love song

People always have to go through some things before they can grow up, passing through one person after another, imprinting the marks of these people on their body, and then becoming who they are now.

Shen Yuzhou was an asshole back then, but after seven or eight years, Chen Ye thanked him for breaking up in the end.In fact, there is nothing wrong with breaking up decisively. The relationship between the two of them has long been irreparable.

He couldn't figure it out back then, and would rather cut flesh with a blunt knife, but Shen Yuzhou's fatal knife fell. No matter what the motive was, the final result, to Chen Ye, was just two words - liberation.

The world is so big, you have to linger on a crooked neck tree, this is really something you can do when you are young and frivolous.

And Chen Ye was no longer the Chen Ye who was around 20 years old, and he was even thankful for another thing - half a month after the breakup that year, he went to City C again with the idea of ​​continuing to pester Shen Yuzhou, who was young and frivolous, and Shen Yuzhou avoided him.

The past is over, so, the next morning after learning that Shen Yuzhou had compound thoughts, Chen Ye left the community and saw this man's car parked at the door, so he didn't feel uncomfortable.

Early in the cold day, Shen Yuzhou's driver's window was all down, and his eyes met his, and he never let go.

Apparently to get him in the car.

Chen Ye received the attention salute of about ten steps, went around, opened the car door and got on the passenger seat, "So early?"

Shen Yuzhou started the car, took out a breakfast paper bag from the side with one hand and gave it to him, "It's getting late."

"Early" refers to the time when Shen Yuzhou appeared, and "early" refers to Chen Ye's working time at nine o'clock, and it's already 08:30, and it's unclear whether the traffic on the road will be blocked.Chen Ye was not pretentious, took the breakfast and tore open the bag, took out a meal bag, put it in his mouth and bit it, "Have you eaten yet?"

Shen Yuzhou looked at the road ahead, "Have eaten, is it cold?"

Chen Ye held the paper cup of soy milk in one hand, "It's hot." The cold wind was blowing outside just now, and it felt very comfortable to hold something warm in his hand.

The carriage was also warm and cozy. Shen Yuzhou was driving very focused, focused and silent, as if he had no intention of saying anything.He was waiting at the door early in the morning to pick up someone and take him to work, and he brought breakfast with him. It seemed that he was going to fight a protracted battle.

Chen Ye filled his stomach in a leisurely manner, put the wrapping paper and paper cups into the bag, and saw that his company was about to arrive, so he asked the man beside him, "Do you have time in the evening?"

Shen Yuzhou's thin lips raised a smile, "Yes, where do you want to go?"

It doesn't matter where you want to go, some things are said early in the morning to make people feel bad all day, that's the point.So Chen Ye asked him to choose a place at will, and Shen Yuzhou was not from a mother-in-law, so he immediately agreed and called Chen Ye on time at six o'clock in the afternoon.

People from Chen Ye are conceiving the logo of a food company in the pile of books. To be elegant and profound, they must keep up with the times. They have rummaged through local chronicles and other corporate culture books, and just have some ideas in their minds.

When I got the call, I realized that I still had an appointment at night, so I had to pack up my things and prepare to go back to work overtime at night. I was thinking that I would have to come up with the preliminary idea of ​​the plan tomorrow morning, and I was not sure how long it would take to speak clearly during this meal. He rubbed his forehead, he knew that today would happen, he shouldn't have rolled on the bed with Shen Yuzhou a few days ago.

But the more troublesome thing is yet to come, Chen Ye went downstairs to get in the car, Shen Yuzhou smiled at him and said: "It's pitiful for you to leave your hometown, today I will take you to a good place."

Chen Ye also smiled. He just eats local dishes. He has been in C City for so long. Occasionally, when nostalgia strikes, he himself will go to eat hometown dishes. He has been to almost all the local famous local dishes, but not Know where Shen Yuzhou is going today.But no matter which one it is, this kind of thought is really unnecessary today.

But the further the car drove, the more he felt palpitations. He detoured from the main road to the small road, and then walked forward. Behind the bustling commercial street was the old city. He had been here many times before, but he hadn't been here for a long time.

The car passed by a small road, and the tall and straight buildings in front seemed to cast a huge shadow on the small buildings of this era.

Chen Ye was flustered, but he thought that it was just a meal, and when the car stopped later, he should be outside for less than 2 minutes, so he remained calm and quiet until he got off the car.

But it just so happened that the car stopped at the door of a hotel, and not long after Chen Ye stepped out, before the wind blew a few breaths, he was about to plunge into the store when suddenly there was a "snap", something hit him on the shoulder, At the same time, the woman's cry rushed towards him, "Why are you still alive!?..."

Chen Ye immediately stretched out his hand to support the old woman who was rushing towards him, "Auntie..."

Shen Yuzhou was also very shocked, and stepped forward to pull him away for him, "What is this for?"

The old woman beat and kicked Chen Ye with all her strength, she really wanted to fight to death, she cried bitterly, "You are a scourge, I used to want to treat you as a family member, you have caused my son miserably ..."

An old man grabbed a young man and beat him in the street. The scene was so chaotic. People on both sides of the street looked this way. Chen Ye was held tightly by the old woman. He restrained her hand and said to Shen Yuzhou: "You go first."

Shen Yuzhou said, "I'll call the police."

Being kicked on the knee by the old woman, Chen Ye took a painful breath, "Don't, you take my phone number, the password is my birthday plus zero, call Zhuo Xu, and tell him his mother is here."

Shen Yuzhou froze for a moment, looking at the old man with disheveled hair and exchanging tears, is this Zhuo Xu's mother?

Not long after the call was made, this top-notch loyal spare tire whom others had said was played by Chen Ye came. Before that, his mother had been crying and screaming to Chen Ye. There was only one thing in it. She used to She wanted to treat Chen Ye as a family member, but Chen Ye hurt her son badly.

Watching Zhuo Xu take away his mother, Chen Ye only made eye contact with him, while Shen Yuzhou watched from the side.

Chen Ye was hit in the neck by a bag of chicken tips and ducks. There was a large amount of oil stains on his shoulders. The whole street was full of onlookers. This meal was unbearable here.

Back in the car again, Shen Yuzhou didn't ask the reason of the incident, Zhuo Xu's mother obviously bumped into Chen Ye by chance, but she hit Chen Ye when she saw it, the reason...forget it.

And Chen Ye had no intention of explaining, no one would be in high spirits after this quarrel, he smiled at Shen Yuzhou, and said somewhat helplessly, "Take me home."

Shen Yuzhou hummed, and the car drove straight in the direction of Chen Ye's house, "What can I order to go back to eat?"

Chen Ye was not in the mood at first, and he didn't want to procrastinate on some things. Looking at the road on which the lights were just starting, he couldn't help answering Shen Yuzhou's irrelevant questions: "The girls in the CI project team are really poisonous. Seeing that I have dealt with you a few times, corrupt As soon as the female nerves broke out, we paired up privately, and I just happened to overhear it today."

Shen Yuzhou said, "Oh?"

Chen Ye smiled relievedly: "Isn't it? You can see this kind of thing in the past 800 years." His eyes passed to Shen Yuzhou, "Brother, we have to make things clear in the future, or Aunt Lu will have a misunderstanding too. .”

The implication: I was just with you in the past, and I never thought about being with you in the future.Anyway, Shen Yuzhou didn't tell her face to face, this is the most merciful way Chen Ye can think of to get rid of it.

He hoped that Shen Yuzhou would use the slope to get down the donkey, but suddenly the car turned to the right, and Chen Ye was shaken violently by a huge force. The car plunged into an open space beside the roadside green belt, waiting for him to sit It has stopped when it is stable.

There is a lake across the green space in front, and Shen Yuzhou looked at the surface of the lake that seemed to be painted with neon lights, "What do you mean?"

Chen Ye didn't expect him to be so lenient, she was in a mess at first, and now she doesn't want to speak.

Shen Yuzhou turned to him again, "You hate me?"

He didn't want to hide it anymore, "I hated it."

"You still hate it now." Shen Yuzhou was very stubborn.

Chen Ye met Shen Yuzhou's eyes, "It can't be said."

Shen Yuzhou looked at him dejectedly, "Chen Ye, why didn't you give us a chance? I was the one who was sorry for you back then, but now I'm here, and I can beat you and scold me, I want to make it up to you. "

Chen Ye was a little funny, he was so arrogant, why did he think that "Chen Ye and Shen Yuzhou reunited" could be regarded as compensation for him?

In the end, the more arrogant one was still behind, he didn't make a sound, Shen Yuzhou said again: "Last time it was Stanley who troubled you, this time it was Zhuo Xu's mother, who will it be next time? I'm waiting for you to take it out on me, You can come at me even if you want to use a knife, I am the one who made the mistake, how come the karma cycle is the business of the two of us, you would rather torment yourself and others with my mistakes, and just keep floating like this?"

Chen Ye was taken aback, "Trouble yourself and others with your mistakes? Am I floating?"

He heard Shen Yuzhou reply loudly: "Aren't you these years?"

Chen Ye was dumbfounded, no... what kind of character did Shen Yuzhou set up for him?It was just a lovelorn back then, and seven or eight years later, he was still immersed in the shadow of being let down by Shen Yuzhou and couldn't extricate himself from it, and since then he has been devastated, his body is like a drifting weed, and he is playing games in the world to take revenge on society until now?

He couldn't laugh or cry, he asked himself that he was a person who couldn't be more mundane and more realistic, he would wake up when his dream died, and find the next one when he lost his life, or seriously, where did Shen Yuzhou find him such a fresh and refined lover? set up?

Chen Ye really laughed at this moment, because she couldn't help it at all, "Brother, you have misunderstood me."

Shen Yuzhou didn't speak, his expression was stubborn and his eyes were burning.

Chen Ye looked at him determined to save the lost youth, and lost all thought of joking.

Slowly changed his posture, leaned back on the back of the chair, looked out the car window at the gray night sky reflected by various lights, and then glanced at Shen Yuzhou again, "Okay, let me tell you how I have lived these years of."

How did you get out?Some things are really indestructible.

Sensing Shen Yuzhou's eyes focused on him, Chen Ye closed his eyes, took a deep breath before speaking.

Confessing himself is not an easy task, but right now there is no room for him to be reserved, Chen Ye said bluntly: "In the beginning I really did what you said, using your mistakes to punish myself and torment others. I went to find you, you left me in the back of the car, I'm still awake, and in March I still want to go back and mess with you and Yu Xun'an."

He smiled at Shen Yuzhou, and said halfway, he really didn't feel so cramped.

"Do you know what I'm thinking? It's still too easy to lure you to a hotel to seduce you into bed. It's too easy to ruin a relationship. As long as you don't control yourself, a ticking time bomb will be planted between you and Yu Xun'an, even if you didn't break up at the time." , it won’t get better in the future.”

And as long as he was alone in the same room with him, there was a great possibility that Shen Yuzhou would not be able to control himself.This sounds like bullying, so Chen Ye skipped it.

Shen Yuzhou's voice sounded deep in the darkness, "Why didn't you come?"

But Chen Ye answered irrelevant questions again, looking blankly at the roof of the car, "When we just broke up, I was living a rough life, and in the dormitory of my class, I was in a state where I hated dogs."

How arrogant he was at that time, he was in a bad mood, whenever there was any noise in the dormitory that he didn't like, he would throw things in his hands, and he even got into fights for this.Cutting classes and staying out of nightclubs all night were commonplace at that time. Without Shen Yuzhou, other people were not important to him anymore.

Chen Ye felt that he was just like mud in the gutter, but he was quite calm. He felt that feelings were a fucking thing. When he heard the girls in his class discussing the bullying idol drama, he would sneer at him. Really, people hate it The four words "Gou Yan" didn't wrong him at that time. At first, the people around were just surprised by his changes, but later, they really sneered at him.

Sensitively noticing that Shen Yuzhou's breathing was obviously heavier, Chen Ye reached out and patted his hand to comfort him, saying that he really didn't want to make Shen Yuzhou feel uncomfortable.

But when Shen Yuzhou spoke again, his voice was still a little difficult, "What happened next?"

Chen Ye smiled, her eyes were still looking at the roof of the car, but it felt as if she could look up at the boundless sky above her head through the thin layer of iron, a sky without any haze at all.

He sighed, "But there was a fool who didn't dislike me, and persuaded me many times. In March, our class went to Anhui to sketch, and I actually bought the train ticket to come here. I scolded and left."

At that time, the big boy took his arm, "What are you doing there?" With a cigarette in his mouth, he smiled generously and said, "Don't you know what happened to me and that? I'll let him Be happy." In order for that person not to bother him anymore, he also said his sexual plan without shame.Thinking of this, the corners of Chen Ye's mouth couldn't help but curl up even more. This time the beginning wasn't good, but it was enough to make people remember.

The car was very quiet, Shen Yuzhou seemed to have been pressed the silencer button, but his jet-black pupils were glowing in the darkness.

Chen Ye didn't care about his reaction anymore, and continued: "But, the day before departure was March 28, that idiot, he didn't eat dinner, so he went to the town to buy a cake."

"Sketch, you have also been there. They eat in the lobby, and the whole class is there. He opened the cake in front of the whole class and said that it was my birthday. It is true that other students don't like me, but kindness is also true. Yes, no one is going to disrespect the birthday star... That idiot led them to tell me that they still like me."

That idiot lit 21 candles for Chen Ye, and the room was full of people. He took his straight boyfriend and a close female classmate and shouted awkwardly: "Chen Ye—I like you -"

At first, it was just the three of them, one by one, and then, like booing, each time there were more voices, and finally more than 30 children in the room yelled in unison.

Chen Ye, I like you, we all like you...

So don't give up on yourself.

Even though many people didn't understand what happened to him, the kindness of his classmates was invaluable. Chen Ye burst into tears at that time and couldn't make a sound.

At that time, he put himself on the edge of the cliff without hesitation, and wanted to fight Shen Yuzhou forever, but it was that fool whom he scolded many times who dragged him back with one hand.They were friends for several years and then became lovers...

Chen Ye put his eyes on the back of his hand, the car was silent, and Shen Yuzhou didn't speak for a long time.

I don't know how long it took, but I heard Shen Yuzhou say, "That person is..."

"It's Zhuo Xu," Chen Ye said.

He had walked out a long time ago, but Shen Yuzhou seemed to be delusional because of him.

Chen Ye lowered his arms and looked straight at the handsome face of the man beside him, "So I don't want to bother others and myself, brother, I don't know what you heard, I am serious about Zhuo Xu, I did reject him when I was with you , but then I was serious about loving him, and it was even more unavoidable to break up after that, we were all serious."

The author has something to say: the person who is accepted is the real reality, there is really nothing bloody about being let down in the past, and then love and hate have been intertwined and never forgotten.