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After sending Lin Zijun home, the car turned around and drove towards the place where He Gaowen lived.

"Drive slowly, and this car... doesn't seem to know you very well." He Gaowen said to Shen Ze while waiting for the red light.

Shen Ze poked his head over, bit He Gaowen's earlobe, and sighed: "I can't help it, I want to go back and hug, hug, you."

"...Why are you acting like a pervert." He Gaowen turned his red face away, as if looking out the window in deep thought.

Shen Ze smiled again, with light red lips, bright eyes, and the corners of the naturally hooked mouth were raised even higher. He stretched out his hand to pinch He Gaowen's face, his tone sounded cheerful, and he said, "It's rare that my Wenwen said Those three words."

The person who was praised did not say a word and became a professional background.He actually knew that Shen Ze probably hoped that he would be more "slutty", more relaxed, and more "coquettish", when he was under his body.

Shen Ze is an obvious hedonist, but He Gaowen is not, so co-production is co-production, but co-production does not mean passion.

He Gaowen once anonymously went to a gay website to inquire about this issue. The title of the post was "I cooperate with him in bed, but I always feel that there is no passion." It's red.Immediately, someone replied to him, and the guide said, is it because the landlord’s husband is not embarrassed to ask the landlord to let go a little more, suggesting that some pornographic and violent dialogues can be added.So the bottom became an exchange meeting, and the content was about a group of small zeros sharing how their husbands are doing well.

But He Gaowen, who was in great distress, could eat it like a bite of cake and lick his mouth, and would not utter a word when he was stuffy in his stomach. He was determined not to let Shen Ze get a glimpse of his worries, and he would never forget them. Don't cause trouble for Shen Ze.Loving him and making him happy and comfortable with him has become almost an instinct.

He didn't have anyone else to ask, and sometimes he was also thinking about whether he should go to that kind of gay bar, meet a few like-minded friends and see how other people interact?But the reality is not like the Internet, the acceptance and tolerance of homosexuality on the Internet is far greater than the reality, and he is worried about being bumped into by his colleagues.

Shen Ze concentrated on driving the car, but found that He Gaowen had been silent a lot, because he felt ashamed, and couldn't continue to pinch his earlobe or ruffle his hair as before and ask, why is he not cute anymore.

When two people sit together, they are highly consistent.

Before getting out of the car, He Gaowen noticed that there was a key on the car key with the access control card of Shenze Community hanging behind it, and thought, could this car really be his own?But he didn't ask, because Shen Ze was a little dissatisfied when he saw the car he gave to He Gaowen, "It doesn't look like it's been driven before." Shen Ze covered his face in a big mask as usual.

"No chance - I won't need it for the time being... Otherwise, look at the transfer..." He Gaowen wanted to say that he planned to go to City K for work after the year, and the car really wouldn't be needed, but when Shen Ze heard the phrase "transfer... His complexion was very bad, he raised one eyebrow and said, "Whatever is given to you is yours, and you can deal with it as you like."

Shen Ze's cell phone rang again.This is the fifth time since he met He Gaowen.Of course He Gaowen knew the difference between his ringtones for incoming calls and text messages. The first two were phone calls, while the last three were text messages.

Shen Ze glanced at it, continued the previous attitude, and put it back in his pocket.

The atmosphere suddenly became tense.If the atmosphere is so low that the freezing point of water can freeze, then it is raining heavily, and the rain column will be frozen into sharp and clear icicles, stuck between two people.

He Gaowen didn't know what to say for a while, he didn't understand where Shen Ze's anger came from, didn't he still show tenderness and reluctance along the way, why did he suddenly...

He opened his mouth and said, "Aren't you going to return the phone message?"

Shen Ze was wearing a hat, only showing a pair of eyes. No matter how angry he was, his handsome eyebrows were beautiful: "Return? Do you know whose phone message told me to call back." When he said this, his eyes were complicated, sad and compassionate Yes, and very faint disdain.

He Gaowen lowered his head, took out the key, opened the door and turned his back to him: "I don't know. Then I won't go back."

The door was pushed open, the wall light was pressed, and the room suddenly lit up.He Gaowen's wrist was grabbed, and the two switched positions. He Gaowen was pressed against the wall, just like when Shen Ze came to his house one time, but things are... not feelings.

Shen Ze didn't kiss him, and let go of his hand, because He Gaowen looked at him with eyes filled with pain and confusion, and Shen Ze was not a beast, so he couldn't let go.

"It's Nie Wenhua's." Shen Ze walked to the sofa and sat down, and added, "It's Nie Wenhua's phone message."

"Oh." He Gaowen responded, not wanting to sit next to him, so he went to pour some water, and asked Shen Ze if he wanted to drink.

Shen Ze walked over and asked, "Do you have a sense of prevention?"

He Gaowen drank half of his water, and looked at him puzzled again.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have treated you like this today." Shen Ze hugged him from behind, He Gaowen grabbed the water cup and took a sip of water, swallowed slowly, what did he need to quench the sparking anger in his heart , He knew that he had never been so angry and disappointed, and he even had the terrible thought of dying together. It was the first time in his life that he loved someone and gave him everything he could, and that person said at the beginning that he wanted to be with him, But how long?It hasn't been a year yet, what's wrong?

His mind was in a mess, his mind was entangled like clusters of dodder grass, he couldn't get out and he couldn't see clearly, the answer was right in front of him, and he couldn't lift the knife.

Raising the knife and falling with the hand may not only cut the mess, but also cut it in two.

Shen Ze was greedy for his temperature, buried his nose on the back of his neck, rubbed against him, and occasionally kissed him twice, but He Gaowen remained motionless. For the first time, he felt that this winter, the city was extremely cold.

For dinner, the food was packed from that restaurant. The food was delicious and exquisite, but both of them swallowed it in silence.They still slept together at night.He Gaowen was ruthless and left him with an arched back, Shen Ze didn't force him to turn around, and silently hugged him behind his back.The books that fell on the shelf on the wall, some of them were fashion magazines or movie magazines that Shen Ze casually mentioned. Looking at the pajamas, it was also the brand that Shen Ze was used to wearing.

I don't know when He Gaowen started silently building a small nest suitable for him to live in, and everything was based on his standards. Thinking about it this way, he felt a little distressed in his heart, and hugged He Gaowen tightly again.

He Gaowen moved slightly, and said in a muffled voice, "Are you going to do it?"

Shen Ze was stunned for a moment before responding to what he meant.It's not that he reacts slowly, it's that He Gaowen has never been passive in this kind of matter, let alone asking such questions, Shen Ze said awkwardly: "Rest..."

The person in his arms let out a dazed "Oh", and really fell asleep. He basically didn't have much rest these days.

Tomorrow, talk to him tomorrow, he has done a lot for me.Breathing in the breath that reassured him, Shen Ze thought, the warmth in his arms, his heart was so soft that He Gaowen treated him so attentively.After thinking about it, he was so tired that he fell asleep.

At night, He Gaowen woke up once, because it was too hot, he wanted to drink water.As soon as he turned around, he saw a lawlessly handsome young face in front of him.

He traced the outline of that person with eager gaze and suppressed breathing, recalled the feeling of touching, and thought very sadly in his heart, how could you even lie to me.

Why didn't he notice any clues?From Wang Er's hesitation when he answered the phone that time, he felt that something was hidden from him.

In the final analysis, the relationship between two people has to be determined by each other for life and death. Others are just watching, and only happiness has the final say.

He Gaowen thought, he's not happy at all, or let it be.

In the end, he still didn't get up to drink water, because one of Shen Ze's legs was draped over his, and he moved that leg away and immediately entangled it again, very domineering.

When he opened his eyes, he saw Shen Daxing staring at him and smiling.

"You... don't want to be so scary!" The curtains are quite thick, and the sky outside can't be seen, it should be dawn.He Gaowen was awakened by his handsomeness, and turned his face away.

Shen Ze turned him over, pinched his nose and smiled: "It's nine o'clock, don't sleep, tell me what you want to eat, I haven't cooked for a long time!"

As soon as he heard that Shen Ze was going to cook, He Gaowen sat up, still hugging the quilt and said, "How about that lychee you are good at?"

"Of course. Do you have the materials?"

"No, I have to go buy it. But don't you have a program today?"

The commonality of the two people's personalities is that the big things are forgotten after sleeping, so Shen Ze hugged He Gaowen as before, pressed his face on his shoulder and said: "I also want to rest, today is a whole day It's all yours."

He Gaowen secretly smiled, and drew circles with his index finger on his chest: "Oh, I made a note. If you break your promise, you will do the dishes."

"Success baby."

Shen Ze wore an apron around the narrow kitchen, talking to He Gaowen from time to time. No matter how you look at this scene, it looks like two people living together. They are like ordinary couples who have lived together for many years, chatting without saying a word, and the time is slow , comfortable and beautiful.

He Gaowen didn't feel anything when he saw the four words Anwen in this world before, the words were just words, but now he is sitting in the living room watching TV, talking with Shen Ze one by one, he deeply understands that Anwen is the ultimate goal of Fusheng.

A sort of dusting off of the physical, the spiritual, the spiritual.

Shen Ze's cell phone rang again, and his cell phone was placed in front of the TV table in the living room, He Gaowen yelled: "You have a phone!"

"It doesn't matter, I'm off today, the company is on leave!"

After a pause, it rang again.

He Gaowen got up and walked over.Shen Ze moved faster than him, already holding his mobile phone and complaining dissatisfiedly that the President of the country still has time to rest.As he spoke, he threw the phone into his pocket, kissed He Gaowen's face and said, "Wait a little longer, it will be ready soon!"

He went back to the kitchen to make the next soup. He Gaowen seemed to have thought of something, and opened Weibo to search for Nie Wenhua's name.Click on the homepage, and the latest content is indeed the "intimate interaction" photos that Lin Zijun said.

What He Gaowen read from Nie Wenhua's eyes, dangerous, similar, and obsessive, he couldn't describe it, but this is not something that can be escaped by deceiving oneself or others.

Lychee meat is still fragrant and delicious, sweet and sour.He Gaowen filled a bowl full of white rice for the two of them, and started eating in silence.

There were vague sounds of firecrackers in the distance, the sound of cars coming and going downstairs, and occasionally the loud and clear birdsong, but here, it seemed as if an invisible object squeezed the air between the two of them.

"Do you care about the phone?" Shen Ze asked while holding a piece of meat for him.

He Gaowen looked up at him with the bowl in his hand, but didn't answer.

Shen Ze put down the bowl, leaned on the back of the chair and said, "I planned to talk to you about something at a suitable time, but it seems that I have to talk about it right away." He didn't wait for He Gaowen to digest this sentence, and then said, "Maybe you want to By the way, what happened to Nie Wenhua and me."

The bowl in He Gaowen's hand fell on the table, he hurriedly straightened it up and immediately stood up.

"Don't go! Wenwen! Listen to me!" Shen Ze stepped forward to stop the person who suddenly got up and walked away, "You have to understand my thoughts, wait until you get angry!"

"Your thoughts? Why should I always understand your thoughts? Have you ever thought about my thoughts? Can you wait if you get angry? Then Shen Daxing, can you wait when your desire comes up?"

Shen Ze never knew that He Gaowen had an aggressive side, so he was tongue-tied for a moment.

"You can say it, I'll let you say it." He Gaowen looked at his watch, "Is 5 minutes enough?"

Shen Ze let go of him, walked to the window of the living room to breathe in the cold air, and looked at the city under the gloomy sky.

Neither of them opened their mouths, and the time passed by.

"He tempted me, but I'm useless and I can't control it. In the script requirements for training new movies, I basically stay with him..."

He Gaowen sat on the sofa with his back facing him, his eyes were lowered, unable to see the grief and indignation in his eyes.There are some things that are different when you think about them and admit them personally.The former still had a little luck, at most it was a bloody wound, while the latter was a final conclusion, the coldest knife was stabbed in the heart, and it was stirred before it was pulled out, so there was more than blood.

This is so fucking painful.He Gaowen bent down and hugged himself. For a few seconds, he couldn't breathe. He silently endured the blunt punishment brought by each word. He was like Ling Chi. At that moment, the blood could not be sent to the brain, and he couldn't think about anything. .

"I told him, don't contact me, I, I did something wrong, Wenwen, you give me a chance to correct my mistakes, everyone makes mistakes, don't you?" Shen Ze's tone was very serious, anxious, and truly transparent. With monstrous remorse, if he plays a role full of regret, he must pass it once.

He Gaowen buried his face in the palm of his hand, and rubbed his distorted face with all his strength: "Can you go back first? - Get out of me! Get out!!"

He still keeps his back to the other party, he doesn't want to look back at Shen Ze's face, he loves him so much, he will soften his heart when he sees his sad eyes, that mouth will say ingenious words that soften his heart, and those hands will touch Touch his face to soothe the pain in his heart little by little.

He doesn't want to be taught.

Until Shen Ze left, He Gaowen didn't raise his head.

He thought of his grandma, who had worked so hard for so many years and came back from abroad, and passed away quietly after being with him for a long time.Before that, his grandma was always worried about him, what would happen if he was alone in the future.He was sensible early, and comforted his grandma, saying: "I am so good, I will meet someone who treats me very well!"

Grandma touched his face with her skinny hands, feeling reluctant and caring.

After all, Shen Ze is not the kind of person who would take him seriously.

He sat there for a long time, and the phone reminded him of incoming text messages from time to time, and he didn't want to read them. He didn't get up until the evening sun cast the last rays of light into the French windows of the living room. Throw the used dishes into the trash can.He rubbed his hands nervously and repeatedly in the cold tap water, which turned red and painful, and finally shed tears.

On this day, the dusk was still enchantingly beautiful, the city was still crowded and bustling, and there seemed to be stories when people collide. The item found Lin Zijun.