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During the New Year's Eve in 2013 and the next six months or so, Xu Tian and Zhang Yue were equally affectionate in everyone's eyes, and Xu Tian has been indulging in Zhang Yue's tenderness for a long time.

Until one day during the summer vacation in 2013.

There is still more than a week left for school to start. One night, Xu Tian received a text message from Zhang Yue,

"Break up, I'm too tired and don't want to continue."

Xu Tian was very surprised, he had thousands of words in his heart, but he only said one sentence,

"do you still love me?"

"I don't love you anymore, I don't love you anymore."

Xu Tian's two lines of tears flowed out, her mind went blank, she didn't understand, she wanted to ask, but she didn't know what to ask, she wanted to argue, but she didn't know what to argue about.Turning back and turning off the phone, tears kept flowing, but his chest suddenly ached.

——"I never understood what heartache is," Xu Tian laughed at himself, "I've always been a heartless big boy, I thought I could bear everything." Xu Tian looked out the window, " She taught me what love is and what heartache is."

Xu Tian didn't close his eyes all night, didn't turn on the phone, didn't speak, just looked at the ceiling like that, she really didn't understand what happened.But her hands and feet felt extremely weak, as if only her eyes and brain were full of energy, one looked at the ceiling, blinking occasionally, and the other kept working, showing every moment with Zhang Yue.

She was determined to see her, and later it became almost a set pattern. Zhang Yue said that he would not see her after breaking up, but Xu Tian insisted that she tell her face to face.

It took Xu Tian a whole day to lie to his parents and buy tickets to Zhang Yue's house. Two of Xu Tian's good friends heard about it and met Xu Tian for only a few minutes, just worried she.

When Xu Tian was sitting on the bus, he called Zhang Shuo.Zhang Yue's mother has always wanted two aquatic potted plants, and Xu Tian wanted to bring them to her mother, which was also a stepping stone.Zhang Shuo didn't say anything after hearing this, and ran to buy it, and sent it to the station. The two of them ran up and down, and they could be regarded as sending Xu Tian to catch the train to Zhang Yue's house.

Xu Tian was alone, sitting quietly on the train that often accompanied Zhang Yue, but suddenly remembered the scene a year ago...

It was the summer of 2012. Xu Tian and some friends followed the instructor to participate in social practice activities. Because it was summer vacation, Xu Tian said that he wanted to meet Zhang Yue and stay overnight before returning to Harbin.Such a peculiar itinerary is only because Xu Tian is afraid of the dark and timid, and she is afraid of no one else's dormitory, let alone sleeping with Zhang Yue all the time, how much she misses her.

Zhang Yue was very happy. He helped her calculate the time and bought the ticket early. The time was very rushed that day, but Xu Tian tried his best to catch up. He was at the last step of getting on the bus, but because he bought a student ticket, he couldn’t get it out. Xu Tian watched the train drive away.

Zhang Yue blamed himself and was also worried about Xu Tian. Xu Tian said it was okay, and walked along the road to the train station for more than an hour, listening to the song. When he couldn't walk anymore, he took a taxi back to school.Because I was afraid, I turned on the light and smoked a cigarette, and only slept for a while in the early morning.

This was a trivial matter, but Xu Tian didn't expect that she would see Zhang Yue half an hour before the big passenger drove home.

At that moment, she was so happy that she almost flew up, her heart and chest were full of great joy.Zhang Yue ran over quickly, and the two embraced tightly, as if nothing could separate them.

Zhang Yue said that she had been worried all the time, and she couldn't rest assured. She said that she bought the earliest ticket for the class reunion and returned to Harbin.

——Two stubborn people, just to look at each other, are not afraid of anything, and can reach no matter how far.

Xu Tian's thoughts returned to the train, looking at the familiar roadside scenery, his eyes became wet again.

It was already night when we took a taxi downstairs to Zhang Yue's house. Xu Tian was carrying a bag and two potted plants, and discussed with Meng Yao on the phone over and over again how to speak. Meng Yao told Xu Tian, ​​don't worry, Zhang Yue must be No matter what happens, it can be recovered.

Xu Tian's uneasy heart finally let go a little, stumbling all the way to find Zhang Yue downstairs, she faintly saw someone beside Zhang Yue.

Xu Tian called Zhang Yue, didn't say that he had arrived, but said that he couldn't find it in the community, and vaguely heard a boy's voice next to him, "Just tell her it's in the north! Can't you tell the difference between the south, the east, and the north? It took me so long to find it! "

Xu Tian said: "I left two pots of flowers here with the guard. Come and pick them up. This is the building next to your house. I won't go there. Goodbye."

Xu Tian is not afraid of indifference, but this is the first time for her to face this situation. Her girlfriend said to break up, and she came to ask for an explanation, but she brought Fa Xiao who came back from abroad and waited downstairs with cynicism.

Xu Tian called Meng Yao, almost hysterical, "Why! Must it be like this!"

That night, Xu Tian didn't remember how he went upstairs with Zhang Yue, how he entered her house, how he pretended nothing happened and gave Zhang Yue's mother two pots of flowers, how he ate a little food, and how he went to bed. time.

Xu Tian still shared the room with Zhang Yue as usual, and they slept together since the first time they went to Zhang Yue's house.

Zhang Yue turned his back and said to go to bed early.

Xu Tian hummed, not knowing what to say, so he remained silent.

Zhang Yue fell asleep quickly. After being together for so long, she pretended not to sleep in front of Xu Tian.

Xu Tian was still in a daze, looking at the ceiling and her around him, he could think about a lot more things in his mind.

Another sleepless night.