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Cheng Biyun suspected that He Pei's dictionary did not include the word "active", because she was busy with her professional homework until four o'clock in the afternoon and sent a Shiba Inu emoji to trouble her, and the other party immediately sent her a fleshy photo , Judging by the light, it should have been taken at noon.

Suffocated until now?What do you want?If you don't find her, you will never find yourself?

Cheng Biyun was a little annoyed, and heard her report how those succulent roots had fallen off, and how pitiful those who escaped by chance were, and she became even more angry, but she still endured it and said some innocuous words, burying her as a "succulent killer" ", but never mentioned asking her to throw away those succulents or encouraging her to take care of them all.

The self-confessed jealousy intensified, making her hate herself and the other party so much that she even wanted to blacklist her and stop dating.

She has done this kind of thing, and more than once.

At the beginning of their freshman year, they still chatted intermittently, and it was also dominated by Cheng Biyun. She never moved unless she looked for each other, just like a toy that needs to be wound up to turn.When Cheng Biyun approached her, he chatted enthusiastically with her. We never stand coldly when we come and go, especially not coldly, because basically any further step will turn into a quarrel.

The reasons for the quarrel are various and inexplicable, and they often start like this:

The food in the cafeteria is terrible.Then you order takeaway.

The teacher assigned a lot of homework, I don't want to stay up late.Do it early and I often stay up late too.

My roommate was on the phone loudly again, and I was wearing sound-isolating headphones and I could hear it clearly.I don't think it's ok, my roommate often talks loudly on the phone, we don't care.

I want to eat puffs, from Wangzai.Go downstairs to the supermarket to buy.It's so late, I don't want to move.Then don't eat, drink some water.

Every time Cheng Biyun vomited blood when he was so angry, he would go to her again after a while, just like her when she was a freshman, but then they crossed the line of "quarreling" once.

That time the reason was even more bizarre.

He Pei majored in psychology at university, and Cheng Biyun happened to be a layman interested in psychology, but they both had their own unique views.They somehow talked about whether a person's personality is determined by genes or the acquired environment from everyday things. He Pei said it was genes, and Cheng Biyun insisted on the acquired environment.

"Conflicting viewpoints" was not the reason that made Cheng Biyun angry.She has been trying to explain her point of view to the other party, clarifying whether the two people have the same concept and definition of some nouns, and wants her to understand her own thinking, but He Pei has that arrogant attitude, refraining from oil and salt, like Didn't listen to her at all.Cheng Biyun obviously didn't open her mouth to speak, but Cheng Biyun felt a dry mouth and tiredness from the bottom of her heart. She suddenly felt very bored at this moment, so she started to change the subject, learned the names of various animals, and then told jokes, trying to make the two of them "quickly" The situation of "red face and red ears" eased, and He Pei seemed to be even more annoyed for some reason, and directly uttered cruel words that sounded fair:

"That's what I think, I don't see why you would do that. We just have different perspectives."

Cheng Biyun closed the dialog box when she saw it, and was too lazy to go back, until she was too lazy to completely forget her, completely.Children who have just entered college are like a group of pigs released from their cages after being hungry for three years. They are thrown into various games and entertainment without hearing what is going on outside the window.

Later, when she had a little leisure time and habitually sorted out her friend list, she saw He Pei's profile picture and nickname, and as soon as she stopped the mouse and got annoyed, she deleted her directly.

He Pei can always make her feel what it means to be "powerless".

After they got together in the second year of high school, Cheng Biyun immediately excitedly told her friends in the studio, with a tone of youthful expression, which made them look disgusted.The words naturally reached the tomboy's ears.She saw her take out her mobile phone to call her current girlfriend, teasing her about it, and then began to play love songs after hanging up. The long-hanging rock in her heart finally fell—she was safe, she would not enter that In the frightening "circle", she is still a normal, ordinary, ordinary person, and there will be no accidents in her life that she does not like to see.

In the evening, she sent text messages to He Pei again, asking her to have dinner with her in a sweet tone, saying that she was very lonely without anyone to accompany her.She thought it was a perfectly normal request, but when it came to He Pei, it was like asking her to go up the mountain of swords and into the sea of ​​fire. Cheng Biyun finally let her go after a night and a day.

At dinner time, she waited in front of the teaching building, looking for the little fleshy man in the rushing crowd, and started laughing when she saw her, but He Pei was still as usual, with a sullen and expressionless face, and asked her What to eat.

"Fried ramen." Cheng Biyun said, and began to tell her the interesting things she had seen or heard.

But when she got her own plate, she found that He Pei only bought a bottle of yogurt and was biting the straw, so she asked her why she didn't eat and lost weight?

"Didn't you want me to eat with you? I usually don't eat dinner. Hurry up, I have to go back to do the questions."

Cheng Biyun seemed to have choked on the ramen in her mouth, but she recovered very quickly, and then opened the corners of her mouth to confess that she still worked so hard, she is really a master.

But at this moment, she couldn't quite hide her emotions, so she put down her chopsticks after eating half of the plate, and said to her, "Don't eat, let's go."

Cheng Biyun will never forget He Pei's movement of standing up and the invisible and intangible emotions he exuded at that time——

That's called "liberation."

This was the first time, Cheng Biyun remembered clearly.

It was just an excuse to say that there was no one to eat with, and Cheng Biyun stopped forcing her the next day, and went with the people who traveled with her before, but she never thought that a second thing that impressed her happened a few days later.

It was also dinner time, and she and her friend were looking for seats on the second floor of the cafeteria with a bowl of noodles each.While chatting nonsense, she saw a familiar face hidden in the pile of uniform school uniforms.

He Pei.

He Pei and a boy sat facing each other, with a bowl of casserole noodles in front of each other.

He Pei was laughing.

Then she raised her head, saw her eyes under the messy slanted bangs, immediately lowered her eyelids, lowered her head slightly, and stopped smiling.The boy opposite her was still talking.

Cheng Biyun felt that this scene had the feel of a TV series, and it was so bloody that a blue filter of melancholy had to be added.

She also knows what her expression looks like to outsiders.

cold.

Because she walked all the way, staring at He Pei without blinking.

She also understood what the dark and cold emotion surging in her heart at that moment was—

It's called "betrayed".