Ambiguous addiction

"Ye Xi, why didn't your parents come? Do you have no parents?"

"No way, are you really an orphan, Ye Xi?"

"No wonder your stationery is so old, and no one will mend the holes in your school uniform."

"You are miserable, no one will love you."

"Did you grow up in an orphanage?"

Ye Xi struggled for a while and suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes were full of uncontrollable panic, and there was a faint anger like firewood that had been watered by rain.

Lu Churan, who was still asleep, was touched by the sudden movement of the person in his arms, and subconsciously tightened his arms.

Ever since she first learned that Ye Xi would push the quilt when sleeping, Lu Churan would hug him almost every time she slept next to him, and then found that he not only likes to push the quilt but also likes to lift clothes, and he also likes to sleep well. Wearing pajamas, but after waking up, she often bares her breasts and exposes her stomach to dry.

So when he sensed Ye Xi's movement, Lu Churan would hug him tightly to prevent him from catching a cold in his stomach, and he was still a little reluctant to think of Ye Xi's poor sleeping appearance before he was so cheap. Right now, I don't really want to deal with this person who is racing against time while sleeping.

But Ye Xi is clingy when he is asleep, and is like a sensitive animal when he is awake. When he senses something wrong with Lu Churan's mood, he will come to him and hug him persistently, causing Lu Churan to be confused. Di again forgot the reason why he didn't want to talk to him.

After Ye Xi was hugged tightly, he slowly recovered from the turmoil of the nightmare. Surrounded by warm arms, his eyes fell on the beautiful lines of Lu Churan's naked upper body muscles, and then he lowered his head and put the soft Hot lips covered Lu Churan's chest, and the tip of his nose rubbed against his collarbone.

Am I not loved by anyone, no, I think I am still loved by someone, maybe it is too heavy to talk about love now, but I can already believe that I am worthy of being loved by someone in this world.

Ye Xi originally thought that he would be so angry for giving way to Lu Churan, and that he would be discarded into the darkness that belonged to him to fend for himself. He was even ready to beg for salvation in a low voice, but he didn't expect that it was just a confession. The barrier between him and Lu Churan was easily broken.

He felt very at ease, but at the same time very scared. For him, a simple confession required all his courage, because it was too secret and true, hidden in the deepest part of his heart, even he dared not reveal it, and tell others It's as shameful and embarrassing as letting a secret hang out in the sun.

But for others, it is an easy thing to do. Lu Churan will be moved by his confession, and may also be moved by other people who do better than himself.

They are all the same three or four words, and the emotion contained in them can’t be measured just by hearing them with ears, and even looking at them with eyes can’t see the essence. No one knows how long he struggled awkwardly before opening his mouth.

When Ye Xi realized what he was thinking, he had already sucked a large hickey under Lu Churan's collarbone, which was no different from the behavior of a puppy peeing on a lamppost, leaving a mark to declare his sovereignty.

Lu Churan woke up frowning, and asked him in a hoarse voice, "Ye Xi, did you become a mosquito? Haven't you heard that after the founding of the country, you are not allowed to become a spirit?"

"..." Ye Xi was startled for a moment, paused for two seconds, then couldn't help laughing, buried her face in his chest and arched, "Lu Churan, I want to do it."

"Can I say that I don't want to?" Lu Churan reached out and stroked his hair, brushing up the messy hair on his forehead, revealing a full and smooth forehead.

"No." Ye Xi's bright eyes met his gaze, and he asked with a sly smile, "If you don't want to, then why are you standing against me?"

"This is just an unconscious and normal physiological phenomenon, and it has nothing to do with my own wishes." Lu Churan smiled, explained the reason like a textbook, and got closer to some of Ye Xi's body, but did not do anything else, just kissed his black cheeks. Eye circles, "Hey, take your hands away and don't touch them randomly."

"Okay, you don't need to use your hands." Ye Xi gave him a meaningful look, licked his lips and sneaked into the quilt.

Lu Churan had no time to react, and was aggressively attacked by this hungry little beast. Ye Xi had never served others like this before, but he was born with a very high understanding of pleasing Lu Churan.

At about the same time, Lu Churan pulled up Ye Xi who was kneeling on the bed, and wiped away the saliva from the corner of his mouth with his fingertips. His face was completely crimson, and his eyes were blurred. Lu Churan turned over and pressed him down. On the mattress, let him sink into his arms.

Obviously, it has been done many times, but Ye Xi feels that this time, he has a real sense of possessing and being possessed that he has never had before.

"Ye Xi." Lu Churan's breath fell on Ye Xi's neck completely, turning crimson. Ye Xi's ears couldn't help but feel hot when his deep voice sounded in his ears.

"Hmm... huh?" Ye Xi felt his eyes darken intermittently.

Lu Churan said to him with a gentle tone that could not be rejected: "From now on, if you don't say you like me, we won't have sex."

Ye Xi was immediately taken aback by this kind of abstinence style's non-angerous prestige, panting and complaining in a low voice with moisture in the corners of his eyes, "You are so wicked, you use this kind of condition to lure me to confess."

"You don't have to agree." Lu Churan ordered with his lips pressed against his ear, the breath flowing into the ear hole made him tremble all over, "Say it or not."

"Well, Lu Churan, don't stop, I promise you whatever you want, I was wrong, Dad! Ah..." Ye Xi's words were smashed into pieces, and his thoughts started from Lu Churan's movements that made him lose his mind. After regaining a bit of sobriety, unconscious tears welled up from his eyes, "I, I, I, I, I like you, never, never liked anyone, only you..."

"Good." Lu Churan curled his lips and bowed his head to kiss him, but he responded proactively, even the kissing posture was the most suitable.

"Are you hungry?" When it was over, Ye Xi lied weakly on the bed and began to feel drowsy again, his thick eyelashes drooping obediently, and the mattress next to him moved, as if the dark and quiet light and shadow in the room followed. He swayed for a while, and he couldn't even hear the answer mumbled in his throat, and then he got a kiss on his face, "Sleep again if you are sleepy, I will cook porridge for you if you still have a stomachache, and I will go back to the headquarters in the afternoon , call me when you wake up."

Ye Xi fell asleep in a daze, this time there was no more nightmare, only pure sleep, so pure that he couldn't feel the flow of time, but the feeling of overwhelmed exhaustion in his body dissipated completely.

After waking up, he didn't call Lu Churan. He reheated the porridge in the kitchen and ate two big bowls. His stomach felt warm and full.

He changed into handsome clothes, spent half an hour in the bathroom tidying up his hair, secretly sprayed some of Lu Churan's most commonly used light perfume, and went downstairs in a good mood to take a car to the headquarters of their organization to find him .

He felt that after he got love, the appearance of taking an elevator from the bottom floor to the top floor with a "ding" was really cheap, but he was terribly happy.

But after 10 minutes, he corrected his thoughts. He was indeed so cheap that he hugged the person he liked in bed in the morning, and watched him shake hands with a person he hated in the afternoon.

Qi Nian's pretty face paired with this serious expression is really attractive. The female students passing by all turned their heads to look at them, but when they speak, they should speak with their mouths. Why move their hands?Hold.

After Lu Churan went out in the morning, he called Qi Nian and asked him to meet downstairs at the headquarters in the afternoon to explain the previous misunderstanding.

Qi Nian looked apologetic, trying to hide the unwillingness and regret in his heart, and apologized to Lu Churan, "I'm sorry, Teacher Lu, I really don't know the character of Senior Ye Xi, but I have been with him for a while, I can be sure , his attitude towards certain aspects is very casual, and I asked him if he likes you before, and he denied it more than once, so I always feel that he has other intentions when approaching you. Teacher Lu, you are my respect You are also someone I admire very much, I think you deserve a better person, at least someone who is serious and dedicated to your feelings, not..."

"Let's stop here, don't say any more." Lu Churan's expression was a little indifferent and alienated, making the people in front of him silent and breathless, "I don't know what he was like in front of you, but I don't think he did. It is necessary to show how he is in front of me in front of a junior who is like a stranger. Maybe you still don’t understand that everyone has more than one side, and I am the one who lives with him every day. What it looks like, how he sees me, how he sees his feelings, I think no one knows better than myself."

Qi Nian was very disappointed when he heard his words, he was discouraged, but he couldn't bear to give up, he stretched out his hand eagerly to grab Lu Churan's hand, regardless of how gloomy Lu Churan's face was at this time, asked The most incomprehensible confusion in my heart, "...Senior Ye Xi, what is so good about him?"

"He is very cute, he is very cute in my eyes, so cute, I feel very happy when I see him." Lu Churan looked into Qi Nian's eyes, and felt the hand that was held slowly loosen, "He likes me very much, cares about me more than he can imagine, needs me, so I like him too. No matter what your purpose is, thank you for caring about me, but please don't do this kind of thing in the future He slandered him behind his back in front of me because I cared so much about his feelings."

"sorry."

Ye Xi stood at the door for a few seconds, and the automatic sensor door opened for him. He took two steps back to a place where he could not be sensed, and stared at the cars on the road for a while. The wind in November was a bit cold , Blowing a little pain in the eye socket.

A mother walked past him with a little girl with two ponytails, coaxing the crying little girl in a low voice, "Don't cry, baby, it doesn't matter if the balloon flies away, mom will buy you another one, okay?"

The little girl couldn't keep up with the adult's pace and staggered. The childish voice was crying, "I don't want other balloons, I just want that one."

Yes, the contrast between gains and losses is too embarrassing, it is better to never have it.

Ye Xi felt that he regretted it.Living in this world, he has always been helpless and has nothing to lose. Now that he has it, and for the first time he realizes the meaning of fear of losing, which makes his heart hurt just by imagining it.

Although looking at Qi Nian is so unpleasant that even he feels like he is keeping a stool observation diary, but that can only be endured, who can blame him, sow discord, obviously he has repeatedly refused to admit that he likes Lu Chu Ran was the first, the other party didn't know the truth, and even he didn't dare to know the truth.

It's not the kind of age that can talk about likes, loves, and loves. Even at that age, Ye Xi never did it. It's so boring to say these things but can't do them in the end, and everything is ruined.

When you don't say it, it doesn't mean you don't like it in your heart, but people who don't like it in your heart really don't insist that you like it, not to mention who would say that you don't like it when you like it in your heart, so others can't tell the difference. who.

It's easy to be likable, just to satisfy a person's self-needs, but it's difficult to like others. He often feels that he wants everything, and it's always not enough, but he dares not ask too much, lest the other party be a little dissatisfied. patient.

It's only just started now, and it's still too late to regret, so it's better to divide...

Ye Xi's hand was suddenly held, he looked up at the person in front of him, sensitively reflexively looked at the reaction of passers-by, quickly moved away, and wanted to take his hand away from Lu Churan's hand, but Lu Churan He held it tightly, so he hesitated for two seconds and took Lu Churan away from the road.

"Do you not like my contact with Qi Nian?"

Ye Xi replied very simply and naively, "I don't even like him breathing the air of the same earth as you."

Lu Churan looked at his expression, his expression was too pale to see his emotions, he explained, "The previous thing was a misunderstanding, he didn't know your feelings for me very well, so he was afraid that I would be cheated."

"I know. Yes, it's my fault. It's my own disgusting words." Ye Xi tried to free his hand from his, "You took his hand and don't touch me."

"That's not pulling." Lu Churan clasped his fingers tightly between his fingers, and pulled him to walk on the road, to a place where others could see. Ye Xi's nerves became tense again, and he walked almost at the same time as his hands. Feet, "That's it."

He has been ambiguous with so many men all these years and has never tried to lead someone on the road. That's too blatant.

"He said he liked you, he told me himself." Ye Xi's tone was firm.

"I also said that I like you, I told him myself." Lu Churan asked and answered naturally.

Ye Xi looked at Lu Churan in shock, as if he didn't hear clearly, his head was buzzing, blank, he was not angry at Lu Churan's unauthorized coming out of the closet, but simply surprised, with a staring expression. Totally sluggish.

"Will you be angry? Do whatever you want, anyway, that's what I said, and I also said that you like me too." Lu Churan's expression was calm and unapologetic, as if he was just saying that you can't eat steamed fish tonight Eat, anyway, I steamed it, you can eat it or not.

Lu Churan took Ye Xi's hand and put it on his lips for a kiss. He felt dizzy for a while, and subconsciously looked at the reaction of passers-by, but hooked Lu Churan's hand back, just look at it, anyway. It's not fake.

Ye Xi's tone became a little discouraged, and the more he spoke, his voice became softer, as if he was talking to himself, "But, but I have never owned anything, and I have no expectations for possession, so once I confirm that I have it, I may There will be perverted possessiveness."

"How perverted? Are you going to rape me if I talk to strangers?" Lu Churan asked.

Ye Xi shook his head, couldn't help biting his lips and laughing, and said half-jokingly, "I will beat myself up domestically."

"That's really perverted, but I will help you... For example, if I find out that you don't eat and cook that kind of poor-tasting instant noodles at my house, we won't do it that month." Lu Chu Ran turned to look at him with one corner of her lips curled up.

Ye Xi suddenly felt very wronged, and looked at Lu Churan in disbelief, "You are going too far, this kind of request is simply inhuman."

The author has something to say: I want to restart the serialization!