love song

From the bottom of his heart, Chen Ye didn't need Shen Yuzhou to feel guilty towards him. No matter how hard-hearted Shen Yuzhou was back then, he himself was pushing forward, and the two of them were willing to fight and suffer.

After Shen Yuzhou heard mixed feelings, Chen Ye's healthy attitude towards life should actually be a good thing, but he never thought that there would be a day when Chen Ye told him that he loved another person.He also wondered if Chen Ye was trying to annoy him, but he was serious three times in a row, and Chen Ye's tone was equally serious when he spoke. Being able to be honest with himself was the greatest relief, and he didn't even have room for self-comfort.

At the beginning, he threw Chen Ye on that road, and now he seems to be hesitating on that road, but Chen Ye has already walked out.

The night was getting darker, and the lake outside the car was shimmering red and green, making his eyes sore, Shen Yuzhou closed his eyes, "After we meet again, why don't you refuse to sleep with me?"

Chen Ye has already stripped herself naked once, and now she has a strange open-mindedness in her heart, and there is no need to hide the darkness hidden in the corners.

He pursed his lower lip and said, "That's why human nature is so strange. You and I were in a state of meeting each other with a smile, but that day when we were downstairs in your company, Stanley came to block me. After he left, you asked me that sentence." When I asked what it meant to get what I wanted, I still had evil thoughts in my heart."

It may not be accurate to say evil thoughts, even if there is a little devil hiding in his heart.

Chen Ye continued to explain, "At that moment, I thought, you still care about this issue, should I take this opportunity to play with you?"

At that time, he stared at Shen Yuzhou for half a minute, and his mind was full of how to make this person feel the misery he experienced many years ago.So later, he added Shen Yuzhou's WeChat.

"Then you coaxed me back to your house that night, and I felt that you just wanted to sleep with me, but that's okay, as long as you want to be next to me, I have a way."

Chen Ye smiled nonchalantly, "I'm pretty evil."

Shen Yuzhou also smiled, only he knew how sour the smile was, that should be Chen Ye, his kitten would only fall on him alone, he said: "You should be Like that."

Chen Ye shook her head, "But, later on, I figured it out. At most, we were not suitable. That night, I suddenly stopped hating you."

Since when?After they did it once, Shen Yuzhou lay beside him, and his thoughts flew far away.

After the orgasm, all the nerves were relaxed, and they lay down and chatted together, saying things that had little to do with each other.Beside this man who once captured all his attention, he has no intimacy or resentment complex in his heart. Even that bed incident, he is also a stranger to Shen Yuzhou, and his body can't deceive anyone. The frenzy that made Chen Ye tremble from body to soul was gone.

It's like having a date with a stranger.

At that time, Chen Ye only felt relieved. This feeling was very strange, as if the long-term lingering gloom in his heart was finally annihilated, all resentment and hatred disappeared, and his eyes suddenly became brighter, and finally he sublimated himself.At that time, he called Shen Yuzhou his senior brother.

and so……

"The next morning, you posted a Moments, the weather is fine."

Chen Ye said: "Because I finally completely let myself go."

It's not hard to understand what happened afterwards, "Later, you still wanted to sleep with me. I was empty, so I didn't care about it."

Furthermore, facing a person who once haunted him and made him want to stop, but now his heart is as calm as calm water-this feeling of a stronger spirit, Chen Ye himself enjoys it very much, so he let it go "with Shen Yuzhou" bed partner" behavior.

In a word, Chen Ye didn't care much about taking a nap, but he couldn't do it any further. After knowing that Shen Yuzhou had compound meanings, it became impossible to take a nap.

After finishing all the words that night, Chen Ye pushed the door and got out of the car to leave. Shen Yuzhou felt that he should send him home. This is the capacity of a man.But he couldn't get back to his senses, seeing Chen Ye walking farther and farther, as if he was nailed to the driver's seat, unable to move for a long time.

He couldn't accept the fact that he was the one who said to break up back then, but at this moment Shen Yuzhou understood the deepest thought in his heart: no matter where his Chen Ye is, no matter what the circumstances are, even if they are thousands of miles away, no matter what the appearance is, Whether it's love or hate, he always hopes that Chen Ye will always have a little affection attached to him.

He thought so too, even when he returned home late at night and drank half a glass of wine, Shen Yuzhou still felt in a trance that Chen Ye's so-called frankness when he rejected him today still had an element of pretending indifference.

Chen Ye looked at him like a blind eye back then, and let him go as soon as he said it, who would believe it?

Maybe Chen Ye still wanted to take revenge on him, but it was really done now. Shen Yuzhou put down the wine glass, took out one from the cigarette case on the table, lit it up and took a deep puff. Yes, Chen Ye's mind was pure, But there is always a way to toss him.

Shen Yuzhou suddenly remembered their most intense quarrel, that time they even moved their hands.

It was the summer vacation of the last year they were together, and Chen Ye went to City C for an internship.

At that time, something happened to his company, and he was devastated every day. All in all, they were all cheated by the project manager.Thinking of this now, Shen Yuzhou himself admits that he just couldn't handle the task back then, and of course his qualifications were also shallow.It's very clear, Party A and him, we are all making money in harmony, there is no need for anyone to go to court, he first admits the compensation, calculates the amount he can bear, and then the negotiation is a matter between people, and there are people involved You can find a way to find flexible space, minimize your losses as much as possible, and start liquidating with your own people after the project is completed.

Now it's just a drizzle on his head, but back then it could kill him.There is also Yu Xun'an who is not human inside or outside, because he used his contacts to negotiate with Party A for Nanqiao's initial budget, but Yu Xun'an's attitude has always been open-minded and optimistic. Shen Yuzhou only needs to look at his belt The smiling face felt that there was still room for redemption.

Of course, Shen Yuzhou has always been aware that Chen Ye doesn't like Yu Xun'an, but there's nothing he can do about it. This is his work partner. It's one thing for him to dote on Chen Ye, but it's another thing to be obedient regardless of him. That's how he was at that time. Thought.

What was Chen Ye's state at that time?If he said he was ignorant, he was really ignorant, so he held his breath and tried another way to hook him into bed.Shen Yuzhou still remembers one time, when he was going on a business trip to the construction site, he made an appointment with Yu Xun'an to meet downstairs at 07:30, and when he hung up Yu Xun'an's phone early in the morning, Chen Ye entangled him.

Look, this is how Chen Ye dealt with him. They had quarreled endlessly during those few months. He was actually very tired of facing Chen Ye, but his life was as hard as iron being sucked by the kitten. Wang looked at him beggingly, begging, and said he wanted it, but he still didn't control himself, and immediately pressed him on the window sill to ask for it.

It wasn't the first time, nor was it the last time, that such a scene happened between him and Chen Ye. The scary thing was that he clearly knew what Chen Ye was thinking, but he still gave in without exception.

Shen Yuzhou still can't tell whether it's because Chen Ye is too attractive, or because of his own inferiority.Food and sex, he equates Chen Ye's sexual desire with appetite, even though he doesn't give Chen Ye room to comment on many things about him, but it's hard for a man to bear his partner saying that he can't be satisfied in bed, The severity is equal to Chen Ye's accusation that Shen Yuzhou is so incompetent that he can't eat enough.

It took him half an hour to feed Chen Ye, Yu Xun'an waited downstairs for half an hour, and when Shen Yuzhou went downstairs, only self-loathing was left in his heart. Any man with a normal body and mind likes sex, but no one likes sex. Men like to be led by the nose by sex.

At that time, he was in fear of being revoked all day long. He was anxious and restless for a whole month. He had to drag a group of people in the office to discuss the budget for rework day and night, keeping these things under his nose. To relax.

Thinking of Chen Ye's aggrieved or angry face every time, he would stay up until midnight every day before coming back, and later he would just settle in the office without a phone call. Anyway, when he went back, he would prove it on the bed besides being noisy. How stupid and lecherous he is.

When the incident happened, he and Yu Xun'an finally had an idea with Party A. They drank until midnight, and he was so drunk that he lost consciousness.

He didn't know how he got out of the clubhouse. He woke up because of a knock on the door. He opened his eyes and found himself lying on the sofa in the office. Yu Xun'an was sleeping on the side with the folding chair he usually used for lunch break.

He had a severe headache, Yu Xun'an got up and packed up his things and went to open the door, but it was Chen Ye who came in, and he pushed the person in.At that time, the curtains were all drawn, and the room was dimly lit. Chen Ye looked at them with red eyes, like a dying soul.

Shen Yuzhou was already hungover, but with just that one glance, he felt even more exhausted. He didn't want Chen Ye to make trouble in his company, so he had no choice but to take him back to that room.

Sure enough, as soon as the door was closed, Chen Ye cried, "How do you explain to me?"

Shen Yuzhou's headache got worse, he just wanted to take a shower, change clothes and escape, he didn't know what he had to confess to Chen Ye, he just slept in the same room with Yu Xun'an all night.

But Chen Ye was so quarreling that he couldn't let go, and after a round, the topic still returned to Yu Xun'an, as if they wouldn't let him go without seeing each other forever.

Shen Yuzhou's head was about to explode, and he couldn't stand him making excuses, "Then I'll tell you, I really wanted to do something to him last night, but it didn't work out, so what can you do?"

Chen Ye grabbed something and threw it at him.

It took him a lot of effort to press Chen Ye onto the bed and control it. It is not an exaggeration to say that he had scuffled all the way. Shen Yuzhou was furious at the time, and for a moment he really felt that it would be better to replace the person beside him with Yu Xun'an. , at least not noisy.

But Chen Ye was crying so pitifully that every time he took a breath, he seemed to be unable to catch up, so he still coaxed Chen Ye, "Chen Ye, you always choose to believe half of what I say, why, eh? "

This sentence made him physically and mentally exhausted. He said ten thousand times that he and Yu Xun'an had nothing to do with each other, but once said that he wanted to do something to Yu Xun'an, Chen Ye believed it.

And his judgment was really right, Chen Ye still didn't believe the last sentence, and likewise, he still couldn't do anything to him, they were still together, and the quarrel continued.

One thing that Shen Yuzhou couldn't figure out back then: Chen Ye tortured himself to the point of being aggrieved, and in the end he could only bear it, why bother?

So he was the one who said to break up in the end. Many things happened that winter, many things Shen Yuzhou didn't want to think about until now.

His fingers were burning for a while, Shen Yuzhou came back to his senses suddenly, and then threw the burnt cigarette into the ashtray.

At that time he had an accident, Chen Ye missed the exam, took a taxi to see him, there was a car accident on the road, luckily he was alright.The last thing I saw was him hugging Yu Xun'an.

Chen Ye made a fuss, but later he couldn't do it in front of Ms. Lu, so he took the opportunity to ask Ms. Lu to send him to the train.

That night, Yu Xun'an came to his ward.

Yu Xun'an said: "Yu Zhou, maybe this sentence is not appropriate to say now, but I want to fight for myself once. You know what I am like to you. I want to use another identity to accompany you in your future journey. go down."

Yes, he always knew what Yu Xun'an was thinking about him, but if he didn't say anything clearly for a day, he pretended not to know.

Shen Yuzhou didn't speak, but Yu Xun'an said, "By the way, there is another piece of good news. This afternoon, the South Bridge passed the completion inspection."

Shen Yuzhou's mood improved immediately, "Isn't it scheduled for tomorrow?"

Yu Xun'an said, "Old Chen brought people over here ahead of time."

Before he could answer Yu Xun'an's words, and before he was happy for the project to come to a perfect conclusion, a cell phone rang suddenly to break the silence.

Shen Yuzhou's heart constricted almost reflexively, and his first reaction was that Chen Ye came to him again to ask his teacher about his crimes.

This call was from Ms. Lu, Shen Yuzhou hung up, still calm, he dug out another number from the address book and dialed it.

He said to Chen Ye: "Forget that I'm sorry for you, let's break up."

It took Chen Ye a long time to reply, "Is it because of Yu Xun'an?"

Shen Yuzhou glanced at the smiling man on the opposite side, his heart beat like a heavy stone.

Chen Ye was still asking, with a slight cry, "You two are together, aren't you?"

Shen Yuzhou thought of Chen Ye's words, and finally gritted his teeth, "Yes, we are together."

When there was only a busy tone on the phone, Yu Xun'an stepped forward and hugged him tightly, "Are you serious?"

He nodded, "Seriously."

The stone finally fell down, and with a crash, it shattered like powder.The remaining weight in his chest made him inexplicably relieved, but it was also really empty.

All in all, Shen Yuzhou has always understood that he is not an emotional person, especially during the time when he started his business, he felt that love was not a necessity in life, and he even felt that a man who failed in his career would even have a relatively shallow sexual desire.

At that time, he only knew that the kitten that he could have a good time with by smoothing its fur in the past was no longer something he could comfort.A year and a half has proved everything, he seems to be unable to satisfy Chen Ye, he can't do anything to satisfy Chen Ye, that kitten has finally become his luxury.

Therefore, when he left Chen Ye on that road in the end, his posture was extremely decisive.

It was half a month after they broke up, it snowed at night, and he and Yu Xun'an went out from the company together, white flakes flew all over the world in front of his eyes.

As soon as they stepped down the steps, "Senior brother—" suddenly broke the silence of the snowy night.

Shen Yuzhou knew whose voice it was, the driver just pulled the car to the side of the road, he didn't dare to look in that person's direction, opened the door and almost stuffed himself into the car hastily.

When Yu Xun'an sat next to him, he said to the driver, "Drive."

And that person's voice chased after him relentlessly, "Brother——"

Shen Yuzhou's heart trembled violently, and it seemed as if his clothes to keep out the cold didn't exist. He was bone-chillingly cold, and his hands shook like chaff.

He didn't dare to look back, what's the use of turning back?Disagreements still exist, quarrels are still quarrels, how can they achieve consummation, this seems to be an unsolvable problem.

On the contrary, Yu Xun'an kept looking back, then took out his phone, and called a security guard who was still in the company.

Shen Yuzhou listened to him ordering someone to catch up with Chen Ye, and hearing him ordering that person to send Chen Ye to the train, and finally said in a trembling voice, "Send him...to school."

Yu Xun'an held his hand, "Don't worry, I won't let him have an accident. I want you to stay with me peacefully?"

Shen Yuzhou hummed.

But is he at peace?As if never, for so many years, he didn't like snowy nights.

He left Chen Ye on that snowy road, as if he had dropped his own things on that snowy road.Up to now, he was still there, and he already had the energy to find a way out for them, but Chen Ye left only a shadow on that road that refused to turn back.

After many years, Shen Yuzhou had another hangover, and the result of the hangover was still a headache.

So he didn't plan to drink too much at the dinner at night. At his current level, he didn't need to use his alcohol tolerance to express his sincerity to the partner.

This day's entertainment was with representatives of Party A, with Yu Xun'an as the leader, a table full of people, even if Shen Yuzhou said he had a headache, there were several people who could drink with him.

And Yu Xun'an was indeed a little interested, changing glasses at the table, Shen Yuzhou also knew that he was used to such scenes, but after all, he was old, so he still tried to persuade him without any trace.

Yu Xun'an smiled at him, "It's rare that everyone is interested today, and we are old friends again, Mr. Shen, you have to take the lead to have fun."

That being said, none of the people who followed Shen Yuzhou were dead, so he immediately took the cup and consciously set himself on fire, and within a short while put Shen Yuzhou out of the game.

The wine was in place, and the evening was a happy one for both the host and the guests. Secretary Shen Yuzhou arranged for someone to send Party A and the group away.

Yu Xun'an was so drunk that he couldn't stand on his feet, and looked at Shen Yuzhou with drunken eyes, "Yu Zhou, let's chat for a while?"

Shen Yuzhou dismissed the people who followed, leaving the two of them in the private room.Yu Xun'an's drinking capacity is too well known, he can tell at a glance that he is half drunk and pretending to be half drunk.

Sure enough, Yu Xun'an leaned back on the sofa, squinted for a while, and glanced at him, "A few years ago, when I was on vacation in Bali, there happened to be a gay couple on the beach who proposed at a bonfire party. Afterwards, the proposal was successful. They included For the drinks in the audience, I saw that everyone was of yellow race, so I just had fun and drank a few glasses."

It sounds nonsensical, but Yu Xun'an's words are never aimless, Shen Yuzhou stood by the window, lit a cigarette, "And then?"

Yu Xun'an looked at his fingers slowly, "Didn't you quit?"

Shen Yuzhou didn't speak.

Yu Xun'an smiled, "Well, I didn't know that the one who proposed was my middle school classmate's younger brother, Zhuo Xu, until the wine was finished that day. The one who was proposed was the one who bought all the drinks for the whole audience when he was happy. Do you know who this person is?"

The strong smell of nicotine made his mouth bitter, and Shen Yuzhou spoke in a deep voice: "Chen Ye."

Yu Xun'an was stunned for a moment, then laughed at himself and said, "You know? You still feel that people are playing games because of you. They are serious about dating and almost married once."

Then, he laughed out loud at Shen Yuzhou, "I can't talk over there, and you will still worry about it later. How are you getting along with him these days? Has your soul been taken away? Xia Yingchun, what the hell is Xia Yingchun?" You are the hero in the field of love and moon, take it!"

These few words were so nutritious, Shen Yuzhou said: "I'll go first."

Yu Xun'an said: "Zhuo Xu's elder brother is gone, he has to go back to carry on the family line, leaving behind your Xia Yingchun, do you think you have hope again? Let me advise you, Zhuo Xu's elder brother recognized him when he was alive. It is said that his parents are not against it, maybe one day, the old couple of the Zhuo family will figure it out."

"You're wrong," Shen Yuzhou put out the cigarette, "Not only that, the night Zhuo Xu's brother's family was poisoned by gas, his mother planned to go there to take care of the eldest daughter-in-law, and it happened that Chen Ye came back from out of town and brought a gift for the old couple. Send it to your door, but Zhuo Xu's mother didn't go because she kept the treat."

Yu Xun'an's eyes widened slightly, and he stopped talking.

Shen Yuzhou buttoned up his coat, "So the old couple of the Zhuo family blamed Chen Ye for the death of Zhuo Xu's sister-in-law, and Zhuo Xu's mother is out of order. Everyone in this matter is a poor person, including Chen Ye, do you understand? ?”

After getting dressed, before going out, Shen Yuzhou said: "This time, I don't want to let him be pitiful anymore."