the far shore

After Gao Linchuan left, Bai Jingyue was under surveillance. His mobile phone was monitored, the door of the rented house was monitored, and a private detective was arranged around him. He was afraid that he and Gao Linchuan would contact in private.

Bai Jingyue couldn't help wondering whether Gao Linchuan was also living this kind of life, as if his world was isolated in a small space by four walls, with no way to go, no way to retreat, and could only live in this small space. In the empty space, I live alone, desperately, and depressed.

Bai Jingyue's spirit was breaking down day by day, and her grades continued to decline. Gao Yueya didn't ignore him. When he was getting more and more haggard day by day, he was forced to eat the nutritional products Gao Yueya sent.

As for the school, without Gao Linchuan, no one would bully Bai Jingyue, but he would not let him go.

They kept making jokes about his sexuality behind his back, even though he and Gao Linchuan weren't really together.I don't know who spread these things.

Bai Jingyue didn't want to make any excuses either, he was already numb and wouldn't care about anyone's eyes anymore, the only thing he cared about now was Gao Linchuan who was far away in a foreign country.

After Gao Linchuan left, Bai Jingyue felt as if his soul had been pulled out of his body, leaving nothing but emptiness. He began to miss the feeling of Gao Linchuan being by his side, the sense of security it gave him, and all the memories he gave him. He knew that he could no longer deceive himself Well, Gao Linchuan likes him, so why doesn't he like Gao Linchuan?

Sometimes Bai Jingyue also began to regret, why she refused to admit it, why she said those things that hurt Gao Linchuan, maybe those words would make Gao Linchuan leave so painfully.

He was so selfless to himself, even when he left, he was thinking about his future, even though he knew that he might not be able to see each other again in the future.

So Bai Jingyue decided that even if he was the only one left to go on alone, he would finish high school, go to university, find a good job, and survive as Gao Linchuan expected.

When he wanted to end his life when he had a mental breakdown again and again, he would bury his body deeply in the bed, hug himself tightly, and recall the feeling of Gao Linchuan hugging him tightly. The memories left by Gao Linchuan became his invisible spiritual pillar.

He always wanted to see that house again, but he didn't dare.

It was his and Gao Linchuan's secret place, but he was being watched by Gao Yueya now, and he was afraid that Gao Yueya would take it away if he went there.

After a year without Gao Linchuan, Gao Yueya finally relaxed, and at some point, she withdrew the private detective who was following him.

When he found that no one was following him, he couldn't wait to run to the house that had been vacant for a year.

The house that was once cleaned and carefully furnished is now covered with thick dust on the walls and floors.

Bai Jingyue opened the door of that room, and the bouquet of withered flowers was still lying on the bed. Bai Jingyue picked it up, only to find that there was a small red box sandwiched between the flower branches.

He quickly took out the box, opened it, and saw two simple rings with "GB" engraved on them.

Bai Jingyue took out one of the smaller rings and put it on for herself. It was just the right size. He couldn't help thinking, if he had accepted Gao Linchuan's confession here, would Gao Linchuan personally put this ring on him? .

Not long after the private detective was withdrawn, on his way home from school, he ran into the girl who had delivered the letter before. The girl seemed to be waiting for him. When she saw him, she came over and asked, "Brother Linchuan secretly Back home, do you want to see him?"

Hearing this sentence, Bai Jingyue's eyes lit up immediately. Seeing this, the girl took his arm and said in a low voice, "Behave naturally so as not to arouse suspicion."

The girl walked very slowly. Although Bai Jingyue was very anxious, she had to follow her pace.

The girl took him into a car, then told him to turn off his mobile phone, took out his mobile phone, dialed a number and handed it to Bai Jingyue: "That guy can't wait for a moment, and wants to hear your voice first. "

After the call was connected, there was a moment of silence over there, and Bai Jingyue tentatively said, "...Hello, is this Senior Linchuan?"

There was another silence, and then Gao Linchuan's voice finally came: "Jingyue, it's really you, I miss you so much, I miss you so much."

Bai Jingyue held the phone tightly, her hands trembled unconsciously, and even her voice trembled a little: "Linchuan, I... miss you too."

This time, Bai Jingyue decided not to run away anymore. He regretted the rejection at the beginning and tortured himself. This time, he wants to completely release this feeling. He wants to respond to Gao Linchuan's feelings. Fortunately, Gao Linchuan is willing to wait for him Fortunately, Gao Linchuan still likes him.

"I can see you soon, wait for me."

Bai Jingyue hung up the phone immediately after speaking, he felt that he was going to cry again, he didn't want Gao Linchuan to hear him cry.

He is obviously a man, but loves to cry so much, Gao Linchuan actually likes him who is so useless.

Only this time, unlike usual, this time it was because I was so happy that I wanted to cry.

After calming down, Bai Jingyue pointed to her messy hair and asked the girl, "Excuse me, do you have a comb?"

The girl looked at his hairstyle and frowned, but still found a comb for him.

Bai Jingyue took the comb, thanked her, and then remembered to ask the girl's identity: "By the way, until now, I still don't know your name, and I can take the liberty to ask, are you and Senior Lin Chuan? what relationship?"

"My name is Gao Zi, and Gao Linchuan is my cousin." The girl replied coldly.

Afterwards, she remained silent until she arrived at a remote old house. The car stopped, and Bai Jingyue couldn't wait to open the car door. Regardless of etiquette, she rushed straight in and ran to the door to ring the doorbell desperately.

As soon as the door was opened from the inside, Bai Jingyue pushed the person who opened the door without looking, then rushed into the living room, and asked Gao Sen who was drinking coffee, "Where is Senior Linchuan, where is he?"

Gao Sen glanced at him, then let out a snort, and laughed out loud lying on the armrest of the sofa, laughing so hard that Bai Jingyue was stunned for a moment, and before he could react, someone hugged him from behind, with his chin resting on his cheek The head said: "Little idiot, you pushed me away with such great force, ran in and asked others where I was, tell me, what should I say about you?"

Familiar voice, familiar breath, it is Gao Linchuan, that's right, Bai Jingyue wanted to turn around, but was hugged even tighter by the person behind her: "Don't move, first let me hug you tightly, let me know, this feeling is real , not a dream, Jingyue, I miss you so much."

Gao Sen, who was sitting on the sofa watching the show, finally couldn't help but said: "You two, if you want to show your affection, go to the room. You are not shy here, Xiao Zi is not yet an adult."

Bai Jingyue's face turned red all of a sudden, and he moved his shoulders, but Gao Linchuan still didn't respond, so he said, "Senior Linchuan, don't make trouble, let me go first."

Gao Linchuan finally let go, and Bai Jingyue was finally able to look back to see the face that she misses day and night. Except for the dark circles under her eyes, and the cyan stubble, nothing changed.

Gao Sen coughed a few times before Gao Linchuan quickly pulled Bai Jingyue up the stairs, entered a room and closed the door, Gao Linchuan immediately pushed Bai Jingyue against the door, lowered his head and kissed her, Bai Jingyue responded awkwardly and jerky, While holding onto Gao Linchuan's clothes tightly.

They kissed until both of them felt their lips were a little numb, then reluctantly parted, and then hugged each other and sat on the floor.

Bai Jingyue was lying in Gao Linchuan's arms like a little bird. He couldn't describe his mood at this time. He was probably happier than others who won the 500 million lottery.

The same is true for Gao Linchuan. They haven't seen each other for a long time, but they don't know what to say. After cuddling each other for a long time, Gao Linchuan said, "Thank you, Bai Jingyue, thank you for coming to see me, and thank you. Refuse me."

Bai Jingyue said shyly: "Okay, I regretted rejecting you at the beginning, is it a punishment?"

Gao Linchuan put on a look of serious thinking, and then said: "I don't think it counts. If you want to be punished, I will punish you for the rest of your life and stay by my side, is that okay?"

Bai Jingyue didn't know how to answer. Of course he was willing, but he didn't dare to promise. What he was afraid of was that if he agreed, someone would forcibly separate them, and he would owe Gao Linchuan again.

After thinking for a while, he said, "Linchuan, I also want to be with you and not be separated. I lied to you before, and I like you very much. I like you so much that I want to give you everything I have."

"I know, I've always known."

Of course Gao Linchuan knew, as he said in his letter, Bai Jingyue's eyes were too clear to hide things, how could he not see through Bai Jingyue's heart, but now hearing Bai Jingyue say it personally, it is even more so. Pleased.

"By the way, your mother won't find out when you go back to China?" Bai Jingyue asked.

"No, my uncle and aunt will hide it for me."

"They don't object?"

"Yes, after all, homosexuals in foreign countries are relatively open. They are on my side and they said they will help me persuade my mother. But this time I return to China, I still can't stay for too long. Before my mother nods, I'd better not Let her find out that we met secretly."

"Then I won't go to school for a few days, and I will stay here with you until you go back."

"No, it's too easy to leak like that. You just stay with Xiao Zi after school every day and pretend you're dating. My mother loves Xiao Zi very much and won't send anyone to follow her or anything."

Bai Jingyue nodded, why, the two of them obviously like each other, but because of their gender, everything became difficult.

In the past, he didn't feel anything when he watched those people in love but couldn't be together on TV, but now he has experienced it himself, so he knows that this feeling is really tiring, but even if he is so tired that he will collapse at any time, he still wants to To stick to it, I hope to be able to hold on to the day of happiness.

Both of them stopped talking, just maintained the same posture, and then fell asleep steadily. They didn't wake up until Gao Sen came to knock on the door.

After going downstairs to have dinner, Gao Sen asked the driver to drive Bai Jingyue away. Gao Linchuan personally sent Bai Jingyue out. Before leaving, he even kissed his forehead. Bai Jingyue lowered her head shyly and took out a red said the locket, "I went to that house you left me not long ago and found this."

Gao Linchuan looked at the two rings in the opened box and Bai Jingyue's blushing face, understood what he meant, took out one of the smaller rings to put it on for him, kissed the back of his hand, and then He took out another ring and put it in his palm.

Bai Jingyue understood, took the ring and put it on Gao Linchuan, but didn't move anymore.

"Kiss." Gao Linchuan showed an unhappy look, looking at Bai Jingyue's blushing face, he just found it funny.

Bai Jingyue was shy, she still took Gao Linchuan's hand, and was about to kiss it, when Gao Linchuan suddenly shook his hand, pulled him into his arms, bowed his head and kissed him, even the driver beside him saw They all covered their mouths and laughed.

After the kiss, Bai Jingyue lay in Gao Linchuan's arms: "Linchuan, that house is so dirty."

"That house... You have to say in the future that it is our home. It doesn't matter if it is dirty. We will clean it together some other day."

"it is good."

The two of them didn't let go for a long time, but the driver was not in a hurry to urge him, but Gao Sen couldn't stand it any longer, so he snatched Bai Jingyue from Gao Linchuan's arms and stuffed him into the car.