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Xia Yi was a little lost.

He retreated to the chair and sat down blankly.

He thought of ten years ago, his father died, Uncle Jian died, his mother went crazy, when the house caught fire, thick smoke billowed, he didn't know what happened, he fled from the room, and then he saw his mother kneeling in the living room Li cried and laughed, he wanted to pull her, but his mother pushed him away, her face was pale, her eyes were empty, and the corners of her eyes were full of tears. Looking at him, it was like looking at a monster, and shouted hoarsely: "It's all You! If it wasn't for you, he wouldn't be forced to marry me! I wouldn't be a joke! It's all about you! You shouldn't have been born, you're the one who killed me!"

At that moment, the 15-year-old was hurt by his mother's words. He didn't know how to face it. His family was broken, his mother hated him, and his home was engulfed by smoke and fire. He couldn't escape even if he wanted to.

The crystal lamp fell and hit his left shoulder. Later, he passed out. He thought that he would definitely die in the sea of ​​fire.

Suffocation, pain, despair.

The fire is too bright, which magnifies people's fragility and vulnerability.In the haze, Xia Yi felt pain in his shoulder, as if bleeding a lot, his thoughts gradually lost, and in the end, he couldn't even feel the pain.

That's right, when he woke up, he was indeed lying on the hospital bed, and the first person he saw was Jian Zhe, but at that moment he was furious, his father's death and the fire at home were always on his mind He couldn't get rid of it, and he didn't even have time to calm down, so he blamed Jian Zhe for everything. His arm was injured and he didn't feel it at all, but he still beat and scolded Jian Zhe with all his strength. He said a lot , he himself didn't remember what he was talking about, and he didn't ask how Jian Zhe found him...

He only remembered now, what kind of eyes Jian Zhe used to look at him at that time.Like a child who has made a mistake, sad and helpless.In the past, Jian Zhe was always very gentle when looking at him, only that time, he felt that Jian Zhe was about to cry, but he didn't stop, and still told him to roll over and over again, making him completely disappear from his eyes.

Then, Jian Zhe really disappeared.

After that day, he never saw Jane Zhe in the hospital again. The Xia family villa burned down, and it was impossible for Jane Zhe to return to the villa. He disappeared from his world forever as if he had evaporated from the world.

"Actually, if he is honest, he might not bear so many unwarranted infamy."

Xiao Yi put down his cigarette, sighed and said, "However, even if you say some things, no one will believe them... Especially your own feelings, being able to bury them for so many years means that they are in his heart. It's a hopeless love."

"I didn't know he was injured trying to save me."

Xia Yi held the phone and raised his head, "His burns..."

"It's healed." Xiao Yi said, "He has been treated for a long time, and he has suffered a lot. Now there are probably only a few faint traces. He refused to be treated at first, but my father said that he is an actor and his body cannot Flaw, we sent him abroad and hired the best doctors to heal his burns."

Xia Yi smiled wryly, "I don't even know this."

Xiao Yi shook her head and said: "I guess he won't tell you. If I don't mention these things, you will probably never know. You just need to understand that he is sincere to you, and that's enough. In the past ten years, he has been suppressing so many things in his heart, which is why he has become what he is now. If a person keeps suppressing himself, he will really be crushed... I want to help him speak out, because I can see that, You have a deep affection for him, too."

Xia Yi clicked on the only video in his phone.

It was on Jane Zhe's birthday, and he recorded it specially for Jane Zhe with his newly bought flip phone.In the video, he is wearing a clean white shirt, smiling and waving at the camera, saying: "Brother Jian Zhe, are you surprised? This is my 17th birthday present to you. Happy birthday to you! Count it, It’s been almost ten years since you came to our house, how time flies! I still remember when I saw you when I was a child, I was a little afraid of you. Who knew that we got along so well later, you are just like my own brother, I I really like you, but these words are too nasty, I can’t say them in front of you... I’m so lucky, because of you and Uncle Jian, I get more love and happiness than ordinary people, I really hope we Can go on like this forever, Brother Jian Zhe, wait for me, I will be admitted to the same university as you, and then we can play together again, as for Heipi, we will take it away quietly, without letting my mother know , When we leave here, they won't be able to control us anymore, um, let's stop here first, I wish brother Jian Zhe a happy birthday again, be happy every day, don't forget that we are a family, and we will always be together forever. "

Xia Yi propped his forehead and breathed a little hurriedly.

It was he who said forever, it was him every time, but it was also him who personally pushed Jian Zhe into the abyss of eternal doom.

—Why didn't you tell me.Why don't you tell me anything.

He suddenly remembered, yes, it seemed that it was during that time when Jian Zhe learned to smoke. He felt that Jian Zhe's smoking was very attractive and attractive to him, so he depended on Jian Zhe to teach him how to smoke. He still remembered the distressed and helpless look Jian Zhe looked at him when he choked on his cigarettes— — Could it be that from that time on, Jian Zhe has already discovered something is wrong with this family and the secret of his father's cheating, but he can't tell it, he wants to protect his happiness and smile, he can only relieve his emotions by smoking, but Xia Yi didn't know anything about it.

Why is he no longer sensitive, why can't he be aware of Jian Zhe's thoughts earlier... If he had known earlier, then when the accident happened, he wouldn't have the feeling of being deceived or even betrayed by Jian Zhe, and he wouldn't be so kind to Jian Zhe In a fit of anger, he hurt him unscrupulously...

He doesn't understand.I really don't understand.

Why at that time, he would vent his anger on Jian Zhe like that.

It was getting dark outside the window.

The drizzle was falling, thick and dense.

Xiao Yi looked out the window, then looked at Xia Yi, and said, "Now that you understand his feelings, it's up to you what to do."

Xia Yi suddenly had the illusion that he couldn't breathe.

He knew Jian Zhe's feelings a long time ago, and he also responded to Jian Zhe's feelings, so what is the fire in his heart now?He thought that his feelings for Jian Zhe didn't really start until ten years later, that they had a deep understanding of each other on an equal footing, and the throbbing in the past was just throbbing... However, he seemed wrong up.

At this moment, he clearly knew that he loved Jian Zhe, not after ten years, not after getting to know him, but from the moment he saw him for the first time, every time he wanted to cling to him, every time It started every time she was sleeping next to Jian Zhe, and every time her heart beat because of his eyes.

Therefore, he couldn't stand Jian Zhe's concealment. When he misunderstood that his father was cheating on Uncle Jian, he subconsciously feared and flinched. He was afraid of that kind of feeling, so he hated seeing Jian Zhe, even though he knew in his heart that He was also a victim, but he just couldn't forgive him. He vented all his hatred and anger on Jian Zhe alone, because besides that, he couldn't find anyone to blame, but the subconscious He also believed that Jian Zhe would never leave him, so when he found out that Jian Zhe had really disappeared from his world, he felt that he was "betrayed" again, "left behind", and "left behind". Abandoned", so the name Jian Zhe became his taboo, and became a memory he didn't want to think about...

Damn it, how can he be so dull, he can't even understand his own heart, the pain of these ten years can obviously be avoided... He and Jian Zhe are independent lives, independent individuals, why should they Pay the price for the mistakes of the previous generation and repay the happiness. If it wasn't for Jian Zhe, he would probably have died in that fire a long time ago... Why do they have to live in such a shadow, obviously they cherish each other so much...

When Xia Yi was in a daze, the phone rang quickly.

He froze for a moment, then picked it up immediately.

"Hey, Yizi, where are you, it's bad, Heipi is gone!"

On the other side, Yu Yang said anxiously.

Xia Yi stood up abruptly: "What?"

"It's all my fault, it's all my fault." Yu Yang said angrily, "Hei Pi is fostered at my house, but I have been staying in the hospital for the past two days, Hei Pi probably missed you, so he escaped through the window... …I wonder if it went looking for you, it remembers your smell, you hurry up and look for it near your home, I will come to look for it in a while!"

Xia Yi hung up the phone and couldn't sit still for a moment.

He walked out of the room, Xiao Yi hurriedly stopped him: "Where are you going?"

Xia Yi turned around, "My cat ran away and got lost, I want to go home and look for it."

"I'll take you by car." Xiao Yi said, "This is the villa area, you can't get a taxi."

Xia Yi hurriedly said: "Then I will trouble you."

He must find Black Skin.

Heipi has lived for more than ten years, it is already old, its jumping and agility are not as good as before, if it goes out to wander... Xia Yi can't imagine.

His heart ached.

Xiao Yi was very fast. After the two got into the car, she immediately started the car. Xia Yi opened the window to let the cold wind and rain blow on his face. He wanted to calm himself down and wake him up.

This may be the longest 10 minutes in his life... Heipi's figure kept shaking in front of his eyes... When Jian Zhe rescued it from the dog's mouth, it was still a slap-sized kitten, They watched it recover, watched it eat, watched it become rounder and more lively, they kept it in the garden, and teased it whenever there was nothing to do, and Heipi also regarded it as his home ... He once thought that Hei Pi died in the fire, but he was picked up by Yu Yang who was stubborn and rescued... It is such a strong cat, carrying all the happy and beautiful memories of him, He wanted to throw it away because he hated Jian Zhe, but when he turned around, he regretted it... He looked for it everywhere, but fortunately, Heipi didn't go far, and was still meowing waiting for his master. Yi knew that he would never leave Hei Pi again in this life. Hei Pi lost his life twice in order to meet him. He wanted to live a good life with Hei Pi. If Hei Pi disappeared, his heart would also be empty. ...