the love letter." Lu Churan confessed to him without reservation. The box of chocolates was in his hand, "I don't like chocolates either, but it's a waste to throw them away. You can take them back to the company and treat your colleagues to eat."

"I see," Ye Xi immediately disarmed, and put away the chocolate with a gentle smile, "I'm going to talk to Tao Jiayue and the editor-director of that TV station after get off work today, I won't go to the store to look for you, don't leave me meals."

"Well," Lu Churan paused for two seconds, stood next to him and lowered his head to kiss his lips, "Don't take anything he tells you about things other than work, you don't care about me. Just ask me directly."

The emotion in the corners of Ye Xi's eyes suddenly softened, and he nodded as if smashing garlic, then stretched out his arms and hugged Lu Churan, leaning his head on his waist, Lu Churan habitually raised his hand to stroke his hair .

After returning to the company, Ye Xi donated all the box of chocolates that Lu Churan gave him to his colleagues. One of the new female colleagues who graduated from university heard him say that the chocolates were given by a friend, so she deliberately asked, "Is it true? That person who often drives you to work, you seem to have a good relationship, is he your roommate?"

Ye Xi looked into the other person's eyes, smiled without saying a word, and took it as his acquiescence.

The female colleague added another sentence as if not addicted, "He is so handsome, he looks like a serious and ascetic scholar, does he have a girlfriend?"

The smile on Ye Xi's face became even warmer, like the golden light on a withered tree branch in an autumn afternoon, and he said six words, "He has a son."

The expression of the female colleague began to become awkward at a speed visible to the naked eye, "It's so cool, already married? Or a single father?"

Ye Xi subtly avoided her question, but answered to the point, "His son is currently in the rebellious stage, and his second-year illness is very serious. He cannot do without his care. If he neglects his son at all, His son may run away from home."

"Oh... Then reorganizing the family is really troublesome, not every child can adapt."

"Yeah, do you want another piece of chocolate?"

The female colleague waved her hand, "No, thank you."

Ye Xi closed the box and turned back to his seat. The smile on his face faded the moment he turned around. After calming down in his seat for a while, he picked up the cup and went to the tea room to drink two large glasses of water before he calmed down. Get organized and get to work.

When it was time to get off work, Ye Xi left the company on time and took a taxi to a restaurant near a TV station whose address Tao Jiayue had left for him. Already sitting in it.

The program director was a short, fat man in his 30s wearing glasses. He spoke decisively and neatly. He explained all the concepts and procedures of the new program to Ye Xi. The salary and time had already been prepared. Budget, let Ye Xi think it through and give him a clear answer before the agreed deadline, and then returned to the TV station without stopping.

Tao Jiayue listened quietly from the sidelines the whole time without interrupting a word. From time to time, his eyes fell on Ye Xi who was sitting next to him. After the program director left, he changed his seat and sat in Ye Xi's seat. Opposite Xi, "Finally, there are only two of us left."

Ye Xi had expected it a long time ago, and he didn't have the slightest nervousness about facing an enemy. He lazily folded his arms on the table, leaned forward a little, and smiled back, "If you have something to say, just say it, I'll listen with all my ears."

Seeing him so happy, Tao Jiayue didn't bother to mingle with him, and looked at him with a smile, but the tone of her words was not a discussion at all, but more like a request, "Can you return Lu Churan to me?"

"I'm sorry, Mr. Tao Jiayue, did you make a mistake?" Ye Xi was amused by his words, lowered his head and chuckled a few times, raised his eyes to look directly at the other party, and understood without flinching, "He's not you Yes, it’s mine. If you want to take someone away from me, it can’t be said that you want me to give him back to you.”

"Why not?" Tao Jiayue's face was still warm like a spring breeze, and she was not hurt by the sharpness of Ye Xi's words at all, "If you say first come, first come, I am the one who came first."

Ye Xi was a little irritated by his arrogant tone, but continued to smile unmoved, "Isn't it selfish for you to say that, you come whenever you want, leave whenever you want, what do you think of Lu Churan?"

"Yeah, I'm not only selfish, I also lack love." Tao Jiayue didn't deny his words, "Being loved by him, it's really hard to feel that others love me, at least, not as much as he used to love."

"So what, it's none of my business? If you miss it, you miss it. There are not so many good things about reunion in this world."

Tao Jiayue smiled slowly and shook her head, as if she was in disbelief at Ye Xi's words, "I was the first person he loved, do you think he can forget me? Every feature related to love in him carries with me Impact."

Ye Xi remained silent for a moment without answering, trying to expel Tao Jiayue's words from his mind, he began to think back to Lu Churan's reminder to him this morning, don't take anything he said to heart.

That's right, he just wants to confuse me, and I can't accept his psychological hints.

However, the moment Tao Jiayue said her words, she had already opened up a terrible cognition, that is, when Lu Churan did everything for him, Tao Jiayue was hidden in the shadow, even talking about me. When he loved you, it was the man in front of him who inspired him.

Seeing that he had nothing to say, Tao Jiayue continued, "Have you ever eaten the cheesecake he made? That's what he learned to do for me on my 17th birthday." He tightly Staring at the daze and hesitation in Ye Xi's eyes, "If I had been braver at the beginning, maybe I would have married him abroad and had a child now. I don't know if he has told you that he likes children very much. , He said that he wanted to find a surrogate to have a daughter in the future, and send her to a private school with the most beautiful uniforms."

Ye Xi's eyes dimmed. Lu Churan did say that he wanted a child. Before giving him 120 million, he said that it was an education fund for his child, but he also said that it's okay not to have a child.

"It's useless for you to tell me 'if' now. There is no regret medicine in this world. If you want to blame, you can only blame yourself for being cowardly. He didn't want you, you deserve it."

Tao Jiayue was stabbed mercilessly by his words, and the expression on her face was a little cold, but she continued to laugh, "I have 100% confidence to give him happiness now, my parents have already treated me I have compromised my orientation, and now I just want Lu Churan to come back to me, and I can make up for him for everything he has lost over the years."

100% confidence to give Lu Churan happiness, this is indeed something I don't have.Ye Xi turned his face away, his eyes fell on his own reflection in the smooth glass window, and he couldn't help asking himself what he had, he knew that what he got was the only tameness in the world, but he didn't know that he gave back to Lu Churan He didn't even have the confidence to say that he would definitely give Lu Churan happiness.

" Between you and him, you love deeply, right? But when we were with him before, it was he who loved me deeply. No matter what excessive demands I made, he would never refuse me." Tao Jiayue actually said to herself The words he uttered were not completely sure, but Ye Xi just believed it. Whoever loves more can't be measured by anyone except the person involved.

Ye Xi came back to his senses when he heard his voice, with a sarcastic sneer on his face, "Yeah, so when you make the last excessive request, he won't want you."

Tao Jiayue's complexion suddenly changed, but she couldn't refute Ye Xi's words.

Ye Xi clenched his fists under the table, trying not to let himself tremble a bit, even if he couldn't do anything, he still has enough confidence to say this sentence, "You are right, I love Lu Chu Although he loves me more than him, but I love Lu Churan far more than Lu Churan once loved you."

The sky had already turned dark, and the neon lights on the street had been extinguished, making the street lamps look even more lonely and cold.

Ye Xi didn't know how he got home. When he stood outside the house and couldn't find the key for a long time, the door opened from the inside by itself, and the warm yellow light shone into his eyes, as if he could see the keys outside. The hard cold air melts into water.

Lu Churan closed the door, carefully looked at Ye Xi's face, and found nothing wrong. Ye Xi used strict control to stabilize his emotions, and could not lose his composure in front of Lu Churan, but Lu Churan stretched out his hand When touching his shoulder, he subconsciously avoided his touch.

"What's wrong with you?" Lu Churan frowned instantly.

"I'm...tired." Ye Xi was also startled by his own reaction, opened his eyes slightly, and took a deep breath quietly, "I'm tired today."

After speaking, he turned and walked towards the room.

"Stop." Lu Churan ordered behind him, and he stopped immediately, not daring to move.

Lu Churan hugged him from behind, wrapped him tightly in his arms, and pressed his fiery breath against his ear, "What's wrong, tell me what's wrong with you, don't hold back by yourself."

I'm dying, can you save me.Ye Xi really wanted to tell Lu Churan this way, but he didn't want Lu Churan to see his inferiority and weakness, and he didn't want Lu Churan to find out that he was a beast screaming for possession in the dark abyss.

He closed his eyes tightly to hold back the tears, and forced himself to calm down in silence for tens of seconds, then turned around and hugged Lu Churan, breathed in his breath very hard, but his voice became hoarse, "I love Lu Churan very much." You really."

"I know." Lu Churan rubbed the back of his head, trying to drive out his inexplicable fear from his heart, "I know you love me. Don't listen to what other people say, just look at me, just listen to what I say If it doesn't work, stay away from him."

Ye Xi took a short breath, and tightened the arms around Lu Churan's waist.

"No, I'm not afraid of him." I don't even mind if you love him or not, and how much you love him, because, "I love you more than anyone in this world, more than yourself."

The author has something to say: fixed typos.