flower and pillow

Cooking is a great pleasure for Cheng Biyun.She is keen to cook all kinds of dishes according to the recipes, like lighting up the illustrated book in the game.She loves life and is an artist herself. She also likes to arrange the food beautifully. After swiping her mobile phone, she will send it to He Pei every day, and tell her what she has done again, which makes He Pei drool.

Fresh life always makes people feel happy and immersed in it.

Until she slept until noon and got up to cook in a daze, and cut off half of the nail on her right thumb while using a slicer.

It didn't hurt at that moment. Before Cheng Biyun could react, he saw a large drop of blood on the ground, and his face turned pale when he looked at his nails, followed by pain and panic.She quickly took her mobile phone and keys and went out, and went to the nearest pharmacy in a panic. The boss was shocked when he saw it, and opened a band-aid for her, and put it on for her.Cheng Biyun also felt a little more at ease, able to have the energy to tell He Pei about this, and took a photo of her finger for her, which surprised He Pei and told her to go to the school infirmary to bandage it.

Cheng Biyun still felt that nothing was wrong, went home to cook, and ate the meal that made her honorably injured in her heart, but the blood on her fingers did not dry up, and the pain became more and more severe, so she panicked again. Hurry to the infirmary to see the nurse.

"The bandage is removed." The nurse gave an order after learning about the situation.

Cheng Biyun shuddered, not daring to touch the wound, and asked, "Do you have to tear it apart?"

The nurse gave her a sideways look: "You shouldn't have bandaged it, such a big wound should have been bandaged long ago."

So Cheng Biyun did as he did, tearing off the bandage with trembling heart, just as the blood was loosened, another big drop fell on the floor.

The nurse frowned, led her to another room to bandage, and said to her, "I'll wash and disinfect you first. It hurts a bit, so bear with it."

"Yeah." Cheng Biyun held her arm, anxious, all she could think about was whether her nails would grow back, it would be too ugly without them, and when the potion was poured on her, her lacrimal glands were stimulated to produce liquid. But she bit all the soft meat in her mouth, not letting it fall out.

The nurse saw clearly and went to get the hemostatic sponge from the glass cabinet. The bandaging was done in one go, and then she was released to pay the money and told her to come back the day after tomorrow to change the dressing.

Such a simple matter, but Cheng Biyun felt like the whole world was blowing and raining.

When she came out of the infirmary, the bright sunlight leaked through the leaves, the flower beds were colorful, the students in physical education on the playground were laughing and laughing, the bells rang occasionally for those riding bicycles to school, and the girls holding parasols laughed and talked side by side.

And how lonely she is.

How much she wished that someone could come to accompany her at this moment, hold her shoulders, hold her wrists, look at her wounds, say some caring words, and let her cry for a while.

But no.

She packed up her cowardly emotions when she was about to walk back to her rental house, told He Pei that she was bandaged, took pictures of her, laughed and said that she was disabled now, and could no longer play computer games, but could only play mobile games.He Pei's caring words followed on the screen, but she didn't get any comfort at all, only the endless powerlessness and paleness through the screen.

He Pei was not by her side.

She adjusted her state the next day, grinning, determined to play games, manipulated the character like a zombie and gave up after walking a few steps. She couldn't even use the handle to save the country. Look at the book.The rice is still made, but most of them are boiled instant noodles.It is more troublesome to take a shower, fingers can not get wet, so she can only raise her right hand to let her left hand become the master. She also joked with He Pei that if she uses her left hand too much, her right brain will develop.

There are no more complaints.

People are more vulnerable when they are sick.

After changing the medicine a few times, the bandage was removed. Most of the hemostatic sponge was removed, and some had to be attached to the wound for protection. The color was dark brown and bloody.Cheng Biyun had fun watching it, and took a picture of it for He Pei and his other friends. He laughed and said that he had become a zombie, and received countless surprises and concerns, but she felt that it was neither painful nor itchy, because the wound no longer hurt, and said goodbye She didn't feel much at all, but the pain and the earth-shattering before made her feel deeply distant and strange.

The resilience of human beings is really amazing, and she is far less fragile than she thought.

It’s just a lesson in gaining wisdom, and I have to remind myself not to be so confused in the future.

She and He Pei were still chatting like that.

Cheng Biyun basically had no classes in her senior year, and lived in her own rented house all day long.Explore dishes, play games, read books, watch movies, occasionally engage in serious business, contact the design list to earn extra money and pay back the money to the boss He Pei, and sit with good friends in the city for two or two when there is a new movie that I want to watch Take the bus for more than an hour to go to the city center to have a look and have a meal.

Everything is moving in a good direction, except for her "caress" when facing He Pei.

She is very keen to tell her about the designs she made for the orders she received, talk about her ideas, some metaphors or mysteries, ask her which one of her plans is better, and also like to ask her for some suggestions when she can't think of one. A lot of ideas can also be chatted over and over again.

But she knew that He Pei was not very interested in these things, and was just accompanying her.

Dissatisfaction is accumulating—mostly because of her desire to control, trying to grab her attention, but she can't get rid of these "cares".I want her to pay more attention to myself, I want her to praise her work, I want her to be more proactive to herself, I want... There are always so many "wants" that cannot be satisfied.

Finally, when she told He Pei about her design, her explosives that she deliberately buried exploded.

Cheng Biyun deleted her again.

He Pei didn't pay enough attention to her.He Pei was just accompanying her.He Pei didn't understand her intentions.He Pei——

She still owes He Pei money.

Cheng Biyun suddenly realized this, and felt that his behavior was extremely unreasonable.He Pei is good enough for her, what is she still dissatisfied with, what else can she be dissatisfied with?What else does she want?

This time was very short, after only two hours, Cheng Biyun added her back.

However, He Pei was unexpectedly different from before—so calm and accepting, and seemed extremely angry:

"Don't ask me whether I love you or not in the future. I really fucking love you before I break up with you! I'm going to take a bath!"

Cheng Biyun's eyes were hot again, but his mouth began to smile.

At this moment, great peace of mind enveloped her, allowing her to understand He Pei's heart like a leopard.

That's all she thought.She wants to see a vivid and real He Pei, who has feelings and can get angry, not those dummy people who are always calm, rational and peaceful, as if to coax her.

She just wants something real.

Like now.

"Baby, I'm just a bit of an aunt, and I love you too."

A joke is not a joke, it is the truth.