bedside calendar

It was a very quiet night. Lin Feng and Han Han made full use of the new era calling method without charging phone charges, and talked a lot about the past.

Lin Feng said that he was actually quite happy before meeting the foodie Jia Zhipeng. Han Han smiled and said understandingly, at that time he must have been heartless and happy, and Lin Feng was right.

Lin Feng said that getting to know Jia Zhipeng was not so exciting, nor did it fall in love at first sight. It was just an ordinary acquaintance. It was easy to see, comfortable to do things, and good to get along with each other... Slowly, the feeling is getting better and better. , without any shyness, talked about friends so frankly, and then moved to live together.Later, when I found out that Jia Zhipeng had a wife, the two had a big fight, just like every time the two had conflicts, Jia Zhipeng would silently bear all his bad temper when he went crazy, and he was so unreasonable Forgive me until Jia Zhipeng was forced to cry.Lin Feng clearly remembered that day, when Jia Zhipeng held him, tears fell one by one, Lin Feng's heart felt dull pain, and the tears hit Lin Feng's heart with a strong corrosive effect, burning alive It hurts, it feels like rolling in a frying pan.At that time, it didn't matter if it was "San'er" or not, who would care about those useless ones?Lin Feng was also very uncomfortable that day, listening to Jia Zhipeng tearfully talking about his marriage and his life, until he found out that he was gay, so Lin Feng just accepted it, accepted that incomplete person, and continued the imperfect life. emotion.

Han Han said, it’s okay, at least you are in love with each other, there is no cheating or promiscuity, this is worthy of the sincerity and true love of the two of you.

Speaking of true love, Lin Feng thought of the netizen he met that day, so he talked to Han Han about meeting the scorching sun, how he wanted to start again, how he was determined to meet a netizen who pursued him, how he ran away because of a kiss, and returned home by himself That slap in the face and crying... On the one hand, I clearly wanted to hold on to something, but on the other hand, I was extremely lonely.Suffering and despising myself, I feel that I am sorry for my true feelings and sincerity.

Han Han said, I can understand, and sighed and cried together with Lin Feng.Han Han also talked about his past. Han Han turned out to be a "three generations of officials". His grandfather was the deputy director of the former Water Conservancy Department of a certain province. Geological survey of water regime, when he graduated in 35, he was already participating in major water conservancy projects across the country.Just after the founding of the country, there is a shortage of all kinds of talents, let alone professional talents who have graduated from universities. The promotion can be said to be so fast that people can't imagine it. At the age of 19, I have already reached the position of deputy director of the Provincial Water Resources Department, and I am already exercising the post of director. , that was waiting for the chief of the department who was a soldier to retire to the second line, but he also offended many people because he was too young. One day, many people broke into his office and took away all his drawings and documents. During the so-called period of corruption, he was arrested for no apparent reason. The once young and proud intellectuals did not know how much they suffered, and when they came out, they were already plagued by various diseases. The restoration of party membership not only failed He was happy, but as if he suddenly thought of something, he would never allow anyone from the Liu family to join the party.When the college entrance examination was resumed, my father was admitted to university, but he couldn’t leave his wife and newborn child who shared weal and woe no matter what. My mother came from an ordinary worker’s family, but she was the only woman who dared to marry a father who was too high-ranking in that era.In this way, Han Han is a child in an ordinary dual-career family. In the spring when he was 20, Han Han met a man who was only three years older than him but rich in experience. In that autumn, his grandfather became seriously ill. Only then did I know the infinite scenery of my grandfather back then and all the unsatisfactory things later. The things my grandfather told Han Han every day made him feel that he was sorry for many people because he didn’t study hard. The favorite Han Han began to reprimand himself constantly, and at that time, many old superiors and subordinates ran out of nowhere every day to visit grandpa in the hospital, which made Han Han difficult to cope with.And the person I only met in spring reminded Han Han of many things, such as dealing with people, presents, and reciprocity. He was always there for Han Han if there was anything to do here... The next summer, my grandfather passed away, and the family was very busy. It was a mess, and at this moment that person disappeared, Han Han's heart was blocked by a big stone, but there was nowhere to vent it, until half a year later that person reappeared, Han Han told all the things that happened and himself. The hurdle in his heart, the man comforted and persuaded him, until Han Han burst into tears in his arms. The [-]-year-old Han Han found himself in love, falling in love with someone of the same sex.

Han Han said, can you believe it, I love him very much but I don’t understand what can happen between the same sex, we kissed, only kissed, and then he left and never came back.

Lin Feng said, I believe it.Lin Feng also said that he was avoiding it obviously, he fell in love with you too, but he couldn't face it.

Han Han said that he later met a medical student who was one year younger than Han Han. What's more, he knows that waiting is hopeless, and that person just escaped from his life.Later, the prospective doctor graduated and was assigned back to Jilin. Han Han knew that he had a girlfriend, that he was fighting with his girlfriend, that he was married, and that he had a child. Han Han looked at him like an ordinary friend and blessed him. Guilt doesn't hurt at all.

Han Han felt tired and wanted to find someone to stabilize, so he met a netizen who was an armed police officer.Han Han laughed in his voice, you don’t know how stupid I was at that time, I thought I was in a relationship with that officer’s friend, but he thought I was a ****, Han Han gave all his emotions for three months to get sex, all Only sex, Han Han said that he remembered that the officer's bed would make noise when he was making it, which made Han Han very embarrassed. Dropped books and papers on the desk.That officer tried every means to get Han Han to bed since the second time he saw Han Han. Han Han didn't know anything about the rank of soldiers, he only knew that he was very handsome. Now Han Han even remembered to go to him on Sunday, It was done in the officer's dormitory in broad daylight, and Han Han could see the playground and the olive green camouflage outside the window while lying on his desk.When Han Han found out that everything was just about the bed, he turned and left without any regrets.This time it didn't hurt, because when he saw it clearly, he knew that the other party had never loved him at all, so why bother to have a relationship with someone who used his body to vent his desire?

Han Han said that I got to know Haitao only after that, and I found someone who I was serious about him, and he was serious about me.Han Han said that the officer was the scum I met, so why am I not the scum of the prospective doctor?

Lin Feng said, brother, you are a good person, you are not a scum, Han Han said thank you.

Han Han said, if you really want to find someone again, then look for it, it will be good if you find it, don’t go to 419 for temporary loneliness, don’t take it for granted, you can just be with someone who likes you but you don’t, anything is fine Owe, if the situation is not good, you will feel that you owe that person your whole life.

Lin Feng said, I know, I don't know much about the scorching sun, I just want to look around... I don't know too well.

... That night, the two chatted until dawn, confiding and comforting each other.

Then one day Lin Feng invited Jiao Yang to his small hardware store, and the two of them drank water and chatted in the leisure time in the afternoon. Eating spicy potato chips and fruit yogurt, Lin Feng just wanted to deny it but found that all he bought were Jia Zhipeng's favorite snacks.

Lin Feng remembered Jia Zhipeng sitting in this small shop so stupidly when he had nothing to do at the beginning. At first, Lin Feng chatted with him all over the world, and then he got an old notebook, and started playing with that broken notebook computer.Too familiar, Jia Zhipeng will not intentionally chat with Lin Feng when he comes again, and Jia Zhipeng will not say anything if Lin Feng doesn't talk to him.When Lin Feng thought of it, he looked up at Jia Zhipeng, but he could always see Jia Zhipeng looking at him, and when he met his gaze, he would avoid it embarrassingly.He obviously has nothing to do, so he doesn't leave, and even comes when he has time, and just sits when he comes.Later, when the two talked about what to eat, Jia Zhipeng was very happy, saying where is the most authentic food, and how to make it delicious, Lin Feng teased him, you said I was greedy Yes, do you really know how to cook? Jia Zhipeng said yes, Lin Feng gave him the key and asked Jia Zhipeng to go to his house to cook.

Lin Feng asked Jiaoyang to have dinner together again. He stared at the pair of chopstick rests on the dining table for a long time. When he left the restaurant, Jiaoyang stuffed something into Lin Feng's trouser pocket. When Lin Feng touched it, he couldn't help laughing. It was the duck in the restaurant. shaped chopstick rest.Lin Feng thought it was fun and even romantic.Tell Gang San, Gang San said, are you stupid, what if you lost something in your own shop?Lin Feng suddenly felt something was wrong.

I met Han Han again on the Internet, and Han Han asked Lin Feng if he made any progress now?Lin Feng said that the two of them were still living in peace, but he still couldn't find the feeling, and the only thing he felt a little bit of meaning was called immoral by Gang San.

Han Han laughed loudly, saying that this person is very interesting, but this is really not good!

Han Han asked again, do you still miss Dapeng?

Lin Feng sighed.

Han Han said that it is not so easy to forget, just don't compare two people in your heart.

Lin Feng was speechless for a while, saying that it was just a comparison, no matter what Jiaoyang did, he would think of what Jia Zhipeng would do if he was around...

Now I am speechless when I switch to Chinese and Chinese.