Galaxy Translation Station

For half a month, I ran around the country. The first round of national college presentations, from Shanghai to Hangzhou, Hangzhou to Nanjing, Nanjing to Hefei, Hefei to Wuhan, Wuhan to Chongqing, Chongqing to Kunming, Kunming to Nanning, Nanning to From Guangzhou, Guangzhou to Fuzhou, and then back to Shanghai from Fuzhou, Youwei followed Lou Yin's team and traveled almost half of China in a short period of time. However, no matter how tired or busy he was at work, he couldn't control his thoughts.

At the Royal Emmy that day, the conversation initiated by Lou Yin always popped up in his mind from time to time, even if You Wei tried to do some psychological training for himself and said that it is best not to have anything to do with that person, but he couldn’t stand it anymore The heart of the Virgin filled with sympathy in his chest, yes, he is doomed to be a good guy and a bad guy all his life.

For Gao Yun, Youwei has not dared to approach him at the beginning, then developed curiosity, then retreated in his heart, and then developed to the present... pity?He himself didn't know how to describe his current feeling towards Gao Yun. In short, after he knew everything, it was not so easy for him to successfully withdraw.

What's more, Lou Yin's sentence that day, "I know you can't be sure whether you like Gao Yun, but actually having this kind of doubt just proves that you don't have feelings for him. What you lack is just to move forward." It's just a step of courage, so why don't you give yourself a chance?" He was hit hard, and at that moment he seemed to be grabbed by someone's heart and crushed hard, making him breathless.

After calming down and thinking carefully about the past between himself and Gao Yun, You Wei really didn't have the courage to admit that he didn't have any feelings for Gao Yun.

The flight back to Shanghai has successfully entered the stratosphere and started to fly smoothly. You Wei sat by the window, looking out of the window at the ever-changing sea of ​​clouds and was a little dazed.

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"You Wei, you actually like Gao Yun, right?" So Lou Yin's words began to echo in his ears again.

You Wei clearly remembered the horrified expression on his face when he heard Lou Yin's words, and then Lou Yin added with great confidence: "Don't forget what I do."

You Wei has never dared to be sure of a certain thing like Lou Yin. Perhaps this has something to do with his own timid character. He always holds an uncertain attitude towards many things.

However, the words that Lou Yin deliberately provoked seem to make him no longer able to bury his head in the sand as an ostrich. Some things that should be faced must be faced, and escaping cannot solve any problems, let alone Felix Before leaving, he made a plan for his meeting with Gao Yun in the near future.

After much deliberation, You Wei just replied to Lou Yin vaguely: "Dr. Lou...what are you kidding?" At the same time, there was a slightly embarrassed smile on his face.

"Nervousness and stuttering are all manifestations of a guilty conscience." Lou Yin deepened the smile on his face, and stared at You Wei leisurely.

You Wei felt even more guilty when he was looked at, and hurriedly looked away: "I... don't have it."

Lou Yin said: "I believe you know better than anyone else."

"..." Youwei was speechless with just one sentence. He was always like this, and he couldn't take advantage of anyone with his words. He was used to living in his own world since he was a child. Try not to compete with the world, learn to calm down, but often, you deliberately avoid it so that it is more noticeable, one kind of people always attracts another kind of people in a specific way.

"You Wei." Lou Yin lowered his tone, "I know you are not sure whether you like Gao Yun, but in fact, having this kind of doubt just proves that you don't have no feelings for him. You What is lacking is just the courage to take a step forward, so why not give yourself a chance generously?"

At that moment, what popped up in You Wei's heart was not a refutation of Lou Yin's words, but a re-examination of his own heart. He began to unconsciously recall the first meeting between him and Gao Yun, and everything that happened afterwards Everything, and he even found out that Gao Yun was the "civil and military girl" he had been following for several years on Blued, which made people curious. Before they knew it, they had been killed by an invisible The lines are connected together.

But the thing that made Youwei unable to calm down the most was the 419 scene that made him even more troubled. He personally felt Gao Yun's tenderness and consideration for him, and he couldn't deny the intense sex|love with Gao Yun. He got no less pleasure than Gao Yun, and he even missed that night again and again for a lot of time afterwards.They are all normal people, and no one can think of being able to be Liu Xiahui. Who can pat their chests and swear that they have nothing at all with dirty thoughts?

but!In the final analysis, he did not dare to be with Gao Yun, perhaps just as Lou Yin said, he still lacked a little courage.

In fact, in this era, it is normal for two people to separate and combine, especially in the gay circle, the long-term relationship is almost equivalent to daydreaming, but he still has fantasies in his heart, and he hopes that he can meet someone different.

For You Future, the characteristics of Gao Yun are enough to make him different from others, but why can't they try to be together?Just confessed to him countless times, so what if you just try it?What if we still break up in the end?Are you really that afraid of getting hurt a little bit?

Maybe, everyone is afraid of being hurt in their bones, and seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages is the instinct that everyone has since birth, because every wound represents pain, especially the one on the heart.

After a long silence, You Weicai heard his own voice again: "Why did you tell me this all of a sudden?"

"It's not sudden." Lou Yin explained, "I've wanted to have a good talk with you about Gao Yun for a long time."

"Why?" You Wei was even more puzzled.

Lou Yin said without hesitation: "Because Gao Yun is my patient."

You Wei subconsciously repeated Lou Yin's words: "Gao Yun is your patient?" Because no matter how you look at it, You Wei doesn't believe that Gao Yun is actually a patient. Except for the occasional slightly weird temper, he is not normal at all. It's normal again.

Lou Yin nodded: "Yes, he is my patient. I have treated him for more than five years, but the progress has not been great."

"But him?" You Wei was still in shock, he didn't know how to organize his words.

"Can't you see it?" Lou Yin smiled gently, "Every patient with a serious mental illness looks no different from a normal person."

You Wei is not sure that Lou Yin is not joking with him: "He... what is going on?"

Lou Yin spat out a few words lightly: "PTSD."

"PTSD?" You Wei didn't quite understand these psychological terms.

"Post-traumatic stress disorder is the so-called post-traumatic disorder." Lou Yin explained patiently, "Many years ago, Gao Yun was hurt by someone close to him, and that kind of hurt was not only reflected in physical scars , and seriously affected his mental state, and that time happened to be the most important stage in a person's growth process, so Gao Yun's PTSD was more serious than ordinary people. During the past ten years, he even committed suicide countless times .”

You Wei opened his eyes and mouth wide in disbelief. He remembered that Gao Yun mentioned his first love in Yingyi Crown's night chat, and used such exaggerated words as "all over the body" and "bloody". .At that time, You Wei took Gao Yun's words for granted as a joke, because in his opinion, how could someone as outstanding as Gao Yun have such bad memories.But looking at it now, it seems that every word Gao Yun said at that time was his own real experience?

At this moment, Youwei was about to die of annoyance. With his character that he was reluctant to trample on ants to death, it is conceivable how shocking his heart was when he learned the truth. He hated himself for laughing at that time. He, Youwei, who The person who couldn't bear to be hurt actually smiled at the deepest wound in a person's heart.

"I..." You Wei bit her lip firmly, and after a while she managed to utter a few more words, "I'm sorry."

Lou Yin thought it was funny: "What's the use of you telling me that?"

"I...I don't know." You Wei shook his head honestly.

"You Wei." Lou Yin called You Wei solemnly, and deliberately slowed down his tone so that You could not understand his next words, "I hope you can do me a favor and help me heal completely Gao Yun."

"Me?" You Wei subconsciously refused, "I can't do it." It's not that he didn't want to help, he was just afraid of messing things up, and he didn't know if he could bear such a big responsibility.

Lou Yin tempted me calmly: "You still don't know what I want you to do, why did you refuse in such a hurry?"

You Wei still shook his head: "I...in any case...I can't do it."

Lou Yin couldn't help laughing: "Will you listen to me before making a decision?" You Wei's performance made him more convinced that his choice was not wrong.

You Wei lowered his head slightly, but his gaze was firmly fixed on Lou Yin's face. This is a typical expression of a cold face and a warm heart. Compared with those who dare to look at each other, You Wei's character is more compassionate. In other words, It is more curative, and it is an excellent medicine primer for the treatment of PTSD.

"I don't need you to do anything deliberately, just do what you usually do." Lou Yin patted You Wei on the shoulder, which was an effective gesture to relieve the other's tension, and continued, "Gao Yun's illness It’s not something that can be cured overnight, so it’s going to be a constant battle.”

You didn't listen carefully, and Lou Yin smiled with satisfaction: "So that's why I want to talk to you about Gao Yun. What he needs by his side is someone who can accompany him for a long time, through every inconspicuous detail in life Go and heal him slowly."

"Why must it be me?"

"Gao Yun is a prodigal son in love. You and I both know this. It is inseparable from the psychological trauma he suffered back then. Therefore, among the people who come and go around him, there is no suitable candidate. I can't find a nurse every day. Follow him every second, this will not achieve the purpose of treatment at all, nurses are paid to do things, and what Gao Yun needs is not someone who cares about him because of money." Lou Yin paused, and said, " I say this, do you understand?"

You Wei nodded, and Fu shook his head again. To be honest, he still felt a little conflicted.

"Don't understand?"

"Yes and no."

"You Wei, the most precious thing about you is your compassion, which is the main reason why I choose you." Lou Yin made it clear, "Secondly, you also really like Gao Yun, don't you? "

"I……"

"Don't rush to refuse, you still have a lot of time to think about my words." Lou Yin said, "Gao Yun will return to China at the end of June and early July, just tell me your choice before seeing him again."

"He... went abroad?" No wonder he couldn't get in touch all the time, and suddenly felt a sense of relief in his heart, which You didn't find inexplicable.

"It's not important. What's important is that he came to see me before he left the country. He has accepted my treatment on his own initiative. This is a great improvement for him. It took me five full years to get only I can't give up on him at this time." Lou Yin said, "You won't either, right?"

"I..." Youwei thought over and over again, he knew this decision was crucial, so he couldn't easily agree or refuse, "I want to think about it again."

Lou Yin is very understanding: "Of course, this is your right."

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His thoughts drifted a little far, until someone put more weight on his shoulders, and You Wei came back to his senses. Lou Yin was looking at him with a smile: "What do you want to drink, I have already called you three times."

"Ah!" You Wei smiled apologetically at the stewardess who was keeping a decent smile on the road, "I'm sorry, I'm a little distracted."

The stewardess said: "It's okay, what do you want to drink? Orange juice? Coke?"

"Give me a glass of water."

"Okay." The stewardess skillfully poured a glass of mineral water and handed it to You Wei inside.

You Wei took it quickly and thanked him: "Thank you, thank you."

"You're welcome." The stewardess nodded slightly before pushing the small car to the back row.

"Thinking about Gao Yun?" Lou Yin took a sip of red bayberry juice and casually talked to You Wei.

Since the conversation at the Royal Emmy, Youwei's overall view of Lou Yin has fundamentally changed, and he spent almost all day working together during this period, which made him feel a little bit more about Lou Yin. Feeling like approval, envy, and admiration, he also completely let go of his feelings for Felix during this period of time. To have a lover like Lou Yin, he should be happy for Felix.Now when Lou Yin mentioned that the person who made him extremely confused and contradictory, he didn't feel that he had ulterior motives as before, so he smiled and said, "Think about it."

Lou Yin then asked: "Have you thought about it yet?"

You Wei held the water glass and took a sip of water. To be honest, he was still hesitating before Lou Yin asked him this question. For some reason, being asked by Lou Yin seemed to trigger his heart suddenly. of an agency.It wasn't until this moment that You Wei clearly realized that his feelings for Gao Yun were actually stronger than for Felix. When he mentioned Felix, he just felt a little sad, but when he mentioned Gao Yun, he couldn't help but feel heartbroken, even though that feeling was still there. It wasn't obvious, but he knew that feeling was heartache.

"Forget it... think it over." You Wei replied in this way.

"Oh?" Lou Yin raised his eyebrows, "How do you say?"

You Wei grinned: "I want to try."

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