dark crossing

Another name for man is desire.

Some people say that cowards set off heroes, ugly women make beauties, and all living beings make Buddhas.And indeed, all misfortune stems from contrast.

Lin Youband once wrote a letter that was never sent: If you had never seen the light, perhaps the darkness would not be so difficult.You are not here, the world is dark and lifeless; if you are willing to come, purgatory is full of flowers and stars.

No one would have imagined that this gambling tycoon who covers the sky with one hand on Xiaqiming Island, and the young tycoon who is well-known in the medical sector, when he writes about his lover, he is as soft as every ordinary boy who is emotionally timid.

Lu Xinghe was afraid that he would be inconsistent, so why not be afraid of himself?

Every day, he wished he could wrap the other party airtight and hide it in a place that only he knew.

He suppressed, endured, worried all the time, one day he would break down and go crazy, and then completely hide Lu Xinghe who should only belong to him without reason.

Movies and TV shows are not allowed to be filmed!If you want to act, you can only act for him alone.As for the rivalry?The only person who can stand by his side is Lin Yougang.

Once tyrannical thoughts take hold, they are like weeds that grow unscrupulously in the wilderness, growing wildly and unreasonably.

Lin Youband had to control himself more carefully, trying to make himself look more rational and gentle.But he knew that Lu Xinghe understood him.Sometimes with just one deep look from him, Lu Xinghe who is playing with other actors can be shivered.

The idea of ​​wanting to occupy him is increasing day by day, but Lin Youbandit himself knows that he can't, and he doesn't dare.

When it comes to starting a business and finding out the truth, Lin Youban is bold.

He has the courage to step across mountains and waters, and he is also fearless to climb the moon to reach the stars. There is no storm in this world that he dare not cross, but only one lover with whom he dare not stand in the same boat.

The boat may not be small, but the waves are too big.

Everyone in the industry has always had a consensus on Lin Youbandi, who made his fortune in the gaming industry—there is no bet in this world that Boss Lin dare not place.

But they don't know that, in fact, there are.

Among those bets, there will never be Lu Xinghe.

He is the treasure that he cannot use as collateral, the core and purest desire wrapped in the soul.

Moist lips kissed down his neck, Lu Xinghe closed his eyes and panted, the arms around his neck were softly resting on the back of his neck, Lin Youban lay beside his ear, the hot and humid breath accompanied by a deep and hoarse voice Drill into the ear: "Youlookgoodenoughtoeat."

Lu Xinghe was shocked, opened his eyes and looked at him in confusion, different from the shame of hearing his mother tongue, this slightly playful flirting made his heart burn like the wreckage left after being ignited by love, that is Ashes that take a lifetime to clean up.

The bathroom door was locked, and Lin Youban pushed him against the door, and patiently taught him how to face his desires.

The soft and longing kiss made Lu Xinghe, who had always been very cooperative, suddenly cry softly: "Are you really Lin Youbandit?" He asked.

Not understanding how prudent this is, Lin Youban stuck out his tongue to lick away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and kissed his temples soaked in hot sweat tenderly and cruelly: "I don't know. If you want me to be real, then I'm like, if you don't want it, then just pretend it's a dream."

Lu Xinghe, who had been greatly bewitched and suggested, froze for a moment, his black pupils that were bright because of emotion gradually dimmed.

"It turned out to be a dream." He murmured.

The man hugging him rushed in, and he hugged him tightly, sobbing, "I like you very much, Lin Youband."

His long-lost cooperation and calmness made Lin Youban breathless: "What did you say, say it again, huh?"

"I like you very much, Lin Youband." In the dream, he allowed himself to say countless times: "I really like you, Lin Youband."

"How much do you like it?"

"I like it very much." He bit his lip because of the pain, but still continued to add: "Even if you don't like me anymore, I will always like you."

It was like a tongue twister, but Lin Youban was coaxed into laughing: "Fool."

Lu Xinghe's heart was beating lightly.The rapid heartbeat caused him to be surrounded by an unprecedented sense of dizziness, his ears sizzled, and his nerves seemed to be scorched by this strange electric current, emitting a sweet and burnt smell.

The panic of not being able to control his body, the thoughts of self-destruction were soothed very well, the hint of "dreaming" made Lu Xinghe, whose limbs were stiff and unable to move, relaxed mentally as if lying on a cloud, and his whole body was limp.

It's just a dream, nothing more.You can tell the truth without pretending.In the dream, even if Lin Youband found out that he still loved him, it would not cause any irreparable losses.

The exhaustion and drowsiness of having not slept well for a long time made the drowsy Lu Xinghe even more convinced that he was in a dream.

He was relaxed physically and mentally, and even the eyes that looked at Lin Youband were full of hazy and frank love.

Lin Youban's chest tightened when he saw him, but even though his heart was beating painfully in his chest, he could still smile: "Look what I'm doing, I'm not full yet?"

Lu Xinghe didn't answer, he leaned over to kiss him again, and asked in a low voice: "I like this dream very much, can we never wake up?"

Lin Youband wanted to give him the whole world, so he hurriedly replied, "Yes."

After receiving an affirmative answer, Lu Xinghe let out a long sigh of relief, the thin shirt was torn apart randomly by him, revealing a piece of thin and tough chest from the open clothes slit.

Lu Xinghe was so tired that his heart seemed to have been cut open, his chin rested on Lin Youbandi's shoulder, and he closed his eyes and said softly: "Then go to sleep."

The savages who invited them here were reckless and rough, but they were very polite, and the bathroom was complete with everything that should be there, except that the lubricant was missing.Lin Youbandit used the shower gel as a fake, and barely made do with it.

Fortunately, there were ready-made nightgowns in the closet. After taking a bath for more than an hour, Lin Youband finally carried out Lu Xinghe who was so tired that he fell asleep.

The bodyguard came again halfway, and was sent off to get anti-inflammatory ointment with a blank face.

The wound on his arm was red, swollen and inflamed due to contact with water, but he did not rush to apply it, his fingers softly poked behind his lover, Lu Xinghe frowned and gasped slightly in his sleep.Lin Youban wanted to laugh again, the corners of his lips raised uncontrollably, he rubbed the tip of his nose against Lu Xinghe's sweaty nose, and complained softly, "You little thing that kills you."

Although I was in the "enemy camp" this time, it was rare to have a good night's sleep.Lin Youban, who was in a deep sleep, was woken up by the wind.

The warm natural wind blows in through the open window with the afterglow of the autumn tiger.Lin Youband closed his eyes and subconsciously hugged the people around him, but the side of the pillow was empty.

With a thought in his heart, a tendon in the back of his head suddenly tensed, and he almost sat up immediately.

Looking around, seeing Lu Xinghe curled up in the corner and sitting alone in the darkness, he let go of his grip, and Lin Youband walked over to wrap his arms around him: "Baby, what are you doing?"

Lu Xinghe ignored him, shrank his shoulders stiffly to the corner of the wall, and nodded to the book stuck to his ear: "Well, some bandits have business in the country, so I won't go back to celebrate the New Year this year."

Lin Youban picked up his heart that had just let go.

Lu Xinghe was holding a book and talking on the phone while facing the air!

"Xinghe, what's wrong with you?" He stretched out his hand to touch his bangs which were wet with sweat: "Are you feeling unwell?"

Lu Xinghe turned a deaf ear to his words, still holding the spine of the book and continuing to make this imaginary phone call.

He also had a dream just now, and it was a very good dream.In the dream, the wrists are empty, without rubber bands. Occasionally, when I wake up in the middle of the night, I can turn over and hold the hands of the people around me calmly.When the fingers were intertwined, both of them wore silver rings on their ring fingers.

In that dream, he didn't discover Lin Youband's true face from the beginning to the end.They live happily together, with eternal blind joy, and grow old together with the person they loved first.

When he woke up, Lu Xinghe, who couldn't tell the difference between dream and reality, sat there for a while.When he saw the rubber band on his wrist to treat anxiety, he was stunned, then took off the rubber band without hesitation, and lay back down again.

The reality was so painful that he decided to sleep a little longer.

In the dream, it was New Year's Eve, Lu Xinghe called his family, saying that this year's Chinese New Year is very busy, and he might not go back to pay New Year's greetings.

The mother expressed her understanding, and said to him gently: "It's okay Xinghe, we don't need you, you may never come back."

The fingertips holding the phone suddenly turned white, Lu Xinghe nodded dully: "Okay, thank you mom."

He hung up the phone, turned around and hugged his lover who was close to him: "There is a bandit, but luckily there is you."

Lin Youban tried to hold Lu Xinghe, who was leaning against the wall and muttering to himself, into his arms, but the other party was so determined that it seemed to grow in the cracks of the wall, and it was integrated with the cement wall, and he couldn't break it no matter how hard he tried .

"Xinghe, can you hear me?" Lin Youban knelt down and anxiously stroked his back: "Who are you talking to?"

Lu Xinghe turned a deaf ear, leaned against the wall and smiled awkwardly: "I don't care what other people do, as long as I have you, I only want to have you."

Lin Youban couldn't hear what he was saying, so he put his arm through his bent elbow, and tried to pull it with a little force, but Lu Xinghe threw it away: "Lin Youband!"

"I'm here!"

Lu Xinghe stood up irritablely, but after shaking twice, he quickly slid down top-heavy, "Lin Youbandit, I can't find you, it's too dark here! Go and turn on the light!"

Lin Youban hugged him tightly, and the dim yellow night light in the darkness was frighteningly bright.

Lin Youband's lips leaned against his pinna: "You can't see it? How is it possible? I'm right here! Right behind you!"

Lu Xinghe struggled to pull his arm out of his embrace, his voice was hoarse, faintly desperate, he whimpered and called Lin Youbandi's name, tears shrouded his dim eyes, and they flickered under the night light: "I I can't find you, Lin Youbandit! Go and turn on the light! Go and turn on the light! Please!"

Long-term anxiety and depression caused him to fall apart and fall into uncontrollable physiological anxiety.He couldn't even tell reality from dreams.The once plump cheeks were too thin, and even the stubborn eyes were sunken in.

Looking at Lu Xinghe's dazed expression, half asleep and half awake, Lin Youban was willing to give everything in exchange for his recovery.