bedside calendar

Sitting on the bed, Lin Feng looked at his watch and it was already 11:30, but he was still not sleepy at all, and he didn't know what to do.In the afternoon, Gangsan called. He was rambling about nothing serious, but he just wanted to confirm that Lin Feng was okay.Lin Feng felt like a mirror in his heart, and he chatted for a long time before hanging up.Gang San didn't persuade Lin Feng anything, and Lin Feng also knew why he couldn't be happy and couldn't sleep. He wanted to persuade himself not to do this, but at night he couldn't sleep again. Looking at the deserted room and the cold bed, there was nothing but My own home... Really, alas!

I used my mobile phone to log on to Q, and wasted my time in the group. After 11 o'clock, the number of people talking in the group became less and less, and Lin Feng didn't know what to do!There are echoes in my heart, I am a little afraid that I will be alone at night like this, the more I think about Dapeng, the more I want to go crazy!

Glancing at the desk calendar at the head of the bed, Lin Feng reached out to take it, and flipped through it page by page from November, like a movie in his mind. Of course, the clearest thing was what happened in the past few days, and then the day since October. Where did Peng take him to taste and what did Dapeng take him that day, he was excited like a child, and another day he ran out silently to eat, it was freshwater fish that Lin Feng was not used to... The corners of Lin Feng's mouth turned up little by little, "This foodie!"

Turning forward, September, August, July... many days to mark.Lin Feng slowed down the movements of his hands, and dug out the events of those days from the depths of his memory, and there were events that had not been marked but had memories... His empty heart was slowly being filled!Until I turned to the penultimate page, it was February 9. By the way, February 8th was New Year’s Eve, and February 7th was the first day of the new year. Oh, the Spring Festival in 2015——

The small shops on this street have posted notices of closing time for the Chinese New Year at the door since childhood, and they also started walking home since childhood. Lin Feng is not in a hurry, his parents have long since left, and they are closed. In fact, there is nothing to do at home, Jia Zhipeng also went home, and he was alone for the Chinese New Year.I also bought new year's goods, I bought whatever I saw, fish, meat, eggs, dried fruits, blessing characters, Spring Festival couplets, clothes, shoes and socks... even window grilles, I bought them when I encountered them, and I was in no hurry to buy them. .During the few days of the Spring Festival, most of the people in the market would go home, and Lin Feng even prepared some green vegetables.

Most of the small shops along the street will not open on New Year's Eve, and the rest will be closed at noon. Fengzi is not in a hurry. After eating at noon, he will clean up the inside and outside of the small shop. It will be 16 o'clock in the afternoon and write down his mobile phone number It was pasted on the wall next to the door, and it was marked that "the Spring Festival is closed until the fourth day of the new year, and the fifth day is open normally. If necessary, you can call", and then the rolling shutter door was lowered.

Zhao Chunlei was determined to go home during the Chinese New Year, Lin Feng wondered what Peng Gang was doing, why not call the two of them to be company for the New Year together.

Before preparing dinner, Lin Feng called Peng Gang, "Gang San, are you home?"

"Yeah, I'm back, what's the matter?" Gang San answered the phone and yawned, took a nap in the afternoon and prepared to watch the night.

"Oh, oh, let's just go back...it's okay, what can I do? Just ask." Lin Feng raised his eyebrows, and he knew from Gangsan's voice that going home might not be as smooth as he wanted.

"If you want something to do, just say, you don't know about my family. It doesn't matter if you go home or not for the New Year. It doesn't matter if I'm alone." It was fine at the time of the divorce, but then the family didn't know where he lived with a man , the attitude is the same as it is now, he didn't officially come out, but everyone knows that although the family didn't kick Gang San out, it's not much better, you come back when you go home, and no one calls you if you don't go home When I came back, I lived in such a tepid way for so many years.

"I'm just alone, so I'll just ask you. If you come here before you come home, let's make dumplings for the festival, nothing else." Lin Feng also knew the situation in Gangsan's family, but Gangsan's still counted. There are family members, right?

"I haven't been back for several years. Come back this year to take a look. Next year, I will spend it with you next year." Gang San is also very cold towards his family, but he still misses him if he doesn't go home, so he only goes home every two or three years.Even if the parents are still there, it is estimated that if the second elder is gone, it is impossible for the brothers to move around.

"...Hey, come on, you, it's not easy to go home, let's celebrate the New Year with your family!" As he spoke, Lin Feng had already put the dried fruit in the fruit plate and put it on the small coffee table.He also knew that Gangsan was panicked when he returned home for the new year, and he would be back after almost the first day of junior high school.

"It's the same thing when I come back, who wants to talk to me?" Gang San can only talk to people in the circle, who else can understand?

"Okay, okay, no matter what, I'm still my own mother, I don't force you, just be content!" Lin Feng thinks that Gang San is fine, he has seen people who are kicked out of the house directly, and also sent to the mentally ill at home. Those in the hospital, and those who grounded Guan’s family...

Not only Lin Feng, but many people know that the family of origin is incomprehensible to most gays. Although China has launched the third edition of "Chinese Mental Disease Diagnostic Criteria" (CCMD-2001) in the "Chinese Psychiatric Society" since 3 , to remove homosexuality from the classification of mental diseases, which means that the Chinese Medical Association no longer regards homosexuality as a disease.Maybe!The point is but, but there are still psychiatric hospitals admitting homosexuals. The reason for admission is: sexual preference disorder.

"Yeah, that's to come back to see my parents." Gang San was very depressed.

"Okay, let's help make dumplings!" Lin Feng heard that Gang San was getting more and more angry, and advised him to go with his mother, but he didn't say a word, I don't even have a mother, You are content!Although he didn't say it, Gang San also understood it.

Gang San went home to see his mother, Lin Feng couldn't find anyone else, so let's celebrate the New Year by himself, setting off firecrackers and eating dumplings is of course unavoidable, and one can't treat himself slowly.

In the afternoon, I closed the store and bought a lot of things. It's Chinese New Year, and it's another year.

Keeping the New Year's Eve is actually quite boring without anyone to accompany you. The New Year is passed normally, and the New Year's Eve is not kept.Lin Feng planned to cook a dish at night, grill a piece of fish, have a drink by himself, and make dumplings while watching the Spring Festival Gala. When the dumplings are wrapped, he can eat them at any time, and sleep when he is sleepy. There is no need to wait for midnight. There is only such a little benefit for people-freedom!

After dinner, the fillings for the dumplings have been adjusted, and the noodles have been reconciled. It’s still early, so I don’t want to make dumplings too early (northern dumplings pay attention to thin skin and lots of filling. The fatal weakness of such dumplings is that they can’t be held. , wrap it up and cook it out as soon as possible, otherwise it will collapse), look at the time, the Spring Festival Gala has not yet started, Lin Feng is a little bored, turn on the computer and click □□, thinking of wishing friends and netizens a new year, thinking After thinking about it, I didn’t have anything special to say, so I typed a paragraph: "Happy Chinese New Year, Happy Chinese New Year, Lin Feng is here to wish you and your whole family a happy New Year!" After copying it, I sent it to netizens one by one. When I met acquainted friends, I just replaced "you" with the name of the person and their family members, and I felt a little boring after posting more than a dozen. I was just thinking about whether to keep posting, when suddenly a profile picture changed from gray to colorful, and at the same time jumped to On the top, Lin Feng's heart suddenly warmed up, it was Jia Zhipeng's head portrait!

Lin Feng involuntarily raised the corners of his mouth, feeling very comfortable in his heart, and continued to do the extremely boring things happily.It's funny again, isn't this a curse?Isn't this obviously a greeting to the whole family?Hahaha……

Looking at Jia Zhipeng's profile picture, Lin Feng suddenly felt that he had a lot to say, but what should he say?To be honest, Jia Zhipeng is not particularly handsome, nor is he particularly good, nor is he particularly special.Really, you can never find the ordinary in the crowd, but Lin Feng just can't tell Jia Zhipeng's mood when he sees it.No matter how unbearable the mood is, I can't stop thinking about Jia Zhipeng, but once I think of Jia Zhipeng, the iceberg in my heart can melt into a river of spring water.When Jia Zhipeng walked to Tianya, Lin Feng's heart followed him to Tianya. He just wanted to go outside Tianya with Jia Zhipeng and find a place where there was no one. Far better than the best scenery in the world!No matter how hard it is, as long as Jia Zhipeng smiles warmly, all seasons will no longer be a problem, whether it is cold winter or hot summer, one step into the warm sun of April, Lin Feng's heart will feel like a spring breeze in an instant.

Really, really hopeless, knowing that Jia Zhipeng is unlikely to say anything to himself even if he is online, but just seeing Jia Zhipeng's profile light up makes him feel good, not to mention people didn't see it, even the word fuck I didn't even send it, Lin Feng already felt good, don't want it!

Lin Feng was like a mirror in his heart. Although Jia Zhipeng didn't say anything, he actually said everything when he lit his head.

That means - I am here!

I am not by your side, I just leave my heart with you.You will not celebrate the New Year alone, you will be with me.

An hour could have been so fast, Lin Feng stroked Jia Zhipeng's head with his fingers, and said to the computer: It's eight o'clock, let's watch the Spring Festival Gala together!

Lin Feng was watching the Spring Festival Gala while making dumplings by hand. From time to time, he glanced at Jia Zhipeng's profile picture on the computer and smirked: I will make dumplings for you when you come back, just the stuffing for today, no, no, mackerel Well, that's your favourite!

"Why do you like mackerel dumplings so much? Many people from inland areas are not used to eating sea fish. If they say it's fishy, ​​don't you feel it at all?" Lin Feng murmured. How many times have I ordered mackerel dumplings.

Click on the Q on the mobile phone, it can't be seen that the other party is online or not, Lin Feng clicks on Jia Zhipeng's profile picture, closes it again, opens it and closes it again, can't say anything, Lin Feng knows.

Put down the desk calendar and turn to the current month: November 2015, today is November 11th, the day after Jia Zhipeng left.