The Swan Bay Murders

When I don't have to go to work, the whole person relaxes, but I don't think it is a pleasant thing at all.

I'm not a workaholic, but since Berlin passed away, I've tried to spend as little time as possible on my own, because whenever I'm alone in the world, I can't control my brain.

After Brother Bai Chuan left, I also gradually lost my fever, curled up on the sofa and looked at the strange house in a daze.

I miss the place where I lived before, with my lovely uncles and aunts, and Brother Bai Chuan, who I secretly hid my love on.

I feel that I am really shameless. My boyfriend passed away only half a year ago, and I have already moved on.

Whenever I think of this, I hate myself so much.

I got up and looked for my phone, I need Yi Li right now.

When I went out, I hesitated, because I was not sure if Brother Bai Chuan would come back suddenly.

After hesitating, he still went out, thinking all the way, should he leave a key for Brother Bai Chuan.

It is a very ambiguous thing to give someone the key to your own home, as if you handed over a warm heart to the other person.

This is very suggestive, but, presumably, Brother Bai Chuan would not think too much about it.

After all, we have been family members for half a year.

He regarded me as a family member, so I had no choice but to use the banner of family members to satisfy my own selfish desires.

It's also very happy, isn't it?

I made an appointment with Yi Li in his office.

He will be returning to Canada next month, and it is unknown when he will return.

Regarding my condition, he said that this is a long-term battle. I can clearly feel the changes in myself, but this change is not enough to prove that I am cured, or that I will be cured.

Yi Li said: "You need to be in love, this disease can't be completely cured by the two of us alone."

But I can only keep silent, because the person I want to fall in love with is absolutely impossible.

This is probably what others say, hopeless love, and because of this, I'm afraid I will fail Yi Li's expectations.

"You..." Yi Li tidied up the documents on the desktop, curled his lips and said to me, "Why aren't you so brave? Look at me, I know..."

He paused, and the movement of his hands stopped.

I asked suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

Yi Li looked at me, tilted his head, as if he looked at me seriously from beginning to end.

"It's okay, I just feel that we are all pitiful." He shrugged, "You are a little luckier than me, but unfortunately, you are more stupid than me."

He folded a document in his hand into a paper airplane and flew towards me.

I dodged and the paper plane hit me on the shoulder.

"Jiang Luo, let me tell you, sometimes if you take a step bravely, you will find that what you think is not true." Yi Li said very seriously, "For example, if you think that Xing Baichuan doesn't love you, But in fact, you two are playing a game of crushing on each other."

Hearing the words "have a crush on each other", I was so nervous that I didn't know what to say.

Yi Li looked at my thoughts, but he didn't dare to admit that Brother Bai Chuan might be the same as me.

Indeed, in the face of Yi Li, all our small thoughts seemed to be seen through inadvertently. He is so good at observing words and expressions, he even understands us better than ourselves.

I was about to say something when suddenly someone knocked on the door of Yi Li's office.

We looked towards the door together, I never expected to meet Xu Zhao here.

I haven't had a good chat with Xu Zhao, I always want to avoid him, he seems to be busy with other things too.

Especially when I think of him now and I think of that phone call, and the heavy, erotic gasps on the phone.

"How did you come?"

I turned to Yi Li, a little shocked.

When did they meet?

How did you know each other?

Yi Li's complexion is not very good, I rarely see panic in his eyes.

"Jiang Luo?" Xu Zhao didn't answer Yi Li's question, but asked me, "Why are you here?"

Of the three of us present, everyone was full of question marks.

I saw the wallet in Xu Zhao's hand, which was a birthday present I bought for him.

In previous years, I gave it to him by hand. This year, because of the unpleasant things that happened before, I didn't want to meet him at all, so I sent it to him by courier in the same city. Unexpectedly, he really used it.

Yi Li came over from behind the desk and stood in front of us.

"Aren't you busy today?" He asked Xu Zhao, his voice trembling.

I suddenly felt that I might have captured the subtle atmosphere between them. At the same time, the voice of the boy who answered Xu Zhao's phone reappeared in my mind and overlapped with Yi Li's voice.

Life has proved to us countless times that the world is not big or small, and it has also told us countless times that the bloody plots that we thought would only appear in [-] o'clock TV dramas are actually everywhere in life.

We are all poor creatures played by life.

Yi Li was flustered, and before he could explain anything, he pushed Xu Zhao out of the door.

He leaned against the door, looking at me.

"If you have something to do, I'll go back first." I thought of the wallet that Yi Li bought with me. It might be a bit pretentious in the eyes of others, but I really felt sorry for Yi Li.

I thought of his happy smile when he mentioned the person he loved, and thought of his reaction just now. He must have known about my relationship with Xu Zhao for a long time, and I suddenly felt guilty.

"Don't go." Yi Li grabbed my wrist, sighed, and said, "I'm fine."

Xu Zhao knocked on the door outside: "Yi Li! Open the door!"

Yi Li frowned at me and bit his lip.

At this moment, I saw that this psychiatrist who was usually optimistic and seemed to be invincible was also defeated, and I felt a sense of sympathy in my heart.

It's so sad to not be able to love.

I stood up, opened the door, and said to the dazed Xu Zhao, "I want to go out with Yi Li, please lend him to me first."

After I finished speaking, I turned around and pulled Yi Li and walked out, completely ignoring whether Yi Li was willing or not.

I thought, Yi Li has helped me for so long, let me try to help him open his knot now.

I still feel that I am lucky. Although the road of love is not so smooth, I will always meet someone who makes me willing to believe in the future.

Berlin at the beginning, Brother Bai Chuan and Yi Li later, in my messy life, they are the ones who are pulling me forward.

Sitting alone in the coffee shop opposite the company, just like when I was waiting for Berlin to get off work, today I am waiting for Brother Bai Chuan.

In the afternoon, I chatted with Yi Li for a long time. The two of us were in the box. He was obviously older than me, but he hugged me and cried like a wronged child.

He is very sharp and sensitive, and Xu Zhao is frank with him. Since the two met, they have said frankly that they don't love each other.

But Xu Zhao is a bad person, this is already an established fact.

He clearly said that he didn't love Yi Li, but he was greedy for Yi Li's gentle care and passionate love.

In fact, to be more precise, he was shamelessly consuming Yi Li's love.

Yi Li has always had the character of not bumping into the south wall and not turning back. He will not give up fighting until the last moment.

Therefore, the two interacted so vaguely, Xu Zhao seemed to regard Yi Li as a tool to vent, and gave Yi Li to bear all the feelings and sexual desires that had no place to rest.

"He treats you like this, why are you still so persistent?" I asked.

Yi Li said: "Love is the most unreasonable thing. I know he doesn't love me, and I know he's bad, but I can't control myself to love him."

I think, I can understand him, but I think Xu Zhao really went too far this time.

At the end of the chat, I made an agreement with Yi Li.

"I'll go after Brother Bai Chuan, you go and forget Xu Zhao."

This is such a funny and naive game, but I hit it off with Yi Li, and when our palms were pressed together, I knew that a boring life must have some exciting challenges before it can be called life.

In fact, this is what the two of us have always longed for, but there is no excuse for us to take that step.

Whether it is secret love or unrequited love, it fills our hearts with grievances, and if we want to get rid of it, we can only be brave.

So now, sitting here, I sent a message to Brother Bai Chuan.

[Boss Xing, I ordered a cup of coffee for you at the coffee shop opposite the company, but if you come too late, it might be cold. 】After posting this message, I suddenly felt like a villain with a dark heart.

The coffee in front of him was still steaming, but the sky had already darkened.

It's time to get off work, but Brother Bai Chuan hasn't replied to me for a long time.

I look away and look down at my coffee.

Suddenly, there was a knocking sound on the glass.

I looked up, and Brother Bai Chuan was standing outside the window looking at me with a smile.

Suddenly, the street lights outside came on, and his smile became warmer.

I also smiled at him, pointed to the coffee opposite, and signaled him to come in quickly.

Late spring and early summer have always been my favorite season.

The weather was neither hot nor cold, and Brother Bai Chuan was only wearing a striped shirt without a tie, and the two buttons on the collar were unbuttoned.

He ran in and walked towards me.

He didn't sit across from me, nor went to drink coffee, but sat next to me, grabbed my arm with one hand, and stroked my forehead with the other.

"It's okay." He touched his forehead again and said, "The fever is gone."

I suddenly wanted to hug him very much. I don’t know if it was because I had a fever and burned my head, or because chatting with Yi Li made me crazy. I can’t explain where the courage came from. In short, when I reacted , I have hugged the man in front of me.

There was a faint smell of perfume on him, and I sniffed at the edge of his collar secretly, fascinated by it.

He stroked my back and asked me, "What's wrong?"

I didn't dare to answer, closed my eyes, and wanted to just sleep in his arms.