Girlfriend addicted to unrequited love (gl)

"I like you, Jiang Yujie. I have always liked you who are so gentle. Since junior high school, I have never changed."

It's not very novel, and it can even be said to be a bit old-fashioned, but even Jiang Yujie can feel that it is full of emotions that are almost overflowing.

This is the first time she has received a confession after Wu Lianglun's incident.

She couldn't help but panic.

does she love himShe has no way to answer this question, she doesn't know what love is like, love, friendship, family affection, admiration, she can't distinguish the difference.

Zhuang Yuqun is a very gentle person, she likes to listen to him talk, like to be with him every day, like to hear his hearty laughter... Recalling all the things she has experienced with him, she wants to find traces of love.

I---

Hearing Zhuang Yuqun's rapid and violent heartbeat, Jiang Yujie closed her eyes and responded to his hug.

"I think, I like you too."

Because Zhuang Yuqun is the person who has been with her the longest, she wants to respond to his expectations, and also wants to experience what "love" is from him, so she chooses to agree to his confession.

Deep down in her heart, she comforted herself in this way.

I spent summer and autumn in hesitation, and winter came.

It is said that Taiwan is dry in summer and dry in winter, but this sentence is actually limited to the south. The north, especially Keelung, basically has rain all year round, and Taipei is no exception. Just like now, there is a thin drizzle of rain falling outside.

As usual, she and Zhuang Yuqun went to the train station to catch a ride home.

"New Year's Eve is coming soon. Do we want to spend New Year's Eve together this year? We have been dating for seven months before we know it." Zhuang Yuqun took off the scarf that was originally wrapped around himself, and put it around Jiang Yujie's neck , carefully fasten it for her.

That's right, it's been seven months, and Jiang Yujie's eyes are blank.

During this period, she wondered more than once in her heart whether her decision to agree to his confession was correct. It is true that getting along with Zhuang Yuqun is very happy, but this happiness is no different from the happiness when getting along with other friends.

She turned her head to look at Zhuang Yuqun, and Zhuang Yuqun asked nervously, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, let's celebrate the New Year together. Anyway, my brother is going out with friends that day, and no one is at my house. Remember to tell your grandmother over there." Jiang Yujie smiled slightly, and stretched out her hand to help him pull the jacket He put on the chain, and helped him turn up the collar, "If you don't dress properly, you will catch a cold."

Zhuang Yuqun blushed because of her actions, and Jiang Yujie lowered her head. When they first started dating, she asked him a question on the train: "Yuqun, how did you know you like me?"

"Your question is too cute." Zhuang Yuqun replied shyly, "Thumping, nervous, shy, caring, longing, these emotions add up to form love, and usually when I realize it, I can't extricate myself. "

However, after seven months of getting along, whether it was holding hands with him, sharing an umbrella, hugging, dating or even kissing, she didn't feel anything at all. Is it really right to procrastinate like this?Do you want to simply---

"Then, I'll leave and hold on a little longer. It will be easy when I get admitted to the university. I believe we will definitely enter the same university."

At the alley, Zhuang Yuqun said goodbye to her, at this moment Jiang Yujie mustered up her courage: "Yuqun, I have something to think---"

She couldn't continue, because Zhuang Yuqun kissed her at this moment, Jiang Yujie didn't close her eyes from touching her lips to parting, Zhuang Yuqun's eyes were full of strong emotion.

"I, I'm going, goodbye." Zhuang Yuqun said goodbye nervously, turned around and ran away, Jiang Yujie stared blankly at his back, and didn't make any movement for a long time.

"Sister?"

She turned around quickly, Jiang Shizhe was standing behind her with a schoolbag on his back, holding a bottle of ice cream soda in his hand, Jiang Yujie was a little flustered, when did he stand here?He shouldn't have seen the kiss between himself and Zhuang Yuqun, right?

Fortunately, Jiang Shizhe didn't mention what happened just now along the way. It seemed that he didn't see anything and Jiang Yujie secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

Is her liking for Zhuang Yuqun really love?

In one physical education class, because she was a student on duty, the physical education teacher gave her the key and asked her to go to the physical equipment room to get the equipment for measuring physical fitness. She searched the basement for a long time, but couldn't find it. Unfortunately, the management teacher was not there.

"Teacher, I want to find --- Huh?"

Footsteps came from the door, and Jiang Yujie raised her head happily, but the person who came was not the management teacher, but a beautiful girl with waist-length dark brown long curly hair.

"What are you looking for? Let me help you." The girl smiled sweetly, and she was still holding a bunch of badminton rackets. "The equipment room has just been relocated to this classroom, so the classification is still very messy." , things shouldn’t be easy to find.”

"Thank you, I was looking for the instrument for measuring forward bend in sitting posture."

The girl moved quickly, and found it in a short while.

"Thank you, that...you can let go."

Jiang Yujie reached out to take the equipment from her, but the girl refused to let go: "The thing that makes you frown is the relationship?"

Jiang Yujie frowned. This was the first time in her memory that she had talked with the girl in front of her, so it was endless and she didn't understand what the other party was talking about.

The girl seemed to notice it too, so she smiled and said, "You probably don't know, and you probably don't remember my existence, but I've been watching you silently, your every move, the relationship between you and 'him'." I can also see the interaction, so let me just say it, your feeling for 'him' is not love, even I, as a bystander, can see it."

"You're talking about—"

Jiang Yujie spoke angrily. How could she be in a good mood when she was commented by a girl who came out of nowhere for no reason?

But the girl didn't seem to notice her emotion, ignored her interruption and continued talking.

"Do you want to continue to deceive? Are you trying to deceive him, or yourself?"

"I……"

In addition to being angry, Jiang Yujie couldn't refute, she could only watch the girl speechless and turned and left the equipment room.

Even though she didn't want to admit it, she knew in her heart that although she couldn't figure out who the girl was and why she wanted to observe herself, what the girl said was right.

She has been lying to herself.

She just pretended not to understand her feelings for Zhuang Yuqun.

In fact, she already knew the answer.

On the other side, after the girl left the equipment room, she met a tall boy in sportswear. When he saw the girl, he asked:

"Hey, Liu Qiuci, why did it take you so long to return the equipment? The teacher was worried that something might happen to you, so he asked me to come and see."

Liu Qiuci raised the corners of her lips: "It's okay, I just met a girl who is a bit interesting, let's go."

After school that day, at the alley, Jiang Yujie confessed to Zhuang Yuqun.

From the very beginning, she shouldn't have agreed to Zhuang Yuqun's confession, but instead caused mutual harm, so she had to end all this with her own hands.

She will never forget the expression on Zhuang Yuqun's face at that time. The first sentence he spoke was not asking her why she lied to herself, but:

"I have known for a long time that you have no love for me, but I would rather keep pretending not to know, because in my heart, I have always been looking forward to the day when I can step into your heart. Work hard, always have, but—"

He was crying, and Jiang Yujie wanted to comfort him, but she didn't know what to say.

Wasn't he the one who caused him to suffer such pain?

"Yu Jie, I really love you very much. I always hope that there is something special in your tenderness to me, but later, after dating you, I realized that I am different from other people. It's no different in your eyes."

Zhuang Yuqun wanted to force a smile, but unfortunately failed: "As you said, let's go here, let's break up, but at the end, I want to know, have you ever been tempted by me?"

Staring into his sincere eyes, Jiang Yujie couldn't lie, and all the words came out of her mouth became only one sentence: "I'm sorry."

On that day, they ended their seven-month relationship and their six-year friendship. Many things cannot go back to the past, just like crumpled paper will leave traces even if it is smoothed again. They could not be together After New Year's Eve, she couldn't continue to be friends. After graduation, Jiang Yujie was admitted to Jinshan as she wished, and Zhuang Yuqun...she didn't even know where he went.

This experience taught her one thing, don't accept other people's kindness easily, because the self who can't give back any emotion to the other party will only make the other party suffer.

However, this kind of determination was shaken again because of the sister's sentence "I don't need you to like me, as long as I love you all the time".

Not only that, she even broke her insistence because of this, agreed to Yan Ziqiao's confession, and also made a promise that she would never fall in love with him.

Maybe it's because she doesn't know how to give love, but she still longs to be loved, or maybe it's just because she is also lonely.

"...Hey sister, are you listening?"

Back to the present again, Jiang Shizhe moved his face to less than five centimeters from the tip of her nose, and she sighed.

"Yes, yes, I am listening. I admit that I did have a boyfriend in high school, but we have broken up."

"Huh? Broke up?" Jiang Shizhe didn't realize that his information had been out of date for hundreds of years, and he was still a little dazed.

What they said later, Jiang Yujie didn't listen carefully. She only got up to pack her backpack as soon as seven o'clock arrived, and told her brother not to tell Jiang Hongyuan about her boyfriend before she said goodbye to him.

Back near the school, it was still early. Standing on the sidewalk, she took out her mobile phone, but there were no missed calls. It seems that the school sister didn't call her today.

Even though this place is not far from Yan Ziqiao's home, she couldn't find any reason to visit him.

Frustrated, she put away her mobile phone and glanced casually at the window of a nearby store, where a Russian doll displayed caught her attention.

She pushed open the glass door and entered the craft shop, because the first time she saw the doll, it reminded her of the stamp she saw in her senior sister's wallet. The stamp painted on it was a green Russian doll.

At that time, the school sister once said that she liked the dolls on the stamps very much. Unfortunately, because of the limited edition, she has not been able to fulfill her childhood wish. Jiang Yujie still remembers what she said, but when she leaned over to look carefully , only to realize that this is not the one Yan Ziqiao wanted, but a product somewhat similar to it.

She left the craft shop in disappointment and walked to the zebra crossing. At this time, she saw two girls passing by on the other side of the road. They were Yan Ziqiao and Huang Shanmei. They were holding the same umbrella and chatting happily. Didn't notice her presence.

Even across the road, she could still clearly see the bright smile on Yan Ziqiao's face. At the beginning, the senior sister was so disgusted and afraid of people who liked her, but now she can talk to Huang Shanmei normally. Laughed.

Jiang Yujie stood alone on this side of the zebra crossing. When the light turned green, she didn't take a step.

Different from always relying on himself in the past, now Yan Ziqiao is gradually able to get rid of the pain of unrequited love, and can try not to hate people who have a crush on him.

A sense of loneliness emerged, and Yan Ziqiao's figure had disappeared into the crowd.

She seemed to understand, she finally understood, the slightly warm cheeks, the rapid breathing, the feeling of the heart beating violently against the chest.

Even Jiang Yujie herself couldn't deceive herself anymore.

Love had already come to her silently, but this time, she never had the chance to say it out loud.