flower and pillow

What He Pei said was right, and she knew she was wrong.She can think of a bunch of words like irrational, emotional, childish, and immature to apply to herself and scold herself, but who will take care of her emotions?

Her emotions, her little emotions.She soon realized that this was wrong too, how could she have small emotions, how irrational, emotional, childish, and immature this is, who should take care of her emotions, others have no such obligation, just like Mothers have no obligation to be a considerate and perfect mother in all aspects, and others have no obligation to be considerate of their emotions and be a gentleman.

How bad it is to cause trouble to others.

It's because she wants too much, she can control herself, make herself smarter and mature, not to burden others or be burdened by others, only in this way can she be mature and perfect.

It's that she's not mature enough.

She forcefully slapped back the pain she felt coming out of the soil, sprinkled some sand and pretended it had never happened, she was still the chic and unrestrained Cheng Biyun who laughed and scolded, she still had to learn to become more "mature and perfect" Cheng Biyun, but she can't get He Pei back immediately, and it will take time to calm down.

She watched movies for most of the day to divert her attention, and read novels for a while. Finally, at night, she finally tidied herself up, put on the thick plaster mask and went to He Pei, with a smile At the beginning, tell her which movie I watched today is very good, and I recommend you to watch it.

He Pei completely ignored her feigned cheerfulness, "Are you in a better mood now?"

What an idiotic question, Cheng Biyun thought, but still blurred his vision, and replied: "I'm fine, I watched a movie all day. What can I do?"

He Pei added: "At that time, the entire conversation box suddenly disappeared, and I was stunned. I didn't react for a while."

Cheng Biyun perfunctory: "Exciting."

"Yeah." He Pei seemed very rational: "People tend to be overly aggressive when they are emotionally unstable."

Cheng Biyun's eyes became clear again, and his mood suddenly became cold, "Yes, it's easy to be overly aggressive." Then he said, "I'll go to the movies."

She can adjust her emotions, what He Pei said is right, she shouldn't have any feelings about this sentence, it's too hypocritical.This is the reason why people tend to be overactive when they are emotionally unstable.

Afterwards, it was the same as before, chatting, laughing, and occasionally talking about profound topics. After more than a month, it was the summer vacation. The university was on vacation every day, and the summer vacation was just another place to continue the vacation. The two families were not in the same place. In the city, although it is too close to run, it is troublesome, and Cheng Biyun only wants to turn on the air conditioner at home, and He Pei occasionally goes out for a short trip, and has never met.

Regarding the matter of face-to-face, Cheng Biyun was somewhat conflicted in his heart.

He Pei is indeed one of her scars. No matter how it fades away and gets better now, she can form her own style through the screen. When she sees her in person, she may reveal her true colors, and all the chic and funny things will disappear.

The two of them had never even proposed to "meet each other", as if they were restraining each other, but Cheng Biyun didn't know what He Pei was thinking, or rather the other party didn't mention her but was relieved but took it for granted——

He Pei never takes the initiative.

The air conditioner is blowing and it is almost time to start school again.He Pei started school earlier than Cheng Biyun, and was already packing up when Cheng Biyun was still slumped on the sofa learning Ge You, chatting with her while packing: "My mother scolded me for not talking to her all day long looking at my phone .”

Of course Cheng Biyun knew what she was doing looking at her phone all day long—chatting with herself, feeling a little strange and indescribable in her heart, pretending to be a rascal and saying: "I still want to scold you for spending time with your family all day long." Dee ignores me."

"I didn't pay attention to you, baby!"

"Oh yeah, pictures of your fucking teddy are filling up my phone cache."

"He's so cute!" He Pei said and found a picture that he had sent to Cheng Biyun before and sent it again: "Look how beautiful his eyes are!"

Cheng Biyun slapped her across the face, with a look of contempt on her face: "Then you are great."

Then He Pei collected it for a while, and came back and told her: "I told my mother that I wanted to take that dumpling pillow to school. She thought it was impossible. It couldn't be packed in a suitcase, and it couldn't be delivered by express."

Duanzi pillow.

Cheng Biyun was hit in the head by this unexpected topic, and asked her: "Why did you bring her there?" The dark thoughts of sending her flowers in his heart resurfaced again, but it seemed to be shining into the sun anyway.

"That one is super comfortable to hold, you can rely on it no matter what, the cloth cover has been washed by my mother and it's a little faded." He Pei asked again: "How do I wear this?"

Cheng Biyun didn't know how to describe his mood at the moment.She thought that the pillow had already fallen to ashes or was thrown away, but she never thought it would end like this. It seemed that her previous thoughts were dark and pessimistic, but she still gave her an idea first: "Find a small compress Pump the air directly from the bag, don’t pump it too hard, or it will be uncomfortable if it doesn’t bounce back.”

"Let me try."

what a—

Delightful, yet so awkward.

Cheng Biyun thought it might be because she resisted being too close to others, so naturally it was difficult to accept this feeling, but she avoided it to solve it, and then ignored it.

In her senior year, she wanted to move out, and her relationship with her roommate finally froze.She is used to being an "independent and self" weirdo, and she doesn't bother to repair the relationship with them and bow her head to please them. It's better to be alone. Anyway, she is not afraid of living alone, but she is short of money.Her mother would never agree, she was worried about her safety, and she didn't bother arguing with her mother over this matter, so she wanted to secretly let Chen Cang handle it alone, and mentioned this matter to He Pei, but He Pei's reaction was once again unexpected She expects:

"If you have to move out, I can lend you."

This really scared Cheng Biyun, but he didn't take it seriously, he just joked: "Lord, you have such a wallet to support me, okay?"

"Go away." He Pei also added a disgusted expression: "Many people ask me to borrow money every day, and I have made a fortune by collecting interest."

"Okay, you, gangster loan sharks. Brother, can you cover me?" Cheng Biyun was still grinning.

"Go away."

There was no follow-up to this matter. Cheng Biyun was thinking about what to do until the start of school, but when she went back to school and looked around, she found that money was not a problem. She was paid on a monthly basis and the rent was not too high, which she could afford.In the afternoon, I walked around the alleys three times and booked a comfortable room. I dragged my suitcase and paid a deposit for the rent to move in.

That night, in her small rental house, she ate skewers, drank beer and listened to rock music, and told He Pei that she was finally free, not to mention how cool it was.He Pei also happily congratulated her.

But Cheng Biyun discovered a problem the next day. She needed home appliances, and she really didn't have the money.A washing machine is a must, as well as an electric ceramic stove and a refrigerator—she can cook by herself, and she also needs a large table, which is always piled up with odds and ends, but it is difficult to move an inch.

She and He Pei talked about almost everything, and half-truthfully cried to He Pei that she wanted to chop off her hand, but He Pei still said the same thing: "I can lend you."

But He Pei still couldn't believe it, "Really?"

"Well. Why did I lie to you?"

"Damn it, leg! Help!"

Then it didn't take long for Cheng Biyun's mobile phone to receive a message that Alipay credited [-].

She was dumbfounded at this moment, seeing the message retracted to the top of the screen before she could react, her mind was still wandering, wondering if she had gone to the wrong set, what the hell did the domineering president fall in love with me? The place, the heart has been pounding.

She was just joking, but He Pei actually meant it.

"Don't be like this, leg, the interest is a few points, I'm going to pay it back to the point of bankruptcy." Cheng Biyun was a little dumbfounded.

He Pei looked disgusted: "I won't charge you interest, pay it back sooner."

Cheng Biyun was still joking, but after a pause, He Pei's next words came out:

"It's okay if you don't pay back...don't make me sad."