After saving Bai Yueguang's substitute

【Today's love temperature: 16℃】

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I finally found words to define the relationship between Xu Zhinian and me.

Landlord and Tenant.

93

Even if we live together, I don't have many chances to meet Xu Zhinian.

Because I am very busy.

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I know that many people's views on the rich second generation are mostly idle, unlearned and incompetent, they have a idle job in the company at home, and they depend on their mood when they go to and from get off work.

Of course, this cannot be wrong. A typical example is Yan Zhizhe, the kind that can be included in textbooks.

but I am not.

I have a real job in the company.

The position is not small, the full name is Chief Executive Officer, referred to as CEO.

95

When I became the CEO, Jiang Shengsheng told me quietly that what I put in the novel is a bully.

Jiang Shengsheng is the cousin who dragged me to watch the variety show before.

As a contemporary trendy girl, she plays games, reads novels and chases stars, and chats with her on WeChat, expressing emoticons and popular phrases.

Sometimes I see it in a cloud, and she laughs and calls me an old cadre.

I asked her, "What does Ba always mean?"

Jiang Shengsheng explained: "It means domineering president."

I said, "CEO and president don't count as the same job."

Then I spent half an hour explaining to her the difference between a CEO and a president.

Finally, the corner of her mouth twitched and she waved her hand: "Brother, don't care about these details."

Me: "Oh."

I am glad that she is studying art and has no plans to enter the company.

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That's a long way off, let's get down to business.

My schedule is relatively regular. When I go to the company in the morning, Xu Zhinian is probably still awake.

I usually settle lunch at the company, and I won't go home at noon.

At night, he either worked overtime or had entertainment, and several times he stayed with people until the early hours of the morning. When he got home, the room was usually pitch black, and Xu Zhinian had already fallen asleep.

Even if we meet at home occasionally, we just nod and say hello to each other at most, and then we go our separate ways.

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As a qualified landlord, I seldom interfere with Xu Zhinian's daily life, so naturally I would not ask anyone to keep an eye on his whereabouts.

I respect his privacy, and I will not monitor him or restrict his personal freedom like Yan Zhizhe did.

98

However, when I chatted with Mrs. Wang and Uncle Yang, they always mentioned Xu Zhinian in front of me intentionally or unintentionally.

Maybe it's because he was locked up for three years before, Xu Zhinian doesn't like to stay at home during the day, and likes to go outside when he has nothing to do.

But he also doesn't like crowded places, he has mild social phobia, rejection and human contact.

Once when I was chatting with Uncle Yang, Uncle Yang mentioned it to me, saying that he often went to some secluded corners where no one was there, and he just stood there in a daze without doing anything.

Sometimes I stay all afternoon.

"I always feel that this child is very preoccupied." Uncle Yang sighed, "I don't know what he is thinking."

I do not know either.

99

Xu Zhinian is a person with strong self-care ability.

This may have something to do with the fact that he grew up with his grandma since he was a child. Aunt Wang said that he didn't need to take care of him at all. Sometimes she was too busy in the kitchen to help her.

However, no matter how strong his self-care ability is, he is still only one person after all.

He is not omnipotent, some things still need my help.

For example, taking medicine.

100

When he was discharged from the hospital, Xu Zhinian's injuries had not completely healed.

The doctor said that the medicine should be taken every few days, so don't be careless, otherwise it will not get better, and it will easily leave scars.

Afterwards, some precautions were given.

Xu Zhinian had many injuries, large and small, especially a hideous scar on his back, which looked like it had been cut by a sharp weapon.

I was afraid of bringing up his sad memories, so I didn't ask.

But getting medicine for that wound became a problem.

He doesn't have three heads and six arms, so it's impossible to apply medicine to his back.

Get someone to help, he has a physical contact disorder, and will subconsciously struggle and resist when touched by others.

This last thing can only get me.

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Who made me the only one who was not rejected by him.

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"I'm sorry to trouble you." I probably felt embarrassed, after I entered the room, Xu Zhinian didn't meet my eyes.

"No trouble." I said.

He handed me the medicine, then took off his clothes, turned around and lay down on the bed.

This posture is so easy to imagine, I unconsciously look away.

……

After a few seconds, I looked back again.

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I almost forgot that I was here to help him with the medicine.

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Xu Zhinian not only has a thin waist, but also has thin shoulders.

There is almost no fat on his back, and the two shoulder blades under his shoulders are particularly prominent, like a pair of wings.

It's actually quite pretty, but I didn't dare to look at it too much. After regaining my composure, I took the medicine and applied it on him.

"what……"

It probably hurts more when taking the medicine, Xu Zhinian cried out subconsciously.

Then, probably feeling ashamed, he clenched his teeth and suppressed the rest of his voice in his throat.

Then the cry became a low, suppressed gasp.

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I think Xu Zhinian probably doesn't know that at certain times, such suppressed, faint panting sounds are more likely to make people feel hot.

His upper body was bare, and apart from the shocking scar, there were also deep and shallow bruises on his back.

The blue and purple traces that should be distressing, now in this situation, become inexplicably charming.

Inexplicably, I complained a little about why Mrs. Wang made a dark bed sheet for him.

He was so white that his body was sunk in the sheets, and his porcelain pale skin was alluring against the dark background.

My breathing intensified unconsciously.

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"Does it hurt?" I took a deep breath and asked him as if nothing had happened.

Xu Zhinian was still stubborn, shook his head, and said, "It doesn't hurt."

I raised my eyebrows and pressed harder with my hands.

"Ah!" Xu Zhinian couldn't hold back and cried out.

I then asked, "Does it hurt?"

Xu Zhinian replied obediently: "It hurts."

I said, "Then you sing a song?"

Xu Zhinian didn't understand: "What?"

I lightened my strength and said, "Aren't you in pain? Singing to divert your attention, maybe you won't feel the pain anymore."

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Xu Zhinian accepted my suggestion and sang a song.

I have never heard the melody of the song, probably something they often heard at that age.

Xu Zhinian's voice was very clear, the youthful vigor of the past, after going through the wind and frost, it became a bit heavy and hoarse.

It also sounds better, as if it can sing into people's hearts.

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he sings:

"Your fingertips are soft/Touching all of me/The ugly sores where the wind and the waves blow

You have spring and autumn in your eyes/Better than all the mountains and rivers I have seen and loved/

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My medicated fingers rested on his scar, trembling involuntarily.

I must have thought too much.

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After a song is sung, the medicine is almost finished.

I stood up and said, "Okay, you can turn around."

Xu Zhinian turned over, quickly pulled the quilt beside him, and covered himself.

I'm a little speechless, because I've seen everything just now, but now I feel embarrassed.

But I thought about his thin skin, so I stopped teasing him, told him to put away the medicine, and left.

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Then I went back to my room and took a shower.

112

I asked Xu Zhinian to sing just now, of course not because I wanted to hear it.

It was true to divert his attention, but it was just an excuse.

I was afraid that if he gasped again, I would have to listen hard.

113

Yes, I'm gay and I like men.

114

When I came out to my family back then, it was such an upheaval that it caused a storm like an earthquake.

My grandpa pointed at me, too shocked to say a word.

My dad almost broke my leg with a stick, but my mom stopped him, or I might be sitting in a wheelchair talking about these things now.

Of course, my mother didn't stop him from being open-minded. She cried and cried for a while, thinking that I was sick and needed to be cured.

As for the other bad relatives...

Too bad I don't bother to mention it.

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Among all the family members, my cousin Jiang Shengsheng is the only one who supports me.

In her words: "It's been 9102 years, why do people still think that homosexuality is a disease?"

Although I don't know what 9102 is, I am still grateful for her support.

The brother-sister relationship between me and her also grew by leaps and bounds because of this incident.

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Later, I found out that the reason why she and I shared the same hatred was because the novels she usually read included Danmei novels called crispy duck literature.

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I struggled with my family for a long time after I came out.

Leaving aside the process, they had to accept the fact that I was gay in the end.

But not without repercussions.

After my mother committed suicide, my father pointed at my nose and yelled at me, saying that it was because I liked men that I stimulated her to become insane and have frequent seizures.

I have fallen into deep self-blame for this and suffered for a long time.

During that time, I couldn't sleep at all at night. When I closed my eyes, what appeared in my mind was the scene of my mother's suicide.

I think I really let her down, and let her choose to end her life as punishment for me.

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But then I gradually thought about it.

My dad, who cheated in marriage, couldn't count his illegitimate children on one hand, and remarried immediately after my mother died, how could he have the face to accuse me.

118

... Forget it, some things make me angry when I think about them.

forget about it.

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Back to Xu Zhinian.

Just because I react to Xu Zhinian doesn't mean I like him.

For men, sex, love and emotion are separate, I still understand this truth.

Anyone with a normal body and a male sexual orientation can't remain indifferent when seeing Xu Zhinian lying under your body and panting like that.

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After all, I am not without impulse when I watch GV.

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But I have to say that Xu Zhinian does fit my aesthetics from appearance to personality.

If we are not in this awkward relationship now.

If we met on normal occasions and in normal identities.

Maybe I will have a romantic love with him from body to heart.

Now, of course, this assumption doesn't make any sense.

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So Xu Zhinian and I are just ordinary landlords and tenants.

I say so to myself.

The author has something to say: Me: Recently my cousin recommended a novel to me.

Xu Zhinian: What?

Me: "Overbearing Landlord and Pretty Tenant"

Xu Zhinian:?

Note: 106 lyrics come from "The Whale Who Incarnates on an Lonely Island"

This song is very famous, everyone should have heard it, but forgive Gong as an old man who doesn't like surfing the Internet, he hasn't heard it.

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Text / Christine Eleven