Girlfriend addicted to unrequited love (gl)

My mood sucks, it's hopelessly bad.

"Lu Man, I think you can change your target to pine wood."

The class tutor sat at the desk, speaking earnestly.

And I looked at the report card on the table, my mind was buzzing and I couldn't think.

In fact, when the report card of the fourth and last mock exam was sent out, and when the class tutor called me into the office at the moment of morning self-study, I had a vague premonition, but when I really heard the tutor's words This is another feeling.

Pinewood University is a school with good scores, but it's just not bad. Compared with Jinshan, there is still an incomparable gap.

I knew that the instructor meant that I should give up.

I also know that it is a fantasy that my current score is going to Jinshan.

but.

"Your goal is very high, which is very good. However, for mathematics and Chinese, it is really difficult to get into these two departments. We can put Jinshan on the fantasy department, and then use pine as the main goal."

Seeing that I didn't speak, the instructor seemed to be worried that I was thinking too much, so he continued.

"I'm not saying you're bad, just giving you a suggestion. It's up to you to decide what you want to do."

The instructor's comforting words did not make me feel better. I left the instructor's office and stepped on the corridor, which was much heavier than before I entered. It seemed that I had already expected the fact that I was under heavy pressure. my body.

In fact, it's not that I didn't think about giving up.

But whenever I think of the word 'give up', I think of every night I struggled to improve my grades.

However, while I don't want to give up, I can't find the direction to continue working hard.

If someone can strengthen my determination and tell me that my persistence is right, that would be great.

"Well, let me say, are you a little...too persistent?

"What's the meaning?"

Hearing Su Xiangkai's words, I stopped sensitively.

This Saturday is a rare day for me and Su Xiangkai to go out on a date in the past few months.

However, his words made my tense emotions stand up sharply.

"What's the meaning?"

Seeing that he didn't speak, I asked again. I must admit that my tone was not very good.

Su Xiangkai also seemed quite nervous: "I'm not saying you're bad, I mean, it's okay even if it's not near the mountains? Besides, there are still good schools---"

"I see. Don't mention this today, okay?"

I tried to smile, and for the first time felt that moving the muscles of my face was such a laborious thing.

His tone was exactly the same as that of his mentor.

Maybe it’s because it’s been a rare sunny weekend in the past few weeks. Even though the weather is getting late, there are still countless figures walking around the pier, or holding lover’s hands, or hugging young children, or holding small windmills , many people, but not noisy.

Before the fourth mock exam, it was just a cool wind, but now it has become bitingly cold.

I close my eyes and feel the wind.

December is almost over.

Feeling the warmth from my right hand, I opened my eyes and looked at Su Xiangkai.

His eyes are very clear, the wind blows his bangs fluttering slightly, and his hands, a little rough, are warm.

"Did anything interesting happen at school? I haven't seen you in the flag team for a long time. Would you like to say hello to the president first and say that you have to prepare for the exam recently and want to suspend activities."

As I had hoped, he changed the subject.

"Interesting thing? Hmm..."

I tried my best to search my memory, but found that there were mountains and piles of stories I wanted to share with him before, but now, I was passed the exam so easily.

Classes, review, mock exams, report cards... When did it start?My life just revolves around these.

Should something change?

But just thinking about it, the report card on the tutor's desk is like a sharp thorn, piercing my chest and deeply piercing my heart.

While thinking about change, I also know that at this moment, I have no room for choice.

"...Do you remember that Chen An who was in our class in the first year of high school? It was the girl who was in the cram school with me. She accidentally forgot to bring her homework in the cram school yesterday. I forgot at home everything I didn’t miss from social science.”

I forcefully threw out a not-so-interesting thing, and Su Xiangkai smiled cooperatingly: "Haha, why is there such a forgetful person, next time you should send a message to remind her."

"Uh-huh."

Another moment of silence.

Then I remembered something: "By the way, about the flag team..."

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"I don't plan to continue. I really... have nothing to do with exams, cram schools and clubs."

I joined the flag team at the beginning, probably because of the enthusiasm of a girl who just entered high school. I met Su Xiangkai there and fell in love with him. I am not as good at playing as he is, but I have been enthusiastic about it for a long time.

How many memories do we have in the club classroom after practice?

Su Xiangkai's expression obviously knew that I would say that, but he still couldn't hide his loneliness: "Really don't think about it anymore?"

I shook my head, expressing my determination.

"I see, when the time comes, we will go and tell the president together."

"Together?"

I have doubts about this term.

"Since you choose to quit the club, I am willing to accompany you. When the time comes, let's go to evening self-study together."

"You want to quit too? But don't you like the flag team very much? There's no need for me—"

"It's okay, in my heart, you are more important than anything else, just for you, it's all worth it."

Looking at Su Xiangkai's firm eyes, I could only lower my head and mutter words like "thank you" in response.

All for me.