Immediately after the death of the master

There are ten deaths and no life.

Ji Sanqing would only know better, but he didn't care at all, his speech and manner were as free and easy as before.

"Yes, I'm leaving tomorrow morning."

Tomorrow morning, so soon?I was frightened by the fast time, and my words were out of proportion.

"Then—can't the eldest son not go?" I didn't choose what to say, but I asked directly.

"Little brother, what are you talking about?" Ji Sanqing didn't care at all, he reached out and ruffled my hair as usual, "This is an imperial decree, who dares not to obey, and besides, my trip is not in vain Ah. The Ji family can take this opportunity to return to the capital regardless of whether I can complete the task or not during this trip to Zhongshan."

When I was 12 years old, I didn't understand the turmoil in the court. Even if what Ji Sanqing said was reasonable, I vaguely felt that the chance of the Ji family returning to the capital was not as good as the life of the eldest son of the Ji family. I am afraid that he is not willing to accept the imperial decree.

I hugged the warm teacup, blinked my eyes, stared at Ji Sanqing, opened and closed my lips, wanted to say something, but didn't know where to start.

Ji Sanqing saw that I was speechless, so he didn't urge me, and quietly waited for me to recover my calm.After waiting for a long time, I still hesitated and couldn't speak.He smiled and shook his head, stood up, blew out the candles everywhere in the study, took my hand, his wide and warm hand wrapped my little hand in his palm, and led me out .

"Come on, let's look at the stars."

"Stars?" I can finally speak as usual.

"That's right, the stars. It's the new moon, so it's a good time to watch the stars." Ji Sanqing said with a smile.

At first I thought that Ji Sanqing was planning to watch the moon in the yard, but it wasn't until I saw him humming and carrying a ladder that I realized that he wanted to climb to the roof to watch.

Seeing that Ji Sanqing had erected the ladder indiscriminately and was about to climb up tremblingly, I hurriedly stopped him.

"My lord... let's watch in the yard, it's too dangerous on the roof."

"It's not dangerous, it's not dangerous." The enthusiastic Ji Sanqing didn't take it seriously, "The last time my sister Qingshuang and I watched the moon, she took me to jump on the roof. Honestly, I set up a ladder."

"But……"

I didn't have time to argue, Ji Sanqing, who was extremely fast, had already climbed to the roof. I had no choice but to follow him to the roof.

Not to mention, the angle of view from the roof is good, but the angle of inclination is a bit steep, making it difficult to stand upright. I planned to sit down, but before I sat down, Ji Sanqing stuffed a cushion into my arms.

"This is?" I don't understand.

"Hey," Ji Sanqing scratched his head, and said with some embarrassment, "The last time I watched the moon with Sister Qingshuang, I wasn't as good at balance as hers, and I couldn't stand upright. I wanted to sit on the roof, but The roof is too harsh, so this time..."

Well, I understand.

I silently took the cushion he handed over and placed it under my buttocks.

When we raise our heads and look up at the eternal starry sky above our heads, you will find that your own insignificance and power unparalleled in the world, when the stars come from your head, you will feel that because of that I am afraid of this kind of majesty, and I will also be impressed by that kind of splendor.Under the sky full of stars, how insignificant you are as a human being. When you look up at the starry sky, you seem to be able to get rid of the heavy and boring human body and upgrade to an ancient existence with the same lifespan as the universe.

When I really stared at the stars, when the stars in the sky were also staring at me, I realized that in my past years, I had never looked up at the starry sky.

Being bent down by life, I never had the idea of ​​looking up at the stars.

And until I had the courage to look up, at that moment, I could understand Ji Sanqing, and I was finally able to communicate with him.

Not princes and servants, but mortals and mortals.

"Ji Sanqing," I called him by his name, not even a little bit beyond the fear of etiquette, "isn't life the most important thing? Why are you still so calm in the face of death?"

The stars fell into his eyes, and his whole body was bathed in the eternal starlight, solemn like a god or Buddha.

"Life can be heavy or light. When you don't know the purpose of life and live in a daze, life is lighter than a feather. When you find your own direction and strive for it endlessly, your life The weight is even comparable to Mount Tai."

"Isn't life itself important?"

In my childhood, I had exhausted all my strength to survive. In my eyes, nothing could be higher than life, but Ji Sanqing denied it and told me another way to live.

"It doesn't matter, living is a means to an end, not an end in itself."

"Then... Ji Sanqing, what are you living for?" In the end, I still asked this question.

This question is everyone's culprit. As a servant, I shouldn't have asked it, but I still asked it, as a mortal.

Ji Sanqing laughed, the starlight flickered in his eyes.

"I live only for two people—the prince and the people. The prince is my chosen king, and the people are people I cannot disappoint." His voice was extremely gentle, and he told me, "I am on an envoy this time for the sake of the prince. It is for the common people. Therefore, I have to go.”

Ji Sanqing raised his hand, the starlight slipped from his fingers like running water, he couldn't see me, he could only see the sky that I couldn't understand.

"It's not that I don't want to live well, it's just that sometimes. People can't live, but they can die."

You cannot live, but you can die.

I chewed these eight characters over and over again, as if I had realized something, and it seemed that I had never understood anything.

Seeing me racking my brains and still getting nothing, Ji Sanqing stretched out his hand and patted my forehead, and blamed me with a smile: "Okay, this is not something that a little guy like you should think about. Now you , the most important thing to do is to eat well and drink well, go to bed early and get up early, so as to make yourself fat and fat. With a good body, you will have the capital to struggle when you find a reason to live."

"I'm in good health."

The heavens have eyes, and my words are definitely not showing off. I really think so. When I was a child in the country, I was considered half a child king. When I was at the blacksmith, the blacksmith tossed me like that. I am not alive. well done.

But it was obvious that Ji Sanqing didn't like this, he stretched out both hands, grabbed my face from left to right, and pulled it outward with all strength.

"Okay?" There was a bit of teasing in his tone, "It's dark, thin and small, what kind of thing is it?

yes. "

I wanted to argue with him, but my face was pulled, I couldn't speak, I could only make an indistinct whine, seeing me being bullied like this, he started laughing instead up.After laughing enough, he let go of his hand. I covered my sore cheek and gave him a hard look.

He shrugged, showing a little childlike cunning.But that look was fleeting, so fast that I almost thought it was an illusion.

When the innocence of a child disappeared from his face, the cloud of an adult shrouded his face again.Even the eyes that looked at me were a bit heavy.

"I know, you are different from us." He seemed to say a lot tonight, "Your blood is cold, it is a kind of reluctance for you to get along with us." He paused and continued Going on, "...I also know what dangerous ideas you have never given up."

What Ji Sanqing said is right, he can always easily see through me, the self that I can't even see clearly.Sometimes, I will be grateful for his incomparable thoughtfulness, but more often, I will be terrified by his penetrating intuition.

"……sorry."

Other than that, I don't know what else to say.

"You didn't feel sorry for me. Everyone has their own way. My way may not be right, and your way may not be wrong." No matter what time he was, he was so gentle. He saw through my anxiety and comforted me. : "If you really can't feel at ease, help me take care of my sister Ji Qingshuang."

"……it is good……"

After a few moments, all I can do is this reply.

Ji Sanqing got up, like an elder, patted my shoulder, and put the responsibility on my shoulder.

...that's what I thought, until this clumsy guy kicked our ladder down, he stood on the edge of the roof, looked two meters from the ground, retracted his feet, and turned his head to look at me .

"Well—sorry, we don't seem to be able to go down—"

I take back my idea that he looks like an elder, an idiot is an idiot, and nothing can change.I sighed to myself, ignored his look as if he had done something disheartened, and slid down from the trees beside the eaves.

I picked up the ladder from the mud, set it up again, and said to him:

"Okay, come down."

Ji Sanqing on the roof scratched his head and smiled innocently.

Above his head is the endless galaxy.

94,

That night was the last time I met Ji Sanqing in Ji's residence.

On the third day after Ji Sanqing left, the emperor of Kyoto issued an order to summon Prime Minister Ji to return to Beijing.

Not long after we returned to Beijing, Ji Qingshuang packed me up and sent me to Prince Yu's Mansion.

When Ji Sanqing returned to the capital, everything was settled.

95,

I met Ji Sanqing in the beautiful spring, and I arrived in Wancheng in autumn when everything was withering.

Wancheng has become an isolated city, besieged by [-] troops.

Soon after my horses entered the barracks,