the far shore

At this time, Bai Jingyue gradually calmed down. For some reason, Gao Linchuan was beside him, so he could find a sense of security, and then he impulsively held Gao Linchuan back then, and then let Gao Linchuan hold him and pull his waist hand.

As soon as she entered the door, Bai Jingyue looked around. The house was very big, with three bedrooms and one living room. It was fully furnished and cleaned very clean. It was obvious that people had often visited or lived in it.

Gao Linchuan said, "I prepared this house for you. I wanted to confess my love to you here."

After finishing speaking, he dragged Bai Jingyue into another room. The room was beautifully decorated, and there was a large double bed. There were also large and small photo frames hanging on the wall. The largest photo was Gao Linchuan and Bai Jingyue stood back to back, smiling innocently.

Those photos were taken by Gao Linchuan half a month ago with Bai Jingyue to the photo studio. At that time, he wondered why he wanted to take photos all of a sudden. Afterwards, he didn't see Gao Linchuan take the photos back, so they were all hung here.

The bed was covered with roses, with a large bouquet of bright red roses in the middle, and many heart-shaped hydrogen balloons under the ceiling.

Gao Linchuan walked over to pick up the bouquet of roses, and said: "I wanted to bring you here today, and then here, I will leave you an unforgettable confession memory. I didn't expect so many things to happen today. I'm sorry, Jingyue, I didn't Protect you well, but I promise, I will never let you get hurt again in the future, I like you, can you try to like me too."

After saying so much in one breath, Gao Linchuan's face started to feel hot, but Bai Jingyue stared blankly at the bouquet of roses, raised her hand and put it down again, and said, "I'm sorry, Senior Linchuan, thank you You are so kind to me, but let's go on the normal track, each find the girl he likes, get married and have children, this is the way we should go."

Hearing the words of refusal, Gao Linchuan felt that every heartbeat of his was accompanied by pain. He took a breath, then dropped the rose, stepped forward and hugged Bai Jingyue into his arms again: "Do you think I can do it?" Do you want to cut me out of my heart if I give up on you, do you know how painful it is? You are the first person I want to protect, the first person I keep following my eyes, the first person who can make me I get rid of all my bad temper and learn to be a gentle person. How can I let you go and find a woman to marry and have children? .”

Bai Jingyue felt that she was about to suffocate. She didn't know whether it was because of this embrace or because Gao Linchuan's heavy words fell into her heart. He felt that his words were like a double-edged knife. into my heart.

His heart was in pain, he began to feel confused, his feelings for Gao Linchuan didn't seem to be as simple as a good friend, he seemed to like Gao Linchuan's gentleness towards him and the big hands touching his head, he seemed to be too dependent on Gao Linchuan , like a snail cannot leave its nest, it is heavy, but it is also a destination.

He didn't regret the refusal, because homosexuality, in the eyes of most people, is still not recognized, and he didn't want the two of them to embark on a road full of thorns.

But he was also afraid that he would lose Gao Linchuan just like that, and this conflicted heart was about to torture him to the point of going crazy.

Why should Gao Linchuan like himself? It would be great if he could be a good buddy for a lifetime, so that no one would get hurt.

Gao Linchuan hugged Bai Jingyue, but was reluctant to let go, wishing to merge Bai Jingyue with himself, seeing the sadness in Bai Jingyue's eyes, he couldn't control it anymore, lowered his head and kissed, and the two fell on the bed .

Bai Jingyue didn't refuse, and even began to respond clumsily after kissing for a while. Gao Linchuan couldn't help being delighted that Bai Jingyue really liked her too.

Slowly, Gao Linchuan stretched his hand in from under Bai Jingyue's clothes. Bai Jingyue was shocked, and the terrible experience just came back to her mind, she quickly pushed Gao Linchuan away, then covered her face, and once again began to cry.

Seeing this, Gao Linchuan realized that he was a little too impatient. Bai Jingyue had just experienced something like that, and now he did what that wretched uncle hadn't done.

Gao Linchuan leaned on Bai Jingyue, buried his face in his neck, and touched his head and said, "I'm sorry, it's my fault. As long as you don't agree, I won't do this to you again. .”

Bai Jingyue pushed Gao Linchuan away again, and said: "We will each have our own way in the future. Maybe I should listen to Su Huoyuan and leave your side. Thank you for liking me, and I'm sorry. I'm just like you to Su Huoyuan." I can't repay your feelings for me like Ibiza."

Seeing that he got up to leave, Gao Linchuan pulled him back, pressed him down on the bed again, and said with his forehead against his forehead, "What's the same? I don't have feelings for Su Huoyuan, but you, you obviously like me, obviously You like me, right?"

"But we're all men!"

"I don't care! Why, you must mind that much, I am willing to work hard for you, and you, why are you so weak in this regard, are you afraid?"

"Yes! I'm afraid, I'm afraid I'm going to get hurt."

"Leave me and you won't get hurt?"

Because I don't want you to get hurt too.Bai Jingyue thought so in her heart, but dared not say it out loud.

He hoped that his refusal would make Gao Linchuan give up, and then gradually forget about himself, and he, who had been living with bruises since he was a child, would gradually adapt to no matter how much pain he suffered.

In the end, he said something duplicity, which made Gao Linchuan let go of himself.

"Please, don't bother me again, okay, you really make me sick like this."

In the next few days, Gao Linchuan never went to pick up Bai Jingyue again.

As for Bai Jingyue, she had saved a lot of money when she was tutoring Gao Linchuan. At this time, she just asked him to go back and rent the former small single room, and never returned to Gao Linchuan's villa.

It wasn't until later that he submitted the application for withdrawing from school, and when the school hadn't responded, Gao Linchuan approached him.

He thought that Gao Linchuan would hate or hate himself because of this, but he didn't expect that Gao Linchuan would look haggard after a few days, his dark circles were heavy, and he obviously didn't sleep well.

Gao Linchuan knocked on Bai Jingyue's door for a long time, until he heard the neighbor's complaint, Bai Jingyue opened the door to let him in.

As soon as he entered the door, Gao Linchuan immediately hugged Bai Jingyue tightly and said, "I heard that you applied to drop out of school. Why, I promised you not to disturb you. I tried my best to do it. Why do you want to leave my sight completely?"

Bai Jingyue smiled wryly. He knew that Gao Linchuan couldn't break free at this time, so he let him hold her.

"That aristocratic college is really not suitable for me. I have already made plans for the future. I said that I hope you don't bother me. I also said that everyone will have their own way in the future. Senior Linchuan, you really It's time to let go."

"Even if I let go of my hand, my heart still can't let you go, Jingyue, what should I do, what should I do."

Gao Linchuan's hurt look made people understand that even Gao Linchuan, who is high above him, would be vulnerable in the face of feelings. This made Bai Jingyue a little shaken, so he didn't refuse Gao Linchuan who suddenly came to hug him tightly.

At this time, the door of the rented house was opened with a click, and Gao Linchuan and Bai Jingyue turned their heads at the same time, facing the angry face of Gao Linchuan's mother, Gao Yueya, followed by the landlord and Su Huoyuan.

Because they came in so suddenly, they just ran into the scene where Gao Linchuan and Bai Jingyue were embracing each other. Gao Yueya stepped up and tore the two apart, and even slapped Gao Linchuan. Bai Jingyue was startled, and was about to pull Gao Yueya lived in Gao Yueya, but Gao Yueya turned her head and pointed at his nose and cursed: "Good, Bai Jingyue, I was still thanking you for teaching my son to improve his grades, but I didn't expect you to secretly I was hanging out, I didn't expect you, a high-achieving student, to be so shameless, I didn't believe it when Su Huoyuan told me, if I didn't kill you suddenly, I really didn't know that you two big men really got together."

Bai Jingyue quickly explained: "No, auntie, we don't."

"No, you dare to say that you just hugged normally, so why do you both have that expression, or do you want to say that my son forced you and you are innocent?"

"Auntie, we don't have that kind of relationship. Senior Linchuan is my only good friend, that's all."

"If it's really an ordinary friendship, my son would break up with Su Huoyuan for you? Don't I know my own son?" Gao Yueya obviously didn't believe his words, but turned to look at Gao Linchuan: "Stinky Boy, say it yourself."

Gao Linchuan didn't want to continue to hide, he knelt down slowly, pulled his mother's sleeve and said, "Mom, I'm sorry, I like Bai Jingyue."

When Gao Yueya heard this, she became even angrier. She raised her hand and wanted to greet Gao Linchuan, but the landlord and Su Huoyuan hurried forward to stop her.

Gao Yueya was dragged to sit on the bed, silent for a long time, and then sneered helplessly: "Good, Gao Linchuan, you really gave your dead father a face, you really gave Gao's parents a face, I will arrange a transfer for you tomorrow, you You don’t need to stay in China anymore, you will live with your uncle in the future, and when you get married and have children in the UK, come back and recognize me as your mother.”

Hearing this, Bai Jingyue's heart was particularly complicated. He thought that as long as he stayed away from Gao Linchuan as much as possible, the matter could stop there. He didn't expect that it would develop to this point now. He really wanted to never see Gao Linchuan again, so he started Feeling lost and lonely, seeing Su Huoyuan's panicked expression, he just thought it was ridiculous. Now, is all this what she wants.

Between him and her, no one can get Gao Linchuan.

Naturally, Gao Linchuan was totally unwilling, so he refused on the spot, so Gao Yueya said, "Well, I will immediately agree to the dropout application submitted by Bai Jingyue."

"Mom, don't! Do you know that Bai Jingyue has nothing, and a graduation certificate is related to his future survival."

"Then get out of here and go to England!"

Gao Linchuan lowered his head, Bai Jingyue couldn't see his expression at this time, and couldn't bear to look at it.

Gao Linchuan's broad shoulders seemed to be carrying an invisible burden, which gradually made him lose his strength.

He was still holding his mother's hand and knelt for a long time before his weak voice came: "Okay, I promise you, but you must take good care of Bai Jingyue, let him continue reading, and ensure that he has no worries about food and clothing. Get bullied again."

"I will do what you said, and even find a way out for him after graduation." Gao Yueya said.

In the end, everyone left, leaving only Bai Jingyue.

Bai Jingyue sat slumped on the ground, hugging his knees with his eyes wide open, feeling a throbbing pain in his heart, and he kept sitting in this position for several hours until someone knocked on his door.

After knocking for a long time, he came back to his senses, stood up unsteadily and opened the door, only to see a strange girl.

The girl was wearing the same school uniform as him, with a black mask and hat.

"Excuse me." Bai Jingyue asked.

"A fool asked me to come to you." The girl said, her voice was immature, but cold and without any emotion.

"Senior Linchuan?" Bai Jingyue was the only one who thought of him first.

The girl nodded and handed him a letter in her hand: "Brother Linchuan gave it to me. He's on the plane tomorrow morning, but he can't come to see you, so he has to write you a letter."

Bai Jingyue took the letter, and the girl left.

He closed the door, leaning against the door and eagerly opened the letter. On the letter was written in Gao Linchuan's clean and powerful handwriting:

Jingyue, I miss you very much, but I may never be able to hug you again.

I have always wanted to protect you, but people always get hurt. In front of my mother, I realized that I am really powerless and helpless.

There are a lot of things I want to tell you, but when I arrive in the letter, I don’t know how to write. I hope you remember me, but I also hope that you don’t feel sad because of me. I know, but I have already lived in your heart, because of your The eyes are too clear to hide any thoughts.

I've already bought that house. It's our secret place. I'm afraid it's the only thing I can leave to you now. You don't have to worry about utility bills. My cousin will handle it for me.

The password of the house is: 52013

Put pen to paper: Gao Linchuan.

After reading the letter, Bai Jingyue couldn't help it anymore, her eyes were moist again, and she kept chanting Gao Linchuan's name.