part-time profiler

Yan Yan and I quarreled.

Because he found a familiar blue capsule from the cabinet where I hid snacks.

"Yan Su," he said in front of me, "how do you think about it?"

At that time, I hadn't gone to the capital for surgery, and Jiang Luo said that the institute needed to prepare for a while.

Neither Yan Yan nor I expected that this preparation took half a year, because the structure and procedures of Cats are too complicated, and they need enough time to ensure the success of the operation and procedure modification.

I thought about it and said, "Keep it."

Then Yan Yan became angry.

I felt baffled, he was holding the capsule, he was big and bullying, it was hard not to feel oppressive, I stepped back subconsciously, he stared at me, and asked: "What are you keeping it for? What's the use?!"

"..." I looked at him wonderingly: "Actually...it's not very useful."

"Then why do you keep it?" Yan Yan still stared at me, I was very innocent: "It's just a capsule."

I turned around and left the bedroom, not wanting to quarrel with him over such nonsense.

"Yan Su." He grabbed my collar and dragged me back: "Leniency is allowed for confession, strictness for resistance."

He is too tall, why can Asians grow up to 1.9 meters, is it really not a genetic mutation?

I sighed silently, looked up at him, pressed his shoulders, tiptoed, and kissed Erha's mouth that was always chattering.

Yan Yan stopped talking, his anger turned into grievance, and he looked at me eagerly, as if hesitating to speak.

"Don't ask." I said, with my index finger on his lips: "Shh."

Yan Yan stopped asking, although from his eyes, I could see that he really wanted to explain this matter clearly.

But some things, if you explain it clearly, wouldn't it be boring?

It's like, I don't know how long I can live.

Everyone changes.

Become someone you don't even know yourself.

Wei Jiyuan can get married, I will kill my brother with my own hands, and Yan Yan... one day, he will forget me too.

The only experience I have learned from these 26 years of ups and downs is that nothing lasts forever.

Even though life is long.

But maybe, that's not my life, I mean, my life, maybe it will be very short.

Can't say anything.

Not promising the future is the only thing I can leave to Yan Yan.

I hope that even without me, Police Officer Yan will still walk towards his sunny avenue, towards his promised land.

As for Yan Su, it doesn't matter after all.

Wei Jiyuan accused me of being cruel, Yan Yan sighed that I was cold.Maybe, they are right.

Yan Yan went to cook.

I leaned against the door frame, crossed one arm, and watched him quietly, the busy Officer Yan.

When Yan Yan turned his head, he happened to meet my gaze. The warm yellow light in the room was too warm. In a flash, I actually had the idea of ​​eternal life, which should not be expected.

I looked back and turned to the living room.

"Yan Su!" Yan Yan was behind me, teasing with a smile: "I like watching brother, why don't you watch more?"

I scratched my ears, went back to the kitchen, and nodded: "OK."

Yan Yan's temper came and went quickly, and he acted like a normal person, humming a little tune while cooking.

Northern cuisine is mainly stewed. Yan Yan has the essence, and he cooks it well. It is fragrant. I leaned over, and he picked up chopsticks and twisted a piece of duck meat: "Try it, I have stewed old duck soup all afternoon."

I chewed and praised: "It's delicious."

Yan Yan smiled: "Coax me, you."

In fact, old duck meat is not tasty, and it is hard to chew. I rolled my mouth, so Yan Yan knew it.

"Drink the soup." Yan Yan scooped up the soup with a spoon and put it near his mouth to cool it down. I was about to go up to it, but he fed it into his mouth.

My eyes widened, and he turned and pressed down.

Well, I opened my mouth cooperatively.

"Yan Su," he said close to me, "don't lie to me."

"Ah."

"I was fooled by you, I was really scared."

"Sorry." I said.

"It's okay," he said.

For dinner, I ate with chopsticks.

Yan Yan ate less, and it could be seen that he was absent-minded and still thinking about something.

I asked him puzzled: "What's wrong with you?"

"Huh?" Yan Yan suddenly came back to his senses, raised his head, and fixed his eyes on me: "Oh, it's nothing." He shook his head.

"..." I didn't ask any more questions, and concentrated on my meal.

"Yan Su," he said suddenly, calling my name, "Hey, Yan Su."

"Huh?" I looked at him: "What?"

"How long have you kept that capsule by your side." He asked a question that made me confused: "You took it out from the base, right?"

"Oh, that." I nodded: "Well, when I left, I picked up two and lost one."

"That is to say, when you and Wei Jiyuan met, you had that capsule." His expression changed subtly, becoming very... weird.

"..." I opened my mouth, "Yes."

Is this... strange?

I can't figure it out more and more, Officer Yan's little thoughts.

"Then four years ago, when you left Wei Jiyuan, why didn't you feed him the capsules so that he would forget you, just like you once made me forget you." Yan Yan asked aggressively: "Or do you not want him to forget you?" getting over You."

"No..." I was about to explain. In fact, I didn't bring this kind of thing with me at that time. It was too dangerous. At that time, I was in a situation where I could hardly bring anything back to the mainland.

Yan Yan showed a hurt expression, and made a conclusion: "Sure enough, I am in your heart, and it is not that important."

I was speechless: "..."

Yan Yan didn't give me any chance to explain, he ran out, leaving me with a wind-like back, I was stunned, dumbfounded.

Officer Yan is more girlish than I imagined, no, glass-hearted.

Then in less than 5 minutes, Yan Yan appeared at the door of the house, and he came back.

I was cleaning up the dishes, putting the dishes in the sink, and rinsing them slowly.

Living together with Yan Yan, our division of labor is like this, he cooks and I wash the dishes, he does the laundry and I dry the sheets.

I can only do chores that are not that difficult, as long as they are not cumbersome enough steps to stick in my seven-second memory.

I didn't realize that Yan Yan had come back, he wrapped his arms around my waist, and his chest was against his back, only then did I realize that it was Yan Yan.

"Yan Su." He lowered his head, and rubbed his head against my neck, it was very itchy, I shrugged my shoulders.

"Baby, I can't bear you." He bit my neck, leaving a ring of teeth marks, I thought, this doesn't look like I can't bear it.

He went to fetch Band-Aids. I have a drawer of these things in my house, and I put them on the red tooth marks.

"I'm sorry." He murmured hugging me.

This is our daily routine, "It's okay." I answered him mechanically.

"I know you don't love Wei Jiyuan anymore."

He actually knew, and I was surprised: "Then why are you holding onto Wei Jiyuan? It's not good for Qianxia and the child to bring up the old matter again."

"No, I just think that your affection for me is not as deep as that of Wei Jiyuan at the beginning. Is it because you come first?" Yan Yan muttered in wonder: "You have only known each other for half a month, but until now, you have not He didn’t agree to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with me.”

"..." How should I explain, I was just trying to get my fill of food.

The cash my grandfather gave me is not enough for me to eat and drink.

The prices in Ningbei are really terrible.

"Because at that time... I didn't even know what marriage meant." I tried to explain: "And at that time Wei Jiyuan... was indeed a very nice person."

"Am I not good?"

"it is good."

"Am I nice to you?"

"it is good."

"Then we'll get the certificate tomorrow?"

"...not good." I rinsed the porcelain bowl that was stained with dish soap.

Yan Yan took off my apron, the tall man was sullen.

I thought for a while, then turned around and hugged Yan Yan, and he hugged me: "Yan Su, don't try to fish in troubled waters, you don't speak clearly every time...it makes us both..."

"Shh." I stretched out my hand to unbutton his shirt, pressed his Adam's apple with a smile, and bit it: "Yan Yan, do you know where the truth is?"

He picked me up and threw me onto the bed. Unable to stand my slow movements, he pulled off his belt and took off his underpants, and went straight to the point.

I gasped, he pressed my shoulder and forced me to look directly at him: "Then tell me, where is it?"

I closed my eyes: "Don't say anything."

it is more than words.

So all that was left was silence.

Yan Yan was sweating profusely, I gritted my teeth.

"Yan Su, call out." His voice was magnetic and hoarse, he pressed against my ear, biting and licking kisses lightly.

But the voice seemed to come from the distant sky, my sight passed him, and I stared blankly into the void.

"Yan Su, talk." Yan Yan pinched my jaw, with a fierce posture, coupled with a pleading tone and an aggrieved expression.

"Ah..." I laughed, "Erha."

"Yan Su," Yan Yan said viciously, as I expected, "We will not finish tonight."

I couldn't sleep, and I didn't feel sleepy until Yan Yan finished.

It doesn't make sense, I never lose sleep, especially if I'm tired and hungry.

Yan Yan didn't seem to be asleep either, we were back to back, he was facing the bed, and I was facing out the window.

I moved, and the chain on my wrist clicked softly.

Yan Yan took the city bureau's handcuffs home, wrapped them in a soft cloth, tied him at one end, and trapped me at the other end. This is a necessary item before we go to sleep every night.

He was afraid that I would run away and disappear without a sound, leaving him nowhere to be found.

Yan Yan insisted that he was right to be worried. Although I didn't admit it, in fact... he really knows me very well.

"Yan Yan," I said, "I can't sleep."

He got up without saying a word, put his arms around my head, and pressed it on his shoulders. I sniffed his scent and closed my eyes.

"Yan Su..." Yan Yan was obviously not reconciled to the end of the day's unfinished topic, he asked in a hoarse voice: "After you separated from Wei Jiyuan, have you ever regretted it?"

"What?" I said feebly, "Stop mentioning Wei Jiyuan, okay?"

"Not good." Yan Yan rebuffed straight away: "Do you regret knowing Wei Jiyuan?"

"..."

"Tell the truth."

I rolled over and straddled him.

At this moment, Yan Yan looks like Liu Xiahui, with an unmoving appearance.

I flipped down resentfully, and he grabbed me back again: "Say it quickly."

"... Regret." Because of the Cats chip, it is almost difficult for me to lie to Yan Yan. If I want to deceive him with lies, I have to bypass countless cumbersome program commands, which makes me a headache.

"I shouldn't..." I said intermittently, "I shouldn't have dragged him into the quagmire...if...without me...Wei Jiyuan...wouldn't have so many...regrets."

"He has been sad for a long time..." I have to admit: "Until now...he has never let go..."

"What about me?" Yan Yan's voice came from the top of his head, his tone lost: "Ten years, I even remember your gender wrong. You forgot me, and later because of your plan, you dragged me into it, what? Live or dead, Cats command. We have all become pawns in your hands."

Yan Yan asked: "Have you ever regretted it? Using me?"

Yan Yan always compares himself with Wei Jiyuan unconsciously, but they are completely different.

Cats will give me a choice between telling the truth and ambiguous words, but I can't lie to him, only tell the truth: "No regrets."

Yan Yan was stunned, and I noticed that his body became stiff.

"Yan Su, you... have a cold heart."

For the first time, he uncuffed and slipped out of bed with his shoes on.

I sat up and watched him quietly.

He walked to the door, as if he decided to give me another chance, he turned his head, with forbearable expectation in his eyes: "Yan Su, say something, say something..."

I shook my head.

Yan Yan gritted his teeth, and left without looking back: "I'll go back to the apartment, and I'll bring you breakfast tomorrow morning."

He went out, I jumped out of bed, pulled on my slippers and ran over.

The anti-theft door closed immediately, and Yan Yanzhen left.

People go to cool tea.

I went back to the bed, and the pair of rings bought by Yan Yan was still stuffed in the bedside table. On the day he gave it to me, I pressed the box back: "There is no rush." ​​I declined him.

How cruel, why are you so cruel to Yan Yan.

But wouldn't it be more cruel to make him feel as sad as Wei Jiyuan did?

I sent him a WeChat: Sorry, good night.

Yan Yan replied with a heart.

It is true that Yan Yan will quarrel with me, and it is true that he will not quarrel. No matter how sad, angry and indignant he is, he will silently swallow it in his stomach, and try not to show his violent side.

He said, "Because I know you've been through a lot with Grant."

And those pasts, I never told him, how did he know about them?

Sleepless all night.

The next day, I went to the store with dark circles under my eyes.

Yan Yan delivered the breakfast on time, and today the Municipal Bureau will hold a meeting to summarize the serious cases that have occurred in the past two months.

He left breakfast at the door, knocked on the door, left a message on WeChat, and left.

We did not meet.

I finish my breakfast and go to the bakery.

Wei Jiyuan's nephew Wei Yanze's friend, Qiao Li, was waiting for me in front of the store.

"Qiao Li." I said, "Why are you here so early."

He was still holding a document bag in his hand, and he seemed to be going to school.

"Boss Yan!" He smiled and walked over: "Today, the province's joint college teaching seminar will be held at the hotel next to the film school. I'll stop by to see you."

"Thank you." I said.

Opening the store door, we took Joe to the rest area, and we sat opposite each other and made black tea for him.

"Actually, I came to see you... On the one hand, it is indeed a visit. On the other hand," he hesitated, "I was entrusted by Qianxia. She said that you have always been single, with no relatives and no reason. It looks pitiful, so I want to do it for you." Introduce the object."

"........."

The author has something to say: it’s not too long, this episode will solve the small problems that the main text did not solve, and the full text will end at the end~