The Swan Bay Murders

What was I thinking the moment all the lights suddenly went out?

I kept thinking about this as I ran up the dimly lit corridor.

I can't think of an answer, but my body has given me the best answer.

I was worried about Jiang Luo, afraid that he would be drowned in this darkness foolishly, afraid that he would feel abandoned by the world.

Maybe I was worrying too much. When I saw Jiang Luo walking down the stairs steadily, I suddenly felt ridiculous.

He is also a big man in his thirties, so I don't need to worry about him like I worry about a child.

He stood on the slow platform above me, looking down at me, in a daze, a little silly, but also a little cute.

I remembered Yi Li's words.

He said I fell in love with Jiang Luo.

Is it easy to love someone?It only takes a few months to get along to fall in love?

I thought of the failed relationship before. Yi Li and I developed from friends to lovers naturally, but in the end we didn't go our separate ways.

What about me and Jiang Luo?

It was agreed that I only treat him as a family member and a substitute for Berlin, why did it become love?

I walked towards him, and suddenly wanted to ask him something, but when I got there, I couldn't say a word.

I was going forward, he was going back, it seemed to mean something.

When his eyes looked at me, just for a moment, I really wanted to hug him.

But he is Li Jiangluo, I shouldn't get too close.

The moment my fingers touched his cheek, I was so nervous that my ears burned instantly.

He was sweating and maybe a little restless.

My head is full of Yi Li's words, I think, I was probably bewitched by that guy, otherwise why do I really feel that I am in love with Jiang Luo.

I still want to hug him, even kiss him.

In a building with no electricity, it's so quiet, let me give this person a good kiss.

But the reason is still there, such an impulse can only be stuffed back into the dream.

I'm still asking myself: Xing Baichuan, do you love him?This is the person in front of you, do you love him?

Although unwilling to admit it, a voice in my heart gave an affirmative answer.

Yes, I love him.

Where does this love come from, I really don't know.

I asked him, "Jiang Luo, do you really want to move out?"

I am so eager to get a negative answer, I want to hear him say "no", hear him say that he is reluctant to part with me and wants to stay.

But he gave me a firm and cruel answer.

"I'm moving this weekend," he said.

a few more days?

I don't want to forget it.

The palm that held his wrist was still hot until he went to bed at night.

I was lying on the bed, the room was pitch black, but I didn't feel sleepy at all.

He opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, thinking about his appearance today.

That face in the orange emergency lights, and those eyes, and that mouth.

I want to hold him in my arms and kiss him fiercely and lingeringly, our lips and teeth touch, body and heart are entangled together.

I reacted, and although I knew it was too much, I stuck my hand in my panties anyway.

I had a lust for Jiang Luo, a shameful lust for my younger brother's lover.

The hand that touched Jiang Luo grasped my own organs, closed my eyes, and imagined that Jiang Luo was holding me like a self-deception.

His palms were warm and sweaty.

He occasionally pushes hard and occasionally gently, occasionally inserts quickly and occasionally stops to rest.

He did the whole thing in my head, and with my ejaculation, his phantom disappeared.

What follows is a long period of emptiness and frustration.

There was no sound of Jiang Luo's breathing in the room, only my sigh.

The palm is wet, and the liquid is my evidence.

If Jiang Luo knew that I thought about him doing such a thing, he would probably hate me so much for the rest of his life.

I don't know what time I fell asleep. After I went to the bathroom to wash it, I couldn't fall asleep for a long time when I came back.

I was woken up by Jiang Luo in the morning, he kept knocking on the door, calling me: "Brother Bai Chuan, are you not going to the company today?"

I looked at the time, it was already 07:30.

We are usually ready to go out at this time.

I got up quickly, and when I opened the door, I saw Jiang Luo who had tidied up. He seemed to be taken aback by me, opened his mouth to look at me, and said, "Well... I thought you just didn't want to come out when you woke up."

I rubbed my temples and felt a little headache. On the one hand, I was really uncomfortable, and on the other hand, I felt that I was ashamed in front of Jiang Luo.

"I'm not feeling well." I said, "Go to the company first, I'll go there later."

He asked me worriedly, "Are you sick?"

"It's okay, I'll go find some medicine and take it."

I turned and went back to the house, trying to avoid him, but he followed.

"No, no, no." Jiang Luo grabbed my wrist and said while taking me out, "You can't take medicine on an empty stomach. The meal is ready. You should eat something first."

He pulled me to the dining table, and I didn't take the initiative to break free from his hand. After all, this kind of opportunity should be cherished.

"You eat first, I'll get you some medicine." He let go of me anyway, turned around and walked to the living room, "What's wrong with you? You can't take medicine indiscriminately."

"Headache." I picked up the bowl and took a sip of porridge.

After a while, he came back with the medicine, stood beside me and asked me, "Are you too tired recently?"

I shook my head, not knowing how to answer.

In fact, it is probably caused by the fact that I fell asleep with wet hair after showering last night.

I heard him sigh, sitting on the chair next to him and saying, "When will you have a vacation..."

His voice was very small, not as if he was asking me, but as if he was talking to himself.

"Is there any place you want to go or something you want to do when I have a vacation?"

When he looked at me in surprise, I realized that I had made another slip of the tongue.

Jiang Luo watched me finish my meal, and put the medicine in my hand: "Take it half an hour after the meal, I'm running out of time, so I'm leaving first."

I checked the time, it was already past 40:[-].

He tidied up in a panic, and when he was changing his shoes at the entrance, he was still saying, "Don't rush to take the medicine, wait..."

Before he finished speaking, I went over and covered his mouth.

Jiang Luo was a man who was sometimes silent and sometimes nagging.

He stared at me with big eyes, very cute.

"Wait for me, I'll go clean up." I withdrew my hand and took the keys and bag from him, "I don't want you to squeeze the bus."

In fact, I really wanted to rest for half a day at first, and then go there in the afternoon, and I can still make lunch for Jiang Luo.

But just now, when I saw him running out in a hurry, I suddenly thought that if he went to work at this time, he must take the bus by himself. The bus in the morning rush hour is very annoying with people sticking to each other.

I don't want to burden him.

When I went back to the room to change clothes, I finally figured out one thing.

Who I love and how I love it is all my business.

I can't choose to fall in love with him, which is irreversible, but I can choose not to let him know, and I can choose to continue to treat him well in my own way.

As long as he can live comfortably, why not give more.

After I finished packing, Jiang Luo was leaning against the wall by the door and waiting for me.

"Boss Xing, we're really late this time." He raised his hand to show me the time.

And I just gave him back his bag with a smile, and said, "Nice watch, gift giver has a good eye."

We were going out late, and there was another traffic jam on the road.

When he got downstairs at the company, Jiang Luo said unhappily, "I don't have my perfect attendance award for this month."

I parked the car, unbuckled his seat belt, laughed at him and said, "Don't worry about such a small amount of money."

"Of course we should care about it." We all got out of the car and walked to the elevator side by side. He said, "The rent is one to three, and the sanitation fee and the Internet fee are a mess..."

He stopped talking and didn't continue the topic.

The atmosphere in the elevator became a little dull. I wanted to find a fresh and relaxing topic to talk to him, but I searched my brains until we got to our floor, but I still couldn't think of it.

As soon as he got out of the elevator, he saw an acquaintance leaning against the front desk chatting with Xiao Chen.

"Hey, what did you two do last night? You were late for work?" Yi Li smiled evilly, holding my suit jacket in his arms, and threw it over while talking.

I glanced at Jiang Luo, he greeted Yi Li with a flushed face and went back to his office.

"Don't talk nonsense." I didn't have any expression, and I didn't look at Yi Li, and my eyes followed Jiang Luo.

It wasn't until he closed the door that I turned to Yi Li and said, "Why did you come here so early in the morning?"

"I'm so happy that I don't have free time today. The two of us are going out to play." Yi Li pulled me aside mysteriously, and asked me in a low voice, "Did you confess your love?"

"What?" I frowned.

"Stop pretending." He thumped my back, "Why don't you fall in love quickly when you are happy? The good times are wasted like this, don't you feel bad?"

I don't believe in love between two people. I know how much Jiang Luo loves Berlin. After being hurt like that, he won't fall in love with others easily.

Especially me, a guy who looks so much like the guy who hurt him.

It is God's favor for me that he can live peacefully by my side.

"It's impossible for us." I didn't want to continue to talk about this with Yi Li, so I went to help him press the elevator, "You should go, your true love should wait."

"That's true." He curled his lips and said to me, "If the two of you can take the initiative half as much as my Xu Zhao, you will be ready to enter the bridal chamber by now!"

It was only when he mentioned the word "Xu Zhao" that I remembered that Yi Li's so-called "true love" was that scumbag.

I immediately pulled him back from the elevator, and dragged him into my office without saying a word.

"Xing Baichuan, why are you crazy!" Yi Li was probably taken aback by me, and shouted at the top of his voice.

I know that the group of gossiping, boring young people in the company must be paying attention to this, but I can't care so much anymore, and I can't let Yi Li continue to develop with Xu Zhao.

I closed the door of my office and asked him, "How far have you and that Xu Zhao progressed?"

"Why? You suddenly cared about my affairs. Could it be because you regretted it and wanted to reunite with me?"

Yi Li is always like this, he is out of shape.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he felt bored, and sat on the sofa and said, "It's not bad, and he didn't take the initiative to mention things to confirm the relationship, but we didn't do less than what we should do."

When he said that, I knew it.

Originally, I wanted to find a suitable opportunity to tell Yi Li about Xu Zhao, but I'm afraid I can't delay any longer. If this continues, Yi Li must be the one who gets hurt in the end.

"Stop loving him." I said, "Xu Zhao is not a good guy."

Yi Li was playing with his fingers, but he stopped after hearing what I said.

He was silent for a moment, then looked up at me and said, "I know, he has a sweetheart."

I frowned, and was interrupted by Yi Li before I could speak.

He said, "He loves Jiang Luo, I know it."