HP Paranoia and Antisocial

The dream was chaotic, and Severus felt that his life was split into two parts. One part was that he grew up in Spider's End, experienced the war, and then died in despair at the age of 38; It was he who was taken away by Wardmont, and then grew up pampered.

The snake-faced Voldemort has no reason and is completely swallowed by darkness. He is a murderous and cruel racist who almost destroyed the entire British wizarding world; His appearance has won the love of most people in the wizarding world...

The two memories were intertwined in Severus's mind, making it almost impossible for him to tell what was real and what was false.

Lily was killed by Voldemort, and in order to protect Lily's orphan, he became a double agent, working between the Order of the Phoenix and the Death Eaters.He tortures himself, refuses to treat himself better, and suffers in the hell of daylight every day.Perhaps in the end Voldemort let the snake bite him to death, which can be regarded as a relief for him.

Severus opened his eyes with difficulty, feeling the weight of his hands, and at a glance, it was Waldmont who was holding his hands against the edge of the bed and fell asleep.

The person in front of me is Waldmont, the unique Waldmont. He is not the same as the crazy Voldemort, but what is he?

The two lives that belonged to Severus were intertwined before his eyes, causing him more and more pain, as if something was about to be torn from him.

Full of entanglements, Severus felt that he didn't want to see Waldmont for the time being, and he needed to reorganize his mood.

Reaching for his wand, Severus Apparated away from the Wardmont estate.

When he landed, Severus saw the environment in front of him clearly and laughed at himself: he never thought he would Apparate to Spider's End.

Now almost everything about him bears the mark of Wardmont, but only Spider's End Alley does not.

Of course not, Irene had already divorced Tobia Snape with their encouragement, and only Tobia Snape lived in the house in Spider's End.

In any memory, Tobias Snape was not a good father.The house in Spinner's End was nothing more than a part of his self-torture.

Walking to No. 19 unknowingly, he saw the same house as he remembered, but Severus didn't go any further.

It no longer belonged to him either.

Just as Severus was standing at the door of No. 19, the door was suddenly opened, and Irene came out haggardly.

Severus was surprised to confirm several times before he was convinced that Irene in front of him was not his hallucination, but real.

"Severus, why are you here?" Irene's eyes fell on Severus' pajamas, and then fixed on the gauze around Severus' neck, "Severus, are you resting today? "

"Mam…" Severus murmured.

Noticing the confusion and bewilderment in Severus' eyes, Irene took the initiative to greet her and said calmly, "Tobia is dead. This house... should be inherited by you." A few days ago, the police found her and told her Said Tobia had been dead for many days.It wasn't until the stench leaked from the house that neighbors noticed it and called the police.

She came over to tidy up when she was free these two days, and she had to let Severus come to see it, so it wouldn't be so bad.

"I wanted to tell you after I packed it up, but I didn't expect you to..."

Erin knew that Severus hated Tobias Snape, so she really didn't expect Severus to come here by himself.

Severus shook his head, he grabbed Irene's arm and pulled out a smile: "Thank you for your hard work, Mam."

"I didn't have any hard work, Severus, but you, what's wrong with your neck? And your voice, why is it so hoarse?" Irene looked at Severus worriedly, wanting to check Severus one time.

"I'm fine." Severus reassured Irene, "There was a little accident during the experiment. It was cured."

"Why is it still wrapped in gauze after it's cured? What happened?" Irene would not be easily dismissed by Severus.

"I'm fine, Mam, I'm just a little tired." The two memories brought a heavy burden to Severus, making him wonder what kind of existence he was, maybe that memory was too heavy, making him temporarily Can't accept it.

Because he killed Lily, he also killed Dumbledore with his own hands, and before he knew it, the Princes died in depression... and because of him, Voldemort finally went to perish.

He wanted to save many people, but many people died because of him.He wanted to use the potion to bring honor, but turned the potion into a tool for killing...

"You work too hard, Severus, take a good rest." Irene hugged Severus distressedly.

It was like a dream, Severus, who was still affected by that memory, was hugged by his long-dead mother, her tenderness and warmth were so real that Severus couldn't help crying.

"Thank you, Mom."

Irene stroked her son's hair softly, although she didn't know what happened, all she could do at the moment was hug Severus and encourage him.

"Severus has done well. You are my pride."

"I did a lot of things wrong..." Even because of his mistakes, so many people died.

"Severus, you have worked very hard. The mistakes that have happened, you can make up for them as much as you can, and if you can't make up, let them go. As you once told me, the most important thing for us is to have The future." Irene felt Severus' pain and his tears, which made Irene a little distressed about how to comfort her.

To be honest, such a role of guide and comforter has never been played by Irene.

"No matter what you do or miss, we love you unconditionally."

Irene also didn't believe that Severus would make any unforgivable mistakes.

Hearing Irene's words, Severus felt much more at ease.

Maybe he should look at this memory separately. Although they are so real, it is like his previous life, but those tragedies have not happened today.

Wardmont wasn't that madman, Lily wasn't dead, and he didn't kill Dumbledore...

But the despair in that experience still deeply affected him.Too clear memory made Severus easily influenced by these memories.And if he uses Occlumency to block it, he needs to do it all the time, and it doesn't help.

"I think, I need psychological counseling." Severus said calmly.

……

The moment Severus Apparated away, Wardmont was jolted awake.

Looking at the empty bed, Wardmont did not hesitate to trace back the location where Severus Apparated, but unfortunately, he failed to catch the coordinates.He Apparated to many places where Severus might go, but he couldn't find Severus. He was worried about Severus' current physical condition, and also worried about Severus' current mental state.

What if something happened to Severus outside?

Wardmont found Irene's house in the Muggle community, but he couldn't find Severus either.

Where the hell did he go?